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nikolaiismysugardaddy · 10 months

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I need to be alone right now // Sigma

pairings... Sigma x Reader

contains...! angst!, gn!reader, alcohol, anxiety, cheating

GN reader

I apologize for any mistakes in advance - english is not my first language!

Hope you enjoy! xx

3 days. 3 days have passed since your birthday, and Sigma still hasn't even called you. You knew he was a workaholic when you started dating him - but he always remembered important things. And that’s what you liked about him so much. Until now.

You woke up alone on the sofa with the book you were reading lying in your lap. Sigma didn’t come home last night. You sighed out loud and reached for your phone. There were a few messages from your friends, wishing you a happy birthday. You answered them one by one until you found a text from Sigma.

I’m sorry, Y/N, but there’s a huge problem in the Casino that needs to be solved as soon as possible. Wish I could tell you, but it’s a personal case with one of the employees. Hope you slept well! See you soon! Love you, Sigma. A sense of concern started to creep in as you realized that he hadn’t mentioned anything about your special day. You placed the phone back on the table and headed to the bathroom. You felt the uneasiness growing in your chest but tried to ignore it. He wouldn’t forget something so important like your birthday, right? You stepped into the shower and let cold water flow on your body. As the water cascaded over you, you couldn’t help but wonder if there was a valid reason for his silence. Maybe he was planning a surprise that he didn’t want to spoil over the phone? You quickly dismissed the negative thoughts and decided to give him the benefit of the doubt. After all, he had always been thoughtful and considerate in the past. You finished your shower and got dressed, trying to push away any lingering doubts.

As you went about your day, you couldn't help but anticipate what surprise he might have planned for you. The night came quickly, and finally the doorbell rang. You rushed to the entrance and opened the door, only to find Nikolai and Fyodor standing there.

“Happy birthday, Y/N!” said Nikolai in his usual tinkling tune.

“Thank you guys.” you said gently while you tried to lurk behind his back. “Sigma… you didn’t bring Sigma with you?” your heart skipped a beat in shock. Disappointment washed over you as you realized he wasn't there. Nevertheless, you forced a smile and tried to hide your sadness from Nikolai and Fyodor.

“Hm?” the boys both frowned at your question. “No, he’s got an emergency at the Casino. He’s still working.” said Fyodor.

“But I prepared a surprise for you!” Nikolai placed his hand on your shoulder. “Quickly, take on your shoes!”

You felt a pang of sadness because Sigma wasn’t there with them, but you still had some hope left. Maybe he’ll be the surprise Nikolai prepared for you. You slipped on your shoes and followed them to a fancy bar near the neighborhood. All your friends were there but you searched for one certain face without success.

As the night wore on, your hope began to wane. You couldn’t help but wonder why Sigma hadn’t even reached out to you.

“So, you liked it? Hm?” Nikolai asked with sparkling eyes while lending you another drink. You were checking your phone again, waiting for a message from your boyfriend. It became a nervous habit during the night. You sighed and slipped your phone in your pocket. “Yes, sure, thank you, Nikolai. But I’m getting a bit tired already, I think I should head ho-” You couldn’t finish your sentence. The white haired boy grabbed you by the waist and twirled you around. “Sorry, I can’t hear you clearly. You asked for a dance, right?” he smirked mischievously. You couldn’t help but laugh at Nikolai’s playful gesture. “I guess I can’t turn down this offer.” you replied with a smile. As the two of you moved to the rhythm of the music, you couldn’t help but feel a sense of excitement and anticipation. You even found yourself momentarily forgetting about your phone. After a while, you stopped counting how many drinks you had. The only thing you knew was that dancing with Nikolai is kinda delectable. The chemistry between you and Nikolai was undeniable as you effortlessly glided across the dance floor. The way he held you close, his touch sending shivers down your spine, made it hard to resist getting lost in the moment.

Nikolai leaned closer to your face and all of a sudden, you found his lips pressing against yours. The world around you faded away, time seemed to stand still as he deepened the kiss. For a moment you were lost in his sweet taste until a sudden thought rushed through your alcohol veiled mind: Sigma. You gently pulled yourself away from Nikolai. “I need to go home.” you mumbled. Your legs were shaking and you couldn’t think straight.

“Let me walk you home, Y/N.” Nikolai’s voice was filled with concern as he reached out to steady you. “No!” You almost shouted at him. Nikolai’s eyes widened at your intense response. “Thank you, but I need to clear my head.” You apologized while walking in through the exit. As you stumbled out into the cool night air, you could feel the weight of the situation pressing down on you. Thoughts of Sigma and the consequences of your actions swirled in your mind, making it difficult to focus. When will you come home? - you sent the message after you went inside the house. You threw all your clothes on the floor and fell straight in the bed.

You woke up with a tough hangover. The guilt of your actions ached in your chest more than your head. As you slowly sat up in bed, memories of the previous night flooded back, and a sense of regret washed over you. The weight of your actions seemed unbearable, and you couldn’t help but wonder how you could make amends for your mistakes. You reached for your phone to check your messages. I’m so sorry, Y/N, the issue I mentioned is more complicated than I thought. Gonna let you know when I’m coming. Hope I’m seeing you soon. Love you darling. Still not a single mention about your birthday. It ached your heart even more, sadness and guilt mixed in your mind. And also there was another message, from Nikolai. Good morning sunshine! Hope you arrived home safe and sound! I’ve got you some breakfast, but you were still asleep. Xx, Kolya You pondered over the messages, feeling torn between your conflicting emotions. Great, now what are you gonna do about this situation?

Three days have passed since your birthday. Nikolai called you a few times, but you ignored all of them. He also visited you the night after the incident, but you turned him down. You didn’t want to do anything reckless until you talked with Sigma face to face. All of a sudden someone opened the front door. “I’m home!” Sigma. You couldn’t control your emotions as you walked out from the bedroom to greet him. “Hey, Y/N, you look exhausted. What’s the matter, dear?” He looked confused as he took a step closer to you. “What’s the matter?” You took a deep breath before answering. You felt the anger building up in you more and more. “What’s the matter you ask? It was my birthday! Three days ago!” Your voice filled with frustration. “No, it’s on the 7th of July, I could never forget it…” he looked confused as he reached for his phone to check the date. “Damn it.” Sigma rarely swears, but when he does it has to be something he’s really angry about. And he was, for himself. “I’m so sorry, Y/N, I lost track on time…”

You clenched your fist, trying to control your rising anger.

“Three day Sigma! Three fucking days! And all you can say is sorry? I felt lonely and forgotten, you know? I’m so angry! And just a few texts! Not even a single call! For fucks sake Sigma…” Your voice trembled with disappointment as you struggled to hold back tears. He reached out to your hand but you harshly pulled away. “And you know what? Your friends came to celebrate it with me. But you? You? You forgot it!”

You could feel the weight of your words hanging in the air as Sigma's expression shifted from surprise to guilt. The silence between you grew heavier, punctuated only by the sound of your heavy breathing.

“Y/N, please…” he looked at you begging with his eyes for forgiveness.“No, Sigma! No! I… I just need to be alone right now.” You turned away from him, feeling a mix of anger and hurt swirling inside you. Tears slowly rolled down your face. “It would be better to talk it out, Y/N, please. I’m so, so sorry. Just this emergency at the Casino…” Sigma looked at you with pure regret in his eyes. You felt his anxiety building up in him. You shook your head, unable to listen to his excuses. “No! I don’t even want to hear about the casino right now! It was suffocating, you know? Being alone on my special day without my loved one, knowing well he’s too busy with work. I can’t stand it anymore, Sigma.” You sighed in exhaustment. “You need to choose one. Me or the Casino. And I already know the answer. So please, leave. Leave before I hurt you more.”

Literally my birthday is this week, I think that's why the idea popped up in my head. (kinda depressing though lol) I hope you liked it at least, haha.

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