#I had a breakdown (fully yelling and wouldn’t accept anything but my actual water bottle even though I knows it’s irrational-

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

guy who’s bad at regulating his emotions over losing items when he misplaces his water bottle

#camera talks #fucked upp #I had a breakdown (fully yelling and wouldn’t accept anything but my actual water bottle even though I knows it’s irrational- #literally you could give me an exact replica and I would find a reason not to want it when I’m like that. it’s bad #and I know that it’s not right and I’ll feel bad eventually but I haven’t gotten to that stage yet. I’m still feeling upset and angry #worst part is we didn’t find my water bottle so I’m Not drinking water unless necessary (took my pills and that was it) #which is a bad idea all around medically. getting dehydrated will fuck up a lot for me #so I know I just need to get over this but it’s so small and stupid like. #how do I even lose my water bottle? people don’t lose track of things like that I’m just bad at being human #and this is the second time I’ve lost a water bottle. the first time I wasn’t Too attached but it was pretty bad #this water bottle had stickers and fun memories on it so thats hard and I don’t like losing my stuff. it makes me feel shitty #ugh also #vent #sorry #it’s like 11 at night I just need sleep at this point