#-it can still irrevocably taint you beyond salvation and the only thing to be done about you is to put you down?

[apollo-cackling]

I need to reread the spear cuts through water to get my thoughts sorted about the Third Terror. what a bleak existence, to be hated and neglected your entire life, taught violence as your only mode of interaction, for cruelty to be so enmeshed within the very fabric of your being that you are incapable of reaching to the first scrap of kindness you have ever been shown without being monstrous

#my rambles #this Fucking guy #I can't stop thinking about him what that even if your monstrousness was never your choice even if you never wanted- #-to be such even if from birth you were never given a choice but to be monstrous- #-it can still irrevocably taint you beyond salvation and the only thing to be done about you is to put you down? #like gah #jesus fucking christ man #need to reread that book to mesh my thoughts on it better #books #the spear cuts through water