#I've looked for this thing everywhere

[nullbutler]

something something identity something something culture

#jumblr #jewblr #i dunno if this is the kind of thing that really belongs on my silly blog but ive been wanting to draw it for two days #this is just about feeling connection to culture #and i dunno i know the whole 'is judaism considered a race' thing is iffy as all hell #because it IS an ethnic group and i see it in basically every bloodline person ive met #there is a familiar look #our grandparents and babies look the exact same #of course converts are lovely and welcome and i'm not gatekeeping #but so long of just being like 'who am i? ah. i am nobody #i am a white girl from california who knows nothing of nothing' is a drastic understatement #i've dealt with anti semitism since i was a child #it has been everywhere #not many people understand it because its just...well we dont look that different (to the people who matter) (bad people can tell right awa #the immeasurable trauma of the holocaust and the weight of our grandparents and everything else is just so crushing...AND we look caucasian #is there no fate worse??? lmao #not saying i'm not caucasian of course i think two things can be true at once #but i think meeting someone and realizing we have the same face and with it faced the same hardship is really really meaningful #because to just say i'm some 'stupid white girl from california' is a butchering undercut of everything i actually am

[paranoidpoltergeist]

He's going on a trip.

#sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sth #shadow plush #these things look so funny #ive been blowing up my friends phones with pictures of him in random places lol #also please ignore the like paint on my seat the previous owner had it everywhere #I've scrubbed them a million times and it just refuses to move #I got him from target btw

[trashpandacraft]

so you may recall that we have a number of spinning wheels, because of who we are as people and also because i love them. and we decided after buying those that we were done, unless the perfect castle-style wheel appealed.

you may also recall that my most beloved wheel is the pipy, made by philip poore in 1972:

the pipy was far and away the most common wheel that poore made, but there was...another wheel. a castle wheel. called the wendy.

when i was gift-shopping for upcoming birthdays the other day, i was on ebay, and one of my previous searches popped up. and i opened it, obviously, just to see, and because i like looking at spinning wheels and seeing what people are selling.

well, there were nine items on ebay that matched that search, one of which was a wendy wheel, made in 1975, not terribly expensive, and less than 50k from my house.

so you can probably guess what happened next.

...ok, actually what happened is that i waffled about it and made sad noises for a bit, and my wife spent an hour or so whispering do it, do it, and then the obvious happened.

so now for real we have our (probably) last wheel (for now)! and buddies, lemme tell you, she's absolutely majestic. she's so small that if you take her apart, i'm pretty sure she'd fit into a carry-on-sized suitcase. she's so small that if i, a normal-to-tall-sized human person stand next to her, the top of the drive wheel is under my knee.

she also has a delightfully unusual tension system! frame flyers were apparently (relatively) briefly popular in new zealand, and honestly, i kinda dig it?

the rod is actually in two pieces, and they're connected by the threaded ball. turn the ball in one direction, and the upper part of the rod moves slightly further out of the ball; turn it in the other direction, and the rod moves deeper into the ball. this changes the tilt of the flyer, moving it slightly closer to or further from the drive wheel, and thus adjusting the tension.

the flyer's slightly cracked, so right now i'm using the single flyer across both wheels, but i'm talking to more experienced people to figure out how best to repair/replace it. other than that, though, she's in amazing condition—it's clear she was treasured, but equally clear that she wasn't used. (there was a giant clump of spiderweb in the orifice, and don't think that wasn't an unpleasant surprise.) but i think we're more than happy to use her enough to make up for the years of disuse.

oh, and in the picture looking down, see that little hole in the frame, just at the bottom of the image? it's so you can screw a block of wood onto the frame and convert her to scotch tension, if you'd like.

she came with her original paperwork, featuring information about how to prepare wool, spin, and knit it, which is also rather charming.

this concludes the most recent (and probably final) episode of 'slightly odd spinning wheels that are older than i am that i have bought for a song'. i know i've said it before, but if you have the chance to play with vintage wheels, please do give it a go. sometimes they're just so-so, but sometimes you find absolute treasures that were made by masters of the craft, and then—hypothetically—you own four of them that collectively have still cost you less than the price of buying one (1) ashford traditional.

#spinning #hand spinning #handspinning #spinning wheels #fiber arts #fibre arts #fibrecraft #i really cannot overstate how much i love the poore wheels #they're just so incredibly thoughtfully made #and well made #and absolutely beautiful #anyhow heart eyes emoji you know? #also i want to be clear that there's no shade at ashford here! #i've used them and they're nice wheels! #i don't love them but i don't love a lot of things #i don't love louëts either and i've owned one #it's just that ashfords are widely available and i know what they cost #because literally everywhere sells them #and i'm lazy and don't want to go look up what a kromski or whatever costs #smartest raccoon i know #also special shoutout to my wife for 100% enabling this purchase #like they'll also benefit since now we have more wheels #but i don't know that i would've done it without the urging #even though it's exactly what i've been dreaming of #so that was nice of them

[as-you-think]

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#why has my head been such a mess lately? #I've had breakdowns every day this week and there's no sign of it getting any better #I just feel so worthless and unlovable all the time now #I can't stop comparing myself to everyone else and picking apart all of the things that I'm worse at #I feel like a fuckup and a loser and I genuinely can't comprehend why anyone even associates with me #and it's making me feel so lonely #god I'm so lonely #I have plenty of friends and partners and amazing people everywhere now #but I feel like I'm on the outside looking in most of the time #It's really getting to me and I know I have to make a change or do something about it soon #I can't take it much longer

[dangerousdan-dan]

I invited a friend over and the moment he stepped into my room he said "wow, this is like a geek shrine" and I'm not sure if that was meant as a compliment or not

#to give you a visual: i have books and comics everywhere. my walls are covered in prints and posters from videogames and dc and other stuff #i also have figurines lying around along with other weird things #and the pièce de résistance: the skulls #(they're not real. most of them are made of clay but still) #he also seemed fascinated by the fact I still have CDs #i think it was like a museum visit for him. we were supposed to play videogames but he found his surroundings more entertaining i guess xD #but this also made me wonder about how popular the “minimalist” aesthetic is and how now it's “weird” to have stuff you enjoy in your space #like it's immature or something #all these trinkets make me happy so I'm keeping them forever. thank you :) #“but you're an adult. why do you still have posters and toys??” because i don't want to be boring like you #(< not something my friend said but something I've heard before) #besides look at it this way. if hundreds of years from now an anthropologist finds my stuff #they'll think I'm the most interesting btch in town #what would they think about your minimalist space??? what objects could tell them the story of who you were and what you loved?? #dan is rambling again #(tbh dan is a little tipsy too)

[modern-inheritance]

Getting Snippy

Someone's sleep deprived, pissed off, looking for a distraction, and just witnessed Eragon go through two seizures during blades training. Gee, I wonder who that could be!

(not Brom, he's at the bottom of a bottle somewhere because he's having his own undisclosed issues that we will indeed one day go over but it is not this day.)

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“I want to help with finding a cure for Eragon’s seizures.”

If she hadn’t known them for her entire life Arya would have missed it. Something flickered across Oromis’s face. Glaedr’s deep breaths hitched for millisecond. 

Disbelief colored her voice. “You’re not even looking for one, are you?”

The ancient Rider placed his pen down and stifled the sigh that was building in his throat. “Their training is taking more time away from–”

“Oromis, what the FUCK!” Arya slammed her hands down on the table. How! How could they be so selfish! How could they stand there and watch Eragon, a kid, barely old enough to fucking drink, suffer through that day after day, destroying himself for them. For a war he didn’t choose. Watch Saphira try to protect him, fail every time, blame herself. 

Oromis’ grey eyes flashed with thunderclouds, his voice sharp in warning. “You forget yourself, Dröttningu.”

The younger elf shoved off the table at the use of her inherited title and flicked her hand in a very old, very recognizable elvish gesture of insult. Her words came in a snapped, exasperated snarl. “Oh, BITE ME!” 

Oromis’ eyebrows shot up. Glaedr’s building growl was interrupted by a choked snort before it started again.

#eragon #inheritance cycle #the cyclists #the world of eragon #the inheritance cycle #Modern Inheritance #Ket's Modern Inheritance Cycle #modern inheritance stories #ladies and gentlemen and everything inbetween we have here a wip of a wip #there's parts of this EVERYWHERE right now #first i wanted flashbacks and then i want a reason for them and then i wanted more pain and then i think i may have a problem but #look there are several things i've wanted to hit in the 'where's that scar from' checklist lately and yall are gonna get them eventually #soon #i hope #arya #arya drottningu #oromis #glaedr #brom

[slippery-minghus]

watercolor progress!

#second painting ever! #been thinkin a lot about the powerlines here and how they're everywhere #it was never a thing where i lived before here and even though i've been here 4yrs i never really paid them any mind? #until a few months ago i was on a walk in a wealthier part of town and the person i was with commented about how different it looked #without the power lines #and i met a watercolor artist who paints a lot of cranes over forest landscapes and like. i get it #they're part of nature here #like the view outside my window right now (while waiting for this layer to dry lol) #is trees and a dozen phone line wires #outta take a picture so i can paint it ;) #narrating my life #my art

[claitea]

thinking abt buying either nier automata, hi-fi rush or cosmic wheel sisterhood on steam, can anyone vouch for any of these and help me make a decision

#clai speaks #i really want to take advantage of the winter sales and buy one more thing alongside katamari #hate having to be RESPONSIBLE with my money why Cant i just buy everything on my wishlist at once </3 #nier i've been interested in for Years bc i see it everywhere. big fan of 2b and 9s i want to meet them #hi fi rush looks right up my alley with its visuals and characters #cosmic wheel is also super intriguing i'd like to mess with making cards and stuff #shoves my unplayed cult of the lamb aitsf and spiritfarer under the rug. i need to get more games

[afieldinengland]

thinking about oliver francis reeder phd director of communications to the opposition again

#and the government eventually of course. as always i am deadly serious when i say i think ollie reeder got the party back in power #because it is the longer and the lesser and more perpetual murder and also because i believe he was very very good at his job indeed #he learned from the best. and outgrew him #the new political animal demanded by the post-spin post-truth age is a slick little turncoat with no spine or principles #as chris addison himself said if you look at the cabinet– any cabinet– ollie is everywhere these days. nothing behind the eyes because #spinelessness means flexibility. and he can manoeuvre around all the bear traps that men like malcolm set because he watched him lay them #helped him. lay in them as bait. dear god. ollie reeder as spin doctor in chief and sick boycaesar is a terrifying thing indeed #as i've said i think he must have been so much worse because he had no morals. the fact he didn't know when to stop as a churlish #undergraduate of a spad became the fact he didn't give a fuck about stopping as machiavel-elect. he'd have terrorised mr tickel himself #the impact of one man. or bringing out what was already there like a babe in the belly #stand in the dock of the inquiry malcolm tucker and shake thy gory locks at him #the thick of it

[synthshenanigans]

do you just follow every single person in the cccc fandom that makes art or what

Honestly I probably do, if not I THINK I follow them but forgot to ever actually click the button

#there's a lotta cool peeps out there & I like to see their stuff & help support all of it :} #if you make hms art or like anything cj related I've likely seen it & at least liked it. since at least prolly late April or mid May #also if you're talking about how I reblog or recognize a lotta different people #I literally just scroll through the recents posts that have the cj tag lol. even then i miss stuff so i just look around sometimes idk #im like a crow but instead of collecting shiny things i reblog cool art from anywhere & everywhere #i like art lol #very tasty & cool :} #moss post

[aeide-thea]

poäng appreciation post 💛

#i forget if i said but Baby Sister and i stopped off at ikea on the way back from picking her up at the bus stop on monday #and finally replaced the ruined-by-a-succession-of-cats-(in-ways-both-unsightly-and-gross) Accent Chair in the living room #with a poäng rocker (bc the shape is a little more interesting and less instantly recognizable than the regular chair) in birch (my beloved #also they make fancy tufted cushions for it now! wish they came in more colors but it's a real improvement on sad options past #and anyway it's like. now you can actually sit here in the morning and look out the window at the extremely beautiful view #and the chair actually supports you??? like i could see down the road trying to work out some kind of custom cushioning that's thicker #but the shape of the frame is so ergonomic for me that it's genuinely quite comfortable regardless. bentwood exocorset… #anyway. not a very original post but i just DO really love ikea #like yes it's a mixed bag but also honestly if you're buying particle board— #(i was going to say 'and expecting it to hold up' but. honestly i think it's just. if you're buying particle board period) #—that might be on you. #(like. if you're being pressed in from all sides by budget constraints and immediate need and no accessible better-made used alternatives— #obviously you do what you have to. but it's like buying pleather—you know‚ or should‚ that the material is going to disintegrate.) #but the things ikea makes with decent materials are remarkably well-designed and affordable for what they are‚ has been my sense? #you just gotta shop carefully but like. that's true literally everywhere. #anyway. in conclusion i love my new buddy with its clean lines. …do people name chairs ever. #i've never before had the urge but this one feels like a little assembly-line friend that deserves its own identity. like a star wars clone #(lol what if i gave it a little nametag somewhere hidden. secret identity talisman 4 chairpal.) #(& yes i promise i'm as aware of the‚ uh‚ itself-ness of this tag spiral as you are. :) ) #domesticities

[shadowed-yet-vibrant]

Super cool and healthy that the only way I can stomach having sex is getting so drunk I can hardly comprehend my surroundings.

#didn't happen today or recently but will again soon #it's a strategic game of timing my drinks around when I know they'll want to fuck #'they' is not one person obviously... #things aren't great in my head lol #I would have called myself a sex-neutral ace until the whole 'getting raped multiple times by my boss' thing #now I've got trauma and self-loathing #'just say no' well yeah we see how that turned out for me huh #easier to just be giggly and compliant #makes it less painful #keep small packets of lube in your purse and apply shortly beforehand so they don't know you're dry as a bone #focus on feelings and sensations everywhere else #let the alcohol numb the sensation where it matters and pay attention to the texture of the sheets #makes it easy... makes it go by quickly... don't look at the clock #I hope [name] knows he ruined me #I think he'd like that

[seithr]

Randomly remembered the half-reason i call my oc-verse by the name it has while laying in bed. One-half of the reason i still knew, but I had forgotten what had truly, really cemented it jointly until now

(it was a song from my favourite band I haven't listened to in a while.)

(the song fit so well at the time, still does, that i needed to hold onto it for the main protagonists forever, by partially naming their story in reference.)

Does this explanation make any sense? Does anyone know why I'm tearing up remembering this. Aahh

#(I'm emotional because I've been feeling bad about it all lately. enjoying things I make I mean—art or ocs or frivilous things.) #(So remembering that song and when it came out. That I couldn't see them in person. But i held onto it my own way. As something I loved) #(Something I still do love a lot... Parts of me saying no—you don't hate it. No. I'll help you remember more. I'm a little misty about it.) #The song is just The Killers - Run For Cover. I couldn't see them in person all those years ago—family went without me. #All my new oc rework with Zin and Hunter and Caia were like a year old or so. #It's a little silly. But the character Zin's derived from was a lightning mage so I stuck to it—I like monhun's zinogre for what its worth #So there's recurring theme and imagery. Thunder's not lightning but the sound and the feeling after the flash the flame and strike. #There's that meaningful thought—the story is the aftermath of a big tragedy. It matches what I like in monsters and other chars. #And at that time—my favourite band I missed out on puts out a really good song I download everywhere and it goes like: #He motioned me to the sky/ I heard heaven and thunder cry/ Run for cover/ Run while you can baby don't look back/ You gotta run for cover #And it goes on of course. The rest of the song's still really good. There's more that fits but point is; More evocative imagery. #So there. Why my bundle of OCs—Zinadia Hunter and Caia's story—is called Thunder 20XX. minus the 20XX. That's tongue-in-cheek #About some day I'll manage to make something tangeable or broadly shareable with them. I guarentee this century! #Thunder... oh my darling Thunder. Eight years man. More than that if I really want to count pre-rework INTO the complete original work. but #I like that it's definably 8. I like that I remembered I've always loved them a lot. Always been my thing to lean on even by name... #I need to get to sleep. Ive gotten a little more emotional over one song than I'd rather regularly be. Give it a listen maybe? Goodnight #Armour clanking #I need an oc tag #What have you gathered to report to your progenitors?🎶Are your excuses any better than your senator's🎶He held a conference #and his wife was standing by his side🎶He did her dirty but no-one died🎶 #I saw Sonny Liston on the street last-night black-fisted and strong singing🎶Redemption song🎶 #He motioned me to the sky🎶I heard heaven and thunder cry🎶RUN FOR COVER #What are you waiting for—a kiss or an apology?🎶You think by now you'd have an A in toxicology🎶 #It's hard to pack the car when all you do is shame us🎶Even harder when the dirtbag's famous🎶 #I saw my mother on the street last night all pretty and strong singin🎶The road is long🎶 #I said 'Mama I know you tried!'🎶But she fell on her knees and cried🎶RUN FOR COVER #Just run for cover - you've got nothin left to lose...

[nanoa1foryou]

Henri Piispanen has been voice acting for 25 years? He is 30.

#henri piispanen #finland truly is a place. they find one (1) kid with some skill in voice acting and he gets every role ever #for literally teh rest of his life apparently #looking at the list of things he has done is like. oh yeah. I've heard his voice everywhere. cool #windows95man

[moontiko]

For some reason everytime I talk about a project I end up abandoning it but I'm so proud of how this place has come up (and that I've managed to give a story to basically every object!! hopefully I'll be able to share the story lol) that I can't help but share these photos !!

house 🔗🏡

#may look like your standard house but I've managed to make one of those things that when you look back you see signs EVERYWHERE #I really want to tell this story!!!! #yes this is for nsb shut up #I'll take as long as I want #!!! #also penny doesn't exist anymore bc I wasn't happy w/ her and as I tried to fix her I ended up w/ someone else entirely 😅 #nsb #my builds

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 9: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

Yesterday's poll helped The Adventurer build his raft...

"After two hours of fumbling about with tangled rope and tree branches, he's finally produced something that at least.. mostly, looks like a normal raft. He attaches a few extra flowers for decoration, loops his cat into a makeshift safety harness (so they can't get lost in the water), then gives everything one last check before deciding it's all ready to go, nervously pushing off into the river...

Surprisingly, it floats just fine. As long as he doesn't make any sudden movements, the raft doesn't threaten to flip over, or even wobble nearly as much as he expected. There's no way to really steer or paddle, but he does have a large stick he occasionally uses to push himself away from rocks or other obstacles. Luckily, the current is very slow at this section of the river, and hopefully will remain so for his entire trip.

Just lazily floating around, he estimates he should travel about 4 hours to fully get past the blocked road and end up at the next area on his map. Though the raft is too small (and too lumpy) to comfortably lay on, he can still recline slightly, bathing in the near afternoon sun, watching the scenery slowly drift by....

About 30 minutes into his first ever sailing adventure, he feels the water shift as a larger boat comes near. He can't see it clearly yet, but it seems to be nice - polished wood with painted sections and little flags draped along the sides, presumably some sort of actual steering and propelling mechanisms, and about 10 people lounging on the surface, maybe having some sort of party..? It's been very quiet so far, these are the first other travelers he's seen in the entire area today... Should he attempt to make contact with them? "

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Additional details -

Boat Make-up : Based on the results of the last poll (where people helped him make a boat by choosing the amount of materials) -- With 30% branches and 21% rope, there's only a 9% difference between them, so both are in pretty close amounts, which means there's a TON of rope. (normal ratio would be like 65% wood and 10% rope lol). I probably should have even added more, but it's so visually busy, just pretend there's extra rope wrapped under the boat too.

30% branch and 15% fabric means there's about half as much fabric as there is wood, which is also A LOT for just a little side decoration, so I made the flag huge, and a square of fabric for the cat to sit on. 10% berries means that there's enough ink for 1/3 of the wood to be entirely covered in purple designs. The least amount was the twigs and leaves for padding, which would cover a little under 1/3 of the wood (laid on top). then a little over 1/3 of the space is flowers for decor, which are just kind of sitting in a pile on top, with a few actually tied down onto the flag or other areas.

Since the branches were pretty close in percentage to all other things (not like 80% branches and 20% all other materials), the raft is fairly small, as not much wood was used.

main goal: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has

#paventure posting #polls #choose your own adventure #hghnhh... yes.. this is very late lol #I'm trying for every other day at least if not daily but.. you know lol.. Life #It snowed here which like YEAAAAAAA my favorite weather ever!! but it's also always annoying because of transportation #I hate how car-centric america is and how it's no necessary to drive to get places #I loooooove the snow so much but I also hate driving in it or anyone I know or any of my roomates or anything having to drive #in it. because the day after it snows everything always freezes into a flat sheet of ice at night and nobody can drive on it #because this area is not used to it and it's very hilly so then it just ends up being A Thing where everyone gets stranded on the #road side or cant make it up a hill and people are just out there sliding around anyway risking their lives #because everyting is always like a 20-30 minute drive away and most poeple cant just walk to their work or the market #and the public transport system is not robust or reliable enough to get them around instead. #which lukcily I dont have to deal with too much but every time it gets really snowy and icy I still get nervous and unfocused and #distracted by the threat of the possibility of me or my roomates having to go somewhere lol #and then also I'm busy outside because I spend time in the snow on and off through the day so I get distracted by that too #I've probably walked an hour a day or more the past few days just because I HAVE to go out and be in the snow #I love the feeling when it's like 26 degrees outside and it's windy and yersterday's snow is like blowing everywhere in little clouds #and there's like ice on your face and you can just plop down into a pile of snow and lay on your back looking up at the sky #Which I do try to be careful but I probably will stil lget frostbite at some point in my life. I take it seriously and try to bundle up but #I cannot resist just being out in the cold. If not for the aspect of trasnportation woes and the occasional power outage it would #be paradise. I think because I'm so warm natured I just feel less sick. less achey. less dizzy and weird when I'm cold #Whatever health things I have going on with me it seems to help them. And is just beautiful and perfect #ANYWAY.. I finally focused enough to get one of these done. I'm still trying to work on other things and ease back into a normal #schedule if I ever can.. be productive for once. The past month or two has been so weird and hard to accomplish things because I just #keep having physical issue flare ups or schedule disruptions or etc. hhrghghh #but here he is! on his boat! Still trying to get to the Innkeeper's brother's abandoned castle ruins lol. but it was mentioned #it'll be a long journey. he probably has to make it a few more days before he's close to there (if he even makes it there) #It's all part of the journey!