#I haven't cried this hard in a while

[sirrenhd]

sits and sobs

#luis serra #leon kennedy #resident evil #resident evil 4 #resident evil fanart #fanart #sirren draws #haven't cried over a character this hard since arcane #it's been hours i'm still absolutely heartbroken #here's a little something while i continue to sit and sob

[scalemodelarbysreplica]

im going to eat drywall

#when he finally loses his most important tie to his old life #he decides to die as he lived #fUCK #honest to god i haven't cried this hard about a podcast in a while #tsv #tsv spoilers

[whsprings]

therapy was rough but not in the ways I expected. C says I need more support. she offered to see me more often, but she wants to see me in person (probably to track my weight) and doesn't have evening availability other than the spot I already have every other week. she also suggested seeing my dietitian more often or attending (that word just autocorrected to fattening 🙃) virtual meal support sessions that the office has. her last suggestion was to find a new therapist that has sessions that work with my schedule better. as soon as she said that, my brain took it as her giving up on me even though that is literally not what is happening at all. I told her that and she said her suggestion was literally just about scheduling... but idk!!

#we also talked about other things and I cried which I haven't done for a while and was kind of unexpected #but then i was too emotionally full and couldnt get myself to finish my dinner #and that pissed me off because this literally should not be this hard at this point #cw// ed

[alchemiclee]

there's so many popular repetitive video games that seem so boring to play, but then I watch people stream them with a group of friends, and they make it seem so fun just because the people playing are so lively and goofy and funny. I want that. I want to be part of a group of streamers or at least group of friends that make receptive and otherwise boring games fun and hilarious. a group that's not boring, serious, competitive. one that cares more about having fun and laughing than completing the video game objective 😭

#like the currenr one lethal company #it doesnt look fun at all and looks like it would get boring fast. UNLESS you have hilarious friends to laugh with #which i lack. i dont have enough friends and most people i know and would play co op games are too serious and boring #people probably think the same of me. im generally quiet and confused when playing games and bad at them #usually people get mad at me for being bad or goofing around so its never fun. but the fun people never invite me #probably because they thjnk im the boring one. but i absorb energy like a sponge!!!!! be silly and funny and i will too! #i really need a group of people with great silly fun energy who i csn feed off of. i miss laughing. i need to laugh. i never laugh anymore😐 #lee rambles #every time i tried playing with people i know I honestly got so bored. I feel bad because they're the only ones nice enough to play with me. #but they're too serious and not funny. so I haven't played with them in like a year at least and am afraid to ask lmao #why do the silly fun people avoid me and only the serious boring people would agree...i need an energy boost #i need a person to be my battery. where do i get a battery #want to play l4d2 again. its been a while. its so hard to fill the lobby and the couple people that used to play with me arent funny 😅 #if i could get a group of silly funny weirdos together then id try lethal company. but i wont try with boring groups #there's so many games i bought to play with people and got ditched that could use a goofy group too. sighs. #why am i still rambling. i dont even have the energy to speak to multiple people at once and play a game #but maybe that's why i need a battery #anyway i kinda really miss doing silly goofy rp and regular gaming hasnt been able to replace the laughter that brought me 😭😭 #i need a good laugh. cant remember last time i laughed until i cried. laughing makes me feel good for a bit sighs. someone make me laugh pls

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #as much as I hate to see the social cinema grow as I get new followers. we're at a good and satisfying number. and I like that #also also also. I've introduced a friend to Hannibal (tv show) and he's loving it and I'm so happy cause none of #of my other friends have been able to stomach the body horror. so it's super cool to find someone to hype over it with #another random story that I genuinely can't remember if I said already. got told by a kid in minecraft that he's smiled a lot more around me #which. huge compliment. genuine honor to make people happy and smile and laugh #people don't laugh enough. we don't smile enough. be happy or die. and I'm too powerful to die. been there. haven't done that #cry and then laugh and then punch as hard as you can. #got to visit some of my favorite residents from the nursing home I first worked at. lotta new staff but my three favorite nurses are still #which is nice. I cried when I left that job because even though it crushed my soul I loved my coworkers and most of my residents. #I get why some healthcare workers grind themselves to the bone for the job. you're making such a huge difference in people's lives. #I tried but didn't have the fortitude for it. but it's nice to be able to go back and say hi to the friends I made and see how things are. #anyway. sorry for being weird like.. one or two weeks ago. I think things are settling out again. moving is rough but we're making it work #It's been a lot of Lear again lately. especially while being at my parents house. he doesn't mind being deadnamed as much sooo.... #idk. at least one of us is capable of surviving the dmv and the state medicaid website. heaven knows I can't manage. #trying to stop using him as a crutch for getting things done has just resulted in us not being able to get things done. #but I don't want to be someone else I want to be me. I don't want to be the armor I want to be the human inside. #I don't want to live defensively. pushing everyone away. I can't do that. #anyway. we're back home! and work is on the horizon. hopefully this job works out cause I don't want to have to apply for new jobs. #the hr rep is a man at this store and I immediately got set on edge and our voice dropped as I stepped back. #then we introduced ourselves with the wrong name and he got confused and I just felt stupid about it #but how am I supposed to know which name he's been told. he didn't even use our paperwork name. Anyway that was a disaster #but we're on track and embarrassment is not a setback but a feeling about the way things progress. and it is progress we're making

[clarabow-mp3]

oh mutuals it's been such a long day

#hours at a uni thing i don't even know how to describe it #hours waiting for taylor tickets online which turned into a last ditch attempt at lining up outside the ticketek office for an hour #it was cold and i was tired and hungry and i needed to pee the entire time #anyway i got so close to the end of the line and then they announced they only had the $900 or $1200 vip packages left #and so i gave up and i'm not proud of it but it's what happened #so i went to a burger place across the street and i cried in their bathroom and then i got dinner and now i'm going home #where i will reheat and eat my burger and then tell my dad i can't go to my cousin's baby shower tomorrow and then i will go to bed #maybe i'll watch a movie. maybe i'll book movie tickets! i haven't been in a while i still need to see spiderverse and no hard feelings. #anyway. it's been a long day. thank you for listening <3

[fitia]

Oh ok so I finally watched EEAAO. completely fucked me up.

#fitiaposting #haven't cried that hard watching a movie in a while #Also I saw spoilers for the sad scenes and they still ended me that's how you know they work

[youremyonlyhope]

Officially crying over sad Disney songs yay.

#there's more than just disney that's causing this cry but disney was the trigger #Ma Belle Evangeline hurt me enough already #When She Loved Me got it started. i didn't realize how hard that song would hit only a month after losing my grandma. #but. wow. i still had some tears and sadness built up that didn't come out yet. and i probably still have some too. #(leave it to toy story to make sadness come out months later. this has now happened twice in my life specifically relating to toy story) #then stupid me thought just riding the cry out and going to Dos Oruguitas was a good idea. no. NO. made me cry more. #though When She Loved Me was the harder of the cries. I can't even type that song name ugh that song should be illegal. #then I listened to Le Festin while reading the english lyrics since that song is bittersweet instead of just straight up sad #hoping it would uplift me and it helped but i'm still like. messed up. #doesn't help i had way too stressful of a day at work that made my anxiety go through the ROOF #different stress than my old job but still stressful since it triggered my ocd to make me literally freak out and shut down. #like i haven't felt that anxious in a LONG long time. so i already knew i was in a fragile emotional state. i brought this on myself. #tonight was not the night to listen to sad Disney songs but also i guess it was the perfect night #so good night i think this is my cue to go to bed

[fabulouslygaybean]

do you ever listen to the minecraft soundtrack and your heart is instantly filled with such strong longing that it's physically painful

#just. mice on venus. so many childhood memories. #just... reminds me of my cousins. i miss them a lot. #reminds me of summer days spent biking with one of them around the tiny town they all live in #we'd stay out till the sun started to set and then we'd come home and play minecraft while we waited for dinner #later we'd make a huge nest of blankets and pillows and stuffed animals and we'd talk about pokemon and space until we passed out right - #- next to each other. the windows were always open and all we could hear were crickets and summer air and soft breathing #i haven't felt comfort like that in years and years and i miss it so much #just. the comfort and familiarity of being young and not having a care in the world. falling asleep next to someone you've known for - #- years knowing that you'll be safe and warm and happy and that you'll wake up to a family that loves you so so so much #fuck. im crying now. its 3am and i should be asleep but a minecraft song made me think so hard that i cried. #i want to fall asleep knowing that ill be safe and that things will be okay in the morning. that my family will be okay and that the - #- world will keep spinning and that things will be okay. #i know that was repetitive but im kind of breaking down so i dont care. i just want to feel safe. #i haven't felt truly safe in years. im in a constant state of fight or flight because that's how ive needed to live for so long. its the - #- reason im still alive today. but god its exhausting. its so exhausting and it hurts so much. #its so selfish bc i KNOW other people have it so much worse but. god. i just want safety and love and consistency. #i want to wake up knowing my family is happy and safe and go to school without people yelling at me or throwing food at me anf i want to - #- come home to a house that isn't empty and i want to eat an actual dinner with my family and i want to be hugged and wished goodnight - #- before i go to bed without feeling lonely or empty or filled with an exhaustion that sleep can't fix

[tomtonktonic]

I- wow. What the fuck did I just watch?? Belos, the collector, king. What the hell was all of that????

#the owl house #king's tide #I THOUGHT THIS WAS A CHILDRENS SHOW???? #toh #spoilers #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers #i I haven't cried this hard due to a show in a long while

[warrenwaskilledbyadeer]

I'm so overwhelmed by life and everything right now that I just laid in bed and sobbed my way through the Cassandra episode of Stargate last night

#i haven't cried so hard in a while #i miss my aunt who showed me stargate originally and has passed away now #i want to be a mom #i want to care about and help somebody the way sam cares about and helps cassandra #i want to make a difference in somebody's life like that particularly a child #and i'm so scared always so scared #just me rambling #i scream into the void #stargate

[shapeshifterraccoon]

when the menu said the pizza had 'vegetables' on it, I expected it would probably be corn and peppers ect., you know, the usual stuff. what I did not expect was to see the frozen veggie mix of peas, carrots and cauliflower.

I am traumatized, deeply disturbed and will never be the same. whoever made this, I hate you and I hope you burn in hell!

#my disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined #I haven't cried that hard in a WHILE #it's fucking vile #I have never seen anything more disgusting in my life #I ate only the crust of the pizza and I'm throwing the rest away #because I literally can't eat it #it's inedible #this classifies as a hatecrime #pizza #food crimes #pretty sure that's a warcrime #it's legit just frozen vegetables dumped on pizza #i've been crying for hours

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[actuallysara]

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#i feel so sick rn and I haven't cried this hard in so long #can you tell I'm having a great day #just bawling my eyes out because both my mental and physical health are shit AND while on my period AND with 40°C out #and on top of that people won't leave me fcking alone #I'm SO PEACHY #to delete later #sara talks

[donferret]

#why does this song still hit so hard? #i thought i was over it all #haven't cried like that in a while #Spotify

[dcxdpdabbles]

DCxDP fan fic Idea: Danny Fenton's Ex

Danny wants to know that he did not go looking for a fight. He merely wanted to have some of the best hot dogs this side of the USA, in Tucker's words. The human world had changed a lot across differnt timelines but his best friend had assure him, this one was particually tasty.

He planned to pop in, hunt down the street cart filled with buns and meat, then pop out of Gotham. He was meant to visit for less than an hour at most.

He just happened to be at the wrong place and time. It really wasn't his fault! Danny had been minding his own business, using a paper map on the edge of a tall building (his phone had broken in the last ghost fight. Not that it would do any good since it wasn't connected to any living towers), squinting at the streets below, hoping to figure out where he was. The next thing he knew, an angry child leaped out at him with a sword.

Of course, he defended himself! The kid was doing some insane slashes in the air, and Danny had fought enough samurai ghosts to know not to underestimate how powerful a katana indeed was. He had been able to beat the child, encasing his arms in ecto-chains, after a full half hour of combat.

Danny had been dead tired- pun not intended- but just as he thought he was done, a second child had leaped out at him. This one carrying a bo-staff. It took another thirty minutes to beat this one, and just as he was gearing up for a lecture, a third child appeared.

She was wearing all purple and seemed to favor strong kicks. Danny had the bruise to prove it, but just as he could take her down—and stop the other two from escaping since they were attempting to do so—he was attacked by an actual shadow and her red bucket-head friend.

Now, those two were difficult to beat, especially when it was two vs. one. Shadow reacted as if she could predict all of his moves before he even made them, while Bucket Head made incredible shots with his guns covering her attacks.

Danny had already been expelled from his other two fights, so it was a miracle he was able to trick Shadow by allowing more of Phantom to bleed into his fighting style. She couldn't predict the dead!

He ended up on a roof with five children- okay, more like a child, two teenagers, and what could be the early twenties, but they were all young to him. Each was tied up securely with some of his own ecto-chains and glaring- he could feel the hate in their eyes even behind their masks- trying desperately to catch his breath.

"Oh boy, I'm not as young as I used to be. " He gasps between huffs. Maybe Sam was on to something when she lectured them for not having enough greens, normal exercise routines, or even taking vitamins. They really weren't teenagers anymore. "Ugh, I think I pulled something. I need to lie down..."

Just as Danny is allowing himself to slide to the floor, two more shadows jump at him. This time he's far too tired to dodge, and the blue one manages to land a drop kick to his chin. The force has Danny spinning in place, losing his balance, and slamming hard against the roof.

The tied-up children cheer, and if he wasn't a walking bruise right now, Danny would be half tempted to show them all a round two.

"Great Gatsby!" He cries out of reflex, rolling onto his back, ready to take a swing-

"Danny?" a new familiar voice cuts in. The sound is something Danny will never forget, even after all the years they have been apart. He used to fall asleep to that voice, muttering into his hair and warm arms wrapped around him, making promises never kept.

Danny whips his head around to see a man in a bat costume. He squits, studying the strong curve of a very familiar jaw and his voice-

"Wayne?" He blinks. Those lips- so familiar and different all in one- curve into a surprise, but please smile. Yes, that is definitely Bruce.

"Danny, I haven't seen you since-"

"You broke up with me through a letter on the hotel note-pad? A note-pad that I had to pay for since you touched it!?" Danny hisses, suddenly energized with pure, unadulterated rage. The man freezes.

"I, uh, see you're still upset about that." Wayne winces, shuffling on his feet- Bruce Wayne, the little human he found wandering the Infinite Realms, rescued, helped, trained, and had become human again to have the man dump him to "find himself."

Danny knew he found a lot of ladies on his self-discovery trip. He never forgave him. It has been embarrassing to have to return to the Realms to his friends' knowing eyes and his sister's sad shrug.

You knew a human could never understand or live with beings like us. We aren't like them anymore. She had told him. It was bond to end in disaster.

"What is happening?" The bow-staff kid asks

"I don't know, but I don't like it," Blue tells him.

Danny ignores them to glare at the man. "What the hell are you doing here, Wayne?"

Wayne frowns. "You used to call me Bruce."

"I used to do a lot of things, Wayne." Danny stands, gesturing to the group of people he has captured. "Can you kindly disappear again? I'm in the middle of something."

The man makes no move to leave. Instead, he tilts his head. "Those are my children."

"Of course they are." Danny rolls his eyes. "Tell them to not attack innocent tourists-"

"Are you here on vacation? Would you like me to give you a tour?"

The familiar words- the ones from their first date- make rage boil in his core. "Oh, go burn in the worst levels of hell!"

He doesn't stick around for a reply, twisting in a tight circle and ripping a hole into the Realms. He ignores Wayne's call of his name; it's too late- fifteen years too late- and shifts back into Phantom.

He prays he never sees that deadbeat again. Or the family his wife gave him. Not that Danny cares; it's been years, and he could care less what Bruce Wayne and his stupid kin got up to.

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"Bruce, I say this with all my heart, what the fuck was that?"

"That was the one I let get away."

There is a moment of silence before Damian speaks up. "I demand to be taken out of my misery. Mercy, kill me now, Drake."

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