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dmclemblems · 6 years

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An Actual Update on what’s going on with the manga and all that

So my chaotic reactions to Koyasu Voices Levin And I Knew It All Along aside,

hi. So I have some really big stuff going on. I can’t really work on the manga, but I’m going to try. Here’s what’s pretty much going on with it:

Currently, I don’t have access to my desktop, which is where my updated rescans up to volume fourteen are. I still need to do my check up on 14-16 and do rescans as needed (but I can look through those and label them from the laptop). I do not have access to my books or a scanner. All of that is on hold.

I need to rescan some stuff from the next chapter too, so that’s also an issue. However, as you guys are probably aware by now, we also don’t have a translator at present, so we can’t release chapters anyway (after the next one, FE5 chapter 1 and chapter 36/37). The plan was to continue cleaning in the meantime, and I’m going to be looking over the non-updated raws I had stored on a cloud service on my laptop to see what can be cleaned without rescans. I’ll be sending the pages off to be cleaned as needed so all the cleaners can work on the manga while I’m stuck in this situation.

Unfortunately, this also means we will probably not be releasing any chapters - even the translated ones. Because my cleaned pages of 36/37 are on the desktop, I don’t have access to those, and I won’t be able to release chapter 1 of FE5 for the same reason (and because of any potential necessary rescans, which are usually done to fix a page having slipped a bit during the original scan or because I can lessen the spine blur).

Depending on my plans and how they go and what happens, it could be up to the next three months before I can do anything - if not more in the worst case scenario. Unfortunately with how chaotic my situation is, I really don’t have set in stone plans. I will be posting a few cleaned panels/pages here and there for progress and to help hold y’all over, but it’s the best I can do right now being out of range and access to my stuff.

I’m sure it’s annoying at this point how many things come up that prevent us from progressing, and hell, believe me when I say it’s been gnawing at me that we’re technically a year behind schedule as is due to that last hiatus, but while I keep to myself for the most part regarding my life, I’m currently in absolutely no position, physically, to release much. ChildofDain has mentioned it on the SF forum, but like she said, my life isn’t getting better - it’s getting worse. Unfortunately it’s prevented me from getting this stuff out for a long time and I’m exhausted of it, but luckily I don’t know how to quit because I’m too attached to these projects and I’ve put too much of my life into them already to stop without seeing them completed.

I’m also going to do my best to clean what I can on the laptop, but it’s a lot more difficult to do so without my desktop and having super easy and instant access to everything I need.

But we all know me dying is the only thing that’s gonna stop me from getting all this shit done, so even if it takes ten years, I’m sorry it’s taking so long and I’m still not dropping it.

Repeat, I am so sorry it’s taking so long. For everything. All of this. At this point with how long it’s been, I’m going to feel bad about this forever even when we’re finished with Oosawa and probably FE5, but ffs I’m too dedicated to stop now. But that’s also why I’m willing to post some stuff here and there! I love FE4, FE5 and all the mangas and I’ll do whatever I can to make Jugdral more accessible to everyone.

In the meantime, I hope you all plan to support Kaga with Vestaria Saga when it comes out next year!

Fala Scans is alive. I’m just in the worst position of my life that I’ve ever been in and it’s getting in my friggin’ way.

#Fala Scans #JD is s o r r y for all the constant delays that happened out of nowhere and all at once #and after we had such good momentum ;o;#Please enjoy the new Heroes banner if you play Heroes in the meantime #Please enjoy Jamka too. Please enjoy and love every ounce of Jugdral #Please also love Koyasu for voicing Levin and think of me when you hear it :P #Again though. JD. Yes that's me. Is super sorry. For like. Everything.#DCE Comments

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starship-squidlet · 3 years

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Twelfth Night: Chapter 9, Ladies Dancing

Summary: ✨ S T A R W A R S ✨

Word count: 2,441

Disclaimer: Twelfth Night Preface

Tag list: @the-cowbi @prettyinlimegreenboots @fifty-for-the-racer @wormsiewithablog (ask to be added/removed)

A/N: Yes, I really did cry through 2 hours straight of Star Wars Episode IX Rise of Skywalker. Star Wars means a lot to me, okay? xD (I did wind up super dehydrated afterwards and had a headache for the whole next day as I tried to replace my fluids. It was a time.)

Previous chapter: Maids A-Milking

Next chapter: Lords A-Leaping

Elaine smacked her hands down on the top of Finch’s console—which she could barely see over—making him and Mush jump. “Finch! What are you doing Sunday after the show?”

“Uh… Driving home for Christmas?”

“We’re going to go see Star Wars if you want to come.”

“I can’t. I’m driving home.”

“Okay. Mush, do you want to come?”

“I’ve never seen a Star Wars movie, so I’m going to pass.”

“You’ve never seen a Star Wars movie?”

“No. And when people react like that, it makes me want to never watch any of them, just to make a point.”

Elaine narrowed her eyes and stared at him. “Whatever. Weirdo.”

Alan appeared behind her. “Who’s a weirdo?”

“Mush.”

“Definitely.”

“Thanks,” Mush glared at Alan as he wandered into the wagon house. “So, you guys are twins?”

“Yeah, why?”

“You don’t really look alike.”

“Yeah, we both look like Alden and our mom, but not much like each other somehow.”

“I definitely would have guessed that either you or Alden or the two of them were the twins, not you and Alan.”

“We get that a lot.”

“Do you guys have twin telepathy?”

Elaine rolled her eyes. “No. That’s not a real thing.” She stuck her hands in her apron pockets and rocked back on her heels. “So, do you want to make this your first Star Wars movie?”

“Absolutely not.”

She shrugged. “Fair enough. Hey, JoJo!” she turned and trotted along behind the other boy as he headed into the wagon house. “Do you want to go and see Star Wars with us?”

“Who’s us?” JoJo asked.

“Uh… Me, Alan, Alden, Will, Jack, Crutchie, Elmer, and I think Sarah and Davey?”

“Sounds fun! When are we going?”

“Sunday after the show? It’ll be kind of a long day, and it’ll be a push for me and Crutchie and Sarah to get there with laundry, but we should be able to make the last showing for the night.”

“Okay! I’ll be there.”

.*.*.*.*.*.

Sunday was the last show day before Christmas. They had three full days off in a row for Christmas: the Monday that they normally had off, in addition to Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. JD had finished his finals and Elaine drove him to the airport to fly home early on Sunday morning, meaning that the apartment would be quieter than normal when they got home that night, between everyone else’s exhaustion and his absence. The Sunday show felt like the longest show they’d done since the start of the run. Everyone was jittery, full of nerves and anticipation for the day off.

At intermission, Jack, Albert, Race, and Elaine were crammed into the little alcove that housed the washers and dryers, doing their best to ignore the sulfuric stench seeping out of the washers’ drain pipes.

“That is just… so bad,” Race pinched his nose and stepped away from the pipes.

“I think,” said Albert, leaning forward to fruitlessly peer down the pipe, “that part of the drain must sit too high or at the wrong angle to drain properly, and that means that water just sits there without draining and just, like… stagnates.”

“You’d think with how much we run the washers it would flush it out, though,” Elaine grumbled. She was fiddling with the tiny bulb in the bite-light around her neck, trying to adjust its position so she could see better when using it.

Albert shrugged and leaned back, waving his hand in front of his face as if it would do something about the stink in the air. “I don’t know. That’s just my guess.”

Elaine shrugged, dropping her bite-light to adjust the dress laid out on one of the dryers for quick-change purposes.

“Hey, Finch!” Jack called, stopping him in his tracks. “Are you coming with us tonight?”

“I can’t,” Finch groaned. “I have to be home by seven tonight for family Christmas stuff.”

“Aw, are you sure?” Elaine leaned around Jack to peer at Finch.

“Yes,” Finch sighed. “If I’m late, my mom might actually kill me.” He glared at her. “I told you this the other day.”

“Did you? Probably.” Elaine sighed.

“I’m going to try and go see it Christmas Day,” he said. “But no spoilers before then!”

“Yeah, I’m going with my brothers tomorrow,” said Albert.

“Race, are you going tonight?” Finch asked.

“Nah,” Race shrugged. “I don’t care enough about Star Wars to brave the theatre on a weekend evening right before Christmas, which also happens to be the weekend directly after the movie opening.”

“That’s pretty valid,” Elaine admitted. “I wouldn’t for anything less than Star Wars.”

Race took a half-step away. “Star Wars isn’t worth it”—

“You get back here and say that to my face, Race Higgins,” Elaine snapped. She started to move towards him, but he danced away and Albert and Jack both reached out to stop her—Jack with an arm around her shoulders, Albert by grabbing the side of her apron.

“Them’s fightin’ words with Elaine,” Albert laughed.

“You bet they are,” Elaine grumbled. She jerked backwards and turned away to sneeze into her elbow, both of the boys taking a step away from her on each sneeze. “Ugh,” she groaned. She blew her nose and put hand sanitizer on, then went back to fiddling with her bite-light.

“Well, none of you better spoil it for me,” said Finch.

Elaine held her hands up. “Spoiler ban until at least after Christmas. Probably longer, depending on how many people see it over the break.”

“Good,” Finch nodded. “I guess, since I can’t go to Star Wars tonight, I’ll take a bad joke.”

Elaine’s face lit up. “Really? Okay, hang on, let me think of a good one. Um… What’s big and grey and can’t fly?”

“I don’t know. A whale?”

“No. Well, technically, yes, also true, but the answer I was looking for was ‘parking lot’.”

“Why the fuck would I have guessed parking lot?”

“I don’t know, but that’s the answer to the question,” she shrugged. “Have a good show!” She slipped out from between Jack and Albert, lifting her bite-light to her mouth as she stepped backstage. Seconds later, they heard spluttering, and she returned, face twisted into a grimace. “I got hand sanitizer on my bite-light…”

.*.*.*.*.*.

“I can’t believe you’re all going to the movies tonight.”

Elaine, Sarah, and Crutchie traded glances, then grinned up at Medda from where they were seated on the wagon house floor, waiting for the laundry to be finished. They had changed out of their uniforms, into far more comfortable street clothes, while waiting, and had already clocked out upstairs so they wouldn’t have to go back up in the crunch of time they had to get to the theater. “Medda, come on; it’s Star Wars,” Elaine laughed. “I personally won’t make it more than a few more days without seeing it. I’ll explode.”

Crutchie laughed. “That’s a definite possibility here.”

Medda shook her head, grinning. “That’s commitment.”

“The wash is almost done, and then we’ll be out of your hair, Medda,” Sarah said. “We already clocked out; we just need to hang up the shirts and tights and we’ll be gone.”

“We thought we timed it better to when the wash would be done,” Elaine sighed.

Before anyone could say anything further, there was a buzz and a chime from the direction of the washers. Elaine and Sarah leapt to their feet and Sarah darted towards the washers while Elaine helped Crutchie to his feet. Medda laughed to herself and headed off, shaking her head, to turn off the lights on the stage and in the house. By the time Crutchie was up and heading towards the z-racks and drying rack on the carpet, Sarah had pulled everything out of the washer and dumped the load into a basket. She shoved it to Elaine as the second washer began to chime; Elaine took the full basket over to Crutchie and the racks while Sarah filled the second, and they got to work.

Soon enough, all of the dress shirts had been hung on the z-racks, while all tights, fishnet stockings, dance briefs and undershorts, show bras, socks, and the brightly-colored elf leotards and undershirts were draped over the drying rack. The men’s undershirts went back into a washbasket and were tossed into a dryer with the sweat towels. Elaine powered on the washer while Sarah ran onto the stage to call to Medda that they were leaving, and then they were scurrying down the outside stairs, into the parking lot, and piling into Elaine’s car.

“Everyone buckled?” Elaine asked, not waiting for an answer as she shifted the gears and started driving.

“Wait!” Sarah giggled, clicking her seat belt into place.

“Elaine, have I never been in your backseat before?” Crutchie asked, pulling a beanie baby spider with giant, sparkly eyes out of the pouch on the back of Elaine’s seat.

“Uh, probably not,” she said. “We usually stick you in the front.”

“Ah, sorry!” said Sarah.

“No, it’s okay!” Crutchie said. “You get motion sickness. I don’t.” He reached into the seat pouch again, this time producing a large plastic box full of half-melted crayons. “Elaine, I have some serious questions about some of the stuff you have back here.”

“Wait, what did you find?”

“Melted crayons? Which kind of explains why it usually smells like crayons in here, actually…”

“Oh, I forgot about those. A lot of that stuff is leftover from the babysitting and nannying jobs I did back in Boston.”

“Like this spider?”

“Oh, no. He’s my friend. Give him here.” She reached her hand back, and Crutchie put the spider in it. Elaine set him on the recessed part of her dashboard behind her steering wheel, in front of the gas gauge. “Well, that makes it a little hard to see how much gas I have, but that’s okay.”

Crutchie and Sarah laughed. “You know you’re crazy, right?” Crutchie teased.

“All the best people are,” Elaine sang out as she pulled into the theatre parking lot. “Wow, it’s busier than I was expecting.”

“I hope we can still get tickets,” said Sarah.

“Alan said he and Jack and Davey got tickets for us already,” said Elaine. “He texted me before we left. They wanted to make sure we’d be able to get in.”

“Oh, good,” Sarah grinned.

Elaine parked the car and they all clambered out, heading for the theatre building. Inside, they found Alan, Alden, Will, Davey, Les, and Jack all waiting for them. JoJo and Elmer arrived just after them, and joined the group as Alan was talking:

“So, we weren’t able to get all of the seats together,” he said. “Most of us are in the third row. Jack and Davey said they’d take a pair of seats that’s a little further back, and then there’s another single seat a few down from the rest of us, but we’re going to try and just get the people in between us to swap for that one.”

“Okay,” Elaine nodded, accepting the ticket Alan handed her.

“Can I sit at the end of the row?” asked Crutchie. “It’s easier to get in and out, and I don’t want to have to walk past a bunch of people with my crutch.”

“Oh, yeah, Jack said you’d probably want that one, so I saved this ticket for you,” said Alden, passing the slip of paper to him.

“Okay, does everyone have a ticket?” Alan said. “Great. Let’s go. The movie starts in five minutes.”

.*.*.*.*.*.

When they all filed out of the theatre, Les and Alden in particular were chattering excitedly to each other, but the others were all talking over each other as well. The only one silent was, surprisingly, Elaine, who stood quietly tucked up against Will’s side, under his arm, eyes and nose red and cheeks tear-stained.

“You okay, Laine?” Jack teased.

“Shut up,” she sniffled.

Will laughed and rubbed her arm. “She got a little emotional during the movie.”

“‘A little’?” Alan repeated, laughing. “She cried for two hours straight through.”

“Wait, you could hear that?” Elaine gasped, mortified. “I thought I was being quiet!”

“You were quiet, just not… that quiet,” Crutchie laughed.

“Oh no…” she groaned.

“Why were you crying?” Jack asked.

“Leia,” Elaine sighed. “Look, Carrie Fisher was my idol as a kid. She’s the only celebrity whose death has made me cry”—

“Also for several hours,” Alan interjected.

—“and seeing her on the screen again was just… I mean, episode eight was bad enough, but this one was just… you know. Hard to watch, but in a good way. And the ending of a series, especially one that has meant so much to me as Star Wars has, is always an emotional time to me, so.” She shrugged.

“She also cried after the last Hobbit movie,” said Alan.

“And rewatching Return of the King,” said Alden.

“The last Jurassic World movie,” said Will. “Although that one wasn’t the last of the trilogy.”

“No, but it was traumatic,” said Elaine. “All the dinosaurs dying, and then the ones they rescued almost dying? Awful.”

“Don’t forget Detective Pikachu!” Alan piped up. “We went to see it for our birthday this year, and she cried the whole way home.”

“Can we not talk about how easily I cry please?” Elaine laughed. “Anyways, the reason I was crying then wasn’t so much about Detective Pikachu—even though that movie did make me weirdly emotional—I had a lot of things on my mind and the movie just kind of pushed me over the edge.”

“That’s valid,” Crutchie shrugged.

“Moving on,” said Jack, “who’s driving home with me?”

“You can either take Alan, Alden, Will, and Crutchie straight home, or take Davey, Sarah, and Les to the theatre to get Davey’s car,” said Elaine. “I’ll take whoever you don’t.”

“You should probably take the Jacobses,” said Jack, ignoring the twinge of reluctance in his stomach. “Your car is smaller. Don’t want to cram too many people into it.”

“Yeah, sitting in your back seat when it’s full is not fun,” Alden laughed.

“Okay, that’s fair; it is pretty tight back there,” Elaine agreed. “Let’s go, then. Davey, you’ll want to sit behind me; more leg room.”

“‘Cause she’s so short she has to sit inside of the steering wheel to reach it!” Alan called after them.

“Shut up!” Elaine yelled back.

“Make me!” Alan retorted, sticking his tongue out. “Oh, wait; you can’t! Your legs are too short. You’d never catch me!” He took off running towards Jack’s van in the distance.

“I hate it when he’s right,” Elaine grumbled.

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queensdivas · 4 years

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That Silly Wig!

I’ve never written a short so fast in my entire life of my God! Not a super long one because I have other stuff to do sadly!

I was deeply inspired by the recent drawing of @eileen-crys with her comic and I literally threw everything aside to write this! I gotta stop doing this kind of crap so much so I can focus on my remaining school work! But anyway. Hope you enjoy!

That lovely artwork of hers!

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Rounding up what Freddie calls the Deaklings was a lot more difficult than you could ever imagine. Have to make sure that Laura has her favorite stuffed animal, making sure Michael wasn’t annoying Robert too badly, then packing the diaper bag for Josh and his favorite toys. And all without a nanny! Super Mom right here! Though Chrissy has made it very appealing to finally get one but Robert and Michael are basically grown children so it’s a little easier now in a sense.

But today is meant to a very good day for the six of us which includes Deaky. We’re finally spending some family time by taking them out for a picnic in Bushy Park! We’ve been wanting to take the kids there for a while, yet our timing has been non existent. He has to do some filming for a new music video then on lunch he plans on taking a longer one for us to go.

“Alright kids! We’re moving in t-minus five minutes!” Yelling up the stairs for the thunder of children to start running down the stairs. Robert and Michael were the first ones down as Laura was slowly making her way down with her stuffed Fox Brian gave her when she was born.

Grabbing Josh's diaper bag from the floor to throw on my shoulder to then pick him up from his play crib. He wrapped himself around me as I picked him up. Kissing the top of his forehead as I walked out of the house, locking the door to see the kids are already in the car ready to go. Man did we raise some very well behaved kids! Until Robert and Michael start fighting over their toys.

We arrived to the set where they were filming their new music video as the kids beginning to bounce around in the backseat. I pulled into the parking spot to see Brian coming out with his hairs all in plastic curls in his hair and in his regular clothes.

“Uncle Brian!” Laura screamed as they all rushed out of the car to hug their Uncle. I got out to unbuckle Josh for him to cling himself on me again. Ever since Josh was born he’s always just kept himself attached to me and for a reason he hasn’t really had much interest in John which is very concerning. Maybe it’s just a very long phase.

“Well hello there Daisy! What brings you to our neck of the woods?” Brian picked up Laura who gave him a huge hug.

“We’re going on a picnic to Bushy Park!” Richard yelled as we began walking into the set for the hustling and bustling of the crew.

“Say. Where’s Chrissy anyhow?” Asking Brian as he put down Laura.

“She’s got work and the kids are off with my parents for the week so Chrissy and I could have some us time.” Nodding as we turned the corner for Roger to come strutting out in a school girl outfit! Trying to not laugh but Robert was already losing it.

“Uncle Roger is dressed like a girl!” He began strutting himself towards us to make Laura and even Josh giggle a little bit.

“Can’t believe you managed to round up all Dealings in such a fashion!” Roger commented as Robert finally stopped laughing at Roger’s getup. I’m guessing that this was either his idea or Freddie’s idea. But I’m definitely leaning towards Roger at this point because he’s really enjoying himself.

“Let me guess Roger. This was all you?” Asking as he took off his sunglasses to wink at me. Oh goodness it was! Well he looks fantastic! Brian took off his robe to appear in a pink nightgown and to slip on his pinky bunny slippers. Oh dear God! Wait. ARE THOSE JOHNS PINK BUNNY SLIPPERS!? I got John those slippers back in college because he always complained about his feet getting cold whenever he would come over for homework! He still kept them?

“Love the slippers.” Even one of the buttons is missing when Robert pulled them out when he was a baby. I know it seems stupid to be happy about a old pair of bunny slippers but ya know. We’ve been together for so long and with all our children, it's easy to forget the times when we would do silly stuff like that all the time.

“Mommy where’s Dad?” Laura asked as we could hear John and Freddie laughing down the hallway as Paul came out of the dressing room. He looked at us to roll his eyes and continue on his way to wherever he was going. Paul says that bringing our kids to the studio or the set isn’t a good idea, so John always makes sure we stop by to say hello.

“Dad is probably getting ready so we shouldn’t disturb him okay.” I told her as she held onto her toy fox a little tighter. She is definitely daddy’s little girl and at this age feels kind of empty without him. Trust me it’s difficult when he’s at the studio for ungodly hours and she wants John to read her a bedtime story. She doesn’t throw temper tantrums or anything, just gets all quiet and holds onto her fox a little tighter. Such as she’s doing now. Brian bought that for her on her first birthday and she loved it ever since. Trust me she will never let go of it even if her life depended on it. But it is pretty cute so who could blame her.

Roger began walking us to where they were getting ready with Michael riding on his shoulders and Robert walking ahead of us. Not sure why but Michael has always found Roger to be his favorite out of the three of them with Robert being close to Freddie since he spoils the living hell out of them for birthdays and holidays.

“How’s the music going Rog?” I asked him as we rounded the corner to hear Freddie laughing.

“It’s going great! Freddie’s got another hit in the works so it should be something pretty good as always.”

“Awesome! And how's Dom?”

“She’s doing fantastic! Plan on taking her to Switzerland for the week to celebrate our anniversary.” Oh my god when John and I went to Switzerland before Michael was born was such a wonderful time!

“That’s awesome! Tell her I said hello obviously.” Smiling to see Freddie coming out of their dressing room in their costume. Oh my god they look terrific! Freddie wearing a beautiful black wig with huge pink earrings and pink lipstick. He wore a pink sleeveless top and a black leather skirt.

“The Deaklings!” He laughed as Robert ran towards him and gave him a big hug. Like I said Robert was his favorite and Freddie loved Robert. Hell I think Freddie would want to be his godfather.

“Uncle Freddie! Did Dad tell you we finally got a cat!? She’s super fat, super furry, and the biggest green eyes!” Robert told him which made me smile.

“Never thought she would let you! What’s its name!?” Robert dug into his coat pocket to pull out his Polaroid of the new cat.

“Her name is Matilda!” He handed Freddie the pic as he smiled for the fuzzy cat on the picture. Yes we finally got a cat for the family because they’re easy to take care of, and hello! It’s a cat!

“She absolutely gorgeous. Oh my goodness she’s humongous! Can’t wait to meet her whenever I come over for tea!” Him and Robert began going off as John came out of the dressing room looking like an old lady with puffy grey wig. I couldn't help myself to start laughing for my husband to be looking like my own mother! What on earth is Roger doing to my husband!

“My dear husband what has Roger done to you?” Walking over to him as he placed his hand on top of Josh's head to kiss him. Josh turned himself to start reaching for John to scoop him up and give him another forehead kiss to leave a lipstick mark on his head.

“He’s brought me to misery.” He groaned as he leaned in to kiss me. Giving each other peck to see Robert giggling again at John with Michael just smiling.

“Dad why are you dressed up like grandma!?” Robert laughed with made Freddie laugh. Robert definitely gets Deakys witty comments and his ability to make everyone laugh.

“I think you look cool Dad!” Michael cheered.

“Thank you Michael!” John smiled at the children as Freddie grabbed their hands to start walking them to the set for the free food.

“I’m assuming you’re having loads of fun.” Keeping my eye on Josh for him to latch himself around John as I was hoping in the end. Phew.

“Darling of course.” He kissed my lips again as Laura was still hiding behind me. She squeezed her stuffed Fox trying to hold back her sniffling. Her eyes began to water as her sniffling continued to grow a little more louder.

“That’s not my dad, that old lady doesn’t look like dad..where’s dad..” Wait what? We looked down to see her starting to cry.

“THAT’S NOT MY DAD! WHERE IS PAPA!” Laura exploded in tears as we both looked down at her in confusion. She hid her face behind her stuffed Fox for not knowing her own father before her.

“Laura that’s papa! He’s just wearing a silly costume.” Trying to make her smile but it was not working whatsoever. She was still sobbing as John kneeled down to me to hand me Josh. He moved her in front of her so he could face her and try to calm her down.

“Laura, my princess it’s me! It’s just a costume and a little makeup.” He whipped her tears away so she could see John in all his makeup. She still wasn’t convinced so he ripped off his wig for his poofy hair to expand!

“See? A silly wig and makeup!” He smiled to toss the wig on the ground for her to stop crying. She moved the fox away from her face as she jumped into his arms.

“You scared me Papa!” He got up with her in his arms as her fox dangled behind his neck.

“I’m sorry Princess! Papa wouldn’t scare you on purpose!” John held her tightly as he was so upset he made Laura cry. Even though he’s busy with his work, he loves our little Deaklings with all his soul and hates it when they’re upset. Especially his princess.

“Mr. Hamish doesn’t want you to cry now does he.” He grabbed her fox to place in front of her so she could hold it again.

“No Mr. Hamish doesn’t want me to cry Papa.” She giggled as he put her down on the ground to hold her hand. He even went so far to scoop Josh from me so he could walk with his kids to the set. Grabbing his wig from the floor to watch as he walked away with our children laughing with them.

How is it even possible to love someone so much? I feel like my love for him could explode as he’s such a wonderful father, a loving husband, and one cheeky devil.

#john richard deacon #John Deacon #john deacon one shot #John Deacon x reader #John Richard deacon x reader #queen band #John Deacon Fluff #Freddie Mercury #Brian May #roger taylor #I want to break free #Was inspired by a God!#her artwork is beautiful #made me sob #love dad deacon #respect deacons privacy #my dude retired to fuck off

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tokki-geek · 4 years

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Hi again! It's your Secret Santa~

I've been well, thank you. I hope you have been too?

Oof. I was hoping that's where the inspiration for your name came from! Hehe.

Yes, OT12 all the way!! ♡

I actually haven't seen Suho all glittery so now I have something to look forward to!

Ajajsdkdfkkf. Universe 😭♡ I love that album! Omg. Every track is perfection! And Suho's Been Through EXplOration performance?? Wow!! 😍 someone recommended watching it and I've been grateful ever since.

As for me... Jongdae is my bias! He's actually my ultimate bias! For my top biases overall in kpop, Tao also takes a spot. When it comes to wreckers 🤔 I don't really get wrecked in the typical fashion but Baekhyun has wiggled his way in out of nowhere. He was really out here looking like that and singing like that in SuperM's One with no regard for our personal wellbeing like oml, let me breathe.

Favourite era has been and always will be Monster! Wow. What a song. What an MV. What a vibe.

Album is tough! They're all, you know, perfect.

I'll go with Don't Mess Up My Tempo because that's the album that truly made me fall in love with them and realise they're the only group that could ever hold the Ult position in my heart. I used to just buy their songs and appreciate their music but I remember going in a roadtrip while listening to the album on Spotify and it's like a light turned on. Christmas albums are definitely up there though.

... hey, this is meant to be about you, not me 😂

Let's hear about your preferences in fanfiction!

Are you hard or soft stan? Do you prefer fluff, smut, angst, or perhaps something on the darker side of things? Do you have a favourite fanfic that you would recommend? And you're a writer yourself, correct? Which of your own works would you recommend? Do you have any tropes that you absolutely hate? Do you have any that you just can't get enough of?

This got really long! I'm sorry! 😂

I hope you have a splendid day, however! Much love ♡

Oh, & keep your chin up buttercup, you're amazing.

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Hi Secret Santa! You brightened my dark day. Sorry you had to come here. Anon hate on @myeoning-call started to come even though I had closed it for 15 months... just to wish me to die because I like an idol that is younger than me hehehe... people are just sad. Anyways our convos won’t be seen by anyone as this blog is 0 follower/0 following.

So on a nicer note. You’re so nice and absolutely super thorough to make me happy. Wow. So many questions I absolutely love it.

I love your love for JD, that guy can wreck me hard always. And about Baek, every single EXO-L is secretly in love with that puppy... ^_^

So what fics I like from mine, well, I think one of my favs are Unintentional (Suho-Siwon CEO fighting over 1 girl) and Saviour (Baekhyun CEO AU push and pull kinda thing? [as you see this one was in my beloved main blog that I was forced to leave from all the hate *sigh*]

My fav fics from elsewhere are

Nuisance by @thesammtimes (Annoying werewolf Bekkie)

Daisy by @soobadnoonecanstopher (Quite dark Kyungsoo suspense AU)

Chronicles of the Wolf by @fairyscribbles (OT12 wolf series)

Slave to pleasure by @baekhyuns-abs (Quite dark Baekhyun vampire AU, not for the soft hearted)

I have may more but we can spend the whole day hahaha.

GUUUUURL glittery Suhito https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TYJniC-vWa8 I mean watch with caution. When is SM going to give him the merman AU that he deserves? Isn’t his concept water anyways???

So I am absolutely not a soft stan. I’m soft for other bands, but definitely not EXO, not after the Eve, Love Shot and Sweet Lies. They’s feel disappointed, if you asked me hahaha.

As for preferences, I do like everything. I do like fantasy, mermaids, faeries, vampires, wolves and all that kinda cringe stuff. I like all the cringe. Suhito is my bias, what can you say hahaha.

So, anything is amazing. I know how hard it is to plot and execute the writing.

You’re so nice and I hope you’re healthy and safe always ^_^

#secret santy

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lovelykristenbell · 5 years

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ET Interview with Jason Dohring after the revival

"It is sad to have to have a sacrificial lamb in order to keep the show pumping, but Jason's so gracious about taking one for the team," star and executive producer Kristen Bell told ET on Friday when she and her Veronica Mars co-stars stopped by the Comic-Con video suite. "But we love each other so much. We were mourning him on set." Dohring, who has played Logan off and on over the course of 15 years, admitted during a lengthy sit-down interview with ET that he didn't initially understand why his character had to die for Veronica Mars to continue on. It wasn't until he had a conversation over the phone with creator Rob Thomas that the puzzle pieces started to fit together, and he came to accept and understand his character's fate after some time. "When Rob said that, my f**king heart just fell out of my body. And I was like, 'Oh my god,'" the 37-year-old actor recalled. Here, in an in-depth chat, Dohring opens up to ET about the pain of saying goodbye to Logan Echolls, why he hasn't told close family members about the stunning ending and why he understands that fans will have opinions "one way or another" about how his story wraps up -- "even though it's not necessarily what people [may] want."

ET: What did Rob tell you about this season of Veronica Mars, since it ends quite tragically for your character in the end?

Jason Dohring: Rob called me. He was like, "We're going to do this. I feel like we're far enough along now," and he started to lay out the story of where Logan was. His idea was Veronica's in a bad place, we're going to see her move from there and into a different state. That's the the arc. And then he said, "They're getting married. Then, Logan goes out to check the car and Logan is killed in the blast." When Rob said that, my f**king heart just fell out of my body. And I was like, "Oh my god." He spent the next five minutes explaining the reasoning for it. And I cannot say that I understood or agreed with what he did. Rob wanted to shed the teenage drama aspect of the show with this on-again/off-again [relationship between Veronica and Logan] and as long as either one of them is still around, I feel like we've told those stories. They're kind of meant for each other. So I think, in that way, it's cool that Logan's exiting this way, and also that he served a role to get Veronica to reevaluate her life. I think that's really cool. Rob also talked about her being an underdog and that people really respond well when she is in that sort of determined state. I think that this really throws her in that and yet opens the door to a brand new life, a brand new setting, a brand new possible list of characters that she could be involved in. It really gives freedom and determination from her point of view for a new start anywhere.

You mentioned that Rob called you ahead of time. How long were you sitting on this secret that Logan dies?

JD: Before we even started shooting, by a few weeks at least, or a month or so. You're thinking with that secret the whole time, and then just getting to the end of that four or five months of production.

What was your initial reaction when you learned Logan wasn't going to survive the season?

JD: Devastated. And then for about three days, I was sort of sitting with it, digesting it.

Were you mourning a little bit?

JD: I had a hard time telling my wife because she has certain family members -- there are family members I haven't even told yet -- who are going to see it. They're so excited, and they're having these huge parties. I'm like, "F**k. I'm really sorry." That party's going to have a sour ending, at least on my family's point of view. I eventually came to terms with it, in no small part, thanks to Rob's explanation of it, and understanding it for the greater good of the show. I told a couple of the cast members who didn't even know. I told Percy [Daggs III] and I told Ryan [Hansen], and they were devastated. They'd come up to me hours later and be like, "J, I just can't believe it. Like, I just can't believe it." And I'm like, "Man, I know buddy. I know." At first, they were like, "That's bullsh*t, man. That's bullsh*t. I don't believe you." And I was like, "No man, it's true." And they just kept saying, "That's bullsh*t, man. You serious man, you f**king serious? Oh f**k." And then it hit them. It was crazy.

You've been in and out of this world over the past 15 years, playing this character for four seasons and a movie. Did you have any worries or concerns about Logan's fate?

JD: I have complete faith in Rob's ability to write the story and when you have somebody like Kristen Bell leading the show the way she does, that's the driving force. I think they're going to be super fine with whatever direction they choose to go, especially now that they have a new possible lease on where they can go with the story.

Had you thought about where you wanted Logan's journey to end at any point?

JD: Adding the military aspect to the role was very cool, and gave a new dimension and helped ultimately serve the story with Veronica's character. I think I did everything that I wanted to do with the role. I got to fully explore this guy in various ways.

It's disheartening to know that the Echolls family has basically been wiped out. Well, with the exception of Logan sister, Trina (played by Alyson Hannigan in the original series). It's almost like there's an Echolls curse.

JD: I know. And when you're on a drama for a few years, that's just what happens. Your character's f**king life just goes downhill.

Because Logan's death was such a violent one and we didn't see a body, fans may speculate or theorize plausible theories about why he's not really dead. Are you anticipating those types of conversations?

JD:I don't know. I mean those are all beyond me. I just hope ultimately the fans are pleased with the whole project. You can look at it that way, and understand that this will launch the series in a new way that's not tired or redundant.

It's hard to swallow knowing that Logan's death is the catalyst for Veronica to finally make that leap and work through her inner turmoil through therapy, even though he had been pushing her all season to look inward. In that sense, Logan is a martyr. He ended up serving that purpose.

JD: There was another scene where we're on a couch. I don't what was understood from that scene, but I feel like Logan was, at that point, willing to sacrifice their relationship if it meant that she'd be happy with her life, and that she would move on. Maybe move out of Neptune, do something that she wants to do and fulfill her potential. I think that's pretty sweet that he would be willing to sacrifice their relationship for that. It's a heroic death that sparks new life.

You're so positive about it all! I'm like, I just need to curl up in a ball on the corner and cry.

JD: Yes, I know. When you're in a corner and you're crying, it's like, what do you do then?

If this is the end of your time with this character and the show, are you ready to say goodbye? If there is another season, do you hope there's room for you to come back in some way?

JD: I think that would be a question for the team, you know what I mean? If that could fulfill any purpose in a story... I have to see what they want to do, but I assume that it would be happier times. Flashbacks to a good life? I can't really speculate, but I would hope it would be something joyous if it were to be anything.

I do want to ask you about Veronica and Logan's wedding at the courthouse. How did you feel knowing that they at least had a moment of bliss, however temporary it was?

JD: It's so funny that you ask these questions and I never really think about it as an audience member. (Laughs.) 'Cause I'm never thinking, when I see it, "Veronica and Logan really had their time..."

It was a long time coming for a lot of Veronica Mars fans...

JD: I think so too. I always felt that they were so awesomely compatibly incompatible, you know what I mean? In the best way. Both had strong wills, which is just fireworks ready to happen. She has care for the world and he has care for her. She has ways that she wants things done and it's not necessarily the way he'd do them, but yet there's this love [between them]. And Logan's relationship with her, everything rolled into it and made it something special. I think that's what you see in the audience appreciation for it.

Was any part of that wedding scene ad-libbed?

JD: No, it was all scripted. Rico was doing his thing. He was crying. Kristen was telling stories about her real wedding in a similar setting in a courthouse. She showed us a picture of her literally crying and [her husband] Dax [Shepard] is laughing at her. I thought that that was pretty funny.

Did you ever think that Veronica and Logan would ever reach a point in their lives where they would both actually agree to say "I do"?

JD: Hopefully, they were on that track. And I think giving Veronica that scare toward the end got her to have this mini wake-up call. But I go back to that conversation on the couch right before. I thought that was noble: I'm willing to sacrifice us, but I want you to be happy. And if you're not going to be happy, then goodbye. When I was rehearsing that scene, I was f**king crying. As much as I love you, I care more about you than that. Brutal.

What was the toughest or most challenging scene from this season?

JD: I think that. Working on that. Sometimes it would really hit me as we're rehearsing, like, what he's really saying is he wants her to leave him right now if it's not going to make her happy, because that means more to him than us.

Logan's journey has been the most dramatic out of all the characters on Veronica Mars. Has that been gratifying for you as an actor seeing how far he's come?

JD:Yes. I appreciate variation. To start out being the antagonist and then getting this romance that was never intended to be. Then feeling that so strongly. Then that's all on the rocks and shredded... And then the military, and then on top of that having a ridiculously sharp sense of humor and looseness of morals. All that is such a joy to play as an actor. I was always trained to look for those choices, so that's where I would try to branch out and make some of those decisions where I could.

I was rewatching the pilot recently and Logan is a completely different person from then until now.

JD: He'd be like, "Where are the hookers? Where are the boobs?"

What do you want to say to fans after they've finished watching the season and may need a second?

JD: I don't know. I mean, they'll have thoughts one way or another. I think if you really step back and you look at what was told and where the show may be going, and how this opens up the door for Veronica... this relationship between Logan and Veronica is just one aspect of Veronica, right? But her helping the world and solving cases and her personal happiness, I think you may see more storylines there. I think that was what really helped me understand the whole thing with Logan -- putting it in context for the future.

You're so glass-half-full about it all, when you could be like, "Ugh."

JD: I know. I was like that. But if you really think about it, you can't just play that over and over. (Pauses for a moment.) I mean, you can... Part of the cool thing is Veronica Mars is a smart show. Rob is very creative and he has his ideas, and I think that people like that. At the end of the third season, the CW came up to him and said, "We're probably going to end the show at the end of this third season, so if you want to wrap it up, you can do that." And he did the exact opposite. He f**king left it open. And that's probably the reason that the movie was made, which is the reason that season four comes. Really it ties back to the creative aspect of an artist who has integrity to his vision. So I respect that and people respect the result of that, even though it's not necessarily what people want all the time.

#jason dohring #veronica mars #kristen bell #hulu #veronica mars spoilers

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themutantunderground · 6 years

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John reacts to Hope’s first date fic, please?

Ahhhh!!! Dad!John being super dad, yes this.

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“John? You’re busting the couch.”

John automatically lets go of the arm of the couch, pulling his fingers out of the indentations his grip had made. “Right. Sorry.”

Clarice smirks at him. She’s sitting on the other end of the same couch, reading a book, her toes tucked under his thigh. “I thought you said you were okay with this.”

“I am.” He is. He’s totally fine with Hope going out on her first date with some random kid he hardly knows. Or well, he didn’t really know until Hope said she was going on a date with him. Now John knows all about Gavin Winters and about his past (runaway from Tennessee), his powers (talks to computers and cars and other stuff like that), and his personality (nerdy/shy/nice? he doesn’t talk a lot).

He hates to admit it, but it’s still somehow a little different with Riley than it was with JD, this whole first date thing. JD has gone on a few dates now, and they were all nice kids and everything turned out fine (though everyone secretly thinks he’ll one day decide to date Aurora), but this is Hope. His little girl. Though not so little anymore, since she’s fourteen now. She’s still petite though, like her mother. She looks so much like her mom, except for her eyes. She has John’s eyes.

And what if this shy, nice, nerdy kid hurts his little girl? Yes, she can take care of herself, but she’s John’s daughter. And he loves her so much, he always has, since the moment she entered the world with those brown eyes, pointy ears, and fluffy purple-blue hair. He hates the idea of someone messing with her emotions, toying with her, hurting her.

Yeah, Gavin had best be a complete gentleman, which John had made clear before he let the two of them leave the cabin after Gavin stopped by to get Hope.

“They were just going for a walk by the river,” Clarice says again, guessing at what was making him frown at the door.

“They shouldn’t be down there alone. And it’s been two hours.”

“There’s always people at the river, so you know they’re not totally alone,” Clarice said, making a face at him, “Honestly, you weren’t like this with JD.”

“I know. I’m trying not to be.” He was protective of JD, yeah, but he also didn’t break the furniture. But Hope is his youngest and his daughter and she gets so attached so easily…he can’t help but worry about her.

He hears them coming up the path before they’re anywhere near the cabin, and he does his best to not listen in. He doesn’t want to eavesdrop on them so he looks at Clarice. “They’re coming back.”

“Stop spying!” Clarice chides, reaching over to flick him on the arm. “Leave her alone.”

“I can’t help it,” John says, “I can’t turn my ears off. Distract me?”

“Now that I can do.” She leans over and kisses him, her hand sliding up his arm. She monopolizes his focus, to the point where Hope and her date are on the front porch before he realizes it. The door opens, and Hope is standing in the doorway, her eyebrow raised.

She turns to her date, the grey-haired boy with black and silver eyes, and then seems to make a conscious decision to not be embarrassed. “They do this a lot,” she tells Gavin with a fond sigh that says she loves her parents even if they do make her crazy sometimes. She turns to John and Clarice and smiles. “We’re going to go play basketball with the twins and Roberto and some other people,” she says, “So you guys can go back to being all lovey-dovey, if you want.” With a wicked grin, she darts out the door before they can say anything else, taking Gavin with her.

John wishes she could have stayed little forever, but his and Clarice’s girl is turning into a sharp-witted, amazing young woman.

#future family thunderblink au #fanfic #prompt fill

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thescrewedrooger · 7 years

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Chapter 7

Both Seth and I woke up to Emma “OH MY GOD, that’s why you wouldn't reply to my texts” I groan “Why the hell did I give you a key to my house?” then I asked “What time is it” she said cheerfully “10:00”. Poor Seth was embarrassed, even though he had nothing to be embarrassed about. I introduced them with sarcasm “Seth, this is Emma, Emma, this is Seth” I was surprised at Seth’s response, “It’s great to meet the person behind the voice, I still have the message, you want to listen?”. For the first time ever, I mean ever, in the all the years we have been best friends I have seen her embarrassed. I started laughing, this was awesome, she glared at me. Still amused I say “This is the first time I have seen you embarrassed!” she then snapped “Shut up” then says straight after, “What did you two get up to anyways? Why did he spend the night?” I was just about to talk when Seth jumped in “Not that it’s any of your business, Mandy didn’t fuck me at all let alone fuck me hard” he said that with a hint of anger, Emma picked up on it, and just said “I think I should go, I will talk to you later.” I just said “I will call you later”. Once she left, I asked Seth “Are you OK?” he said before starting to cry “No” I just pulled him in for a hug and let him cry. Once he settled down he just said “I know Jess and I were having alot of troubles, but the chance was there to fix them before Emma added that to your message, I can’t help but find Emma a little at fault” I just said to him how I see it. “You may hate me for saying this, but I’m going to say it, yes what Emma done was wrong, but from what you told me, Jess was already looking for a way out. I think Jess was causing alot of the problems to get out of the relationship and make you seem at fault.” he didn’t like hearing that, but he needed to hear it. He just shook his head and said “I think I better go” then walked off, didn’t even give me a chance to say goodbye or anything. When Seth left, I called Emma. She answered “Hey bitch!” I returned the sentiment “Hey Bitch!” Emma asked “What was up with Seth?” I didn’t want to give to many details, I’m not like that, so I just said “You should apologise for the message, remember how you were happy they broke up? He’s blaming you” Emma seemed shocked “What did I do wrong?” I lost my shit, I probably shouldn’t have “Are you fucking kidding me? That message was not the whole cause of the breakup, not by a long shot, but it didn’t help, and came at the WORST possible time. When you make a mistake, at least own up to it and apologise”. She just said “You are right, I will apologise, can I come around now and apologise?” I said “You can come around, but he isn’t here, he got the shits with me and left probably only half hour after you”, Emma asked “What did you do?” “I just told him my thoughts, and he didn’t like it” I said it rather nonchalantly, but deep inside I felt terrible. I expected him to not like what I said, but I think he really needed to hear it because he was beating himself up like it was all his fault, I just didn’t expect him to leave with the shits". Emma and I talked on the phone for about an hour, I was getting hungry so I said “Well I’m getting hungry, it’s lunch time, so I’m going to go, talk to you later” she agreed “I’m hungry too, talk to you later bitch!” and she hung up the phone. The only thing that would make me forget about Seth was Spirit. I went down to his yard, caught him, lead him back to the stable, where I put his bridle on him. I got on him bareback. I spent a few hours going for a trail ride, when I got back home, the sun was just starting to set. I let Spirit back in his yard, took his bridle off, I gave him his feed and headed back inside. Tonight was definitely going to be an early night for me since last night didn’t turn out to be. I checked my phone quickly before putting it on the charge, hoping to hear from Seth. Nothing. I go to bed, it took me a while to get to sleep because I was worried about Seth.

Before I knew it, a whole week went by, it was Sunday again, still no word from Seth. I sent him a few texts during the week and no reply. I didn’t call him. He usually replies to texts. I mumbled to myself “Fuck it, I’m going to call him” I dialled Seth’s number, it starts ringing, he actually answers, “Hello” “Hey, so did I really offend you that bad that you wouldn’t talk to me?” He sounded a bit defeated “I did have the shits with you, but not for the whole week, a few days” “So why not call or text me?” “When I wasn’t working, I was thinking. Alot. I was nowhere near ready to hear what you said, but I’m glad you said it, I really need to apologise, so I’m sorry” “No worries, now get your arse over here and give me a foot massage, then everything will be forgiven!” He chuckled slightly “Are you really that easy?” I simply said “Yes, you have 15 minutes to get here!” He sounded amused “Ok, I will be there” he hung up. It felt good too be back on good terms. He was true to his word. He was there within 15 min. Even though it was only 2pm, I felt like a drink I poured us both a Jimmy, I honestly think Seth was only drinking it to be polite, I know his drink of choice is JD. I put another movie on, we laid on the couch opposite ends again, my legs are on top of his, he starts to give me a foot massage again. He says “You really like my foot massages” I’m super relaxed and just say “I love your foot massages”. After a couple of drinks each, we were both pretty relaxed. I was now laying against his chest, his arms are just relaxed over my tummy. I felt his breath against my neck, I have to admit, I was a little turned on, then I feel him start to kiss and softly nibble my neck, starting from under my ear, down to my shoulder, all I could think “I so wanna jump his bones right now”. While he is kissing my next, I feel his hands work their way up to my breasts and starts massaging them, I let out a slight moan as my breathing quickens. He starts sucking on my neck now, I know it will result in hickeys but it feels way too good to worry about it. All of a sudden he stops, I’m confused, I look at him, he has a smirk on his face and says smugly “I’m glad you enjoyed it, but all good things come to an end” I am not impressed “I don’t beg, but the decision you just made, it will come back to bite you in the arse big time!” still smug he replies “Why’s that” I getting smug now, our faces are close together now, our lips are only millimetres apart “because I don’t get mad, I get even and there’s also karma, I’ve heard she’s a real bitch!” I start to walk away. As I am walking away, I said “I’m going to bed now, you can stay in the spare if you like, or if you go, just don’t let the door hit you on the arse on the way out!” I got changed into my pj’s and went to bed. It took a while to get to sleep because I was left high and dry, I guess I will find out in the morning if Seth decided to stay or go.

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puckinglandon · 4 years

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Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you

Landon never knew how nervous he could get until now. Over the years he was able to decipher the difference between his anxiety attacks and his nerves, and was able to figure what he was going through now. It wasn’t anything to do with being on stage, it being the last show. No, it had something to do with what he was planning on doing towards the end of the show. Still having some time to go, he stood backstage with everyone, jumping up and down to calm himself down and not give himself away, hoping it just seemed like he was nervous for the show.

cameron had known since the beginning, and damn had the excitement only worked up since he got the text from landon. situations had changed, sure, but his happiness over what was going to go down hadn't. he was making his rounds backstage, checking in with everyone to make sure everything was good to go, talking to all the families and friends they had allowed in the wings, before he ended up making it to landon, a wide smile on his face. he rested a hand on his shoulder, giving it a squeeze, "how ya doin' man?" he asked, the smile never wavering.

Looking up, Landon couldn’t help the small smile that graced his face as he stopped his movements, nodding his head. “I’m… I’m doing good. Yeah, pretty good.” He said, a laugh escaping him. “I shouldn’t be this nervous, it’s just like every other show, right?” He said, hands coming up to fiddle with his in-ears that rested around his neck. That was what he kept telling himself at least, every time he glanced around the room and his eyes would fall on Julien; that it was just a regular show like every other one that they just played. “How about you? Excited to play in front of everyone?” He grinned, eyes training back on to Cameron.

cameron chuckled softly, wrapping his arm the rest of the way around landons shoulders, "i mean - if you want to look at it like that, sure it is. you're just taking a brief intermission in the middle of the set and that's that." he chuckled softly, patting the younger males back before he took a step away, but staying close so they could keep their words quiet, "oh for sure, these shows are always the worst - nerve wise, since it's everyone you know, but it'll be great. changed the set up a bit, added some oldies in there, good stuff. but - not about me. you got everything you need, yeah? everythings all set? any changes at all? lighting, anything?"

Landon laughed, shaking his head. “Yeah, intermission in between our two most emotionally songs. I picked the best time to do that.” He sighed, hanging his head for a moment before picking it back up. “Yeah no, everything’s set. Gina has the... ring, gonna come to the side when it’s time to give it to me.” He muttered, glancing back up towards Julien to make sure he didn’t hear him. The last thing he needed was him finding out and ruining the surprise.

"oh come on, man. you did pick the best time to do it. it's perfect," he reassured, giving him a gentle nudge to the arm to hopefully pick him out of his funk even just a little bit, "okay, good. that's a good plan, yeah. - if you need anything else, i'll be floating around, so come find me, okay? literally anything you need, i got you."

“Everyone’s going to be crying, can’t wait for that. Sorry if everyone is emotionally unstable during your set after.” He joked. Placing his hand on the others shoulder, he gave him a soft smile. “Seriously, thanks man. For everything.”

"oh god, yeah. i had to calm briar down earlier, she was already getting emotional and i didn't want julien asking questions," he laughed, shaking his head, "oh, we plan to give them time, we have the venue for the night, so we're for sure not going to just follow that up right away. i don't even know if we're going to be able to do y'alls set justice." he grinned, looking to landon, "oh please, don't thank me. you know i'm more than happy to help you out in any way that i can."

“Yeah, Briar was texting me earlier, I could feel the emotions through the phone. Sometimes I feel like her and my mom are more into this than me, if that’s even possible.” He said with a laugh. “I’m sure you guys will be do great. It’s not much different than our regular set. Just you know, something big happening in the middle.” Landon joked, glancing over at the other boys. “Hey, I’m gonna go talk to JD and Parker real quick, make sure everything’s good to go with it all. “

"oh god yeah, i'm sure you could. - i bet your mom is just dying waiting for it all," he agreed, laughing along with him, "hopefully. not trynna fuck up in front of all these people we actually know. - i think that's enough of a change up, no?" cameron joked back, slipping his hands into his pockets, "for sure, man. let me know if anything needs to change, like i said," he nodded once, sliding back into the wall, his eyes scanning through the small crowd of people.

julien was practically bouncing. as tired as he was, as they all were from the rest of the tour, things just felt fucking incredible. getting the keys to the new place ( well, from briar that was ) was a goddamn dream come true and life just seemed to be coming together beautifully. having all their friends and family in one place for a final show before they got to really rest and start on their next journey was a great way to send it all off and the anxiety that had plagued him at the beginning of tour was a distant memory. seeing cam, he damn near floated over and grinned, waving at landon like a toddler before his boyfriend went off to the other boys. “excited, cam?” as hard as the past few weeks had been on the weston man, he seemed to be looking better than he had in a hot minute.

cameron stayed to the wall for a bit, enjoying just being in the company of everyone without the actual interaction. but seeing julien come over, the happiest of grins on his face, caused cameron to do the same, chuckling a bit at the other males actions, "hell yeah, man. you?" he asked, brows slightly raised. he hadn't been home for long, and fuck some of what those few days brought him, but the rest of it - had been actually really amazing, "home shows like this get me good, but it's all fun, so fuck it, yeah? my uncle, his friend, rose and - uh - yeah, they're here, so that's fuckin' awesome. it's gonna be a good time."August 21, 2020

“feels amazing to be home. loved touring, but it’s just... getting to go to the new house, have the yard for the dogs... it all feels surreal. just- yes. this show is gonna be fucking mental and i’m so pumped.” he put his back on the wall like cam, leaning into him some because as they’d all learned over the past few months- he had no concept of personal space. “i bet it’s nice to have your uncle and his friend here. they didn’t live here before, right?”

"doesn't it? yeah, i'm sure that's fuckin' great, dude. you gotta let me come by sometime, i wanna see the new place, i'm sure it's awesome. i'm super happy for y'all, you deserve this good, y'know? the house n' all that. - last run, eh? it's kinda sad, i'm gonna miss seeing you idiots all the time," he laughed, nudging his shoulder into juliens arm, glancing over to him. "oh yeah, it is. they didn't, no. they were up in new york, visited sometimes, but my uncle's one busy ass dude, so, it was hard to," he noted with a shrug, "but they moved down here with my cousin so it's been good to see them again."

“definitely! we’re puttin’ a studio in and i can’t wait til that part’s done. we wanna get some new shit recorded.” julien listened, understanding completely because he definitely already missed the whole tour dynamic ( even if he didn’t miss the cramped bunks ). “we miss you too. like crazy. shit- that’s definitely an improvement. getting to be around him and your cousin? that’s awesome. is your cousin older or like- little?”

"oh shit! hell yeah, man, that sounds like it's gonna be fuckin' awesome. if you need recs for gear or anything, let me know. i have a whole shit ton of stuff that i didn't end up using for mine in my basement too, if you want to dig around and take some shit. wall pads n' all that," he noted, nodding rather excitedly. "i can't say, however, i miss having a cramped ass bed. - but yeah it is, it's really cool havin' them. he's a little guy, five or six? i'm shit with ages. but, he's my dude, i love him."

after telling mikey that she'd be back, gina quickly hunted landon down. she reached down into her purse, feeling for the velvent box, making sure it was still there even though she knew it would be. as soon as she found landon, she immediately punched him in the arm. "scared, potter?" she teased, crossing her arms over her chest, "i mean like...i'd be afraid of stumbling getting down onto one knee but that's just me..."

Landon glared and JD and Parker as they moved away laughing before turning his glare to Gina. “If I’m Potter you’re Malloy. Bleach your hair.” He said, poking her side. “I’m nervous enough as it is Gina, don’t make me even more nervous. I had a nightmare last night that I forgot to put my bass down and tripped over the wire as I went to kneel. I don’t even have a wire attached to it like that.”

regina rolled her eyes, "i think i'd make a really shitty blonde." she chuckled, "oh my god...i'm sorry..." she laughed a little more, "i would die laughing after making sure you're okay if that happened...even though it won't..." she smiled, "so do you know exactly what you're going to say? have you practiced it?"

"That's the whole point. Make you look worse than me." He said with a shrug, before rolling his own eyes. "Oh come on, have a little sympathy for me. In the next few hours, my life is about to change. At least I'm not backing out, right?" Landon laughed, slinging an arm around her shoulders. "Yeah, I may or may not have practiced it few times while he was with Briar setting up the house. I just... don't want to screw it up."

regina shook her head, "were you not blonde a while ago?" she teased, nudging him in the leg with her foot. "yeah, you're about to be fully tied down...couldn't be me..." she said, obviously joking before immediately turning to see if she could see wherever mikey had ended up. she looked back at her brother, smiling, "good, good. do you wanna practice it on me or do i not get to hear until you do it?"

"I had blonde highlights. That's different, besides I'd look good if I went full blonde." He said, nudging her right back. "I am... Honestly I'm not nervous about that, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I'm just nervous I'm gonna screw up." Landon shrugged, before shaking his head. "Nope, it's a surprise. If I start now I'm going to cry and I can't cry yet. We have like... ten minutes or some shit till we go on.”

regina chuckled, shaking her head again. "well, i think you've got this...and you won't screw up...much..." she stuck her tongue out. "i'm excited. i can't wait to help you guys plan the wedding. i'm gonna make sure i catch that bouquet and then i'm gonna harass mikey every day until i turn eighteen." she shrugged, a playful smile as she glanced out again and finally spotted her boyfriend. "i'm gonna go get ready to watch you guys." she stopped dead in her tracks as she was about to pull away from him. "WAIT...speaking of that..." she pulled a folded up piece of poster paper out of her back pocket that was hidden under the shirt of landon's that she'd stolen for the show. she unfolded it and held it up, showing that it read "JUSTICE FOR 18". "since you guys decided to rob me of my favorite song." she teased.

Landon couldn't help the small laugh that escaped him. "This family is the worst at pep talks, I swear." He grinned, only imagining how Mikey is going to react when that time comes. He nodded his head, himself realizing that he should make sure everything is set and find the rest of his band, his eyes training on the paper she pulled out. He rolled his eyes, finally noticing what shirt she was wearing, before letting out a loud laugh that was bound to attract attention. "What is your obsession with that song? Listen, if he says yes, I'll sing that song before wildflower." he joked, before pulling her into a quick hug. "Thanks for everything, Gina. I seriously wouldn't be able to do this without you." He muttered, before pulling away and letting her go to Mikey, taking a deep breath and walking to the side of the stage.

regina smiled, folding it back up, "i don't know...i just like it...it's fun to just dance and wild out to." she said. letting out another laugh, she nodded, "yes, if he says yes, you guys have to play 18. it is law." she hugged him back, rocking back and forth slightly. "i love you, lan. you've got this and i know he's gonna say yes. he'd be dumb not to." when she backed away, she playfully punched him again, "break a leg...but don't trip." she chuckled, waving before heading off back into the crowd to find her boyfriend.

Fast forward forty minutes later, and Landon could feel the nerves coming back. They were nearly done with their set, two songs left to go. Once the cheers died down, he stepped up to the mic. “This is fucking ridiculous.” He said, looking over at his bandmates with a laugh. He waited for the laughs to die down again before looking to the side of the stage, smiling as he saw Regina. “I gotta say, I never thought this moment would come; we’d be at the end of our first ever tour, a tour we got to do with some of our good friends, ending it with our families in a place that means so much to us, the place where we had our first gig.”He grinned, pausing for a second. “This place and this night is so special to us, to me, I figured… why not make it even more special?” He said, ignoring the confused looks coming from most of the crowd, including Julien. “Everyone knows that… well it wasn’t the easiest beginning for me and Julien. No brainer, really. So many people thought it would be too much for me to handle and I’d back out. Clearly, they were wrong.” He grinned, looking over at him. “We have been best friends for… well since I could remember. There isn’t a memory that I have that doesn’t have you in it. And I wouldn’t change that for the world. I still remember the day I came back from camp, saw you with JD and Parker and I just… I instantly knew how I felt. I was only fifteen but looking back at that moment now I think I’ve been in love with you since then.”

“You are my best friend. You are the one that I can go to for anything, that can calm me down with just a hug. You listen to me, you build me up, you make me laugh, you make me cry, you are everything I could ever want. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t wake up and think how happy I am that you’re in my life. And there’s no doubt in my mind that waking up to your face every day is something I wouldn’t mind continuing for a really long time.” He paused, taking a deep breath he moved off to the back for a moment, slinging off his bass and putting it on the stand. On his way back to the front of the stage he motioned to Regina, a nervous smile on his face as she handed off the box to him. He waited till she walked back off in the crowd and to their family, before talking again. “Julien. The absolute love of my life, I know we’re young, I know we’ve been together for just a few months, but honestly, if you think about it. It’s been years we’ve been together. We’ve just made it official.” He shrugged, a laugh escaping him as he looked over at him. “I love you so much, and you are the only one I can ever imagine myself taking this next step with. There’s only one thing I want to change about you, and that’s your last name.” He stepped away from his mic, only to move closer to Julien, shuffling for only a minute before kneeling down on one knee and opening the coveted box in his shaking hands. The venue was so quiet you could hear a pin drop, he had no doubt everyone would be able to hear the most important words to ever come out of his mouth next. “Julien Avery Schuester. If nothing lasts forever, will you be my nothing? Will you marry me?”August 22, 2020

Julien felt on top of the fucking world. Tour was over and despite the sadness he felt over that, it was the first time the world had felt so clear and bright. Their home was coming together beautifully, they all had ideas for the next album... Their lives had changed so much over the past few months. If he’d been told a year ago that they’d be on stage for so many different venues and then, there in front of their families for final time he’d have called someone crazy. But, it has become a reality. He’d already been in his emotions through the last few songs. Parker killing The Only Reason, getting in his own feelings through Ghost Of You... Then him and Landon with Amnesia. It was arguably the most feelsy part of their set especially with Best Years next. Landon had started talking and Julien had taken the opportunity to get water for a second, turning back to Landon with confusion on his face when the tone of his words changed. What the hell was he doing? Taking a few steps closer he listened, eyes getting shiny even before it hit him what was coming. No... He wasn’t... Holy shit. When Regina came forth and handed him the box it finally clicked what was actually happening and his hands flew over his mouth. Landon was proposing. The few seconds it take to form words were probably agonizing for everyone in the room but he was going to fucking bawl- okay? “Landon,” He managed, voice choked. “Fuck- yes. I’ll marry you. I-I love you.” The second Landon moved to stand he practically launched himself at him, openly sobbing as Parker and JD screeched in excitement in the background.

The few seconds it took for Julien to answer the was most agonizing for Landon. He could see the tears in his eyes though, and once the words left his mouth it felt like his whole world fell into place. He could feel his own tears threatening to fall as he stood, getting an arm full of Julien thrown into him; not that he was complaining one bit. It was like the weight that he was carrying ever since that day in Disney disappeared as soon as Julien said yes. Landon couldn’t help but let out a breathy laugh, wrapping his arms tight around Julien. He took a moment for themselves as the arena erupted in screams of cheers and clapping, getting the idea that Julien had indeed said yes and Landon was nervous about nothing. It was only when he felt two other pair of arms wrap around them that he finally pulled back, only enough to reopen the box. Shaky hands grabbed at the ring, before reach for Juliens hand and slipping the ring on, secretly thankful that it fit. The grin only grew as he looked at his fiancés face. “I love you.”

His friends arms around him were barely registered, Julien’s main focus having gone tunnel vision on Landon. The ring fit perfectly of course, and it was beautiful. He leaned forward and kissed him, arms wrapping around his shoulders. As much as he didn’t want to pull away, he did, and he still couldn’t control his tears. “You little shit, you’ve been planning this for how long?” He choked out with a small laugh.

landon laughed, arms wrapping around Julien's waist and pulling him close, completely forgetting they were on stage. He happily kissed back, feeling like he was on top of the world. He sighed as Julien pulled away, keeping his arms around him. "Ah.. since the end of june? I uh... I asked Cam to add this date." He admitted, ducking his head as he heard the laughs echoing around the venue.

#//i had to post this bye

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survivoremathia · 7 years

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Ep. 13 - "Basically now, its time for 'Ye Old Big Moveth'" - Ali

LOGAN

I would have won. Fuck u tn Ali.

This is insanity. I think in my fear I might be able to flip people to Lydia or Trevor. Because I'm angry. AND IF I GO, I've got one HELL of a voting confessional that's gonna make Lydia not last much longer. Bye bye. You're a sweet person, but no matter what the tarot cards say, you're a threat here.

OWEN

So! Logan tells me that Ali said that Trevor wanted me out this round???? Which is okay. Because I kind of wanted him out too except I wouldn't vote for him. Except now apparently he's voting me?? Anyways I go to ryan and tell him that Trevor is gonna win but I don't wanna vote him and then right afterwards Trevor texts me and says.... 'I'm voting you out' lmaooooo Good one Ryan!!! You sure played me!!!!!! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaa!!! So I told Trevor it's okay and that I already knew but that I wouldn't write his name down and idk it's just frustrating??? I'm in a bad position. I can't talk to anyone without them telling someone else except for maybe Logan. Which means the only person I have to rely on is Trevor but he's also like....going. To win. ?????? Idk what Ryan's plan is? He told me he couldn't beat JD or Ali. And there's no way in hell he beats Trevor. So idk what he thinks he is doing. Like why does he want Logan or me out and then leave three people who beat him in the final six with him when it's most likely going to be a final three....????? That doesn't make sense to me. But it's okay!!!!!! :) My focus this round I guess has to shift from targeting someone else to just making sure it isn't me. Fun. I'm gonna lose

LOGAN

I had my anger directed at the wrong girl, apparently. Hopefully... hopefully Lydia won't play her idol on JD. I'm praying so much. If she does, that idol is going to RTP, and we're screwed. I snaked on Ali and Trevor and it backfired, too. I told Owen about Trevor targeting him... maybe... I don't know. I want Owen to trust me, so I gave him The Herb (moly), so hopefully he won't get too pissed. I'm gonna vote off JD because she's #cominforme. Bye hun.

OWEN

IM LITERALLY BEING SO MESSY BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO I HAVE NO WHERE ELSE LIKE I MY BACK IS AGAINST THE WALL???? So I talked to Trevor and he says him and Lydia will vote for JD. But I couldn't help myself so I went and talked to Ali and told him that Lydia and Trevor decide everything?????? Oh my god????? Help. I'm being way too messy but like.... let's see what happens.

RYAN P

Lydia and I are running this game. This round is super tricky and Lydia and I need to set ourselves up to be in the best possible position at the f6 and i think we figured it out. owen and trevor say they have logan....and jd and ali say they have logan....so rather than pick a side and be wrong we are going to split ourselves up...im going to vote owen/trevor with jd and ali while they think logan is voting that way...and lydia is gonna vote with owen and trevor for jd thinking logan is voting that way...essentially logan gets to decide what happens tonight...if logan votes out jd then i just act like i did 4 rounds ago and freak out about keeping owen and trevor around....if owen goes then its all good. lydia has an idol which means next round when jd uses her oasis thing if she is still here we can use that idol to keep us safe at f5 and f6. the only thing that would fuck this plan is if they target me or lydia which we are both going to try and prevent. wish us luck!

TREVOR

https://youtu.be/3BceS13kH3k

ALI

https://youtu.be/-EF8P2K3xRU Hey, this is the video for last round that didn't upload in time.

Whew, this vote is developing. Basically now, its time for 'Ye Old Big Moveth'. What it'll hopefully be, is moi,JD,Logan and Owen voting out one of Ryan/Lydia/Trevor, who are a scary trio. Its the right move for me, as those three are all SUPER scary at the end. Furthermore, if it falls through, I have my idol to save myself next round :) Furthermore, Ryan has been spreading that I'm a threat! Like, little old me? I'm a wolf in sheep's clothing, where the zipper has gotten stuck! Like I could be a threat, but I've probably flubbed stuff up. But I'm SOO excited that people think I'm a threat. Who knows, maybe I'll pull this off! :)

OWEN

So there are some things in the world that have happened that could be true or false. Here is the scenario where nobody lies to me: I've successfully convinced Ali, JD, and Logan to vote for Ryan, and I also made Ali think it was his idea. I went to him and I was like...listen look at who is in charge! And they've told me all this stuff about you and JD! And also pls don't tell! Thanks! And he was like who do we vote... And I faksjhjdfs I was thinkign Ryan bc if Lydia used her idol, she can't give it to Trevor and she prob wouldn't idol Ryan - but before I could say all of that, Ali brought up Ryan himself!!! :') Wow this mist!!! Honestly Ali is a smart guy. Except for his mouth. Because he also....told me....he has.....an idol. sajkdfhadskjfadskfhakjshfkjsahfdkjshfkjdshfkjshkjdfhskjdfhkjsdhjkdshdj fuck? I literally ok. He lied to me at first and then. One sec lemme find the tea. [5:24:50 PM] Owen (Island of Shade Host): Do we have any idea what happened to sams idol??? [5:26:01 PM] Ali: I think it died with him :( Like, the hosts said he tried to pass it off, but it was too late. [5:26:17 PM] Ali: Fun Fact: I had no idea that he had an idol, till after he was voted out. [5:26:40 PM] Owen (Island of Shade Host): Omg imagine if you had gotten it though that would be so great awwww [5:26:54 PM] Owen (Island of Shade Host): He never told you??? [5:27:21 PM] Ali: No :( [5:27:31 PM] Ali: Can I backtrack...? :) [5:27:40 PM] Ali: I was gonna keep it under wraps [5:27:48 PM] Ali: But its BURNING ME UP INSIDE [5:27:56 PM] Ali: I have it :) Please tell NOBODY [5:28:58 PM] Owen (Island of Shade Host): HDJDJDJD ARE TOU SEEIOUS [5:29:00 PM] Owen (Island of Shade Host): Ali I'm dying ????? If he's telling the truth then first of all wow that was easy to get him to spill and second wow what the fuck. Whew!!!!!! So I talked to JD and Logan as well and they're allegedly all on board to do Ryan. Hnnnngh Then on the other side, Trevor apparently talked to Lydia who talked to Ryan and somehow they all decide to save me and vote JD instead because of JDs item in the labyrinth and because they're annoyed by JD and stuff???? fsakjhfdsjkds god I seriously am in too deep. Which potentially means: JD and Ali vote Ryan, Lydia, Ryan, and Trevor vote for JD, and Logan and I are the swings. That's where the problem comes in because it means....someone is gonna be pissed. But I really do think it's best if Ryan goes, becayse Trevor and Lydia are gonna want to keep him over me, but they might not want to keep Ali and JD over me later. Plus, I'll earn JD and Ali's trust. And then next round, I potentially have options again because JD and Ali might still think that Trevor is a threat, and I can tell Lydia and Trevor that it's my plan to split votes between JD and Ali next turn. It'll all be okay. Hopefully. But that all only matters if everyone is....telling the truth. Which is unlikely. I find it hard to believe that JD and Ali will keep their mouths shut. So I'm still assuming I'm leaving tonight - but if I do, at least I can say I tried!!!!! I'm feelin a coup lfsjhdfsl let's see if the universe feels back.

LYDIA

https://youtu.be/UE6PddGcAU8

OWEN

Ryan was apparently trying to get Logan to flip so idk. There's a third possibility: me and Logan vote for Ryan, Trevor and Lydia vote for JD, and Ali, JD, and Ryan send me home 3-2-2. But if that happens oh well. I don't want to just vote JD.

Someone's getting blindsided. I hope it's not me.

ALI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Md6VtXyFwY My video confessional from this round. This video is older than my written confessional, so should probably be put first.

So yes, this tribal will go one of three ways. Ether it's me, Owen, or Ryan. I think that the idol, oHHHH sorry, I think that Lydias idol is going to get played not Ali's. (ALI HAS AN IDOL, Bless Sam, if he's just have stayed with me and Ali this would have turned out so much different) Bless Ali too but he is young and I think that we both trusted Lydia longer then we should have. I think that shes going to play the idol and ether me or Owen will go home. Or she'll play the idol for Trevor and Ryan will actually go home. That being said it's all assuming that myself, Owen, Ali and Logan are all voting together and that we are a solid group. This vote will show that or not. And let me tell you something, if you have said at the start of the merge that my final 4 was going to change to Ali, Owen and Logan, I would have laughed in your face. https://68.media.tumblr.com/97226d044462bda6b48745561f125a60/tumblr_o5yc9zGZ8N1uzh224o1_500.gif And I guess after tonight we will see what happens. The only other option I can see if if Owen and Trevor aren't actually at odds and Owen is still working with them. Then I'm going home tonight, then Logan, then Ryan then Owen. Cus Lydia and Trevor will not sit with Owen, but probably think they can beat Ali. I'll vote for Ali over them any day of the week, but I also know everything that they has thought in this game.

#allianceofone #episodes

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So I've been having physical and mental health issues including a rash and migraine and impulsivity and violent thoughts and bingeing and purging and such and general feelings of doom because I have been super sleep deprived My roommate turned on fluorescent lights at 2:30AM and then had a series of alarms that rang from 6:30 AM to 8 AM... I woke up at the first alarm, but she didn't get up until 8 While I was struggling, half asleep as her alarms were ringing I asked her if she could set less alarms and she said she couldn't, and then I told her I was getting very sick kind of like I was blaming her I guess but I wasn't completely blaming her, but those things are directly connected. I just wanted to emphasize that sleep is important and that the lack of sleep was contributing to my illness so it was especially important at the moment and so that's why could she please not do what she do She didn't say anything to me after that but later that night told me she was mad at me for that. I apologized a ton which is actually dumb I have a fear of either being a doormat or too domineering which 1 am I?? Then later after panicking and thinking a ton about everything and how I was going to survive I came up w a proposal I thought was reasonable I asked that we have 8 hours of darkness and quietness each night and it didn't matter when and could work with her schedule as long as they were consecutive and dark and quiet because I want to work together and I need to meet my need And she replied I can't really promise that. No promises. I have to do what I have to do. My heart dropped Then last night she mentioned she was getting sick and went to bed around 11. I was up until 2, and woke up at 8. I didn't actually get up until around 9 though. She was still sleeping, and I had to pack my art supplies up for class that starts at 10 So I was emptying the garbage and did three knocks on the floor to shake it out which weren't even that loud, and she said what was that And I said nothin don't worry bout it And she said can you please not do that again And I wasn't planning on doing it again but thought that was ridiculous that she played a series of six alarms and then I made ONE sound and she complained So I of course said "No promises. I have to do what I have to do." I felt very empowered in that moment Also I actually had class in less than an hour and so I was doing only what I had to PLUS it was past 9am after she had slept 10+ hours I was just kind of trying to give her a mirror I guess so she would reevaluate how she handled that and how it sounded to me when she said it Tonight in a meeting with her and the RA I asked again that we have 8 consecutive hours of dark and quiet and then even changed it to Yellow light only and quiet. I never asked for silence or even pitch black She said it was extreme WHAT THE HELL AM I ASKING FOR SO MUCH?? I JUST WANT TO SLEEP WOMAN. I JUST WANT TO NOT DIE . DORMS ARE CALLED DORMS BECAUSE GUESS WHAT THE LATIN ROOT OF DORM MEANS SURPRISE SURPRISE IT MEANS SLEEP also she said she was mad at me for what I said this morning and I admitted to being passive aggressive but said I was not sorry and I realize now I was not being passive aggressive because I clearly communicated her the night before my needs !!! therefore it is not passive. So really I was just being snarky and RIGHTFULLY SO. witty banter isn't the all time worst response to someone who is driving you insane in the membrane. Me using her words wouldn't have upset her if it didn't reveal that she was being a jerk. If I repeated something kind she said she would feel happy I'd imagine. I'm rubber ur glue?? I called my mom and she was proud of me for standing up for myself thanx mom The thing I hate most about her aside from that she is disrupting my sleep is that she acts soo nice. Acts. She's so insincere!!! She's a big phony. One thing I value a ton is authenticity, and the thing about this chick is she speaks sweet but acts so selfish. She pretends to be goodhearted, but she is completely inflexible. She makes compromises like they're goin out of style. And they're the kind of compromises that make ya feel like your immune system is compromised....... Literally my immune system is compromised because I can't sleep. She laughs at funny memes on the internet and pets dogs for therapy and offers u raisins and asks if you're ok but that doesn't mean she is truly kind beyond that shallow shiz It's so hard when she masks being a bitch with the way she's talking. Like she knows she's telling you shit but trying to deflect any blame by speaking in this weird tone I'd rather her just outright be a bitch. The worst part is she's so sneaky about it I like people like that guy on Scrubs who is super sarcastic but really cares. ME AND MY ROOMMATE'S FEUD IS BASICALLY THAT OF THE GUY WHO OWNS THE HOSPITAL AND THE DOC WHO IS JD'S MENTOR IDK NAMES RN BUT IF U KNOW THE SHOW U KNOW ((I'm the sarcastic but good doc)) Honestly I'm becoming mean and I'm so afraid I'm going to become more mean if this continues. I don't like being angry. I don't like being mean. I don't like feeling hurt. Anger as an emotion exists to protect u. I'm just learning to feel anger this year because before I was just anxious, and I would apologize and tell everyone yes yes I am the problem, and I'd get stepped over. And I'd neglect myself. I'm learning to try to be assertive about my own needs and protect my rights. I remember the first time I saw my anger response in action in a long time was when Jim hit my mom. It was like in that moment I realized while his anger was harmful, my anger was helpful because it helped me get my mom out of there. And that anger is not inherently negative. I want to listen to what my anger is telling me is wrong and respond appropriately to the situation. I still don't get as angry as most people. My friend Sam was more mad than I when Joey was messing w my heart. I was understanding. Most of the time I am understanding, but right now I'm kind of war bent when it comes to my roommate I've been thinking about weird things I could do to make her fear me like moaning weird things at night that she's too embarrassed to confront me about. That's pretty fucked up, and I'm not going to do that (most likely) Sometimes when u have no options the only option left is PRANKS!! Also ideally she would be considerate towards my needs out of love rather than fear. Fear isn't effective. My parents tried to make me fear them, and I rebelled. I bet if they tried to do things that would have made me love them instead I would have worked much differently to be good to them. Well this was quite the rant I hope I can figure this out. I like being sassy. It's really fun. But I'm going to cool it I think. I want to be a good person. It's just that i tried being direct and it didn't work so now I'm in like a protest mode I guess I know that I am good-hearted.

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Ep. 7 - “"I Love Lies and Deceit" - Isaac”

LOGAN

IF I DONT WIN IMMUNITY IM GOING HOME KNOW THAT THATS ALL HELP PLEASE I CANT GO HOME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

OWEN

Well well well!!! Ryan B went home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Surprise surprise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :~) I threw a vote on Scott just in case Ryan, who did absolutely no campaigning whatsoever, had an idol or something from the labyr*nth. But he didn't and he's dead so! Fun!!!!!!!!! Anyways... I want to win individual immunity kind of, although I think I have a good case to get Jay out of here. Still, I don't know what Duncan will think of me if Jay DOES get shipped off, and it might be better for me if Scott goes because I've never talked to Scott and there's no relationship there? With Trevor and I on the same tribe there's always the worry someone will want to split us up but I don't see how that benefits anyone really because we'll just be a target at merge. We're like an extra fat meat shield :) use us :))))))))) anyways, none of my alliance wants to win immunity because the challenge is an unnecessarily difficult version. It worries me that we all feel cocky enough to...not try lmao afsdkhdfsjfds which makes me want to try but at the same time??? I don't want to do that it's finals week and it's too much. I just want to merge so I can fuck everyone up

LOGAN

also everyone in this game? likes me as a person? but i think ERRYONE knows im a threat and im in the bottom so i need to win. that is all. love rob. ill die for rob.

Yeah, this challenge is going to be bad... I'm much sorry

Jesus fuck. That sucked... I hope i never have to do anything like that again. 4 hours of my life i wont be getting back *sigh* but i saved that cute little rock from the underworld, yes i did.... I think I'll name him... He- hey! My rock just does back to the underworld... Well there goes that. *Le shrug* (sleepy Jessy is sleepy)

SCOTT

I am shocked I survived the vote. But I am confident I will most likely be voted out at the next tribal, and since the challenge is basically computer slavery. I am screwed. WELP *Prays for the merge*

LOGAN

woooo, my death is happening!

IN THE GAME I MEAN IN THE GAME I PROMISEHTBDFGJNSDKMZ

TREVOR

Sam chose me to go to the labyrinth. A good ally. Maybe I will take him to the end.

We're voting for Jay. I kind of insisted it without discussing it which is bad but I wasn't in the mood.

It's either gonna tie with Scott or be 4-3-1 as I'm gonna try and get Scott to vote for Owen if he comes online. If it does tie we will vote Jay on the revote so it's fine. I have Lydia's 20% challenge advantage because I'm not allowed to give it back to her. Oh well. I'm sure we're swapping or merging after this.

SAM

https://youtu.be/ZNx-K60v4BU

ROB

Literally the only person who I did not to win. Fuck I think I couldve done it. Lazy ass. I'm definitely in danger once more.

SAM

MORE CONFESSIONS yeah i'm pretty nervous about tribal tonight. i'm afraid that one of the newbies is going to get voted out, so i might have to appeal to duncan that the newbies are on his side. or that i can get them to be on his side because i think they might be down to vote for him. they're concerned with mending fences and they believe that duncan might not help them but LIKE LOOK DUNCAN WILL PLAY WITH ME AT MERGE AND MATT SUMMERS ISN'T CALLED MATT FUCKING SUMMERS FOR NOT REASON so i'll have to check in on everyone later today and make sure their heads are in the right spot. that's all. at least it isn't me.

SCOTT

This song goes to my tribe if they vote me out (Verse) Wrap it up, I said I don't have time I guess you're outta luck, but I'm doin' fine Give it up, you don't wanna act like you care And I don't want a house full of her hair (Pre-Chorus) (And you said) Literally, babe Are ya gonna give up so easily? I thought I meant more I thought you was stronger... (And you said) Literally, babe I've been stressing about us all day, well Guess you bit off more than you can chew I've got li-te-ra-lly nothing to say to you (Chorus) You wanna play me till I kick you out You wanna call me when you're feeling down Beggin' on your knees, BITCH PLEASE! And when I finally let you bring me close You wanna promise me you'll never go Then you wanna leave, BITCH PLEASE! (Interlude) Don't text me, you're pathetic, BITCH PLEASE! This is the only way you'll hear from me, HA! Don't text me, you're pathetic, BITCH PLEASE! This is the only way you'll hear from me, HA! (Verse 2) Listen up, you don't get a goodbye You don't get another shot to make me everything I'm not I'm a girl on fire, I'm a girl who dreams And you're a boy who needs to stay the hell away from me (Pre-Chorus) (And you said) Literally, babe Are ya gonna give up so easily? I thought I meant more I thought you was stronger... (And you said) Literally, babe I've been stressing about us all day, well Guess you bit off more than you can chew I've got li-te-ra-lly nothing to say to you (Chorus) You wanna play me till I kick you out You wanna call me when you're feeling down Beggin' on your knees, BITCH PLEASE! And when I finally let you bring me close You wanna promise me you'll never go Then you wanna leave, BITCH PLEASE! (Bridge) And it hit me like a ton of bricks Like a ton of your ugly hats When I was broken, when I was lonely When I was reachin' out for your hand That the sun could go down My shadow and taunts, there's no-one around, I swear We're as lonely as with you there (He's not gonna get that...) (Whatever!) (Chorus) You wanna play me till I kick you out You wanna call me when you're feeling down Beggin' on your knees, BITCH PLEASE! And when I finally let you bring me close You wanna promise me you'll never go Then you wanna leave, BITCH PLEASE! (Interlude) Don't text me, you're pathetic, BITCH PLEASE! This is the only way you'll hear from me, HA! Don't text me, you're pathetic, BITCH PLEASE! This is the only way you'll hear from me, HA!

MATTEW

So...double tribal. Yikes! I feel like I'm in a pretty good spot at this point. I have an alliance with people that I don't think have any reason to flip, but the only troubling thing is the fact that there could potentially be a boatload of rewards and items out there just waiting to get played. Hopefully my alliance is the only one who has gained access to Room 5, but there's always that uncertainty about the Labyrinth that's super scary. We could easily try to play it safe and blindside someone again, but now's not the time for paranoia. I've been thinking a lot about numbers come merge and I'm starting to realize that Trevor is probably at the center of the dynamics of the other tribe. He has Owen and Lydia that he's really close with, who each have people that can branch off to form a majority. I want to trust Ryan when merge comes, but we've been apart for so long at this point that I can't be certain where he his loyalties lie until we can meet back up and talk game again. My point is, there's a lot of uncertainties that could lead to me being in the minority come merge so my focus for the next few rounds is to keep as many people happy with me as possible. I mended bridges with Logan a bit and we've had some pretty solid game talks, so hopefully they're being honest about being willing to let Rob go and they're not just trying to screw me over. I'm going to have to start talking with Duncan again, because there's a lot of uncertainty and distrust between us and if we're going to be able to form a majority at merge, we're going to have to patch things up and look forward. Still, preparing to get #snatched at tribal council tonight.

What kind of evil was that! Escape from hell???? Na man, i think I'll just stay there next time... I mean i saved the rock though! That rock... That will help me do absolutely nothing. By God.

Okay seriously though, i have control issues. I get that, i know that and I'll embrace my faults. I also think it's one of the reasons why I'm so worried about this tribal. I've had class all day and i haven't been able to really talk to people the way that i want to. I can't get a read on the other three to know if they are really going to stay with us or if they are just planing something with some items. The only thing that I'm not worried about is the idol, maybe that means I'm putting too much trust in Sam but i did save his ass last time we were in tribal. And yes I'm taking all the credit for it because even with Ali's extra vote, my tribe wanted to vote for Robby and i believe that i changed their minds. I saved Sam. Sam best not be fucking with me. Right so last night me and Sam talked in length about what he wanted to do in this game. He told me that Duncan gave him the idol. Something about after you use it you have to give it to someone else. So if he's telling me the truth, and i really think he is, he has the idol. He also wanted to know if i had any connections with anyone on the other side .... I mean yes! The other half of my final four is over there... I didn't tell him THAT though. I told him that when Trevor came over we talked but mostly about being old... Which was not a lie. That was the first thing we talked about, and being Canadian. Me and Ali liked him enough and checked with Lydia about bring him in with us and i hope that they really have been able to work out their differences Because here is my set up. Final 2 - me and Ali (we can't take a vet with us, that's just asking to lose) Final 4 - me, Ali, Lydia, Trevor (idk what our name is anymore but i really liked when we gave ourselves seasons so I'm going with 4 seasons right now) Final 5 - 4 seasons and Sam because i still think Sam owes me and i plan to collect on that at some point. Final 8 - Owen, Matt, Isaac. And if the 8 of us can get together straight out of the merge, if that happens after tribal, then there would be 12 players in the game. We have more then majority and we get ride of a couple people before shit hurts the fan I'm sure. At 10 it might get bloody cus everyone is going to have their own groups that they want to go to the end with. Right so that all came from mine and Sam's conversation was that he wants to work with Trevor and Owen, because they are a power couple and he thinks they would be targeted before any of use. Which would be truth if Trevor wasn't in my main alliance. All this could go to shit tonight. Any four of us could get voted out or Lydia and Trevor might have decided to leave me and Ali behind. We'll see. About to vote and I'm such a control freak that I'm trying to figure out how to be more involved. Like lying to Logan and telling them to vote for Matt or Sam to see if we can trust her. But... There so much bad that could happen. God I'm going home tonight -_-'

ROB

If you're not going to stay loyal to me then you can't expect me to stay loyal to you. I'm doing whatever it takes to stay alive in this game, even if it means turning my back on the people I was close to. JD*sigh* i thought this tribal was set. I hate scrambling ready

ALI

This tribal is awful :( Rob is the general consensus, and I'm being especially nice for two reasons. A) Because I feel really bad B) Because I don't want him to play an idol and for his one vote to vote me out. I wanted to work with him, but that core Olympus 3 was just too tight grr. I wish we could vote off Duncan, he is kinda shifty and I'm still put off by him lying to me... Next time... Also, whoever invented that challenge can CATCH THESE HANDS. It was awful. Also, Scott is probably going tonight, which'll make me one of two newbies left and the only Brit. If Rob goes also, I think I become the youngest person, the only Brit and one of two newbies.... I'm going into extinction.

ISAAC

I love lies and deceit. All of a sudden I'm shook about Trevor keeping me out of the loop™ So me, myself, and I and my petty ass are going to be ugly™

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