#(but the first thing I'm gonna do it is to check how many lgbtq+ characters he wrote on those works...)

[the-words-we-sung]

While I (not so) patiently await season 3...

I think being on Tumblr is gonna be tough this week: I've blacklisted sp*ilers because I wanna watch the new season with my mind as free as possible (like I did for the first 2 seasons) but it means that right now my dash is 99% empty, just an endless list of blocked posts 😅 So 1. it's boring and 2. the temptation to check these hidden posts is growing bigger and bigger by the minute >< I'm not entirely sure I can make it spoiler-free 'til next Monday... But anyway, I was just thinking tonight how lucky we are to live at a time when shows like Young Royals are being made, and well-made, and successful, and so so loved by so many people.

Earlier tonight I got struck by a faint memory of a scene from an old TV show I watched when I was (way) younger and so I went on a deep search to find it. It was an old French TV show that I watched with my parents growing up and it made me laugh to check some bits of some episodes: but I ended up watching a scene where a (secondary) character comes out to his best friend (a main character on the show) and it was awful. The best friend reaction was terrible and homophobic, but treated as if it was totally normal and acceptable. And it made me so so sad, because I grew up with that, I grew up watching that. And it's probably not the only scene, the only show, the only movie with that kind of message that I've watched when I was young. I grew up in an environment, a family, that was quite close-minded. The mere concept of not being straight, not being cis, was not at all something that I was aware of at the time. We didn't talk about that with my parents or at school. And the little representations I got on TV (like this one) were pretty awful. It makes sense that it took me so long to really realize that I was neither straight nor cis, to be able to actually put words on what I had been feeling my whole life (and I'm not even done questioning it all). But yeah, growing up then meant not being exposed to the amazing representation that we have now. And I am so so so happy that young people now can have that!! That we can all have that! I am sometimes incredibly frustrated by the idea that my life would have been so so different if a show like Young Royals existed when I was growing up, when I was a teenager... Where would I be now? Who would I be now? Most of the time I'm just happy and grateful that I still managed to get where I am today, but yeah, the frustration over what feels like wasted years can rear its ugly head sometimes...

Glee was my first "Young Royals", my first fandom, my first show with a good and real and strong LGBTQ+ representation. It's the show that will always have a special place in my heart because it made me see, made me realize things about myself. It's the show that pushed me head first into queer culture and told me to "look look here! Look at these people, look at this history!". The show that took me by the hand and told me I could be strong and brave and myself. And that I was not alone. Blaine and Kurt will always be the fictional characters who helped me the most, who made me start the process of becoming myself, who started healing me.

At the time I didn't participate in the fandom life as I do now with Young Royals, because I was quite introverted and not comfortable talking to people, and still trying to figure things out about myself. But Young Royals changed that. This show arrived at the perfect time, when I felt ready for more, ready to take a step further in my healing process. Anyway, such a long rant just to say that Young Royals is incredible. It didn't change my life quite as radically as Glee did, but it is making it incredibly better! Part of it is of course due to the show itself, and Wilhelm, and Simon, and the cast (Omar!!!!). But it is also this fandom, and the people I've met and chatted with. You all have no idea how incredible you've been, how happy you've made me. How healing you've been for me. I'm realizing that I've written a whole novel in this post >< Which was not really my intention! I was mostly just thinking about how awesome our little show is, how lucky we are that we're gonna have 3 incredible seasons to watch and rewatch. And how happy I am to be part of our little fandom family 💜

So I hope you're all enjoying the season 3 content that we've been getting today (even though I don't know what it is 😱) and I'm excited to be there with you all next week to be happy and sad and unhinged as usual about our dear dear show 💜💜

#Young Royals #Glee #L goes on a giant rant #you don't have to read it all #gonna put a read more so I'm not invading too much of people's dashboards ^^" #it's quite personal #just going down memory lane a little bit #and feeling sad and happy at the same time #representation matters #I will always say it and believe it #I'm happy to be in this fandom with all of you guys #(even though I cannot see a thing that you're posting today #because I'm torturing myself by choosing to not be spoiled further about season 3 😭) #it's a nostalgic kind of evening I guess #personal

[nerdygaymormon]

we get it, you're gay. why you gotta make it your whole personality

You have got to be kidding me with this!

First of all, this blog is about existing in this difficult space of being a queer Mormon, so yes, me being gay is gonna come up a lot.

Second, non-queer people talk about their gender identity and sexual orientation ALL THE TIME! It's so common it's like a fish who doesn't notice the water they swim in. You don't notice the heteronormativity in the world where you exist.

I'm here to provide the receipts.

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Here's examples of cis straight people making it their whole personality:

I had a co-worker who would check out every "hot" woman who walked by his office window. His office was on one side of a corner of the building and mine on the other. He'd watch her walk from his office, then come to mine to keep watching. Creepy!

I cannot even guesstimate how many "I'd do her" comments I have heard

Everyone who's single talks about their dating life, who they're crushing on, and so on.

Married people and folks with children ALWAYS be mentioning this. "I can't stay, gotta pick my kids up from school." (If I was like the person who sent the anonymous ask, I'd respond with "I don't care what your reason is for leaving, why you insist on telling me about your heteronormative life?")

All the times I've heard someone say 'she and her husband are trying for kids.' She basically announced she & her husband are having lots of sex and no one bats an eye.

Have you ever watched commercials? They're full of messages about hetero sex and cis gender identity. Think about all the razors blades or body wash aimed at cis men: Mach3, Xtreme, Lawn Mower, Axe, Odor Armor. People complain about LGBTQ being forced down their throat when there happens to be a gay character on a TV show or included in a movie, but we live with their nonsense being shoved at us incessantly

Speaking of TV and movies, it doesn't matter the topic--dinosaurs have come to life, broken out of their cages, and are killing people, how can we stop them?--somehow they manage to fit in a man and a woman falling in love. Can't we have a show without all that hetero romance stuff that isn't central to the main storyline?

There is a secret code of what's acceptable for cis straight men and they are very worried about not following the code, which is why there's such a stigma around letting their son take a dance class or wear pink, and why most cis straight men are very uncomfortable about getting a massage from a man, or getting a pedicure, or any number of things. Those things are against the code and they don't want to be mistaken for anything other than a cis het man. They think about this a lot, it governs a lot of their decisions. It's pathetic.

Who is it that’s making their sexual orientation or gender identity their whole identity?

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People who say things like "don't make being gay your whole personality," really mean "please barely ever mention it," or "can you please just go back into the closet?" That's because they're the ones obsessively focused on it, they can't ignore any comment that indicates I'm queer.

#get over straight self #if you don't like my blog then don't read it #move along

[mcdannowave]

Oh Scotty 😂

#h50 1x20 #scott caan #danny williams #hawaii five 0 #h50 bloopers #precious golden cupcake #forever in love w/ the ''Let's have a hiking-date on one of my fav spots in this island. Danno'' episode #love how natural this is for Scott to just blurt it like that #he rly swears alot #reminds me of that Ep on S9 w/ Grace's accident. and they filming a powerful scene w/ Steve holding Danny back #and Scott s holding himself in the moment and to not say the F word (but he start to say it xD) #but the acting was so good (and i guess it's hard to just keep going filming w/ that raw energy) that they decided to keep the take #it just goes to show how much better is when actors are allowed to swear. specially on dramatic/strong scene #and Scott is one of those that benefits alot from that #thinking abt it right now. i wonder if his Plays has some cursing on it. i never got one (not even on PDF) to find out #i bet it does.As a writer he probs allow is characters to express themselves in the moment #but again. idk his writing style. one of these days i'm gonna check his works #(but the first thing I'm gonna do it is to check how many lgbtq+ characters he wrote on those works...) #mine

[forever-always]

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

OMG I just realized that the sh**ting would be a shared trauma for both Buck and Eddie (in different perspectives ofc) .. This'll probably bring them even closer to each other as they try to navigate through it in their own ways but nevertheless still being there for each other when needed 👀..

I don't know what to do with this realization tho 💔

I'm just gonna go back to my corner and be invisible till Tuesday night (when I can watch the episode)

22 notes • Posted 2021-05-22 21:09:10 GMT

#4

I'm curious how do you categorize writers who writes and saves fics on their mobile's notepad but never wanna put it out there coz they aren't sure of themselves enough ?????? Asking for a friend 👀

29 notes • Posted 2021-12-19 20:05:30 GMT

#3

It really pisses me off when a show sets up a LGBTQ+ couple and give them a beautiful SL only to have most of their (pivotal) scenes happen off-screen .. I mean why is it always up to our interpretation ????? Then what's even the point of the damn show ???? We could might as well just live in "fanfic land" ... I'm just tired .. This isn't the first time we had to assume "how it must have gone down?" "What must have lead to it?" (This time I'm 👀👀 at u, 911 LS) .. Y'all really didn't think we at least deserved a tiny glimpse into the convo of Carlos asking TK to move in ????? Seriously ???!!?!!???? Screw y'all ..

(Listen I'm grateful for all the content we got with my babies 🥰♥️ .. But my frustration is justified and I know I'm not the only one out there ..)

29 notes • Posted 2021-04-28 00:19:12 GMT

#2

A convo b/w my BFF and I:

Me: I'm gonna show u something, u need to lemme know what u feel..

BFF: Alright. Send it to me and I'll check it out..

*** It's important to note that she has zero clue about what she's about to watch .. Like ZERO clue..***

BFF: *watched the scene and calls me back* So what did u want me to observe?

Me: Did u watch it completely?

BFF: Yes I did but I'm super confused..

Me: Ok. So what do u think their relationship is? Are they brothers, friends, lovers, soulmate ...???

BFF: Initially I thought they were brothers, then I thought they were friends, then I was confused.. Wait! Hold on. Are they gay for each other???? *sounds excited af*

Me: *Dodging her question* Alright! What's ur final call on their relationship?

BFF: They're best friends who are soulmates with a potential of more..

Me: Do they give u the bro vibes?

BFF: Are u kidding me? Noooo.. Those two are anything but brothers..

Me: Well the network promote them as "brothers" and made us feel like idiots for thinking there was something more there..

BFF: They're crazy to see those two are brothers. Screw them. Those two are bloody soulmates.. That's what they are..

----End of Convo----

U hear that Fox.. Even a non-viewer sees them for what they truly are; SOULMATES.. (Brothers .. my ***)

34 notes • Posted 2021-05-16 15:39:18 GMT

#1

Ok seriously not to be that person .. But I'm not feeling so good after reading Oliver's interview .. Maybe I've been burnt wayyyyyyy too many times in the past that I'm not exactly liking the sound of the whole 'conflict between Buck and Eddie' thingy .. It's just not sitting well with me .. I mean I know it's lawsuit 2.0™️ .. But what if it isn't?????? What if the writers screw shit up with the whole 'conflict' thing and we end up with a more strained relationship between Buck and Eddie ????? What if it draws them apart even further instead of bringing them closer ?????? What if Christopher becomes the only anchor between the two of them ??????? What if they screw over Buddie and us along with it ...?????? I know I'm being such a Debbie downer but given all the times I've been burnt in the past with other shows and ships .. It makes it a little hard for me to be hopeful and overly optimistic about things ... Sorry about this useless post .. just ignore it and carry on with the optimistic fun posts ✌️

36 notes • Posted 2021-12-15 20:08:16 GMT

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[sapphicscholar]

hi so I didn't know who to ask but in my psych class we're learning about adolescent psychology, & there was this unit on developing interest in relationships. It went way into detail on how the brain changes during that time, which was interesting, but ofc my gay ass couldn't relate. at the end all it said was 'it's different for homosexuals.' I guess I'm wondering if you know of any way to learn about psychology relating to LGBT people? srsly im thirsty for anything in academia I can relate to

(same psych anon) that was a pretty specific question so I guess like do you have any info or know of any links/ websites/places to learn about lgbt history and lives and stuff like that in an academic way? bc I love school & learning but I’ve always wanted to learn more about myself and people like me, but they never teach that in schools.

Oh my gosh SO MANY THINGS! Okay, so, the psych stuff is pretty outside of my knowledge but I asked my gf (she does the science in this relationship while my gay ass just reads a whole lot of books), and she recommends Helen Fisher and looking at the researchers at the Society for the Scientific Study of Sexuality or the Kinsey Institute, as well as The Sage Encyclopedia of LGBTQ Studies (it’s an online resource a lot of universities subscribe to). But I’d also say that as far as thinking about developmental narratives, LGBTQ memoirs are a great place to start, especially since so many of them go through their own experiences of having to confront this heteronormative, cis-centric narrative that just doesn’t fit them and their lives. 

So some good queer history authors are: John D’Emilio (comprehensive, if a bit male-centric), Lillian Faderman (writing all about lesbian history, including more recent history; very well-respected; she’s got some issues in her scholarship that by no means discount it as a whole, but I’m happy to talk more about if you want), Michael Bronski (his Queer History of the United States is really accessible), George Chauncey (it’s just of NYC, but still fun), Estelle B. Freedman, Foucault (though it’s not quite “history,” it’s a kind of history meets theory of regimes of power and how sexuality got tied up in that), Martha Vicinus (I adore her), Valerie Traub (goes all the way back to the early modern period), and so many others who really focus more on niche history, so I won’t list them here. There are some web resources, but I know a lot of them are databases that are subscription-based. I’ll see what I can’t dig up in the next couple of days as far as free websites. I know they exist; it’s just a matter of having the time to look…

Okay, you didn’t specifically say you were interested in literature but bc I taught literature and think it’s a great way to learn about the history of a group, I’m gonna list some anyway and you can feel free to disregard!

Patricia Highsmith, The Price of Salt (or Carol, depends on the year it was printed) – you can also check out the movie! I find the two to be complementary (the book gives you Therese’s POV almost exclusively, whereas the movie shows much more of Carol’s story) 

Alison Bechdel, Fun Home is her graphic novel/memoir that’s really excellent, but the comic strip that sort of launched her as a public persona (at least within the lesbian community) was Dykes to Watch Out For, quite a bit of which is available for free online

Henry James, The Bostonians – one of the first recognizable depictions of a queer female character in literature (not really…I’d trouble that as a professor, but that’s how it gets taught in general, and it was one of the first books where even contemporary reviewers were quick to note that there was something “wrong” or “morbid,” which was 19th C. code for what would come to be understood as lesbian sexuality, about Olive Chancellor) – free online, though it’s James at his most….Jamesian, which means it’s not that accessible

The poetry of Emily Dickinson! It’s all free online. There’s a ton of it, though much of it isn’t obviously queer

James Baldwin, Giovanni’s Room – gets into bisexual identity in a way a lot of works don’t do; on the sadder side…fair warning 

Virginia Woolf! Especially Orlando or Mrs. Dalloway – the former has been called “the longest and most charming love-letter in literature” (to Woolf’s longtime friend and lover, Vita Sackville-West) and deals with the fluidity of gender and time; the latter has quite a few flashbacks to the brief childhood romance of the protagonist and her friend. Both of them are great, but Woolf, as a modernist, can have a writing style that’s difficult to get into at first (for instance, time really isn’t stable or linear, which is something I adore about her, but definitely takes some getting used to). They’re both available free online through Project Gutenberg

Radclyffe Hall, The Well of Loneliness – it’s a classic, in the sense that it’s one of those books people sort of expect you to have read if you do lesbian literature. It’s certainly an interesting story and told well, but it’s not even close to a happy ending and is rather conciliatory to prevailing norms (though even still it was taken to the courts under the  obscenity laws) - free online, though!

Sarah Waters – a contemporary novelist who writes almost all historical fiction about queer women! Some of her stories are better known (e.g. Tipping the Velvet), but they’re pretty much all great. Varying degrees of angst, but definitely an accessible read

Maggie Nelson, The Argonauts – sort of experimental in form (it’s fiction with footnotes!); it deals with a lesbian woman coming to terms with her partner’s transition and her own identity during the process 

E.M. Forster, Maurice – even though it was first drafted in the 1910s, Forster edited it throughout his life, and, given the subject matter, which was also autobiographical, and the prevailing attitudes at the time, the book was only published posthumously in the 70s

Colette’s Claudine series – it’s long (multi-volume) but sort of a classic – they’re all old enough to be free online, though the English translation is harder to come by 

Eileen Myles – lesbian poet and novelist – I’d recommend Inferno but some of her poetry is free online 

Rita Mae Brown – Rubyfruit Jungle and Oranges Are not the Only Fruit are both quite good, though, especially the latter deals with religiously-motivated homophobia, so I know at least my girlfriend, who dealt with a lot of that from her family, opted not to read it for her own mental health. 

Tony Kushner, Angels in America – this two-part play deals with the AIDS crisis in America – it’s been turned into a TV miniseries, a Broadway play, and a movie, some of which are available online

Really anything by David Sedaris or Augusten Burroughs – both are gay authors who deal a lot with short stories (a ton of memoir/autobiographical stuff) – the former is a bit funnier, but they both have enough sarcasm and dry wit even in dark situations to make them fast reads 

Alan Ginsburg’s poetry 

Walt Whitman’s poetry (though it can be really fucking racist) 

Binyavanga Wainaina, One Day I Will Write About This Place – does deal with issues of sexual abuse as a warning 

Anything by Amber Hollibaugh (she writes a lot about class and butch/femme dynamics – quite a bit of her stuff has been scanned and uploaded online) 

Michelle Tea – was a slam poet; recovering alcoholic; fantastically funny and talented author and delightful human being if you ever get the chance to meet her or go to one of her readings

Randy Shilts, And the Band Played On – more a work of investigative journalism than anything, the work is a stunning indictment of the indifference of the US government during some of the worst years of the AIDS crisis, but it also provides a good bit of gay history 

Terry Galloway Mean Little Deaf Queer – deals with one woman’s experience of losing her hearing and navigating the world and the Deaf and deaf communities as a once-hearing person – she’s sort of acerbic and always funny;

Jeffrey Eugenides, Middlesex – grapples with intersex identity in a way that’s still far too rare in literature 

Theodore Winthrop, Cecil Dreem – just rediscovered about two years ago, this is one of the few pretty happy gay novels from the nineteenth century! Free online!

Leslie Feinberg, Stone Butch Blues – pretty clear from the title, but deals with a butch character’s struggles with gender identity (takes T to pass for a while, but then gets alienated from the lesbian community; eventually stops taking T, but still struggles with what that means for her) – Feinberg’s wife made it free online for everyone after Feinberg’s death (the book had a limited print run, which made finding copies both hard and expensive) 

Harvey Fierstein, Torch Song Trilogy – trilogy later adapted for film about an effeminate gay man (who also performs as a drag queen) and his life and family   

Oscar Wilde – his novels aren’t explicitly gay, but they often dance around it thematically, at least; his heartbreaking letter, De Profundis, which he wrote to his lover while imprisoned for “gross indecency,” is available online 

Anything by Dorothy Alison 

Audre Lorde, Zami: A New Spelling of My Name - great as a memoir and a cultural history  

There’s so many more but this is so my jam I suspect I’ve already rambled too long

If you’re interested in film, here are a few: 

Paris Is Burning (a film about drag ball culture in NYC) 

Fire – Deepa Mehta (it’s on YouTube in the US) 

Boys Don’t Cry – there is a lot of homophobia and transphobia in the film, so it’s definitely one you’ll want to be in the right mindset to watch (I, for one, have only watched it once) 

But I’m a Cheerleader – over-the-top mockumentary-esque film that satirizes conversion therapy and the Christian “documentaries” that claimed to showcase their successes (RuPaul is in it as well) 

Desert Hearts – one of the earliest films to leave open the possibility of a happy ending for the lesbian couple 

Hedwig and the Angry Itch – deals with gender identity and feelings of not belonging (also a fabulous musical) 

Philadelphia – about one man’s experience of discrimination while dying of AIDS 

There are plenty of lighter films, but I figure these tend to also talk more seriously about some issues as well

I don’t know if anyone but me made it to the end of this post, but there’s also so much fun queer theory out there that I won’t get into here, but I’m always up for giving more recommendations!

#ask me #anon #professor rambles #lgbtq history #lgbtq literature #book recommendations #film recommendations