#I was convinced that if I ciuld talk to Gwenllian From The Raven Cycle I could appeal to her judgement and mercy.

[e-vultures]

had like horrible horrible nausea and stomach pain and vomiting for 8 solid hours last night and for the first 3 of them, leaned alone against my toilet feeling like I was being Punished By God, I had the. like. the disco elysium mural text playing over and over in my head??? I Have Not Played Disco Elysium. my brain was just like [very intently] you there. boy. true love is possible / in the next world / for other people and I was like bhBlehchchh aug h howw doesdthis help .me right now

#emetophobia / #disco elysium #I GUESS? #also later when I was in A Different Bathroom almost incoherent w pain like begging 2 throw up or something to Get Rid Of It #I was convinced that if I ciuld talk to Gwenllian From The Raven Cycle I could appeal to her judgement and mercy. #because I'd just helped get her out of a cave and unbound her wrists and all that. obviously #so I ???? waited until my dad left the room and then was like #Gwenllian wait is that her name?? I think so. anyway I was like Please Help Me What Do I Do. I Just Want This To Be Over #I Rescued You From The Cave. Please. How Do I Get The Sickness Out Of Me #I believe I said this aloud btw. alone in a bathroom leaned over a plastic tub. #anyway. I forgot how I get when I'm sick and by ''how I get'' what I mean is Completely Unable To Separate Reality From Not. so that's fun #she didn’t answer btw. no one did. :/ #creaking #ask to tag #emetophobia #emetophobia cw #idk man I wanna be safe. also I fucking hate throwing up it is like the worst sensation in the entire fucking world it puts me on the verge #of a panic attack every time. #so. NOT A GREAT NIGHT I WOULD SAY #ok bye back to lying on these blankets on this linoleum and praying to the tummy gods