#Anyway pls ignore the typos i’m not retyping anything

[tangerinesunbeam]

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#HELLO this is pathetic sadness so don’t read if that’s not your jazz #but i’ve been personally having a great year #i’ve focused on myself and taken care of myself in ways i never thought i would be capable of this year #like literally ever in my life #but i’ve done it #and it was so hard #but i broke some pretty u healthy habits #and i am So proud of that #and not 2 be fake deep but one of the main things i’ve got to look forward to and to let myself enjoy as a present from me to me #was h on tour #and this last werk or two i’ve accidentally fallen off the wagon a little bit #and i’m feeling really vulnerable and low and i’ve had enough of my job that i’ve cried when i got home like three days in a row #and to come on and see ‘lost tour visuals’ #is really Not It #i’m like.....So indescribably sad #and i get it!!!!!!! i get it #and i was expecting it anyway #but to see it in a piece of official media really just hit me in ways i wasn’t expecting #so here i am in bed having a nice little cry again #Anyway pls ignore the typos i’m not retyping anything #sometimes i feel i should write in a journal but it always feels too formal #also i have perfectionist anxiety so it would never happen anyway lmao #but writing in the tags is just so perfect for trains of thought consciousness #how could anything else measure up? #Anyway i gotta go to sleep so goodnight everybody #s