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lrdvyke · 5 months

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so in the want to figure out a way of life for escaped vyke should the cure prove too impossible to get ( it is 😭 ), i started to look for ways to help deal with the madness build up. it's going to always be there, it doesn't just go away be it through plucking out the eyes or the three fingers dying. from the clues that the game gives, the madness itself seems more physical in the way of what one may call a disease of sort. sometimes even just due to the fact that one's mind is not capable enough to continue caring for the body, but i'm digressing a little.

so i looked at the clarifying boluses for the biggest tell, as they are meant to get rid of the buildup of madness before it gets too much in the person's body / system:

Madness accumulates slowly, inflicting heavy damage and reducing FP once the threshold is reached. Take one of these in timely fashion to avoid such events.

the ingredients to make these are as follows: eye of yelough, crystal cave moss, and dewkissed herba, but the main one i want to touch on first is the eye of yelough due to the fact that it says more as to what kind of help it provides aside from the typical "medicinal" just by the item description alone:

Grown in lands afflicted by frenzy, it's used for its pain-relieving properties… Though it's also known to be a dangerous intoxicant.

when i say madness is more physical, i mean it in the sense that the body is in constant pain at all times. with taking the name "frenzied flame", from the looks of the people affected by madness and how their eye sockets hold a little glowing flame within them, along with the fact that the burn wounds never heal on your tarnished, i have reason to believe that in gaining the madness, there is a small source of flame inside of you that is constantly in a steady burn that brings with it a continuous amount of pain within the afflicted. also hyetta's words to you: ( which granted, she says this because you have become the lord of chaos, but it also tells of the other afflicted. you just take in the main source, being the vessel of the outer god, while the others afflicted have only an offshoot, if that makes sense )

Ahhh, the flame of chaos has nestled within you.

with the crystal cave moss and dewkissed herba, my guess is that it's included because of possible infection as they are both ingredients for preserving ( scarlet rot ) and rejuvenating ( death blight ) boluses. but i think it does something extra for the clarifying boluses because once madness effects you, your focus is punished as well as your health. focus is necessary for spells, to which the crystal cave moss is within crystal caves that are being mined by the academy. dewkissed herba is noted as being "soaked in arcane dew" and in the ingredients list for glowstones; thus sources of magic that push for a larger focus and in doing so, clearing a mind beset by madness.

ok but besides pain and infection, there is another: not eating. or in hyetta's words:

They rest their trembling hands upon me. Howling wordlessly, they gently stroke my eyes. Their frail fingers, emaciated... Yet still, they give me the grapes. But you...seem somehow...firmer.

there is no ability to undertake that demand. they waste away from the pain, the sickness, the inability to speak without screaming, a mind that can no longer focus enough for the afflicted to take care of the body. but there is a promise that the lord of chaos would take it from them, so that they may live happily again.

tl;dr life for vyke could be possible under the right circumstances should no cure come to him. it would just be impossible to do it alone, as he would have no mind to do anything let alone making the boluses, eating, or even treating the burns upon his body. he would simply act like the frenzied flame villagers: immovable in their pain until forced into violence.

#— study.#god i hope this makes sense. i feel like i started rambling towards the end bc i have so many thoughts about thishgkjsg #death in general in this game i still do not understand nor do i think i will ever lol #but given how many bodies there are in the church!! and how they are... i go back and forth in the camp of are they actually dead #or are they alive just unable to move due to the pain and madness ? ???#they are all dried out eyeless husks. practically skeletons with skin #but there are some you can still target. some don't even attack unless you attack first too #anyway im going off on another tangent hjfksdhgkj #in er fashion realistically will vyke live at all? no #but in max fashion who likes to find other ways for a story can vyke live? yes. but it will be difficult and he is forever changed #which is the meat and potatoes of this-- ok i'll shut up nowhgkjshfgk #ok another thing: allegory for grief. just think biggest depression spell of your life #ok im done im prommy

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doodlingwren · 3 months

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I didn't log in on Tumblr for a week bc was busy in UNI hell and the second I came back, I heard about the data sold to AI mess and what the fuck am I supposed to do or to say lol...

Anyway, I must add that I'm not going, like, anywhere else. Am I tired of this situation? YES, trust me. I've already experienced art being stolen to be handed over to AI programs (I'm talking about you, DeviantArt) but I'm exhausted from moving from one social to another. The most fucked up thing is that even with a deactivated account, your stuff can be used to training Midjourney and shit, so… like, there's not a lot to do.

The thing that makes me mad is the way Tumblr handled this. By the way they wrote the announcement, it does feel like it has already happened, and the update was just a notice.

#wren text tag #last time a thing like this happened I stopped drawing and posting for 3 years bc I had a mental breakdown lol #mostly bc before I used to draw only my ocs and it didn't feel good knowing they where being put into a meat grinder of an AI art generator #esp if you are like me -> person who spends months working on a character between design and backstory #now I use this blog only for fanart so I don't care a lot lol they are not even my characters #maybe I'll draw so much shipping art that the AI will automatically think it's a canon event lol #also I'm really REALLY rethinking my life decision of study art for a living lol #being an artist in 2020s be like #*NFT* *AI* * your drawing stolen* *your drawing reposted without credits* *erasing watermarks* *stolen artworks used to train AI*#OH YES and the “sorry we don't need an illustrator for this project (shows a poster made with AI)”#GIRLLLLL WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO #I JUST WANT TO DRAW FOR FUCK'S SAKE #forever thinking about those 600+ drawings I had to delete on DA #“I'm an artist” and when I say it this is how I feel 🤡🤡🤡

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moe-broey · 11 months

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I am SO deeply obsessed w this line up of Forging Bonds supporting characters like. I'm SO 👁️👁️

LIKE. Sorry most of this is just gonna be screenshots between me and my sister LMFAOOO (TIRED) and also on Alcryst she said it best actually

I'M. SO EXCITED to see what their dynamic is gonna be I think they're going to be the funniest collection of guys ever.

ALSO?????? NOT ONLY TAKUMI/ALCRYST FRIENDSHIP REAL BUT POTENTIALLY ALFONSE/ALFRED FRIENDSHIP REAL???????????????????? It could be that Diamant speaks to each of them separately, but I'm SO interested.

ALSO HOPING that this Forging Bonds we actually get to see the other sides of Alfred, espppp since the game is out/has been out for a while (maybe they didn't want to show their hand too much since the first Engage banner was almost like a promo/first impression?) Alfred IS an incredibly fascinating and kind and complex character. I really would love to see them capture that side of him, where he's looking after his allies, ect.

ALSO ALSO. Lapis and Fredrick are gonna be funny as hell LMFAOOOOOOOOOO they're gonna go bear hunting together 😊😊😊🥰🥰🥰🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 (LEGITIMATELY SO EXCITED TO SEE THEM HAHAHAHA I adore Lapis esppp when she's. Just engaging in Normal Girl Behavior 🩷) (killing bears without being fazed collecting resources via foraging watering down milk so that it can be spread as far as possible across army members and be saved for later and nothing goes to waste. Just girly things 🩷)

#feh #I'M SO EXCITED...... i love characters.#i actually haven't used citrenne at all but it will be interesting to see more of anna.#i feel like i'm considering anna more lately. like as a character independent of her gimmicks. i need to study her.#i feel like this forging bonds caters to me specifically LMFAOOOO #I'M SO EXCITED FOR LAPIS AS WELL. I LOVE HER #i'm just. hhhhfhghggghghghhhgggg (positive)#alcryst #fe alfonse #fe takumi #diamant #fe lapis #just. tagging these guys i feel they're the most relevant charas here 🫡#oh my god wait do you think lapis is gonna give fredrick a hard time for not liking bear meat #this five foot nothing pink girl is gonna get his fucking ass for being a picky eater JSHSJSHKAHDKSHS

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insignificantfailure · 5 months

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Can I please just stop inconveniencing everyone?

#just gonna vent agaim #so I was making some traditional salad with my partner's mom (they're my parents as well at this point)#and I'm vegetarian right? so we were making two separate bowls of it #and my partner came to help and I switched the bowls to help and put the one with meat closer to her #and by instinct her mom put meat in my salad #and she panicked really bad but then it was safe because they managed to save like half of it that the meat didn't touch #we thought it was all good in the end #oh well until I got to eating my salad and I stop in horror realising that there. was. meat. in my mouth #and I didn't talk about it before but for me being vegetarian is like 20% for the animals and the rest because of the texture #+ I studied biology in detail in university and knowing what's in there disgusts me to the core #so there you have me gagging and running to the bathroom #and his mom felt terrible and she apologised to me so many times #I feel terrible because it wasn't even her fault #it's mine because I moved the bowls #I feel terrible because everytime I'm meeting with family I'm such an inconvenience because I don't eat meat #her mom and also my mom cook two separate meals everytime #of course I always tell them to let me cook for myself but they insist #I'm actually very grateful but I feel so bad #personal #vent #venting

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devouraes · 9 months

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#tags ^_^ ;#* ⸺ ooc : welcome to appled bee's )#* ⸺ self promo : true colors. )#* ⸺ promo : march of the guests. )#* ⸺ inbox : prison toys. )#* ⸺ mine : playful oddities ! )#* ⸺ headcanon : so many keys / yet none to unlock your cage ! )#* ⸺ ic : an escaped child threatens everything. )#* ⸺ study : a feeling for meat. )#* ⸺ aes : tell us / what have you seen ? )#* ⸺ music box : six's song. )#* ⸺ six : a hungry child. )#* ⸺ the maw : are you hungry for another one ? )#* ⸺ pale city : something on the air. )#* ⸺ rel; mono : hold tight / and we'll be just fine ! )#* ⸺ rel; the lady : who knows what might look back ? )#* ⸺ rel; rk : kindness will be your undoing ! )#* ⸺ rel; rcg : beneath the waves. )#* ⸺ rel; the thin man : lost in transmission. )#* ⸺ saved : little lost things. )#* ⸺ crack : i'm twelve / let the madness consume me ! )

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meattruck · 6 months

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I miss my computador and doing my silly little computador things like typing and surfing the world wide web and email

#also using it in my bed like i guess i could use this laptop im borrowing on the bed but she kinda phatt 😢#//i miss my baby girl soon ill fix u all up #im so behind on my school prework idk what to call it and im feeling burnt out but ita okay only 2 more weeks #i cant wait to be a bit more caught up so i can revise my study tactics cuz i mess up so badly by not prereading ahead of time.....#meat speaks #also i jjst found out i shouldnt say 几 classes i have but instead the units cuzbit sounds so stupid when i have so much stress over 2课 #im gonna start microdosing chinese into my tags cuz i dont have room maybe u can learn with me 👽

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meerschweinchen-archive · 2 years

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dropping out of the language course (that I signed up to, dropped out of and signed up to again three times now) with a sad and annoyed heart but its really really not smart to put more on my plate right now and if I have the capacity I can use the mass of free material that's out there... a course would be better for structure and holding myself accountable bc learning this language is something I really really wanna do now but I'll have the opportunity to join a course later too when I'm more settled in with everything else and life is long etc etc why does everything I do or not do feel like a failure blah blah

#two languages to be exact #I should just be paid to learn all the languages I want #language A is easier though bc I'm not a 100% beginner but in language B i am so I wanted a couuuuurse but I already feel like my brains #put through the meat grinder so.#I can do it though I can learn on my own! as a hobby!!#and I can go swimming!!! for my health #and not freak out #probably #maybe #three languages if you count the mhd for my medieval studies course lmao

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a-very-smooth-boltzmann-brain · 1 year

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"My brain works differently" not in a intelligent way but in a "count days till something happens and now you're drunk high and dreaming, all while sober af and awake" way.

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0ssianic · 2 years

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i started episode ardyn and really enjoying it so far

also, verstael as a character is so much more fun than i was expecting

#gimme the lore dump #ffxv #im picturing those i want to study you posts for how verstael feels towards ardyn #the way he launches into an explanation about the cloned meat felt like what happens when you get any researcher started on their projects #let him nerd out ardyn!

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thanatoseyes · 1 month

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Me: *strolling along the occult movements in the 1900s* la la la

The article: okay so remember THIS guy. He has ties to this other GUY. And THIS ONE. Don't even talk about him. Okay now moving on this one.

Me: I need a notebook and some aspirin.

#lol i suck at history objectively (i say as i proudly got a B in my undergraduate history course with one of the toughest professors/#theologians/power house of history #that B was hard guys god #anyway bakc to me sucking ass at remembering key important dates #where is my study partner ehen i need one #aleister crowley keeps showing up and i just want to drown in a puddle of water #man. .. i just remmbered he died a couple months ago #not aleister piss off dude #no my professor sigh he was an older man #well old idk i dont know how old he was when he died #anyway back to the dead dudes that shaped history wish me luck #its chaos magick lmao still trying to look to it objectively #but uuuuh gotta say i dont think its for me #kudos to whoever can do it #idk maybe im just not getting it #but i keep looking at like articles #and i guess i need to purchase the specific books maybe thatll help #but it feels uncannily like when i was in the hospital and everything was sterile but i was an amalgamation of shattered glass and halluc #inations of bruised meat #love to hear people talk about it tho #fascinating really lol

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breakerofcurses · 2 months

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i hate that 8 frogs in total have been killed just bc my class could get the difference between central and peripheral nervous system. my friends say we're doing this in the name of science or whatever but girl... we know the results already, do we have to torture a poor animal to prove the basics again and again

#and this will happen every year in every faculty in every city of the world where there are people who study med.#i'm not denying the fact that our knowledge of biology has advanced majorly by the decease of millions of lives (be it human frog rat etc.)#be it post-mortum with consent or just downright unethical experiments. isn't it speciesism when you can casually cut a frog open and #not feel anything while doing the same to a cat or a dog would enrage and sadden us #and isn't it hypocritical when i type all this after having meat in dinner

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nkogneatho · 7 months

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𝐉𝐉𝐊 𝐃𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐓𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐘

—a/n: ngl i cooked. overcooked even, so imagine some of the nastiest shit, this has it all. if i studied this much in my exams i would have a higher CGPA. anyways. hex codes are given. hope you like it.

—cw: dick+pubes+balls+cum analysis (kill me pls), monsterfucking in sukunas, creampie and breeding, never heard phrases from my dicktionary, not proofread plus it's 4 am i am half asleep

𝐆𝐎𝐉𝐎 𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐔

code: length: #ffe8d6 , tip: #f2aab7

We all know it. King of long dick. okay but no fr he has the longest dick in jjk. but let's get to the details. so size?? a whopping 7 inches. but you know his dick does this thing that when it gets hard, it curves slightly so hey!! maybe the true size is 7.2 or something. about color...his cock has the same color as his normal skin tone but as it approaches to the tip, it falls under a blushing pink gradient. and god his tip is so pink when he's hard, it feels likes all the blood in his body is settling there. his pubes hmm? white bush. he does trim it tho. but c'mon man!! it's gojo satoru we're talking about. he gets off seeing your nose rubbing against his white trim when you deepthroat him. also it's very rare for people to deepthroat him because as i said, longest dick. which is why when you actually manage to take him all the way in, the rare feeling of the throat sucking in has him shooting his translucent load down your throat. how does his cum taste? slightly sweet. duh. he's a sweet tooth and the reason he doesn't get diabetes is because all the sugar goes into his semen.

𝐅𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐎 𝐓𝐎𝐉𝐈

code: length: #ad8272 , tip: #875f54

*long inhale* bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock bigfatcock. incase i wasn't clear. he has a BIG FAT FUCKING COCK. he has the cock of our dreams. his size is long and girth is thick asf. length would be about 6.8 or 6.7. well about the girth...3.5 inches. yeah. good luck sucking that in your hole lmao. let's get to the tone. his cock has much darker color than his body. he has one of those milktea brown cocks. and the cockhead is even darker like coffee. oh wait! the cockhead. right. so hear me out. DID YOU KNOW HE HAS A FAT MUSHROOM TIP? the kind that is so thick that it gets lowkey stuck in your hole when he pulls out. my man has to tell you to breathe and relax so he can get it out. about his balls, bitch they're as the same size as big lemons. like you know why he wears those baggy bottoms otherwise everyone would see those nuts easily. they're not even nuts. nuts are dry. his have so much cum inside that if he doesn't shoot his load in you or on you once a day, they'll actually explode. cum taste? i said it before here but incase you're new here, it tastes like if someone put a little lemon and msg in thick and creamy alfredo sauce. bye.

𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐔𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐔

code: length: #c99a89 , tip: #fcd7ca

*evil laugh* i am not holding back on him but hear me out. HORSE COCK. have you seen it?? it's like curvy girthy cock. me thinks he has long hair and broad shoulders. and have you seen his hands??? it all sums up. isn't as long as gojo but god that meat is fat as fuck. his size has to be around 6 inches and the girth from a 2d angle is about 2 so i found the pythagorean theorem of his cock which is like 6.324 inches. so his tip starts at like 5.324 inches. about the tone...his dick starts darker—or maybe it's cuz of his pubes—at the base but as it reaches towards the head, it blends into the color of his skin tone. geto likes to clean shave sometimes but you know when he saw you drooling over his happy trail when he came out of the shower with a flimsy towel wrapped around his body, yeah he couldn't get that drooling expression of yours out of his head. so he trims it to the length that wouldn't get in the way and is easy to keep it clean but also enough to make you salivate. his balls are very similar to a fig in shape. aren't really fat but they grow hella tight when he is close to cumming. the taste of his cum is sour. i am telling you. like not too sour but it sorta has the acidic taste to it. but nonetheless it tastes good on your tongue. on his too, when he kisses you after shooting a load in your mouth

𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐈 ��𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐎

code: length: #e8cca9 , tip: #b59267

chooo choo mfs. i am about to go off. dw i won't slander him, he has already suffered enough. #justicefornanami but anyways back with my girthy cock agenda. now listen. he is not long. i mean he has an average size but the girth??? sheesh! that makes up for it. his length has to be like 5.8 or max to max 6 though gotta love that 4 inches girth, big fat meat, exceeeding half the size of his length. now if you don't understand this concept in numericals, let me indulge you in a scenario that might help. imagine him coming home frustrated from work and all he needs is a warm shower. but there you are all slutty in your outfit and all he wants to do is blow your back out. so he gets hard...like really hard. and it's so painful for his cock to stay put under all those layers of cloth that if he doesn't free it, it will tear it's fat way out. so when he finally decides to unbuckle the belt, pull his undies down with the waistband, his cock jumps out and slaps against his shaved pelvis. so loud that you can hear it over the noise of the tv. now you get it? no? okay hear this one. when he wears an underwear coming fresh out of the shower, his dick takes up about the area similar to a size of a bowl. about his tip, he has a fat tip bruh. not too fat because the base is much thick but yeah. now time for the taste, mixture of citrusy and salty. like when he cums in your tongue it has that salty flavor but the after taste is sweeter and falls more of the citrusy side. maybe like a tangerine. wow i really went off. apologies everyone.

𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐔𝐊𝐔𝐍𝐀

code: base: #805149 , length: #f5d7c6 , tip: #edc8bb

i am in my monsterfucking era so this is gonna be monster kuna. so we all know four arms, two dicks yada yada yada but did you know sukuna has a special ability?? like we all know he can summon his mouth anywhere but did you know he can summon his dick too? anywhere on his body. he does this thing where if you act too bratty, he'd throw his palm your mouth and you'd think he's just blocking your voice but this mf pops out a whole ass 8 inch monster cock in your mouth that has you gagging and choking, eyes rolling back. *728 dead. 263 injured* there's no size for kuna since he can adjust the size but if we're talking tones, the base of his cocks (wow. plural. would you look at that) have reddish undertone. like tomato red but the actual dickbod has like peachy pink color. his cockhead is long and kinda blends into the length. his cum tastes bitter and sour. not repellent but the taste is still strong. don't underestimate this man though. he'll rip your holes apart yet have you begging him for more. that's what simply is the power of the king of curses. he has you compelled. but i gotta give it to sukuna fuckers. y'all have some of the strongest pussy/ass.

𝐊𝐀𝐌𝐎 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐎

code: length: #f2e7c4 , tip: #d6b596

chosito's cock represents a shampoo bottle. now you might ask which one. the retail shampoo bottle that you use as your mic in the shower. he has a pretty and perfect dick. his girth is thick enough for you to wrap your fingers around you and his length enough to fill you up. whenever you stroke his cock, you can't stop looking at it. it just fits right. like it was made for you. so perfect. his size falls under 5.6 to 5.9 inches and the girth is 2.5 inches, so it's like a good ratio. he has an olive undertone and a darker mushroom tip. his pubes aren't trimmed but he keeps them extra clean. you know it because whenever you give him a blowjob and you take him all the way in, there is a floral smell lingering around the area. he doesn't naturally sweat a lot plus he has a very bouncy skin with slightly soft texture so his cock is always pleasant to suck. choso also has very visible veins. and when i mean very...i mean very. like i mentioned his skin has a soft texture so the skin on his length is flimsy and kinda see through. so when you are settled between his legs, stroking him, your eyes are so indulged in watching the blood rush through them and when he cums, his veins start slightly moving and his balls tightens. Oh! Balls. can i say it?? okay i'll say it. Breeder balls. i told you he has a 5.6 inch cock, y'all would have been disappointed. but see the creator of this universe took a few mass off his dick only for it to be filled in them breeder balls. which is why, he cums a lot. when he shoots a load, he almost gives you a facial. his cum is sweet with a metallic taste. but hey! it's a pleasure to swallow his cum. but you know why i compared his cock to a shampoo bottle? it because when he is so horny and hard and you give his base a few big squeezes, he'll spurt out a thick load of cum like your shampoo.

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autistic-shaiapouf · 7 months

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Alright alright alright the most pressing issue in my life rn is that I'm going to a potluck on Sunday and I'm still not sure what to bring

#i think I'll just make more beef stew tomorrow.. the person who invited me is already bringing easy dessert so that's off the table 🙄 /j #get some groceries tonight or so and then i have to forget the stew on the stove for a few hours #really break down the meat and soften it 😤 anyways my inviter really wants me to go bc her neighbor is a myrmecologist!#he's studied ants for decades and was apparently pretty excited to hear I'd be there bc then i could understand his ant talk 😭#this feels like a bigger event than it really is I'm sure but i feel like I'll be able to relax more once it's finished #shai speaks

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yappacadaver · 9 months

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part of the body i love but can't draw: armpits

#brain just can not comprehend it man #i need to do studies but i would feel so fucking weird man #still want to do a page of hands though i wouldn't feel weird abt that one even if it's ya know. hands.#a bisexual artist girl finding hands hot is like a dog that eats meat. it's normal. expected.

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rafayelism · 4 months

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dating the love and deepspace boys | domestic moments

featuring: rafayel, xavier, and zayne x gn!reader

(´• ω •`) ♡ modern au! can you guys tell raf is my favorite..?

rafayel

a year younger than you. lies to everyone (including you) that he’s actually two years your senior. you only found out he was younger than you when you met his parents, who have his birth certificate framed.

hates cats. despises them. they fill him with rage (fear). says he’s allergic (he’s lying).

“oh shit raf, this sucks! i guess you can’t move in with me.. i have cats”

“...you have cats?”

“yeah. 3.”

“i’m not allergic. i can move in tonight.”

chronically online. minoring in marine biology and majoring in annoying you. texts you over 200 times a day and if you don’t respond, he’s faking a horrible chronic illness. again. it’s amnesia on wednesdays, appendicitis on thursdays, chronic migraines on fridays… etc..

he has 2 followers on his private twitter. you and thomas.

over 700k followers on instagram for some reason? he sells paintings on depop (he says it's depop but you’re convinced he sells them for heinous prices on the black market)

cooks on occasion? has an apron that says kiss me im irish (he's not irish?) made you a tuna cupcake once??

pescatarian. not in the vegan/vegetarian way where he refuses to eat red meat but because he’s absolutely feral over fish. (is this cannibalism? he says its not)

lives in a 2 bedroom apartment with you but doesn’t use his bedroom. says your bed is comfier. turned his bedroom into a painting studio (IT’S for the black market you say!!) and sleeps with you.

“raf,” you sigh. “don’t you have.. homework or something?”

he sits between your legs, back against your chest as he scrolls through his phone.

“yeah,” he says. you flick the back of his head because you know he’s smirking. “it’s called assignment: you. due in two minutes.”

with his free hand, he reaches back mindlessly to grab yours. you sigh, fingers intertwining with his, a reflex as he leans his head back. his eyes meet yours and you can’t help but laugh.

“well?” you ask, brushing his hair out of his eyes as he squeezes your hand. “what are the assignment details?”

he chews on the bottom of his lip as he thinks, humming while his eyes wander across your face. he swings your interlocked hands in circles. it’s raining outside, the heater is on, and rafayel is warm like hot chocolate.

“what?” he says, his cheeks a tinge pink. “you’re looking at me like that again.” a pause. he turns, his head now buried in your chest.

“just studying my homework.” you say, hands instinctively wrapping around his back. the laundry machine is running in the background, rain is falling against the window, and you faintly hear your rice cooker dinging in the kitchen. home, you think, is with rafayel.

“i can hear your heartbeat.” he says, voice muffled. “it’s super fast. you like me or something?”

“i really like you.” you say, without skipping a beat. rafayel groans into your chest, sighing in discontent.

“no fair. i’m supposed to be the flirter.”

you press a kiss onto the top of his head and you feel his body melt into yours. the two of you fall into a warm silence, his breath steady as he traces paintings into your neck.

“raf?” you mumble, eyes drooping. he hums in response. “did you pass your assignment?”

he smiles. “with flying colors.”

xavier

chronic napper. (yapper?)

has 100 late assignments. failing all of his classes yet got into the top university in your country because he got a perfect score on his entrance exams. you thought he was a nepo baby (turns out he’s just.. smart?)

his procrastination rubs off on you… he is the WORST distraction and he knows it. so smug about it and uses it to his own advantage. will perch on top of you when you’re studying and kiss down your neck until you go to sleep with him.

lives in the apartment on top of yours but is at your house most days, if not all. you ask him to move in.

“am i not already.. living with you?”

“don’t you still have your apartment, though?”

“yeah..?”

is that good for the economy?? is it financially smart? not at all, but he’s too lazy to move out and put his apartment up for lease.

xavier sleeps with his legs entangled with yours and his arms wrapped tightly around your chest. the air conditioning hums in the background as you scroll mindlessly on your phone, dimming the brightness as you hear xavier stir.

“sorry xav, did i wake you up?” you ask. he doesn’t respond, blinking the sleep out of his eyes as he glares at your phone.

“xavier?” you question, swallowing a laugh at his ruffled hair and disheveled clothes.

“phone down.” he says, voice raspy with sleep and an octave lower than usual. you raise an eyebrow at him.

“can i get a pretty please in this economy?”

xavier’s eyes narrow as he snatches your phone away, snoozing the device and placing it on the nightstand next to you. his lips ghost your neck, pressing kisses against your skin as he mumbles incoherently in the dark of your bedroom.

“xavier-” you breathe, giggling at the sensation. “that tickles!”

he nips at your neck.

“bedtime. now.”

zayne

3 years older than you

he literally has his whole life together at 27 which scares you so much

“my credit card is your credit card” typa boyfriend

cooks. cleans. has a 9-5. you’re interning at the hospital that he works at (he’s head doctor!!)

you’re just a sweet little intern and zayne is the big bad monster!! everyone at work thinks he hates you because he’s extra strict on you. doesn’t give you any special treatment, ‘ignores’ you most days (but also slips meals into your locker and hands you heat packs on cold days in the hospital)

no one knows he’s dating you until one day someone sees you leaving in zaynes car.

“oh, you carpool with doctor zayne?”

“huh? no, we live together.”

“you WHAT???”

he’s a virgo……. erm……

the two of you get ready together in the morning. his guard is down when he’s sleepy and he’ll cling to you as he brushes his teeth and does his hair.

you wake up to the cold night breeze, blinking the sleep out of your eyes and shivering as you scan your surroundings. you yelp as you meet the attentive gaze of your boyfriend.

“huh? whuh? huh?” you splutter, squirming as zayne holds you tighter. he’s carrying you bridal style in his arms, his jacket around your shoulders as the two of you walk to his car. you see the bright lights of akso hospital fading away behind the two of you.

“it’s two am,” he says calmly, placing you down gently as he opens your car door for you. “you waited for my shift to end. again.”

you smile bashfully, rubbing the back of your head. “well, i didn’t wanna just leave you!”

zayne clicks his tongue against the roof of his mouth, eyebrows furrowed but gaze warm. he guides you into your seat, clicking your seatbelt in place.

“you can nap on the way home,” he says, closing the door and sliding into his side of the car.

the heater’s on already- courtesy of his super expensive electric car. he fastens his own seatbelt and hands you a hot tea and bread from the hospital vending machine.

“drink up. doctor’s orders.”

you grin before he leans over to press a kiss on your lips.

“thank you for waiting for me.”

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