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purple-nana · 4 years

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Barriers

Part 10 - angst, fluff

1.2k words ( Part of the Dorm of us Series)

Warnings: Panic attacks

“Still nothing?” Jeno deadpans at you.

“Nope. As in z-e-r-o.”

You sighed, it has been at least a week since you started giving Jaemin the cold shoulder. You thought it would frustrate the shit out of him but it turns out—it frightened him more.

“So? What are you gonna do now? Wait here and do nothing?” Renjun asks, completely sick of your ‘lover’s quarrel’ with Jaemin.

“How am I supposed to know idiot! I should probably be all dumb and be the one to say sorry, would you want that to happen Mr. Huang?” You rolled your eyes at him.

Plopping to the couch in frustration, you massaged your face as if it was some kind of molding clay as you thought about your next moves. With Jeno, and Renjun—just looking at you hopelessly, when all of a sudden—

“Haechannie is here!”

Haechan appeared, out of nowhere. Hands cupping his face, using his sickly sweet voice that is bothersome to the ears. And yes—he has been doing that since he moved in, it was some sort of ‘dramatic entrance’ as he would say.

“Can you please stop doing that for pete’s sake?!” Renjun complains blocking his ears in complete disgust.

of course, Haechan ignored him and went to throw himself on the couch right next to you.

“Soooooo, my dear y/n what seems to be the problem?” He pats your head, and is still—using that high-pitched voice.

You remained silent, arms crossed and face distorted in a frown.

Haechan raised his arms in defeat, looks like he finally understood your siganl and kept his hands to himself.

“Don’t—”

“—touch you, yeah yeah whatever,” he rolled his eyes. “I’m trying to be a good friend here while you were being ‘ugh don’t touch me’, you have such an ungrateful ass.” He mocks you while making straight up ugly faces.

You showed him your fist. “Do you want to get another taste of your own medicine?”

He immediately got up and went behind Renjun to hold his shoulders as if he was a child on the other hand Renjun just shook his body to get rid of the boy who kept on clinging on to him.

“As I thought.”

“But seriously, nothing really happened? Like—nada??”

Jeno shooked his head in confirmation. Looks like things didn’t went as you and every one else thought it would. You thought that maybe a little time off each other might be a good idea but clearly, it wasn’t.

You sighed and closed your eyes, you’re worried that this might become the last reason before you and Jaemin drift apart. And of course, you didn’t want that to happened. You’re terrified that things might go down hill from now on and it clearly shows.

The boys knew exactly how you felt.

Renjun sat down beside you on the spot where Haechan Had previously sat on. You looked at him and saw a concerned expression on his face, the same with everbody else.

“You know, y/n. I don’t think it’s a good plan to just wait for Jaemin to come and apologize to you.” Renjun starts.

You were confused, what does he mean?

“What do you mean?” You asked, eyebrows furrowing in wonder.

He scratches the back of his head, thoughts battling in his mind on whether he should tell you or not. He glanced at the two boys who was analyzing the situation, which then they gave a nod of approval.

He glanced back at you. “It’s just that, don’t you think your pride is too high by just you know—waiting for him?”

You stopped for a moment, processing Renjun’s words. You didn’t thought about it before, it seemed to you that Jaemin was the one who was being pride-y here but when you think about it—it makes sense.

It doesn’t mean that Jaemin was the person who made a mistake that he should be the only one to try and talk to you.

Maybe—you are also being selfish.

“I mean yes, Jaemin is the one at fault here but it’s been a week y/n, if you want to save this relationship it’s only you and Jaemin who could do this. Now that nothing has happened—like literally. The outcome of your relationship is at the palm of your hands.”

Renjun is right. It’s up to you on how this relationship will continue. It can only go further, or end—right here, right now.

And you absolutely don’t want to lose Jaemin.

You love him way too much. It’ll be the death of you if you lose him just because of your pride. You didn’t spend years of suppressing your feeling for it to end in just a month?

You’ll do anything just to make things better, but there’s one problem. You don’t know how and where to start.

“B-but, I don’t know how Renjun,” You pulled your hair back in frustration,”I really don’t know know what to do, I don’t want to lose him but I really really don’t know where to start.” You sob into your hands.

Jeno stared at you with worry in his eyes. He didn’t want to intercept with your relationship because he knows that it’s what’s best for the both of you, but he can’t bear to see you like this.

Confused, lost and is full of frustration.

At this point he was doubting if it was even the right choice that you have made but what can he do, you love Jaemin too much. He himself should know that.

He walks up beside you and pat your head. “Everything will be alright y/n, why don’t you start by talking to him?”

“Yeah, we could get out of here so you two can talk in private.” Haechan suggests before going to his room to get ready to head out.

Renjun turns to you, his expressions indirectly asking you if you wanted to do it.

“Thanks guys, I appreciate it but—how can I possibly talk to him if he’s not even here in the first place?”

“Don’t worry, I got it.” Jeno says while grabbing his phone and dialing Jaemin’s number. It shouldn’t be a problem since it’s past 3 which means his classes are over.

Jeno puts it in loudspeaker before Jaemin picks up.

‘Hey what’s up’

‘Hey Jaemin, are you about to go home?’

‘Erm, no. Not really. At least for the next 2 hours, why do you ask?’

Jeno looked at you to which you mouthed him an ‘it’s okay’. He went back to the call, your disappointed face engraved in his mind.

‘Nothing, what are you up to?’

‘I was asked to show a new student around, her name is Hee-young. In Hee-young if I wasn’t mistaken.’

Your eyes grew wide, fear evident in your face. Renjun immediately notices it and quickly signaled Jeno to end the call.

‘Bro sorry gotta go.’

‘Wait why—’

*beep beep*

Jeno kneeled in front of you, holding your shoulders as he and Renjun tries to calm you down. “Y/n what’s the problem?”

You try to speak the words but your mouth was dry.

You were too scared, why does everything have to be happening all at once?

“Y/n answer us please.” Renjun begged you, almost breaking his phone by his tight hold.

“S-she—”

“What?”

“She’s back.”

A/N’s note: Owkie, I kennat promise you dis time my updating schedules. I hate my modules, really. as in. I literally had a whole new plot in mind but then these freakin modules came in the way ugh. but anyway, i was motivated because we had ONE HUNDRED FOLLOWERS. That means a lot to meeeeeeeee, tysmmm!! I hope you enjoyed thiss chapterrrr, i have a lot more in mind for the nextt onesss *smirk*

-A<3

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