#AND I HAD TO SUPRESS MY URGE TO AGREE AND RAMBLE BECAUSE EA AAAAAAAAA

[jadeneppy]

WHEEEEE

#can i please just have a crush that ISNT my boss #LIKE AAAAAAAAA HES MY TYPE HES SILLY AND GGGRRRR BARK BARK #NO WAY IN HELL IM GOIJ OUT EITH HIM THO CUZ OVI POWER IMBALANCE AND HHH #i almost gave away that i like him romantically to my coworkers by rambling about what i like about him #like they were talkin about how hes intimidating only when u first meet him #and my coworker goes 'yeah when i started talking to him i realized hes just a big teddy bear' #AND I HAD TO SUPRESS MY URGE TO AGREE AND RAMBLE BECAUSE EA AAAAAAAAA #why do i always have to be atracted to those i cant be romantically involved with qwq #hes seen my cry so many times from stress and one day he finally gave me a hug and hhhh hhhhh hhhh i just yeah i just hhhhh #i just fell for him more like at first i was just infatuated with him n i told myself that after that period is over like always id be done #BUT AAAAAAAAAAA #im just so use to feelin comfortable around him and its makin me CRAZY #im so touch starved n when he gives me hugs i just feel so much better its so nice but im so scared that if i let him know... its gonna end #i hste being alone and i always feel like a bother but idk lookin for someone on dsting apps is different #i went on a date a week ago and it was so awkward cux ii was the only one talkin and being looked at gives me anxiety #i couldnt even look my dste in the eye half the time and i was so out of it my verbal tics were goin crazy and i was just messin up words n #onve again the lonley should take me already im suffering so much #ALSO IF UR LOOKIN AT MY BLOG AGAIN LEAVE I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT LEAVE ME ALONE #i would so fuckin name drop but grrrrr #not mutuals or followers #you've hurt me enough and i know how much you hate me already god #i wanted to be friends still but idk after u and ur s/o told me to kill myself and then said it was funny to make me worry for your safety #only to accuse me more it kinda hit hard how much we drifted #xzzt