another oldie, back from the whole save or destroy golden sands event. glad to have been a victor even if it was only narrowly
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200% full of emotions
How do I even process this, the full opposite of emotions both blasting at high volume at the same time
My favorite HITCS fic is Golden Sands by Tequilamockinbird. I read it after it had been on hiatus for a few months and couldn’t get it out of my head. It melded with the book such that I couldn’t remember which was canon and which was not. I have songs for parts of the fic that were achingly compelling to me.
I had an idea for an ending and asked permission to write it, and I wrote five chapters, which was the longest thing I had ever written at the time (which was summer 2022). A lot of personal feelings about transformation and change went into it, and I cried while I was writing it, and walked in the forest crying about it, and listened to music crying about it.
Over xmas break and last weekend, the author of the fic read my ending and cried with me. She said that nothing she could ever have written would have been as good, and decided she wasn’t going to finish her fic and just link to mine and say, there is a better ending than I would have thought of; I have passed the torch.
I am. SO grateful. So in awe. So crying about it. And also grieving that I will never read her ending. Heartbroken about it and so deeply moved about it. Grateful and grieving.
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