#3h23 more to go and I’ll be free (I won’t but at least I’ll have less reasons to think about it)

[diari0deglierrori]

Can’t this day be over already I just can’t stand seeing the date all the time and being reminded of it all again

#it keeps bringing me back to that day #I’ve been thinking about it since last night couldn’t sleep because of it #had a panic attack too which I hadn’t had in a while #so yeah I truly can’t get over it despite living like I was yk I never really talk about how I felt when it happened #nor how I feel about it now and didn’t mention it to anyone today because I didn’t want to make them sad as well #except someone did in the family gc and it also ended up pissing me off because even then they’re so annoying #and I know it’s something that happens to anyone at some point and all that and some people have it way worse than me but fuck does it still #hurt like a bitch #guess it’s yet another reason why I should go to therapy but since that’s not happening anytime soon apparently I rant about it here #I couldn’t even cry about it freely all day because it spent it with my brother and I don’t want to remind him of that either #maybe they all feel like that too inside but we don’t really talk about that #anyway! #3h23 more to go and I’ll be free (I won’t but at least I’ll have less reasons to think about it)