#(but it could also be post s2 and pre s3 idk what vibes you want with this one )

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“no, i don’t hate you.” — steve

it   makes   her   smile.   the   words   that   come   out   of   steve’s   mouth,   it’s   the   nervous   smile.   the   one   that   tends   to   hide   behind   pursed   lips.   it’s   all   smoke   and   mirrors   with   nancy   wheeler.   not   because   she   is   dishonest,   or   wants   to   trick   people.   she   just   has   learned   that   walls   somewhat   protect   her.   but   with   jon   so   far   away.   and   with   everything   reaching   it’s   boiling   point,   steve   and   her   fell   apart.   with   good   reason.   if   steve   hated   her,   nancy   would   understand.   they   never   talked   about   what   happened.   steve   didn’t   want   to   and   nancy   didn’t   push   it.   she’s   aware.   she   knows   somewhere   along   the   lines   she   messed   up.   and   that’s,   easy   to   see   now.   everything   so   far   away   and   behind   them.   time   has   done   wonders   for   steve   harrington.   she   can   tell.   but   it’s   her   who   feels   lost   now.   she   always   knows   what   she   wants.   she   never   really   does.   she’s   looking   at   him,   with   baby   doll   eyes.   a   thousand   emotions   fighting   their   way   to   the   surface.      she   let’s   out   a   sigh,   uncrosses   her   arms   then.   hugs   herself   like   she   usually   does.   let’s   the   silence   build   up   between   them.   most   of   the   times   she   would   bottle   things   up.   she   has   been   doing   that,   her   feelings   come   out   in   bursts   more   than   anything   else   really.  

“that’s...comforting   to   hear.”   she   starts,   it’s   honest.   nods   a   little   when   she   says   it   “-i   mean,   i   wouldn’t   blame   you   if   you   did.   but   i’m   glad   you   don’t.”   stares   out.   hesitates   in   talking   more.   her   alone   with   her   thoughts.   how   it   usually   is.   but   loneliness   could   be   such   a   burden.   she   needed   to   start   dealing   with   it.   “i   should...reach   out   more.”   leaves   the   thought   unfinished,   vague   and   open.   but   nancy   wheeler   is   a   lock   with   no   key   at   times.   what   she   means   is,   that   she   should   reach   out   more,   because   whether   they   work   or   not   or   whether   she   is   dating   jon,   that   doesn’t   phase   out   the   fact   that   she   is   alone   here   now.   she   could   use   a   friend.   and   steve   maybe   could   too.  

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#/ * tagged — 🌷 ( she’s a fighter / she’s a lover ) ic . #/ * tagged — 🌷 askbox *answered . #harringtontm #( this got out of my hands ) #( thinking post s3 pre s4 ) #(but it could also be post s2 and pre s3 idk what vibes you want with this one ) #( anyways something about me with emotional stunted characters amirite? )