#...anyway yeah back to my regularly scheduled episode listening tomorrow

[kingdomoftyto]

"Carlos, if you could just pause your experiment for a second--if you could only hear me out, hear my hypothesis! I think once you understand the science of the situation, you--" Carlos opened the door. He was crying. She had never seen him cry. He was overwhelmed and unsure of how to express his emotions, since he usually only did so in carefully worded sentences, not with water from his body. "The science of the situation?" he snarled. "That Otherworld. I was trapped there, Nilanjana. I couldn't see Cecil for ten lonely years. I was kept away from the people I love, in that desolate place where you never get hungry and you never have to drink water and so you never live. It is a place that devours. It is a place that is empty. That is the science of the situation, and I study it so I can fix it. Only I can do that. Only these experiments can do that. I'm sorry, Nilanjana; I'm not going to stop so you can tell me what science is."

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#Tyto listens to WtNV #spoiler warning I guess for a book that came out a few years ago now #anyway yeah hi I finished the book #the resolutions to the plot and to Nils' character arc were pretty good. nothing to write home about but fun and serviceable #I personally get annoyed whenever a story pulls a ''you thought this romance would end with these two TOGETHER? lol NOPE'' #like we get it it's more realistic for whirlwind romances to end in a breakup and sometimes it's better for people to just stay friends #but firstly this isn't real life; it's fiction. with narrative devices and such. #and secondly WtNV of all media does NOT get to preach about realistic relationship trajectories when its lead fell in love at first sight #lmao I'm just saying. I'm not MAD about it or anything it just made me roll my eyes. #ANYWAY. that aside: it was good. and I do genuinely like the friendship Nilanjana builds up with Darrell at the end #but obviously the real star of the show was Carlos and the completely unprecedented character depth that they smothered him in. #not ONLY recontextualizing over a year's worth of the podcast but ALSO saddling him with LAYERS of guilt over the events in this book #he *KILLED* the *GODDAMN* *CENTIPEDE* #after his beautiful little speech about not killing things just because we don't understand them! #he was just SO traumatized by his time in the Otherworld and SO afraid for his family after Janice nearly got Got that he KILLED IT!!! #and THEN!!!! not only do they find out that the centipede wasn't responsible for the destruction!! #but it turns out it was HIS OWN MACHINE THE WHOLE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #his attempts to keep everyone safe were what actually caused the danger!!!! AUGH HE WAS ONLY TRYING TO HELP #HE'S JUST SCARED AND HE WANTS EVERYONE TO BE SAFE AND NOT EXPERIENCE THE SAME HORRORS HE DID AUGHDUSHGHDH #...anyway yeah back to my regularly scheduled episode listening tomorrow

[canaryatlaw]

Alrighty, so today was fine. Was lazy and slept in till like 12:25, but was drifting in and out of sleep for a while before that. Got ready and headed to school, and walking to the train I ran into this guy walking his dog who had to be like, one of the biggest dogs I've ever seen haha. Idk what breed he was, but I know our family friends used to have a Bernese mountain dog which was huge and it looked about the same size, basically like a bear on all fours haha. He was so cute though, and he just let me pet him and wanted to play and he was oh so cute, so that made me smile. Got to school where I was meeting the girl on the prosecution side of the mock trial team for some witness prep stuff, since I'm playing the witness she's doing the direct for and vice versa. She's like, apparently the director of like "the center of entrepreneurial leadership" or something like that and has like this whole office suite and I'm just like damn, lol. It didn't take long, we just went over our shit and made sure we were on the same page with stuff, easy enough. It's kind of funny because the directs are majorly similar, since each spouse's story is the other one was doing it and is the abusive one. After that I headed over to the PAD office to finish my crim pro reading (which I apparently didn't even need to do, but more on that later) so that took a while, and I ran out to Starbucks at one point because the office is facing it and I kept thinking about it being on the other side of the window lol but then got back to work. That took up most of the time I had before class, and then I mostly just looked at mock trial stuff. I decided not to go to the gym today because I didn't want to aggravate my body any more, especially when I'm going to try to go back to my kickboxing gym tomorrow, cuz I think I found a way to make it work. I'm just gonna go in tomorrow and talk to them, but starting next week I'll have small group on Thursday nights at 7:30, and the church is pretty close to my job so I can just go there, but that leaves some time to kill, and you know what's right down the road from my church? The kickboxing gym, and they have at least 3 classes that could fit into that window for me, and I'm super psyched about that being that before I couldn't make it work with my schedule at all. So I'll do one class a week there and then keep going to planet fitness regularly for a basic work out, at least that's the plan, but I think it's a good one. We'll see if I end up going on Friday, it's still up in the air for a number of reasons. Around 5 I went to heat up my dinner and there were a good number of people I knew in the lounge (outside where the PAD office is) so I sat out there and ate with them before going to class. Crim pro was interesting, as usual, but like, we didn't even get to any of the cases we had to read for tonight. We got to one case, and that was the leftover one from last week that we didn't get to, and now we have like 5 cases we didn't get to this week. The book is set up so there's like law review articles and shit like that in between cases about the subjects and the prof seems to like to go over those and ask us super specific questions about them for pretty much the whole time. And like I said, it's super interesting, but I feel like we're kind of missing out on the whole law side of things, which could obviously be an issue, lol. But the discussion was good at least. Headed home from there, and on the train this guy sat across from me and started reading an unstoppable wasp comic book, and I'm thinking to myself I'm sitting here reading legends of tomorrow fan fic (lol), listening to the flash podcast, and have a superman hat in my bag along with my scarf and gloves, lol. I was kind of tempted to just like write down my number and hand it to him when I got off but like he really wasn't that cute so I was kind of meh, lol. Oh well. When I got home I turned on Arrow, even though I knew the episode would most likely just make me mad, and hey, I was right! Ugh. Positives though, it was probably the first time since season 2 that I liked the flashback plot better than the actual plot, but that's really not saying much given how little I liked the actual plot. I did definitely appreciate Talia though, though I still had no idea why she was there or why Oliver was getting pissed at her towards the end. She was cool to see at least, and I'd love to see her and Nyssa together on screen at some point. I was glad they addressed the aging thing, cuz as soon as she came on screen I was like ummmm, I don't think that age progression lines up with what we saw on legends, but Lazarus pit is definitely a valid explanation for that. But yeah, actual plot. Um, the Dig stuff was cool? I'm glad he's getting off. I didn't know what was going on with the Felicity stuff really. And then of course there's the A storyline that I knew I would hate for obvious reasons. Oliver even fucking says in the beginning that he feels like they're trying to replace Laurel and it feels wrong BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT YOURE FUCKING DOING YOU FUCKHEAD like who on earth thought this storyline was a good idea??? Tina's plot evaluated independently was fine, though not terribly original. It pissed me off how Oliver just showed up and inserted himself into the middle of her vendetta and was all like "I have to save her from herself before it's too late" like bitch who the fuck invited you here and what gives you the right to even say anything??? And of course I love how he's the only one who's ever allowed to kill someone, but also how the team is really just like "murder, eh" at this point lol. I appreciated that at the end Oliver was all like "you're better than this" and she's like lol fuck you and shoots the guy anyway. I feel like independently I could like her as a character, but of course she's not independent, and I hate the context they're putting her in. And then of course there was the part at the very end, and I knew something was coming because I'd seem people raging about it on Twitter, but just like, you gave her the fucking name?? The fucking name that's supposed to belong to Laurel's mother, not some random ass chick they pulled in off the streets?? And this ISN'T you replacing Laurel when you name her "Dinah" ffs? Like are you actually kidding me right now? I'm just like, so, so pissed off by all of this. Like this was such shitty writing and I have no idea what even possessed them to do it, and I hope they realize it's majorly backfiring on them and everyone is pissed about it. Maybe one of these days they'll get their heads out of their asses and actually write quality characters and plots, but I'm not exactly holding my breath. Sigh. But after that I just hung out for a few before making my lunch for tomorrow and heading to bed. Speaking of tomorrow, I have to be up at 7, which is in approximately 6 1/2 hours, and given that I generally like to get more sleep than that, I am going to retire to bed now. So goodnight my loves. Stay beautiful.

#daily journal #February 2017 #ahhh February!!