#Dude I was 17 and depressed da fuck you mean

[pukexnxspew]

It's so weird when you think back at the people who used to hit you up when you were younger and the things they would say to you because "they liked and cared about you". Disgusting

#“Wake up and smell the coffee” #Dude I was 17 and depressed da fuck you mean #“You're like a baby playing in it's own shit” #Dude what the actual fuck #It was always the people who were way too old #to be hitting up a 17-18 year old girl #Freaks

[todaysbiggesthits]

Odds, Ends

The Leftovers

TBH Era:

Nasty’s 16-20

16. Daft Punk - Random Access Memories 17. Chromatics - Kill for Love 18. A$AP Rocky - Live. Love. ASAP 19. Yeasayer - Odd Blood 20. Action Bronson - Blue Chips 1 & 2

Larson’s 16-20

16. Lizzo - Cuz I Love You 17. Taylor Swift - Lover 18. Waxahatchee - Out in the Storm 19. tUnE-yArDs - W H O K I L L 20. The Weeknd - Beauty Behind the Madness

BC’s 16-20

16. Youth Lagoon - The Year of Hibernation 17. Disclosure - Settle 18. Kurt Vile - b’lieve i’m goin down 19. Lotus Plaza - Spooky Action at a Distance 20. Vampire Weekend - Modern Vampires of the City

Bronco’s 16-28

16. High on Fire - De Vermis Mysteriis 17. Violent Soho - Violent Soho 18. Moontooth - Chromaparagon 19. Thou - Rhea Sylvia 20. Alien Weaponry - Tu 21. Elder - Reflections of a Floating World 22. Inter Arma - The Cavern 23. Windhand - Eternal Return 24. MAKE - The Golden Veil 25. King Gizzard & the Lizard Wizard - Nonagon Infinity 26. Slugdge - Esoteric Malacology 27. Monoliths - Monoliths 28. Violent Soho - Hungry Ghosts

Code’s 16-26

16. Robyn – Body Talk 17. Colleen Green – Sock it to Me 18. Colleen Green – I Want to Grow Up 19. Kanye West – My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy 20. Washer – All Aboard 21. Spook Houses – Trying 22. Alien Boy – Sleeping Lessons 23. EMA – Exile in the Outer Ring 24. PAWS – Cokefloat! 25. Snooty Garbagemen – Snooty Garbagemen 26. All Dogs - All Dogs

Chap’s 16-33

16. Tomberlin - At Weddings 17. Dan Deacon - America 18. Cloud Nothings - Attack on Memory 19. Lana Del Rey - Norman Fucking Rockwell! 20. M83 - Hurry Up, We’re Dreaming 21. Jessica Pratt - Quiet Signs 22. Father John Misty - I Love You, Honeybear 23. Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - Skeleton Tree 24. Lost Under Heaven - Spiritual Songs for Lovers to Sing 25. Titus Andronicus - The Most Lamentable Tragedy 26. Kanye West - Yeezus 27. PJ Harvey - Let England Shake 28. Girls - Broken Dreams Club 29. Robyn - Body Talk 30. No Age - Everything In Between 31. The National - Trouble Will Find Me 32. Girls - Father, Son, Holy Ghost 33. Youth Lagoon - The Year of Hibernation

JD’s 16-57

16. Kacey Musgraves - Golden Hour 17. Animal Collective - Centipede Hz 18. DIIV - Oshin 19. Ariel Pink - Pom Pom 20. Beach House - Depression Cherry 21. Purple Mountains - Purple Mountains 22. Kanye West - The Life of Pablo 23. Panda Bear - Tomboy 24. Death Grips - The Money Store 25. Parquet Courts - Wide Awake! 26. Slowdive - Slowdive 27. Lana Del Rey - Norman Fucking Rockwell! 28. Radiohead - The King of Limbs 29. LCD Soundsystem - This is Happening 30. Deerhunter - Halcyon Digest 31. Destroyer - Kaputt 32. Grouper - Ruins 33. Parquet Courts - Sunbathing Animal 34. Jessica Pratt - Quiet Signs 35. Joanna Newsom - Divers 36. Nine Inch Nails - 3 EPs 37. Earl Sweatshirt - Some Rap Songs 38. The Strokes - Angles 39. William Basinski - A Shadow in Time 40. Todd Terje - It’s Album Time! 41. The Knife - Tomorrow, In a Year 42. Oneohtrix Point Never - Replica 43. Julianna Barwick - Will 44. Eleanor Friedberger - Rebound 45. LCD Soundsystem - American Dream 46. Vampire Weekend - Modern Vampires of the City 47. Panda Bear - Buoys 48. No Age - Snares Like a Haircut 49. Dirty Beaches - Badlands 50. Ariel Pink’s Haunted Graffiti - Before Today 51. Underworld - Barbara Barbara, we face a shining future 52. Frankie Cosmos - Zentropy 53. Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - Skeleton Tree 54. The Voidz - Virtue 55. Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross - The Social Network Soundtrack 56. Pantha du Prince - Black Noise 57. Colleen Green - Sock it to Me

‘19:

Laser’s 16-20

16. King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard - Infest the Rats’ Nest 17. The Black Keys - “Let’s Rock” 18. Electric Guest - KIN 19. Stella Donnelly - Beware of the Dogs 20. Tegan and Sara - Hey, I’m Just Like You

Bronco’s 16-20

16. Blackwater Holylight - Veils of Winter 17. Year of the Cobra - Ash and Dust 18. Blood Incantation - Hidden History of the Human Race 19. sunn O))) - Pyroclasts 20. Baroness - Gold & Grey

Chap’s 16-20

16. Field Medic - fade into the dawn 17. Brittany Howard - Jaime 18. Mannequin Pussy - Patience 19. The National - I Am Easy to Find 20. Vampire Weekend - Father of the Bride

JD’s 16-24

16. Sui Zhen - Losing, Linda 17. Empath - Active Listening: Night on Earth 18. Gesaffelstein - Novo Sonic System 19. Earl Sweatshirt - Feet of Clay 20. No Age - A Cassette of a Live Ambient Performance 21. Paul Maroon - A Two Song 45 I Bought On Etsy 22. Denzel Curry - ZUU 23. Avey Tare - Cows on Hourglass Pond 24. Vampire Weekend - Father of the Bride

From the Desk of

Bronco’s Brettnacher-Certified Attendance Report

2019: A Broncospective

This was a year of waiting. Waiting for Tool. And I feel like I treated the rest of the year's music up until that point as thumb-twiddling whilst waiting for the big payoff. This year seemed to be filled with passable hold-over music. And a sense of dread as the months ticked by, that dread that comes with the unattainable expectations I've come to experience as I've grown older. Waiting for something awesome to happen, and then it happens, and it's not nearly as awesome as you hoped it to be. I've come to equate anticipation with dread now...to the point that I do my damnedest to avoid anticipation by pushing everything future out of my mind. So I live in the present now, and I feel totally unprepared every single day. Weekends come and I have no idea what's happening. I really should rethink this strategy and maybe just try not to build up my expectations. Fuck it. Either way, I was dreading the new Tool album. There's no way it could live up to a 13 year wait. Then it came. And it was good. Not redefine my life and realign my soul good, just perfect. It was what we all needed, those of us who have been waiting. One album that definitely wasn't a time-killer during the great Tool wait of nine deen was King Gizzard's 'Infest the Rats Nest.' That easily would have been my number one album this year had it not landed in the same year as Fear Innoculum. I actually had a hard time deciding which one was my number one, but in the end had to place Rat's Nest second. I know these guys have pumped out so many records in the past few years, but I was pleasantly surprised at their ability to sound like themselves while at the same time ripping out a proper metal album.  The subject matter, the riffs, all of it is great. And it's accessible to non-metal folks who want to hear some tasty licks. Lastly, I listened to a lot of hardcore this year too. Unlike any other year, something about it spoke to me. I don't know if it's our current political climate or what, but the indecipherable doomy sludgly stonery spacey lyrics of the stuff I'm usually in to felt like a nondescript blob of meaninglessness (not that I care what their meaning is at any other time). But the hardcore scene felt important. Like something topical was being said (or screamed), and said hard. The sheer anger in the music, I think, reflects the way I feel on a daily basis as I'm inundated with political shit from NYT, WashPo, CNN, etc. etc. etc. News about no news, filler designed to get me pissed off about shit that's out of my control, and designed to push me over the edge when the eventual outcome of all of this outrage is just more outrage that none of the original outrage mattered at all. That feeling of not being heard, the voice of reason being smothered by a sweat stained pillow owned by some bible thumping hypocrite child fucker, is maddening. To the point that all you want to do is scream until you're heard...like Sara Connor at the chainlink fence before Judgement Day destroys the playground and melts her skin off her body. That's what some of these acts have sounded like. And it's scratching an itch. Probably not going to be my jam for an extended period of time, I don't see myself pivoting to this corner of the genre, but like a good enima, this stuff has cleared my brain's bowels for the better this year. Here's to the next chapter, the next decade, and the next Tool album in 2035. Hail Satan, Happy Holidays, and a Happy New (Wave of British Heavy Metal) Year to you all.

From the Bin Bin

Nasty’s Best Rap of the Decade

Nasty’s Video of the Year

Da Baby - “BOP on Broadway”

JD's Silver Screen Video Staff Recommendations: Long Form Shelf

Solange - When I Get Home

Earl Sweatshirt - Nowhere, Nobody

Thom Yorke - Anima

New to Code in 2019

Colleen Green - Dude Ranch (cover of full album) Ganser - Odd Talk Felt - Forever Breathes the Lonely Word Duster - Capsule Losing Contact Dungen - 4 Alien Boy - Sleeping Lessons Charmer - Charmer Michael Cera Palin - I Don't Konw How to Explain It

Interloper’s Corner

Fergwad’s 1-10 of the Decade

1. Tame Impala - Lonerism 2. Tame Impala - Currents 3. Vampire Weekend - Modern Vampires of the City 4. Beach House - Bloom 5. Kanye West - Yeezus 6. Real Estate - Days 7. Beach House - Teen Dream 8. No Age - Everything in Between 9. Deerhunter - Hacyon Digest 10. Vampire Weekend - Contra

Ferg’s 10 “Call the Fire Department” Songs of the Decade

Tammy Rooney’s 1-10 of ‘19

1. Vampire Weekend - Father of the Bride 2. Cass McCombs - Tip of the Sphere 3. William Tyler - Goes West 4. Purple Mountains - Purple Mountains 5. Bon Iver - i, i 6. Strand of Oaks - Eraserland 7. Sharon Van Etten - Remind Me Tomorrow 8. Thom Yorke - Anima 9. Deerhunter - Why Hasn't Everything Disappeared Already 10. Hiss Golden Messenger - Terms of Surrender

From the Desk of Code’s Pal Jon Wotman

Artists spend an entire career and oceans of money in an effort to *shimmer.* I Wonder: shrug, yeah I shimmer so what. It’s not hard. -This, and the lines below, taken from an imagined documentary called “'I Wonder' Speaks” Somehow, despite the fact that in its initial release the recording sounds like a construction project nailed hastily in a tin lean-to (and the hammering was also included in the mix)... I Wonder: you take ecstasy and it’s not like everything drops away clean. There’s blood in there, there’s all the memory and old feelings and shit in your brain that that drugs have to sweep out and they don’t want to leave. It’s messy and I made it messy on purpose. You wanna make something really good, it’s got to feel messy even if it’s got the 90 degree bones of a skyscraper underneath. [Handclap.] It’s not hard. “When I look over my shoulder, I know who’ll be on the other side” effortlessly combines gesture, solidity, and faith in what must be the most romantic line of the decade. I Wonder: Everyone thinks writing about this stuff is hard. It’s not. “… and things’ll get trashy when we get to my place… “ presents sex as both without forethought and deeply premeditated, but, in both cases, without judgement… it’s the most erotic line of the decade. I Wonder: I’m not punning. No fucking way. And shame on your for putting me in this position. There’s some judgment for you. Any closing thoughts? I Wonder: Y’know. 

[pandas-silly-rambles]

Fuck you, these are fun to do!

I mean, has some questions that are the same as was in the last one but I actually enjoy doing these. Even if no one were to read them!

1. 19

2. 167

3. Libra

4. Really don’t care about religions.

5. I’ll support whatever political party that supports everyone. Thinks nobody should be discriminated, everyone should have the same rights and so forth.

6. Ass.

7. Propably like, IT stuffs.

8. Pan(da)sexual.

9. PC.

10. -shrug-

11. Like, 4 I think.

12. Yes

13. 

14. I mean, propably.

15. Don’t especially watch cartoons.

16. What is HS? Hearthstone? No, propably not. Hold on, I’ll Google it! Ohh, it’s like, High School! Okay, so, lower grades I had some mocking nicknames because of like people bullied me. In HS I was anxious and mostly was alone, so didn’t really get any nicknames.

17. I drive Peugeot 206. At work I drive Volkswagen Polo, Ford Focus and Opel Vivaro.

18. I have a bit too small T-shirt, pantsu, very fluffy socks that are making my feet like, so sweaty and college pants.

19. Not really. They are very annoying. Judgemental, not developed brain, all that.

20. Propably somewhere where I could fix all my stupid mistakes.

21. Like, dude, I barely know where I am from, don’t even get me started about my ancestry.

22. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q59ubjqpGO8

23. Zootopia, I think.

24. I remember crying but I can’t remember any specific reason for it.

25. I can’t think forward to future. I can barely think what I’ll do tomorrow, so, like, I propably tought I’d be succesfull and all that. Oh 9 year old me how I’ve dissapointed you.

26. Oh, I wouldn’t think they’d be especially proud of a depressed confused blob.

27. -shrug-

28. Finding the right words for this is quite difficult. No, I do not like Trump. I hate him. Hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, h̴ate͞,̕ h͞a͘t͝҉e,́͠  h̢͢a̴҉̢͜͡t̵̷̡͞e̸,̴͜   !

29. ＴＨＩＣＣ

30. Northernlion, Jerma985, me ;3 .

31. Overwatch mostly, I should get back at finishing Metal Gear Solid 5, NieR:Automata and few other games too.

32. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hu8wjB3xuX4

33. Have no goals.

34. I don’t know how I would like to die, but I have a plan how I would do it myself. I would basically just get strangled somehow.

#Panda's Rambles #more #questions #fuck you #long post

[allegaeon]

@kikoloureirosdeliveryservice tagged me so here

THE LAST: 1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: The bike store lol 3. Text message: This dude I do Pokemon Go raids with lmao 4. Song you listened to: The God Particle by Allegaeon 5. Time you cried: Uuuhhh no clue lmao

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: I date Emily all the time! 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: I don't think so lmao 8. Been cheated on: Nope as far as ik lol 9. Lost someone special: My cat :/ 10. Been depressed: Lmaooo yea hella 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Ew no never drunk

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Black! 13. Blood red 14. Turquoise

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: I think so? Maybe? Maybe not? Lmao 16. Fallen out of love: Nein just keep fallin in deeper with the girl of my dreams 17. Laughed until you cried: Yes at one of my own jokes at some point lmao 18. Found out someone was talking about you: No one talks about me 19. Met someone who changed you: Uh no i don't think so 20. Found out who your friends are: What does this question even MEAN 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Ew no only Em for moi

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I mean, I've known the vast majority irl at some point or another, I just don't anymore lmao 23. Do you have any pets:A fuckin jackass of a cat I love him so much yes 24. Do you want to change your name: Nope 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I have no fucking clue I just know I got my guitar a few weeks later lol 26. What time did you wake up: Around 10 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: I'm pretty sure Em was stillhere and we were playing Mario Kart i think 28. Name something you can’t wait for: The Slayer/Lamb of God/Behemoth gig on tuesday and Arch Enemy's new album 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Around 2 weeks ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Honestly? I wish I had any kind of druve in me to succeed or do literally anything. 31. What are you listening right now: My dumbass cat chewing at my shit 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Uuhh… maybe? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Tyranitars 34. Most visited Website: This one, unsurprisingly

LOST QUESTIONS. (I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME) 35. Mole/s: I don't think so 36. Mark/s: Scars here and there, some birthmarks and whatnot 37. Childhood dream: Paleontologist lmao. Then wildlife biologist. Then guitarist 38. Haircolor: Dark brown/black 39. Long or short hair: longish 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Boy golly do I 41. What do you like about yourself: My height, my hair, my puns, my hands, my skintone and my girl 42. Piercings: Zilch 43. Bloodtype: O- or + i can't recall 44. Nickname: Fucking dumbass, bitch 45. Relationship status: Hella involved w the girl of my dreams 46. Zodiac: Caprisun 47. Pronouns: Bitch usually does the trick 48. Favorite TV Show: Uuh, Parks n Rec, Top Gear, Orange is the New Black 49. Tattoos: Not yet 50. Right or left hand: Righttyy 51. Surgery: Not fucked up THAT bad yet 52. Hair dyed in different color: Nein 53. Sport: Biking around in Pokémon Go 55. Vacation: Well we just got back from Mexico ig that counts 56. Pair of trainers: Well, the circle of Pokémon trainers i know right now is around 5 I guess?

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: Nada 58. Drinking: Water 59. I’m about to: Go to sleep lmaoo 61. Waiting for: Death 62. Want: Cuddles 63. Get married: At some point, sure. 64. Career: Raccoon

WHICH IS BETTER: 65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs!

66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: SHORTER. I MUST BE THE TALLEST!! 68. Older or younger: Idgaf lol but Em's older than me 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: TUMMY 71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship all da way 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: BOTH lmaooo

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: Oh goodness no 75. Drank hard liquor: Tried it yes but not drank it per se 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: maybe 77. Turned someone down: Uh i think so 78. Sex in the first date: How about sex after like a year of knowing each other and half of one of dating that sounds better 79. Broken someone’s heart: Kind of lol 80. Had your heart broken: Have I? Idk I don't think so 81. Been arrested: Not yet lmao 82. Cried when someone died: My cat :/ 83. Fallen for a friend: Twice

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: Nope 85. Miracles: Eh, not really 86. Love at first sight: Haha no 87. Santa Claus: No just Satan Claus 88. Kiss on the first date: Eeeehhhhhg. Nope. 89. Angels: Just the one I'm in love with

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: Emily!! 91. Eyecolor: Dark brown 92. Favorite movie: Jurassic Park, Alien and How to Train Your Dragon

#asks