#-and i was just like yup! stimming to get the textures off! def not having my arms do fuck shit against my will for no reason ahahah!!!

[not-another-blorbo]

I keep having arm tics in the morning at work and I'm sure I look fucking crazy

#one of my coworkers asked if the reason i was “flailing around” in the back was because i got syrup on me- #-and i was just like yup! stimming to get the textures off! def not having my arms do fuck shit against my will for no reason ahahah!!! #that and blinking and headjerking on register when im checking people out like. why. #honestly im saved by the fact that i already do weird movements a lot to stim so its as weird for me to be acting strange #although my tic disorder keeps picking up my stims as tics and that shit SUCKS #happy movement but its not happy and id like to stop actuallt #AND THE LEG ONES??? WHY??? #tense knees and then do little leg lifts because or else #and the hand ones are like. tensing my fingers and making fists to pop my knuckles but also sometimes throwing my hands around #also i have only one vocal tic rn which i normally have two so thats cool #and its pretty quiet which is nice #just a humming in the back of my throat thing. sometimes it does a few different notes tho #idk im just talking to a wall abt it cause i dont have anyone normal to talk to about ut #*it #i worry about my coworkers judging me more than anything else but there isnt much i can do about it sadly :/ #feralscreaming