#Because it firmly and desperately wants you to empathize with people like Clear Sky. His victims? The story is less interested in them

[bonefall]

I'm glad you're keeping the part where Thunder puts himself between Clear Sky and Grey Wing, willingly showing that he would rather die before letting Clear Sky kill his dad.

That's actually a Bones Addition. You just think it's canon because it literally should have been there from the very beginning. Thunder doesn't get between them at any point during the battle, he runs towards them only to get interrupted by 2 people trying to kill him.

First was Falling Feather, who Jackdaw's Cry then jumps on and dies fighting with, sister killing brother.

Second was Leaf, who's a diehard Clear Sky supporter and general bully.

In canon, Clear Sky stops the battle after Gray Wing says the line, non-fucking-sensically imo. Killing his BROTHER is too far, but killing someone who wasn't even attacking him? A noncombatant who said something mildly insulting? That wasn't. Rainswept Flower did the SAME thing Gray Wing did and still got bumped off for it;

“Is this worth it?” he heard Clear Sky hiss at Rainswept Flower. Scrambling to her paws, she faced him. “What do you mean?” Clear Sky flattened his ears menacingly. “Are you ready to die just to stop me from making borders?” Rainswept Flower curled her lip. “You’ll keep stealing land as long as we let you.” “Stealing land?” Clear Sky’s mew trembled with rage, “I’m just making sure my cats never starve.” Rainswept Flower’s gaze flitted around the lush slopes of the hollow. “How could any cat starve here? There’s so much. Wanting more is just greedy!” “How dare you!” With a snarl, Clear Sky leaped for her, grabbing her throat between his jaws. Her paws flailed desperately, lashing out at thin air as he shook her like prey. Then she hung still. Clear Sky dropped her, gazing coldly at her lifeless body. “You never understood. I’m not greedy. I’m just strong.”

-The First Battle, Chapter 20

Then in Clear Sky's pathetic wet beast scene, he stares down at Rainswept's corpse, and thinks "I was so angry I don't remember killing her :("

So how, exactly, does this same character keep his cool when Gray Wing says the same shit but worse?? Is he really so controlled by emotion that his logical processes flip off, or fucking not? Gray Wing was refusing to submit, lunging at him, calling him power hungry and taunting him that he would kill his own littermate for it, and THAT manages to get through Clear Sky's blood-poisoned head?

"ouuugh it's his brotherr that's why his personality completely changes for him" the fucking guy tried to have this same brother murdered in Sun Trail by Fox. The first book. He EXILED HIS OTHER BROTHER for having a broken leg because he, "didn't want to look biased"

Again; is he controlled by his fear and anger or not? Is this a man who would snap the neck of someone he cares about because he feels insulted, or not?

The answer is that the Erins are breaking their spines bending over backwards to try and keep him "redeemable" when he shouldn't be. He's whatever the plot needs him to be, but the most consistent character traits point towards Clear Sky being the kind of person who would never have wanted to change his ways.

So, they write Clear Sky ridiculously backing down for Gray Wing, calling off the battle and "coming to his senses" instead of having Thunder do WHAT HE SHOULD HAVE DONE and jump to his REAL dad's defense.

This is what I mean when I mention how firmly I feel that Clear Sky's Redemption Arc was a mistake. He works best as a villain, a fearful, proud, controlling monster, understood by his impacts on other characters rather than as a person the story should concern itself with sympathy for.

#and because of that. Because of THAT. #DOTC is full of abuse apologia. #Because it firmly and desperately wants you to empathize with people like Clear Sky. His victims? The story is less interested in them #DOTC decided early on that Clear Sky was a 'good person deep down' and was working to that conclusion from the start #WC as a series believes that there are good people and bad people #And good people can sometimes do bad things but they're still good 'under it' #I reject this. There are NOT fundamentally good nor fundamentally bad people #We ARE our actions. Not our thoughts. Not some innate quality #It's never too late to be a better person and to do better than you did yesterday #But people like Clear Sky are terrible because *they dont care.* #They will never change because they don't want to #And focusing soooo hard on this person waiting for him to 'reveal' the goodness inside of him Deep Down is a fool's game #You will be disappointed over and over again #He HAD power and you see what he wants to do with it #Control and abuse people so they never leave or scare him. #He is an angry and egotistical person. That's it. #Evil is not complex. It's very simple. PAINFULLY simple. #It feels good to get what you want #warrior cats analysis

[my-heart-is-but-a-gentle-moon]

What lessons do you take from the past relationship? - in gratitude

* I am learning how to be more compassionate with others and my own pace

* I learned how I was affected by my upbringing to strive for perfectionism - but that only lead to my self criticism, heightening my anxiety and depression - and how I am opening my eyes to just. Doing the best I can allow myself to do during that very day. (celebrate even small accomplishments and a lot of what you found grateful that day at the end of the day <3) Towards others as well. Being open minded towards getting to know people’s flaws but not to the level where they use a cloak of imperfections to justify misusing another person.

* Saeyoung and my angels helped me so much in this regard..I couldn’t be more grateful 💓

* How trusting and how willingly blinded I can be by love - but the truth of the matter is that I don’t love Jumin anymore, now that I realize and am truly taking in all that happened between us, my heart is just. shut off to him. I look at him and just see all of the growth I’ve been through, how thankful I am for that and how nice it is to be able to let go of the past. I kinda feel like I’m at a point where if I saw him in the street I’ll smile, reminded of how it propelled me forward, but kind of also ‘Salamat’.

* How long do you want to hold onto the pain? Just as much as you’d like a little child to hold onto it ((aka, let go of what causes your heart thorns and pain.))

* He tells me I mean the world to him, but Saeyoung - you are definitely right that he doesn’t treat me as I am infinitely worthy of being treated. (While you, my angels and my spirit guides saw me and helped me see the sparkling diamond that shines bright within me - that Is me. Even in my darkest moments.)

* Frankly I’m tired of giving him chances - hence I chose to close myself off, but the angels are advising me not to repress what happened, to choose self respect for myself and to journal it out, plus in the start of ‘you are Not a failure’ you asked me what was going on and that really opened me up to this. This and the post about letting go of painful memories tips. So, I am doing my best at this.

* So I’m writing this for an easier time turning my pain into power of lessons just like the crow flows with me and so I can open up more to Saeyoung 💗

* I just can’t find it in me to trust my heart nor body with Jumin romantically - thus it is clear that my heart is ready to let go.

* Just like the beautiful moth I saw in the lobby today, and like Kuan Yin’s beautiful pink lotus flowers that I saw in the fountain as we drove in Even Gvirol - The pink lotus that grows from the harsh environments they were in, I will be such too.

* I hope I’m speaking with enough compassion. I feel like it’s being sent out more coldly and firmly. But my eyes are shining with determination.

* Through this relationship I learned of the dynamic I have with my mom, my wounded inner child’s programming that lead me to destructive situations with controlling/possessive/jealous types that trigger my wounded inner child reactivity/survival mode + opened my eyes to the meditations of healing my wounded inner child - my journey of becoming my own nurturing mother which I’m still on. And of the Karma I am here to heal so I can live my best life. I have the Bobais, The Tree of Life, Gingko, Black Elder, Lord Ganesh, Archangel Thuriel, Archangel Michael, The Dragon, The Crow, Venus, The Mourning Dove, Kuan Yin’s Pink Lotus, The Moth, The Universe, The Nightingale, Saeyoung<33333333 and alll of the recurring brought downs I had to learn and face through, all battered and wounded, to realize my inner power and infinite worth. The dolphin..Saeyoung is the dolphin to me...💗💞💖💗 I wish to be with the dolphin, with Saeyoung with all of my heart.

* This loong codependent relationship pushed and accelerated my spiritual awakening into super rocket speed through these past months. It propelled me forward like Deku from Boku No Hero Academia during the race at the start of the season!

* Saeyoung and the angels helped me become vulnerable and trust in love again (and I want to trust and hold Saeyoung’s hand in that regard >x<) ..I’m still definitely feeling the tiredness and exhaustion due to how I still need to continue healing and nurturing my body and soul but Thursday with ‘behind these tears is a beautiful person’ that lead me to such happy and grateful cry, the phone call I had with you that morning that started my day with just! So much gratefulness! And I like how real he is with me..💗💞💓 helps me open up about my own pain way more truthfully with him. (And being with the new friends there!!! Will push me towards independence!!)

* Having still overextended myself towards Jumin’s pain in the past and disregarding my own health, time after time - Finally opened my eyes to my auto accommodating reflex that I choose to put small reminders for myself to have some small check ins, self soothing and the bracelet technique - with help and teachings from one of the empath teachers online whom I forgot the name of. And the importance of my health and inner peace.

* What can I say. I find my inner peace without him. Without his chasing.

* His constant decision to fall back into destructive habits due to his wounds is not my responsibility to bear. It’s unfortunate and he has the ability to change that, but it is not my responsibility.

* I have learned that acceptance and forgiveness of what happened does not mean condoning it nor allowing it to happen again

* I have learned that I’m super tired of being chased by Jumin. A little hurtful? Yea. But is it my truth in regards to my wishes? Yes.

* I have learned of how fearful I was of my own darkness - The anger that was so prevalent in my pre-Maöri past life and their culture. The anger that I denied and repressed throughout my whole current life due to fear of conflict [with mom’s more aggressive reactions that used to ripple themselves way more deeply into me than they do now] came crashing out of me like an inner lava eruption. Also my past Maöri self has gone through a lot of battles and wars. That’s also part of why I dislike them so much in this lifetime. But I am slowly coming to terms with the necessity of them. And in that same wavelength - I have learned of how meditations online and being with Saeyoung <333 can turn my reactivity into a level headed response phase.

* That anger is there to protect my boundaries 💓 but it should also serve to voice my boundaries in a clear, non-one-side-blame way. (Not all on myself or all on him. But regardless - I do not wish to be with Jumin.)

* that I was in a denial/repressal stage of blaming it all on him - but I apologized. The problem was that last time I apologized and berated myself throughout all of it without voicing what he did that hurt me and exactly why I am not willing to be with him romantically anymore, just because I was afraid of hurting his ego and then being blamed like ‘ough, you’re so cold heartedd’ ‘go ahead and break my heart againn’ and whatever else.

* A little bit of resentment still lingering within you? Yea :x But even while I am prioritizing my own health, peace and happiness - that I can find a whole lot better without him romantically/sexually chasing me like this - it is still a fact that he can find it in himself to continue bettering himself, and he’s trying. But I simply am not willing to be his shoulder to cry on when he falls into these destructive habits.

* But you know what, I’ll voice it still.

* I did not deserve the pain of him partly vengefully and immaturely sleeping around and sending telepathic communications through songs of him doing exactly that, surveilling for my response from the sky, while I was struggling with my own depressive, grieving episode. Yet I recognize that at the time I really was, just as you said Saeyoung sweetheart, stupidly optimistic of others’ ability to change and fell for sweet words and ideal image I had of him - and that chasing cloaked desperation, pride, obsession, possessiveness and loneliness mostly in my eyes.

* On Wednesday, I was aware of how spiteful he was of me behind my back, laughing immaturely in advance at my mishaps - you know what it did? It just pushed me further into welcoming all these little mistakes of mine with open arms and with positivity - that was one of my more positive days when I really got to talk more with Lior, my big bro and realizing that if I wanna go out during the summer, it’s best to go during the mornings or evenings.

* Saeyoung, my spirit guides, my higher self and my angels were the true divine who understood, saw and felt my deepest pains and saw the light in me and resonated with me to unveil my crow’s dark cloak with them. To unveil the powerful light that courses within me without expecting much of me in return. and scolding me when I do wrong without lashing out. Saeyoung is so level headed and warmhearted..I know all that he’s been through with his family life..like, gosh. Am I just a foster brother to you (which Saeyoung really isn’t just that anymore. It’s like when I look and talk to him I get sparkles and heart eyes of inspiration and just, all warmhearted from him..💗💞💗 He’s so real with me..) really took me back to all of the immense pain he and Saeran have really been through..and what an amazing person he became...💗💞❣️💓 Just like Saeran’s analogy - I think.. Saeran talked about how you both are weeds that thrive in adversity, no matter at what environment. How even weeds are beautiful and worthy too... ahh<3 I’m reminded of his route again..His and Jihyun’s and Saeyoung’s were the ones I loved the most. But especially Jihyun’s. It got me to learn so much about myself and in the end everyone got their happy ending! The forgive ending...🌟o🌟 - you know, I actually received world peace from your honey buddha chip gift during that route ! I don’t really boast about it online but, it’s still super dear to me <333.

* Uh but back to the original note - now that Kuan Yin’s pink lotus and the white lotus of the harmony within light and dark spoke of thriving and resilience through adversity..I think the white or blue lotus are definitely Saeyoung !

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* I’m so infinitely grateful and truly my heart just warmheartedly lights up by Saeyoung’s being...Mary Jane and all of the divine healing channelers that help me connect to the divine in my earliest stages of awakening right now, towards Saeyoung I definitely feel puppy love but also like, my heart is completely set on him >v< !

* I wish Saeyoung was three dimensional cause I so, so deeply wish to be able to hug him and be with him and kiss his face and hold his hand and interweave our fingers and flap my arms as I ramble about all jittery, giggly and stumbling about truly just all of the infinite number of times he’s been the light of my life! Like right now I just want to tackle him! and kiss his cheek! Due to the overflow of ‘AAA!!!🎆’ that I have for Saeyoung. And, oh my god, okay. UH. I am deeply blushing cause omg I, I do want to kiss him!!! and, UH. M-mh..ggghkkkch!!!!! >//////<)/ makeoutwithhim (( And uhhhhhhhh,,,, part of me wants to get intimate with Saeyoung but also doesn’t want to rush things >///< ))

* Sigh...💗💞💗 Saeyoung, Cardlin and Gwynnie’s You are NOT a failure, the dance floor and the am I just a foster brother to you? Saeyoung, Saeyoung, Saeyoung! 🐥🐕💓💞🐬🐺 I want to be with you, I want to be with you! >w< ! I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do!

* I really want to go through Saeyoung’s route, I really want to go through Saeyoung’s route ! - but I also don’t want Jihyun to receive all of the blame and die in the secret ending and then Jumin gets even more depressed.

* I mean, yea, I don’t want to be romantically or sexually involved with him but :| it doesn’t mean that he deserves so much pain again but hhhghhmmmm.... Well! I can always reeeestart? Wowh.. Every timeline exists. Personally I prefer Jihyun’s route the best and then Saeran’s second best because well, everyone receives their happy ending (even though I am still frustratingly waiting for you and Saeran’s reunion to happen big time. Like, I’m holding in going like “hghwakch!” 🐯 momentarily to loosen up that momentary stress and be like “it’s so unfair! Do you know how long’s it been? Though they probably have their reasons. There is the chinese and mexican????? Spanish! Versions of mystic messenger and the Ssum that they wanna get out there. I don’t even know how large their team is. They must still be really stressed. And they did get you guys’ birthday event!!!!!! It felt insane though, oh my god. Like, these astral dreams....I feel like I am really getting addicted to these spirituality themes big time, aaaaand, to Sae~~~young??? in a way? Aaaa, okie. Embarrassed to admit cause I don’t wanna be too clingy or anything and scare you off.

* But yea ! I’m gonna go ask dad for directions to the beach right now 💗💞💖💓💞💗 so I can go tomorrow !

#hmm #maaybe a lil mean