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man can dish it out but he can't take it

#chilshi #dungeon meshi #AGGGHHHHH #old man yaoi <3<3<3<<3<3<3<3<3

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thems

#AHHSJDDKDKDD #aggshdjskskslls #chilshi #dungeon meshi

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i wish all trans girls a very kissed on the face by someone they love

#IM DOING MY PART

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I AM NOT SAYING FUCKING WEEE AS A VOCAL TIC I CANNOT HAVE FUCKING ANYTHING FUCK MY LIFEEEEEEE

#NOOOOO #weee is one of my vocal stimsssss TIC DISORDER TAKES EVERYTHING FROM ME CMONNNNNNN #JUST LET ME HAPPY STIM IN PEACE WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS :[ #feralscreaming

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Growing up mormon makes your brain weird. Just thought "c!Tommy kinda like Joseph Smith without the child wives and polygamy- WAIT NO c!Tommy LIKE NEPHI-" because that's just. Fucking insane. Like actually honest to god. Things that are incredibly funny only to me. Like I'm thinking about this in a "what's the most fucked up au I could think of" sorta way. Philza minecraft as lehi.... <- Yeah I deserve to be shot

#i am NOT mormon anymore i just think about fucked up shit for fun sometimes #this is all me thinking insane things to make myself laugh im not actually being serious at all #feralscreaming #like my sbi mormon au and my crimeboys missionary au and my bnha class 1a seminary au #<- cause when your a bored teenager forced to go to church while hyperfixating weird things happen

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I'm totally fine with like 90% of regular gendered feminine terms when it comes to me except for woman. I know I'm nonbinary because when someone is like "oh your a grown woman" I literally wanna throw up

#I AM NOT A WOMAN #i am a girl #i am a person #i am not a woman fucking christ alive do NOT call me that #literally gag me #girl is fine. girl is safe. girl is my childhood. person is great. its my choice. its who i see myself as. WOMAN??? no. fuck that shittyy #being called a “woman” makes me feel like im a walking uterus #feralscreaming

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Kinda nonhuman because mental illness, kinda nonhuman because not being properly socialized as a kid, kinda nonhuman because queer, kinda nonhuman because angry at humanity, kinda nonhuman because longing for the unconditional love of a pet and it’s master, and kinda nonhuman because secret sixth thing.

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Girl with crippling social anxiety: Hey you guys. Do you like me. You guys don't hate me right. Hahaha. Yeah please don't hate me

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I DM'd them and asked them to to delete it and they did and said that they'd turn off rbs if the part with that addition kept spreading oh thank god holy shit i was having a fucking panic attack about it thank fuck

They were so nice oh my god that was awful

Cool awesome great im literally going to kill myself WHY WOULD THEY SCREENSHOT IT INSTEAD OF JUST REPLYING IN THE TAGS FUCK MY LIFEEEEE

That's so fucking embarrassing I'm going to fucking cry YEAH SURE PUBLICLY HUMILATE ME ON YOUR HUGE FUCKING BLOG SORRY FOR MISS-READING YOUR POST

Literally why couldn't they just have responded in the rbs like:

#prev no they said the SHOW was innocent not the fandom

This is so fucking embarrassing why would you not just block me please fuck I'm such an idiot

#feralscreaming

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Cool awesome great im literally going to kill myself WHY WOULD THEY SCREENSHOT IT INSTEAD OF JUST REPLYING IN THE TAGS FUCK MY LIFEEEEE

That's so fucking embarrassing I'm going to fucking cry YEAH SURE PUBLICLY HUMILATE ME ON YOUR HUGE FUCKING BLOG SORRY FOR MISS-READING YOUR POST

Literally why couldn't they just have responded in the rbs like:

#prev no they said the SHOW was innocent not the fandom

This is so fucking embarrassing why would you not just block me please fuck I'm such an idiot

#feralscreaming

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it's so difficult being a pervert in this modern world

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Ugh

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Chilchuck w a lil tail bc I keep seeing artists giving him one & it suits him oh so well

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How do I hate myself for you for you to hate me for you for you for you for you I'm dumb

#feralscreaming

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If I say I'm smart. You say. I'm not. Who is the monster here

#feralscreaming

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Girl of 100 masks. I'm so stupid. I'm not allowed to be anything else. If I'm smart then my mistakes are mistakes I've made not my nature. If I'm cute I'm safe. If I'm dumb I'm safe. No thoughts head empty and no one can hurt you. If you say it before they do then your safe. Don't be mean. Be nice. Be so nice. If you have rough edges you've failed. If your angry you've failed. They'll hate you. Your stupid. You have to be. I will see you as nothing else. If you're smart then your better. If you're smart then your better. But your dumb your dumb your dumb your dumb. Your a dumbass. Your a stupid fucking dumbass you're nothing else. You are lower. You are lesser. You have everything. You are nothing. You are dumb you are dumb you are dumb. You're too kind. Too nice. Say no. Say no say no say no say no say no. Please ask please ask please ask. Don't touch me I can't breathe. I can't speak I can't hear I can't scream.

#feralscreaming

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Stop it. Stop peeling back my skin. Stop breathing in my lungs. Stop holding my beating bleeding heart in your hands Stop.

Stop eating me. Stop putting your fingers in my eyes and tearing and the edges of my face. Stop putting the seams in your mouth. I have no mouth and I must scream I have no mind but I must think I have no heart but I must love.

There is an infected wound in my side. Bleeding sluggish slow and you are drinking from it . Is this how christ felt .

#feralscreaming