#I do podcasts in my head abt my obscure media interests that I could probably make actual video essays on

[badolmen]

Had a revelation today in the woods. As you do.

#ra speaks #personal #I do podcasts in my head abt my obscure media interests that I could probably make actual video essays on #anyways I was thinking abt how I found casshern sins at a pivotal point in my life #if you’ve seen it you can be sure that I related way to hard to stuff like my body is failing me. I want to die. what’s the meaning of life #but I never saw the end of it. until this year. and it felt like…something. idk it was like. #this. this is what I needed. I needed the pain and fear of life acknowledged. but I also needed to be reminded to persist in spite of that. #that there’s beauty in the temporary and fragile and broken #I don’t know why I never saw the end of it - maybe toonami changed its time slot? but I never did. #maybe seeing that finale wouldn’t have stopped my depression spiral at the end of middle school #but it certainly feels like a warm soft blanket watching it now.