#*❈ ‣ ❝ 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏,𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏,𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒔𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 ❞ — ( dash games. )
𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋 𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄?
─ where you are comforted
not shattered, not cracked, just hurt. you've grown so used to this state you call "permanent" that you sometimes feel you're nothing at all. you've carried it alone, you've turned your pain into certainty and reassurance. it's still there, it's always there, and you're afraid they might take it from you if you showed them everything. why would you be the only one who's not allowed to exist? why would you not have the right to be loved and held and treasured? people don't think of you as sneaky or resilient but you Are. you're like water, you fill your own gaps and those of others, you're a source of life, hope and stability - a lake to build your village next to - and so many have done exactly that. but you're also a hurricane turned inwards, a tsunami that's not allowed to come ashore. a storm in a glass bottle marveled at by the "saviors" like you're an animal in a zoo. you deserve better than that, and you're allowed to think and scream out loud that you deserve better than that. you deserve comfort without being patronized. you deserve people who don't connect your sadness and pain to weakness nor romanticize any of it. you deserve people who pay attention, and who see you for who you are, every single expression and mannerism part of a whole. a complete person that's allowed to cry, laugh and exist as much as they wish, in whichever way they wish to do so.
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𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒓𝒖𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒅?
- ruined by loneliness.
you are so lonely. you are miserable in your solitude. you hate that you cannot bring yourself to reach out, to ask for help. you will be forgotten by all who never knew you. your biggest fear is that you will die alone, and you know this fear will be seen to fruition. you refuse to extend yourself beyond the box that others put you in. and it is a box that no one dare come near. you are lonely because you are afraid of yourself.
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directions: fill out the below sheet for your muse, then tag anyone you think may wish to play. repost, don’t reblog!
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𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆𝒔.
PLEASE REPOST, DON’T REBLOG.
open curtains / closed blinds ; stray dog / house cat ; people / pets ; outside / inside ; half-empty / half-full ; tv / radio ; sing / dance ; shoes / sandals ; cash / credit ; hike / drive / fly ; casual / elegant ; center / corner ; sword / shield ; airplane / boat ; fizzy / flat ; garnished / plain ; extra salt / extra pepper ; spicy / mild ; record player / digital media ; opaque / transparent ; white lies / complete truth ; blunt / subtle ; loud / silent ; books / music ; familiar / new ; youth / experience ; spoon / fork & knife ; knife / baseball bat ; space / ocean ; bow & arrow / blow dart ; love at first sight / slow burn ; freckles / dimples ; long lashes / long fingers ; soft lips / sensitive neck ; stubble / thick hair ; slow dance / intimate conversation.
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𝒕𝒂𝒈 𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝒑𝒆𝒐𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓
favorite color — turquoise.
currently reading — man, a lot of things. i got a few new french revolution romances ( because i’m s.carlet p.impernel trash ) & i really need to finish this one regency romance series called the lancaster family. i’m still attempting to finish l.es m.iserables this year.
last song — t.onight ( quintet ) from w.ss
last series — currently watching m.onk because i finished my rewatch of p.sych. i’m also watching v.ictoria except i got really mad at it so i stopped.
last movie — . . . w.est s.ide s.tory.
sweet / spicy / savory — sweet!
currently working on — my classes. i will start working through inbox things in a moment but i suddenly remembered a fic i wrote & need to edit so maybe i’ll start working on that again.
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J.OHANNA B.ARKER ︰ 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐒
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟷 : 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄.
NAME : j.ohanna b.arker
EYE COLOR : green
HAIR STYLE / COLOR : falls past her waist, curly, yellow ( a shade close to wheat ). i have a whole post about it here
HEIGHT : 5′2″ / 157 cm
CLOTHING STYLE : despite her ‘wealthy’ growing up, johanna prefers more simple dresses. she’s also pretty sensitive about certain materials & dresses get bonus points for being looser around the stomach area. johanna cannot stand tight clothing. if she’s wearing a dress that makes her feel insecure about herself ( if it makes her stomach look larger in her mind, her shoulder broad, her arms rounder ), she covers it up with a shawl to protect herself. post canon she tends to prefer long-sleeved dresses since it’s comforting & they hide the scares from the madhouse. johanna usually wears pinks, blues & whites. never black. she refuses to wear back.
BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE : hair. because of her body dysmorphia, jo finds it really difficult to find really anything she loves about her physical appearance - except for her hair. she actually loves her hair & is very proud of her curls, though she probably won’t ever admit it.
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟸 : 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄.
FEARS : the loss of her freedom, loosing loved ones, going insane, r.ape, her guardian
GUILTY PLEASURE : in modern verses, she loves watching d.isney movies. she missed out on them as a kid & they calm her down a little bit.
BIGGEST PET PEEVE : people underestimating her really gets on her nerve because she survived an insane asylum, she freed herself, survived an encounter with a serial killer, etc. just because she looks like a small, frail victorian woman does not mean she has survived nothing. she also hates it when people assume things about her.
AMBITIONS FOR THE FUTURE : obviously during canon, her biggest drive to trying to free herself from her abusive guardian, but post canon johanna mostly just wants to see the world.
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟹 : 𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒.
FIRST THOUGHTS WAKING UP : when she does sleep, she’s probably recovering from a nightmare or some sort of night terror. :’)
WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT MOST : whatever is worrying her at the moment. this can be as drastic as ‘my literal guardian wants to marry me’ or ‘are all of the words in the entire world doing okay right now?’
WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT BEFORE BED : again, everything she’s worrying about. it’s bad to the point where she can’t sleep or just doesn’t for hours.
WHAT THEY THINK THEIR BEST QUALITY IS : personality wise? jo’s pretty self-deprecating & was raised by turpin, so she’d probably say her hair again. but anyone else would probably admire how she can still stay soft after everything she’s been through
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟺 : 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓’𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑?
SINGLE OR GROUP DATES : single. group dates would probably stress her out.
TO BE LOVED OR RESPECTED : loved. she takes love over most things because she was without it for so long.
BEAUTY OR BRAINS : brains
DOGS OR CATS : .........birds
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟻 : 𝐃𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘…
LIE : she was raised by one of the strictest men alive of course
BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES : no. she needs some self esteem so bad.
BELIEVE IN LOVE : despite everything, yes. johanna saw it out her window all of the time. one day, one day, she hoped, it would happen to her, too.
WANT SOMEONE : desperately
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟼 : 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 …
BEEN ON STAGE : nope. she would die.
CHANGED WHO THEY WERE TO FIT IN : not really? she doesn’t really have anyone to ‘fit in’ with. but she would pretend like there’s nothing wrong in order to fit in.
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟽 : 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐒.
FAVORITE COLOR : blue
FAVORITE ANIMAL : birds. she cannot pick a single favorite bird, but she does actually own larks so.
FAVORITE BOOK : her selection of books were quite slim growing up, but she would probably say one of shakespeare’s works was her favorite during canon. post canon, she discovers j.ane a.usten so.
FAVORITE GAME : this girl was so sheltered she doesn’t know what a game is.
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟾 : 𝐀𝐆𝐄.
DAY THEIR NEXT BIRTHDAY WILL BE : february 20th
HOW OLD WILL THEY BE : eighteen
𝙻𝙰𝚈𝙴𝚁 𝟶𝟶𝟿 : 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄.
I LOVE : my larks
I FEEL : worried
I HIDE : myself
I MISS : leaving my room
I WISH : i was loved
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𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒅𝒚 𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒂𝒖𝒈𝒆.
DEFENSIVENESS: arms crossed on chest | crossing legs | fist-like gestures | pointing index finger | karate chops | stiffening of shoulders | tense posture | curling of lip/baring of teeth
REFLECTIVE: hand-to-face gestures | head tilted | stroking chin | peering over glasses | taking glasses off — cleaning | putting earpiece of glasses in mouth | pipe smoker gestures | putting hand to the bridge of the nose | pursed lips | knitted brows
SUSPICION: arms crossed | sideways glance | touching or rubbing nose | rubbing eyes | hands resting on weapon | brows raising | lips pressing into a thin line | strict, unwavering eye contact | wrinkling of nose
OPENNESS & COOPERATION: open hands | upper body in sprinters position | sitting on the edge of a chair | hand-to-face gestures | unbuttoned coat | tilted head | slacked shoulders | droopy posture | feet pointed outward | palms flat and facing outward
CONFIDENCE: hands behind back | hands on lapels of coat | steepled hands | baring teeth in a grin | rolling shoulders | tipping head back but maintaining eye contact | chest puffed up/shoulders back | arms folded just above navel
INSECURITY & ANXIETY: chewing pen or pencil | rubbing thumb over opposite thumb | biting fingernails | hands in pockets | elbow bent/closed gestures | clearing throat | “whew” sound | picking or pinching flesh | fidgeting in chair | hand covering mouth whilst speaking | poor eye contact | tugging at pants whilst seated | jingling money in pockets | tugging at ear | perspiring hands | playing with hair | swaying | playing with pointer/marker | smacking lips | sighing | rocking on balls of feet | flexing fingers sporadically
FRUSTRATION: short breaths | “tsk” sounds | tightly-clenched hands | fist-like gestures | pointing index finger | running hand through hair | rubbing back of neck | snarling | revealing teeth/grimacing | sharp-eyed glowers with notable tension in the brows | shoulders back, head up - defensive posturing | clenching of jaw/grinding teeth | nostrils flaring | heavy exhales
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𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒖𝒏!
𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐒.
BIRTHDAY: september first
PRONOUNS: she/her
NAME: fleur is my alias - you’ll never guess my real name
ZODIAC: virgo?? it matters nothing to me though & i do not act like one lol
𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐒.
FAVORITE AUTHOR: v.ictor h.ugo? i don’t really have a favorite atm
FAVORITE CHARACTER FROM LITERATURE: c.osette f.auchelevent, followed closely by p.ercy b.lakeney
FAVORITE MUSIC GENRE: i am musical trash i’m sorry
FAVORITE KIND OF BOOK: historical romance
FAVORITE ANIMALS: giraffes
FAVORITE D.ISNEY CARTOON: t.angled. i have a love-hate relationship with the series
FAVORITE VIDEO GAMES: m.aria k.art?? i don’t play video games except that one with my little brother
FAVORITE COLOR: turquoise
FAVORITE TV SHOWS: d.ownton abbey, t.angled the series, l.es m.iserables ( 2019 ), g.ilmore g.irls
FAVORITE MYTHOLOGY: well i went through a brief h.adestown phase so greek?
FAVORITE FOOD: chicken nuggets, oreo ice cream, pineapple
FAVORITE ACTOR: um, j.ohnny d.epp is always up there along with j.eremy j.ordan & probably h.ugh j.ackman
FAVORITE COUNTRIES: i really loved italy & of course romanticizing the heck out of paris. i also really loved london. but the best food i’ve ever had was in china.
𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒.
CANON OR OC: both. i am currently neglecting my ocs, but i prefer writing ocs just because i have intense duplicate anxiety for the most part. with ocs, there’s no duplicate anxiety.
HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN RPING: was apart of a r.pg on quotev in middle school for like a month. good times. on tumglr, i’ve been doing this for a little more than a year.
WHO IS YOUR CURRENT FC: j.ayne w.isener
FAVEORITE GENRE: angst is the easiest to write with jo because she has . . . a lot going on. but i am very soft for fluff.
SOFT MUSES OR EVIL MUSES: for the most part i write soft muses or muses who are somewhere in between. but i do like the occasional evil muse.
WHAT IS YOUR PERFERED WRITING STYLE?: third person, present tense multi para ( lol remember when i could only write like four sentences & now all my drafts are like three paragraphs at least? )
HAVE YOU BEEN ON OTHER PLATFORMS?: quotev, like i said before.
WHO IS YOUR TOP MUSE AT THE MOMENT?: miss j.ohanna b.arker who deserves the world & i intend to give it to her
NAME YOUR MUSES YOU HAD IN THE PAST: most of them i still rp? i kind of abandoned my m.organ s.tark blog, a handful of ocs, a cosette blog before moving her to the multi, etc.
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𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅?
𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥
over-worrying and overthinking everything, your mind is always a whirling storm. no matter how you try, the fears overwhelm all else. you need someone trusted to press a kiss to your forehead, helping to quiet the thoughts that just refuse to settle.
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𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖?
𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥.
you are tired but not just the kind of tired that you need sleep, you are tired with others yourself and the world in general and you just want a break but allow yourself some self care time and spend some time with those who make you happy i promise it will be better and remember you are an amazing person- stop putting urself down
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𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 "𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐥" 𝐰𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐦𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐲 / 𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐤𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ?
𝘭𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘬𝘦
in arthurian legend, the lady of the lake; also known as nimue, viviane, or ninianne; is a medieval british sorceress. her story varies greatly, from the mother of lancelot to the killer of merlin to the bestower of excalibur upon king arthur. in all versions, she is an enchantress of great power. you may seem innocent to some, but you can be vengeful when necessary. people don't realize that you hold great drive and resilience. you are, beneath all, kind and benevolent; but people don't want to get on your bad side as you are very protective of yourself and those you love. above all, you do things with love and passion and don't believe in indifference. those closest to you know you as a steady and good soul.
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𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖?
- alone.
you feel deeply lonely. not in your physical world necessarily. you may tell yourself you're loved and valued, but in the depths of your despair you feel utterly abandoned. you value your independence, but sometimes you wonder if that's not just an excuse for lacking intimacy. you don't allow yourself to yearn, for fear that you may admit even to yourself how desolate you feel.
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𝒕𝒂𝒈 9 𝒑𝒆𝒐𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓
favorite color: turquoise
currently reading: trying to read l.es m.is & a variety of historical romances because i’m trash like that
last song: i think tonight ( quintet ) from w.ss
last series: finished my rewatch of p.sych & so i found a similar show called m.onk
last movie: probably w.ss because i’m still going through a phase
sweet/spicy/savory: sweet
currently working on: should be doing replies or editing a fic i’ve been working on for months but editing is hard
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j.ohanna b.arker has appeared! what to do?
hold hands
kiss
do "it"
play dead
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𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓'𝐒 𝐀𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐄?
─ flightless bird
the thought of your found family is what motivates you in your own little world. you touch the clouds, and the soil gives way under your footprints... this is utopia. if you were to erase one thing, it would be your memory. experience is important, but ignorance is bliss. identity, in heaven, should give way to happiness. you'd give anything just to sit by the swings and eat ice cream, but this isn't that kind of world. you have to get up and wash the dirt off of your scraped knees. i think you have an escapism problem.
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j.ohanna barker looks best wearing:
jeans.
nothing.
jeans.
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