#HANNAHHHHHHH <3333333 idk what to even say to this this was everything i needed to hear im just. sitting here so genuinely touched

[hella1975]

i dont think i can really say anything to make you feel better but im going to try bc ive been thinking about you a lot lately and what i could say to you abt this bc i am worried about you!!!! but firstly i want to say it is NOT your fault for being conditioned to act a certain way by your mother, i wish you wouldnt blame yourself. you are not at fault here for anything and its unfair of her to say you are cold and unfeeling when she encouraged the behavior that makes you seem that way (to clarify, i dont believe you are actually cold and unfeeling). i feel that its not my place to comment on your disconnect to your own emotions and other peoples emotions, so i wont. but i will say, as your friend, that the way you love is not bad. the way you love is genuine and so you that anyone who cannot see that youre trying and putting in effort simply isnt paying attention, or doesnt actually know you. and maybe you are reading that and thinking i dont even know myself but i think to know you is to love you and i absolutely do love you so i must know you, right? that turned into a probably confusing jumble but my point is that i just want you to be gentle with yourself, and patient, because you are not bad and you deserve kindness. I think you have a tough exterior that is often misunderstood, maybe even by yourself, but that doesnt make you bad. okay? I love you <3 and i know you said you are dealing with this by yourself and you wouldnt know how to talk about it even if you wanted to but i just want you to know that you are not alone and i am always here for you if you want to try to talk or if you need a distraction from yourself. im sorry if i overstepped or anything and please dont feel obligated to acknowledge this at all

punching my pillow rn.

#HANNAHHHHHHH <3333333 idk what to even say to this this was everything i needed to hear im just. sitting here so genuinely touched #i love you. im glad you know it #ask