#I don’t wanna be perceived

[coolcaribiner]

lesbians who are terfs will never make any sense to me crying about the supposed exclusivity of the “female experience” like my brother in christ she experienced an othered, lonely, confusing childhood where she was made to feel inadequate in her gender, sexuality, or both just the same as you and instead of letting this unify you against patriarchy you just enforce it on other people to maintain the sliver of “power” you think you have. how do u not see how dumb this is oh my god

#like trans women are hurt by the patriarchy they don’t benefit from it you fucking coconuts bc even if they were ‘men’ (they’re not) #they’d be men who cannot live up to the standards set by patriarchy!!!! this is feminism 101 yet some people run their mouths like it’s 1912 #like dude. she’s doing gender and sexuality in a way cishet society hates just like u are. please be fucking smart and realize attacking her #only hurts YOU and loses YOU the same bodily autonomy u wanna deny her for the sake of “’saving ur lesbian brethren’ or what the fuck ever #you’re hurting cis women trans women intersex people EVERYONE because you’re so obsessed w feeling special for being perceived as a woman #and then being harmed for it that you can’t even see that the women you hate so much experience the EXACT SAME SHIT. use ur brain!!!!!! #anyways sorry read some takes from some lesbians in LC and got way too heated. god bless u trans dykes i love u trans dykes #idk what to tag this so. ya #posts

[sambuchito]

Seeing how men go trough life passively not aware how much the patriarchy benefits them and being coddled well into adulthood and not being able to complain lest you be considered a bitter cunt who’s making it up makes me insane actually

#seeing even pretty progressive men not challenge this narrative makes me wanna kill someone #I’m envious of male being considered the default and women be perceived as difficult or dramatic like ik sorry I don’t like rape jokes #and don’t even get me started on the work aspect. guys will not put effort and still be considered along women who excell. bro kys! :) #radfems and terfs don’t even fucking look at this post #mine

[crybaby-bkg]

“I heard somewhere that laying down with your head hanging off the edge of the bed won’t make you gag.” You suddenly blurt out into the room, eyes glued to your phone. Bakugou blinks a couple of times at the tv before he turns to you, confusion written all over his face as he replays what you said again in his head.

“Hah?” Is all he asks, eyebrow cocked as he grunts at your little mischievous face. You’re practically hiding behind your phone now, shoulders hiked up as your eyes glance back to what’s on your screen.

“Lemme see.” He doesn’t wait for your explanation, only grabs you by the ankle resting in his lap and drags you closer to him until he can peek at your screen. You don’t try to hide it from him though, staring at him with wide eyes as his own buck at what you’ve been reading and watching this whole time.

“You really wanna try that? You know I don’t mind if you can’t get it all the way down your throat.” Bakugou says it so nonchalantly, almost as if his words don’t bring a torrent of memories and sex flashbacks highlighting the forefront of your mind. You nod quickly though, glancing at the screen once more before you look up to meet his devious smirk.

…

“Ya sure you want this?” Bakugou asks from above you, stripped down to his birthday suit, cock hanging hard and heavy above you. It’s a daunting sight really, all thick and veiny, precum dripping from his slit down onto your naked chest. It creates an almost humorous shadow against your skin, but to Bakugou, the sight only makes him harder.

“Fuck yes.” You nod quickly. You’re laying horizontally on you guys’ bed, head hanging off of the edge as Bakugou stands above you, grabbing at his base, ready to slip into your mouth the moment you grab at his thighs for support. He taps the mushroomed head against your lips a few times, smears it across your cheeks to watch your tongue follow the taste of it, before finally sliding himself into your mouth.

It’s a foreign feeling really, unused to being upside down while his cock grazes the inside of your mouth, but it feels good against your tongue. Makes your eyes flutter shut as you moan, digging your nails into his skin to urge him to sink even deeper into your mouth, your throat.

It’s an easy glide, he realizes, as he pushes further than he ever has. You choke a little, a small sound, but hold onto him even tighter when he tries to pull away. His balls graze your nose, the scent of them making your thighs clench together as you moan, the vibrations against his cock damn near bring tears to his eyes. Bakugou has to hold onto your tits for support, body caving above you as he fucks his cock in even deeper, groaning at the bump it creates against your skin.

You both wonder why it’s taken you so long to try this, and if you’ll ever go back to being on your knees again.

minors/blank/ageless blogs dni

#omfg tis is so dirty don’t perceive me #I had this idea the other day based on a tt I saw #and someone in the comments was like #hang upside if u don’t wanna choke 🫶🏼 #like omg hello???? I’m gonna take that and run w it #anyway I got flustered writing this for some reason omg #okay bye guys I’m gonna shower and try to read some stuff on here :) #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[deityofhearts]

I honestly just don’t get how people default to thinking southern accents are like unserious and unintelligent, I know I live in a bubble and I’ve never been outside of the south so like my world view is skewed but like idk I can’t like conceptualize hearing someone’s accent and going “your accent is too stupid and silly for you to have a brain” like ???

#deity dialogue #sorry I’m rlly half asleep #obvs my worldview is different cause I’m southern I’m surrounded by southern ppl I hear the accent all the time #so it’s like normal obvs but idk it still baffles me #idk if I ever go north are y’all gonna be mean to me cause I talk in a way that y’all perceive as stupid and lesser than how you do?? #I’ve already mentioned that even here we aren’t safe from the ‘haha youre a dumbass southern hick’ statements #which is rich cause like bitch who are you to be talking you live here too I don’t wanna hear you call me a red neck cause you’ve been here #for a long ass time to and I’m sure if you went up north they’d be on your ass the same way they’d be on mine #like what gives you the right? #like I will say also that I do make fun of the accent but in the way that lexi and I will be heatedly talking and get more southern with #each word and that amuses and delights us like idk it’s fun to look at someone who just said one word in a more extreme southern accent on #accident and repeat it back to them #but like at the end of the day we like being southern we don’t think there’s anything wrong with it or like inherently worth mocking #plus there’s a difference between two friends being silly and strangers telling you you’re a stupid redneck hick :) #this is also coming from someone who compared to other southern ppl doesn’t have the most strong southern accent (it’s there onvs but ya #know) and I still have to deal with this shit :/ #sorry I need to go to bed and shut up no one caressss

[artigas]

The Spring semester has officially started, which means I am now fully preparing for my comps, a two-hour oral exam that I have to take in order to officially become a PhD candidate. I have to read ninety books by May, latest August : )

I’ve gotten started with the most exciting of my three reading lists: the Gothic!! Basically, my reading is going to be a journey of getting a comprehensive overview of all things 19th-century British/Victorian literature, 19th-century Latin American literature, and the Gothic. I’ve already gotten started with my first five books, but I thought the other day: I feel like video reviews of each book would be a fantastic way to remember the important information about each of the readings. Nothing crazy or long, just a 2-5 minute review of the book and why it’s important if you want to become a student of the literature.

Anyways, I like this idea a lot and I feel like sharing it on my old bookstagram or on TikTok would be a nice way to get a dopamine hit for the reviews — if anyone were to watch or react to my reviews, I know it would make reviewing the books all the more fun!

But . . . And this is a big but . . . Then that would mean that I’d be opening myself to being perceived. And that’s really embarrassing to me. Like, what if I make a video and nobody gives a fuck? That’s so embarrassing. What if I make a video and a student or someone in my program sees it? Mortifying. It really does seem fun and a small part of me really want to do it but man, oh man, would I be scared!!

#personal #i am still struggling to kill the part of me that cringes #in my little fantasy world I’d just upload videos regularly about my journey to becoming a phd candidate #and invite anybody who wants to learn more about vampires and ghosts and period romances to follow along and read with me!!! #or just enjoy the reviews : ) #and the videos would be easy and low-key no bells or whistles but it would feel like a joy to post and share #and the sense that ANYONE was watching would also help keep me accountable with my reading schedule and not fall off the band wagon #that all said i probs wont do it bc I’m too afraid dude!! I don’t wanna be PERCEIVED

[ghosts-cyphera]

You can tell when you’re shadowbanned you just have to look if your post shows up in the tags so if you don’t see your posts there the chance is good that you are (I’m speaking from experience and from the depths of the shadowban haha tumblr hates me)

biggest fear 🥲

something I’ve noticed with the tags though is that if you use too many it bans your post from showing up! for my ghost content the limit is 4-5 tags, but I think it depends on how popular the tags that you are using are.

so especially new writers out there: when you post something that you use tags ( #simon ghost riley x reader ) for, after publishing your post click on a tag and then ‘search all of tumblr’. then sort by ‘latest’ to see if your post shows up or not.

(this is on the ios app. the options might be different on other platforms.)

if your post doesn’t show up, keep removing tags (you don’t need to repost, just save changes) until it shows up or I guess if it doesn’t you’re shadowbanned.

we love it.

anyhow, thank you for this! I hope your shadowban lifts soon (do they lift? I damn sure hope they do. gosh.) 💗

#lo talks #it’s silly how much I worry about not being seen by people #all while being perceived makes me really anxious too #one of my favorite songs (my ugly by cloudfodder) has a part that goes: #‘what a lovely desire to require the approval of strangers I know I’ll never see’ #and another that goes: #‘I don’t care if it hurts me I wanna be worthy - the world to be thirsty for me’ #changed my brain chemistry #lo answers

[pekodayz]

and i lie mentally to make myself feel better but that just bites me in the ass oughhh

#i don’t wanna be a failure I’m petrified but i have been lazing around for 2 weeks like what the hell is wrong with me😭!!!!!! #graduated no. 4 out my class and I’m just sitting here on the toliet trying to cry one out for once omg #kinda anime🤓 nah. #i srsly need to fix myself. im being perceived by my own instructors prob. terrifying aughhh i rly hope they understand #im so sick eughhh and merch buying doesn’t even help I haven’t been able to enjoy it at all #this is so hard im scared but i need to do smth abt this now #i hate honors system. that can literally fuck so many students up im so serious #sorry i needed to vent somehow #hashtag embarrassing !

[flowercrowngods]

i was tagged by the most wonderful @bethespark to do a wip folder ask game, but i literally only have one WIP (and it’s all i ever talk about) because if i don’t finish something, it dies. i used to have a few WIPs in the witcher fandom, but those days are over lmao.

you know the drill: post the names of all the files in your WIP file folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it.

time travel au

not like i need an excuse to ramble about this, but hmu if you want more snippets or whatever lmao.

i wish i had more wips. i wish i had more words. but i’m gonna be kind to myself and admit that the fact i actually have a wip in this fandom is a bit of a miracle in itself. it’s enough.

tagging, without pressure or expectations — and i know this has been going around so idk who did this already: @thefreakandthehair @withacapitalp @waywaychuck @misha-bawlins @zerokrox-blog and everyone who sees this and wants to ramble about their wips — seriously, if you’re a writer and want to ramble about your wips or share snippets, feel free to do it and tag me, i’d love that 🤍

#honourable mention: tell me about the light behind my eyes. the witcher fanfic #because despite everything i don’t think i’ve really abandoned that. it will get an ending. once i’ve healed #tag game #ask game #honestly i need someone to be like hey dio you don’t know me but i hear you wanna hear about my fic?? and i’d be like YES THANK YOU I DO #i always feel so bad about tagging because i’m a shy boy who doesn’t want to be perceived but at the same time i see you ugh #tag games are always one step too close to sincerity and sincerity is scary #dio rambles

[pararai]

dumping this here too . mwah

blood version under da cut (implied sh warninggg)

swag

#mimi art #i don’t wanna tag this w source/chara tags bc those bitches scare me . don’t perceive her

[thehappiestgolucky]

buggy husbands,,, bugsbands :)

#hollow knight #doodles #hk markoth #hk xero #crimson nails #hk gijinka #hollow knight gijinka #do not perceive me i have been thinking about them #rotating them in brain #ughghghg they make me soft #sorry for no doodles uh. monster hunter happened #again. god i love the game and i wanna ramble about it #sorry to like all my hollow knight followers my constant original brainrot is invading the bug territory #i can *hunt* with *NPCS* now i’m so happy you don’t understand- #anyway back to husbands. i just think they’re neat #it’s the: #._. smart x :) dumb for me #i’ve been thinking of them cuddles. markoth resting his head on xero’s chest cuddles #hearing his strong heartbeat and knowing what an amazing but it comes from and it relaxes him and lulls him to sleep easily #and i do headcanon markoth to actually have a decent sleep schedule and xero is the bad sleeper. but there’s just something nice about hi #*him. feeling nice and comfy in his smaller husbands arms knowing there’s nothing but care

[smol-cryptid]

It’s my bday and I’m officially 30…

#I feel kinda…indifferent? #that’s not the right word but it’s something similar #idk I just feel so so about it #no emotions #I’ve just been feeling blank about it the whole day #almost like I don’t wanna perceive it

[padfootastic]

Sunday Snippet

tagged by by @narcissa-black-supermacy and since i’m incapable of anything except our first cousins au rn, here’s a lil sneak peak.

“Now, I realise Walburga has a—different style but—“

“You can say gaudy, Atta, it’s okay,” Sirius adds cheekily.

“—but it isn’t right that you’ve not been taught how to take care of all this,” she runs a gentle hand down Sirius’ tightly braided hair. “A girl’s hair is, after all, one of her most precious possessions.”

“Take care of all this?” Sirius echoes, wondering what she meant by that. Of course, she knows that most of the reason her hair is the way it is for convenience’s sake. Tying your hair in a loose ponytail or a messy bun only works if you’re a white girl with silky straight hair. Less than ten minutes of keeping her hair unbound and it became pricklier than a thorn bush. She also knows that there’s ways, if she so chooses, that she can look different. She’s seen the other brown girls in her schools noticed their intricate styles that looked nothing like her own strictly ordered, slicked back hair.

Euphemia cups Sirius’ chin with her thumb and forefinger, guiding grey eyes to brown. “You’re beautiful as you are, Sirius, but you shouldn’t have to fight your body, not now nor ever. It’s an extension of yourself, don’t forget treat it as such.”

And as Sirius sits there, still horribly confused, over the course of the next hour, she gets a crash course in the art of taking care of curly hair. Not waves, like she’d always thought, but curls. She’d never realised how similar their hair types were—Effie atta preferred clipping it in the back, daringly open—but after the time they spent together, Sirius was amazed.

Because her aunt was right—she had been fighting parts of her body for her entire life. Hair too unruly? Shove it into a brain or bun tight enough to cut off circulation. Breasts not cooperating? Squeeze into an extra sports bra on top, no matter the strain on her shoulders. Pimples? Popped on sight, no mercy. Not one thing was easy, or gentle.

She never realised her body could be made for gentleness, that she could learn to be so. Sirius had to grow up strong—kids were both cruel and thoughtless, a terrible combination for anyone who looked the way she did and spoke in the accent she had. Mama tried, but she had to spend so much time on her own self that it left little for her. Besides, she’s glad she didn’t learn from her mama; no one wants to be like Walburga, not if they didn’t severely hate themselves. What Sirius knows, she scraped together herself.

open tag for anyone who wants to show off a lil ;) go for it!

#euphemia potter #desi potters #(yes i realise i am stretching the meaning of sunday here but. well. gotta do what ya gotta do) #so it’s cheesy bc i was so high when i wrote this #i wrote like 1k yesterday #most of it for FoD and i’m scared to even touch that one #bc i just know. it’s so ridiculously flowery and emotion-y #ngl tho i do write better when i’m smoked up 💀 things flow much smoother #but yes #this might be my first snippet of this here? #so far i’ve only written potter family moments bc it’s somehow so easy? #(don’t look at me don’t perceive me) #but i really wanna write the bollywood style j/s moments too #anyway enjoyyyy this unedited mess #pen’s writing #first cousin sirius and james au when

[lyriumsings]

i haven’t watched TWD since they killed glenn like i don’t even think i made it thru that season lmaooo

#it just got too off the rails #and the killing of everyone for shock value like #the show became full of new characters that i didn’t give a damn about #bc they literally just got there lol #lyriumsings txt #but rick and michonne #i could be persuaded to leave the door open a crack #idk maybe i’ll watch one ep and see how it goes #i ain’t watching all those other seasons tho lol #and fuck that neagan spin off i heard rumors he’s maggie’s new LI and any universe #where she doesn’t immediately cave his head in #is one i don’t wanna perceive lmao

[b0rtney]

Just tried Zumba!! Had a full body sobbing panic attack. How do I move my body.

#like I literally cannot figure out how to move my body the way the instructor is #I need to do it so slowly to get the hang of it but by then we’ve done three more things and I’ve missed them all!! #somn at the intersection of perceived loss of bodily control and feeling so stupid and foolish #is there a slow motion tutorial or somn somewhere bc I don’t wanna give up but Jesus FUCK

[chibishortdeath]

So much happening in the world and in my personal life at once and I am completely unable to do anything about any of it. I am completely exhausted. I need to move out, but I can’t.

I’ve been stuck with a headache for a few months.

#text post #vent post #tw vent #cw vent #I’d say delete later but I don’t ever actually do that anyway #maybe I should go through vents and delete them Al #tbh I’m starting to realize that maybe never being allowed to do anything and never being taught how to do anything as a kid was neglect #it probably also wasn’t normal that I tried to be the ‘easy kid’ and avoid any perceived trouble as much as physically possible #I usually just sit in the furthest part of the house dissociate and try to immediately appear fine if anyone walks in and sees me #idk maybe I should just make that super self indulgent Simon’s Quest comic since it’ll probably be practically vent art anyway #he’s a little bit too relatable for comfort #and man I didn’t even fight Dracula to end up messed up how lame smh 😔 #I feel like I would just end up feeling guilty that I’m not doing something else more important though #most of the things I can do right now I can’t without guilt that stops me somewhere through #and that includes trying to rest haha yippie :/ #I can’t even draw the blorbo dead about it like it’s past that level of bad #I guess I shouldn’t even suggest doing anything I can’t do too #I don’t even wanna look at my instagram rn I can’t fix any of that either #idk if I should go into any details or not but I literally just can’t change anything #and I know I can’t get better unless I leave but I can’t leave and there’s nowhere to go #even places online are starting to become uninhabitable #we truly live in a time :/ #I’m just typing anything I think of as I think of it #tldr ​I am a terrible person who can’t get better because I’m stuck in a terrible situation and everything sucks basically #i’m exhausted #i feel so trapped #it feels like I have no autonomy or effect on the world at all #ugh I’m not explaining anything correctly enough anyway #I guess supper is almost ready and I should stop ranting at nothing #I’m basically just here to try to make it to 29 at least for the silly Simon game reference haha that is so pathetic

[foreveranevilregal]

This guy keeps asking me to video chat and since he seems incapable of getting the hint of me ignoring the question every damn time, I finally told him I don’t video chat and now he wants to meet up in person.

#personal #tbd #I know I said I didn’t wanna be single #but not at any cost #why do people insist on perceiving me visually #I wish not to be perceived #don’t make me try with my appearance #it’ll only make this go worse for you #I only video chat with friends and family #not people who are basically strangers