#(pretending to drive the hello kitty car in the mall until they stopped letting people go inside it)(many more such memories)

[tadpal]

sometimes i see pictures of places I used to live taken when i used to live there and get all I Miss You...... but babe i was a child and MISERABLE

#this is about hashtag lisbon mostly but also porto #i miss you (no i dont)(three bedroom apartment)(13 people sharing)(height of summer) #but also(basil in all the windowsills to stop the flies)(sleeping in a pile next to all my siblings) #(going to the park with the weeping willows and my mom giving us all 1 chupachup)(feeling like a person again after a year at Real School) #(the texture of tiles on the wall)(the murals)(the graffiti)(the river)(sat in a shop and the shopkeep telling me about ceramics in broken #english)(her helping me draw patterns & letting me mix a blue glaze)(the colour of the river and sky)(the heat radiating off the pavement) #(my siblings laugh)(the feeling of being surrounded in a language you barely speak and then understanding something) #(the feeling of joy of having someone try to understand you)(the freckles on my arms)(being told i look like my aunt) #(pretending to drive the hello kitty car in the mall until they stopped letting people go inside it)(many more such memories) #(and it aches) #but i dont miss it (only when i buy basil)(it doesnt grow in this climate)(our house now smells like rosemary) #(and those kids dont call me sister anymore)