#I can't find any suitable work anyway and I need a new photo ID and those are $50 and my weekly income from studies/surveys/etc is about

[olessan]

I am stressed :(

#IF YOU READ THESE TAGS DON'T SEND ME KOFI THINGS OR ANYTHING I JUST NEED TO VENT BEFORE I EXPLODE #(I do have stickers and stuff on redbubble tho) #my PC's bsods/crashes are worse (1 every week or so and sometimes 2 a day I've had 2 in the past 3 hours) #and I'm pretty sure the root issue is the RAM is bad #which means it has been this whole time because I no longer turn my PC off at the end of the day like I did before ~mid 2022 #and I don't have $300 to buy new RAM #and idk if I can get a replacement 3 years after purchase #and even if I do I will have to open it up and pull the RAM out and have no PC for probably a few weeks #and having just my phone will absolutely fuck with me like it did when I first moved in this house #and I need 2 usb sticks to properly diagnose and possibly need to repair some corrupt windows files #which I haven't done before #And meanwhile my fucked up premolar is falling out of my jawbone and is loose and I keep bumping it and it doesn't hurt as much as it shoul #and I am near to an abscess at any given time because of it and I need to get more shots because I don't want to go #without updated vaccinations but also having a tooth removed and one or two more cavities filled is very expensive #and I don't have any income so I have $4.80 to my name #and I need to work from home because of anxiety and I can't do that while my PC is having issues #I got a bsod earlier and got in Minecraft to play a little and got a second BSOD after just 2 hours #they're RAM related (memory_management and faulty_hardware_corrupted_page #but I am worried about the side effects of this many #I can't find any suitable work anyway and I need a new photo ID and those are $50 and my weekly income from studies/surveys/etc is about #about that and I am already living on about $30 of food a week (frozen pizzas and party pies and stuff + liquid breakfasts so I get some #minerals and vitamins) and I would rather scrape by then sign up for social security because of the horrible draconian shit they put people #though just to keep a payment that is 1/4th minimum wage and not liveable in the slightest #(THE PIZZAS GIVE ME FAT PROTEIN CARBS FIBRE AND A LOT OF KJ they are efficient) #(I would love to cook) #(I budgeted out meal prepping and it came out to costing twice as much for the same food if I bought the cheapest ingredients) #( and also same amount of food I eat once a day (1/2 pizza or equiv ~300g/3000kj/700cal) and use chocolate to carry me through the middle) #(the chocolate also keeps me focused and my mood up) #every single BSOD massively spikes my anxiety and it locks me up and I just fret for a while and I am cautious about drawing because it #can happen at any time and I don't want to lose things I've worked hard on