#Also for legal reasons: Xtina and Jess this is not about you you’re the only fucking real ones and I don’t deserve y’all <3

[blurglesmurfklaine]

literally what is the point of having friends if all they fucking do is disappoint you

#Also for legal reasons: Xtina and Jess this is not about you you’re the only fucking real ones and I don’t deserve y’all <3 #personal #I don’t wanna be perceived #but I need to scream into the void ya know?? #like I’m so exhausted of existing #and I’m throwing myself into my work to not think about My Life #BUT THAT TAKES SO MUCH OUT OF ME HAHA #and I’m tired #and disappointed #also to the handful of people I would die for on here this is not about you #I hate that you’re all so far away #and the people near me just keep letting me down over and over 🙃 #like fuck me if I drop everything for you but ask that you make an effort once a year right??? #bc I’m just not a priority in anyone’s life #even for my fucking birthday #just like #one day a year #is it too much to ask that for one day a year I get back a fraction of what I give #I just want to fast forward this next week #I don’t want to turn 24 I don’t want to celebrate I don’t want any of it #but it’s fine #I’m only sad on my stupid tumblr blog that I don’t have the heart to deactivate #and I can compartmentalize that! and just. keep existing in the real world I guess #IF I FUCKING MUST 🤪