harringtontm / steve.
NO MATTER WHAT HAD HAPPENED BETWEEN THEM, steve doesn’t think he could ever really hate nancy. it’s not the same as it was of course — & only in hindsight did he realize that it had never really been how he’d thought — but it’s getting easier to be around her. not that it doesn’t still hurt a little bit to stand so close. steve kinda feels like maybe it always will. but at least now she can look up at him with those dark eyes so wide they’re almost perfectly round without feeling like it’s opened up a pair of bullet holes straight through his chest.
they’ve never really talked about it. back when it was still fresh, steve didn’t think he could handle actually having the conversation without falling to pieces. there had been nothing to say, anyway. nancy didn’t love him — he had just been clueless for awhile, so blinded by his own fantasies of their perfect future together that he had missed all the signs that she didn’t want the same things. it had been hammered into him eventually though, jonathan’s presence finally making it all clear. the way nancy had worried over him, the care & concern written so clearly across her lovely face that even steve couldn’t miss it. & with her hand resting comfortingly on his shoulder, steve had finally understood. she just didn’t want him anymore. & maybe she never did. she had essentially already said as much, back behind the gym when he had asked her to tell him that she loved him & she had only looked at him. as though such a thing was impossible. as though he had been stupid to ever think that nancy could feel the same. steve just hadn’t wanted to hear it — had hoped that he could still earn her affections if he just tried a little harder. but it was too late, their love built on dreams that were one-sided from the start.
but the love was real — for him at least, if not for her. & it still existed in some form, in spite of his best efforts to bury it. nancy wasn’t the one like he’d thought, but he still cared about her. didn’t really know how to stop caring. & falling for her might have hurt worse than anything else he’s ever been through by far ( worse than jonathan’s fist to his jaw, worse than the dinner plate cracked over his skull, worse even than the beating from the russains ), but even so, steve didn’t think he could ever bring himself to regret loving her. ❝ it’s ok, nance. i get it. it’s… it’s been hard. ❞ but still he smiles, gentle & comforting. though his hands stay firmly in his pockets; steve is no longer reaching for things that he knows full well are out of his grasp. ❝ you don’t have to. i mean, i’d like that. to see you more. ❞ & that’s true. there’s still a dull ache associated with her — maybe there always will be — but now it’s eased down into a more manageable pain, the more consistent yet subtle kind that steve has gotten well used to working through over the last few years. & it might be pathetic, but he misses her, in spite of everything. ❝ but i don’t want to make you feel like you have to do anything you don’t wanna do. like, you really don’t have to take care of me, or worry about me, or whatever. ❞ & his smile grows just a degree, as though trying to prove his point. ❝ i’m really fine. i swear. cross my heart. ❞ & steve traces an invisible x across his chest with a fingertip to illustrate his promise, imagining it for a moment as almost as a kind of protective barrier between she & his finally healing heart.
and the thing with nancy wheeler, it’s that given how much she’s had to lie, she knows when people aren’t all that honest. but people keep their secrets and sometimes it is her job to find them. some other times she just has enough information to go along with this. and she smiles. there’s so many things she could say. it’s not the proper soft smile that settles on her face and doesn’t reach her eyes. it’s the one that rarely comes out, but it’s easier to breath. when steve talks, and when steve gets it. and it’s easier to remember then why she had gone along with it all in the first place. and it’s not like the worst thing she’s done but it’s up there. nancy wheeler prim and proper gave up what should have been the perfect life. it isn’t what she wants. and at this point she doesn’t know what she wants. she never has. she looks down. hand moves to rub her fingers on the necklace pendant she’s wearing. the loneliness is like a drug to her. a warm blanket that keeps her safe. and there has been only two people since she found what it meant to her that have managed to get past that, one of them is miles far away from her. another is standing right in front of her. and he’d like to see her more. and he said it. and she didn’t know she could feel relief, that it could wash over her like a splash of cold whatever. nancy doesn’t think she could talk about it. it would be sad to say and sad to admit that she was careless with steve. not because she didn’t like him, not because she didn’t try to love him. but everything else was crumbling and she couldn’t bare it any longer. now. now what she deals with it isn’t as life or death as it once was. the porcelain cracked. glued back together. it barely holds on. yet.
she isn’t an incredible caretaker. it’s a given. she can barely take care of herself. yet. she feels guilty. she feels like she should be good at doing that now. and the thing is. impossibly so, nothing nancy wheeler does is outside of the realm of doing it for herself. and as incredibly selfish that might be. as incredibly improper that might be, there lies the foundation for her love and her heart. " no, steve, i...i mean it, i should reach out more. i want to. ” and he says he’s fine but. nancy knows better. always. she bites her bottom lip, trying to figure out how to even say what she means and there is this thing, between them, between the space that has grown so large that still holds....something. a connection. a bond even. and nancy has kept her distance. she always does. nothing stops being the same with her. and maybe she wants that to change. thought open and vague has found footing. lock found key. and she doesn’t know if she wants to turn it. nancy wheeler ever the brave, comes at a cost. she isn’t the one that keep paying the price. “ -really i don’t think im in a state to get myself to do things i don’t genuinely want to do. ” and isn’t that a bit ironic. “ we both could use some...caring. or worry. i think. ” she hopes it lands. but talking to steve before was a task, it was something she could never do. because it wouldn’t land, but back then nancy wheeler was doing what she does best. and now, well the act dropped and she’s alone. in her element some would say. “ -i’m glad you’re fine. ” and it’s honest. heavy. lays in her heart. and she’s shot many bullets. there’s only one that’s been a mercy kill (bullshit). mercy for who? well. “ how’s everything else going? ” she moves the conversation along, trying not to make it seem like she’s interrogating him. but nancy wheeler is for once, trying. and that’s all they have left. to try. and he doesn’t hate her. and so she holds on.
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“no, i don’t hate you.” — steve
it makes her smile. the words that come out of steve’s mouth, it’s the nervous smile. the one that tends to hide behind pursed lips. it’s all smoke and mirrors with nancy wheeler. not because she is dishonest, or wants to trick people. she just has learned that walls somewhat protect her. but with jon so far away. and with everything reaching it’s boiling point, steve and her fell apart. with good reason. if steve hated her, nancy would understand. they never talked about what happened. steve didn’t want to and nancy didn’t push it. she’s aware. she knows somewhere along the lines she messed up. and that’s, easy to see now. everything so far away and behind them. time has done wonders for steve harrington. she can tell. but it’s her who feels lost now. she always knows what she wants. she never really does. she’s looking at him, with baby doll eyes. a thousand emotions fighting their way to the surface. she let’s out a sigh, uncrosses her arms then. hugs herself like she usually does. let’s the silence build up between them. most of the times she would bottle things up. she has been doing that, her feelings come out in bursts more than anything else really.
“that’s...comforting to hear.” she starts, it’s honest. nods a little when she says it “-i mean, i wouldn’t blame you if you did. but i’m glad you don’t.” stares out. hesitates in talking more. her alone with her thoughts. how it usually is. but loneliness could be such a burden. she needed to start dealing with it. “i should...reach out more.” leaves the thought unfinished, vague and open. but nancy wheeler is a lock with no key at times. what she means is, that she should reach out more, because whether they work or not or whether she is dating jon, that doesn’t phase out the fact that she is alone here now. she could use a friend. and steve maybe could too.
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hi hi, to all my followers, i have a couple of oc blogs that im usually on ! here & here , i would love some more interactions there !
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hi hi, to all my followers, i have a couple of oc blogs that im usually on ! here & here , i would love some more interactions there !
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what psd is this its gorgeous holy crap
hi hi ! it's bliss 211 by plutocommissions ! <3
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“talk to me, okay? i need to know what’s going on.”
its extremely scary how easy it is for nancy to just say nothing. while being completely aware of it being nothing. she is terrible at managing her feelings. too emotional. too much to keep in line for long extended periods of time. it’s hard to say what is it about it this time around. it’s something she’s keeping close to her chest. she almost doesn’t want to talk. bites her lips. round eyes shift from staring down at the table to meet eddie. shakes her head. scrunches her nose and closes her eyes like she does when she’s dismissing something. pushing it away and back into her head. “-it’s...fine.” eddie is maybe the only person who isn’t involved in this whole mess, in this whole thing that’s clicking in her head. and maybe he is the type of outsource help that would benefit her. maybe hearing him out would help in some way. “-it’s nothing, really. it’s not a big deal.” and she sounds unconvinced. not because she doesn’t trust eddie she just. struggles with letting people in. especially. when it comes to this, when she’s unsure. she pouts. then she sighs. “- if i end up telling you, do you promise not to say anything about it? i mean it.” it’s a warning. it’s a sign. but nancy wouldn’t do it if she didn’t need the help. or just someone to listen. she’s giving eddie a chance.
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“why do you want to help me?” — sarah
nancy wheeler has a way of getting herself in trouble. usually she isn’t alone to deal with it. she thinks, well no, feels that although it’s not the smartest move it is perhaps the most empathetic one. sarah fier needs help, and nancy wheeler can provide some sort of help. and in the middle of helping she can also get to the bottom of this. it’s basically a win, win situation. she just has to be careful on how to approach this. she, after all, is a stranger to sarah.
“-well, the situation is much more complicated than you might think.” she starts. looks at sarah from where she is standing. decides then to sit in front of her. levels with her. “-and if you aren’t guilty of the things happening, i can help you prove that. i want to get to the truth.” it’s never fun, doing this. but if she’s not doing it then who else would?
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honestly its pretty impressive how i went from not liking nancy to making the perfect nancy in my head now i gotta figure out how to write her down...like it all can be explained with her being trans + lesbian, literally....
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more random dialogue prompts ,
“why do you have that look on your face?”
“finish what you’re doing, we have to talk.”
“what have you done to yourself?”
“did you do something different with your hair?”
“it doesn’t do any good to get worked up.”
“when was the last time we had a real conversation.”
“are you in the witness protection program, or what?”
“there’s something wrong with me.”
“no, i don’t hate you.”
“hey stupid.”
“we’re aren’t them.”
“looks like i’ll live long enough to make you pay.”
“you know you’re wrong.”
“i don’t understand, why are you doing this?”
“now, before i say anything, promise me you’ll stay calm.”
“what makes me so special?”
“you have no idea what i’ve been through.”
“you really don’t have to do that, not for me.”
“did you really think you’d get a second chance?”
"how about we don’t do that.”
“i have a lot going for me, but humility is not one of them.”
“you’re the worst.”
“i don’t need you right now.”
“don’t just stand there, looking at me.”
“i thought you were supposed to call me.”
“take my hand.”
“i need you.”
“you’re allowed to need help sometimes.”
“for someone who doesn’t like to feel things, you sure feel a lot of it out loud.”
“when this is all over, i want it to be you and me.”
“why won’t you tell me what happened?”
“you don’t know what this means to me.
“i know it doesn’t make sense.”
“i’m trying really hard to keep it together.”
“i know you’re new, but we do things a little differently here.”
“your voice is putting me to sleep.”
“did you find what you were looking for?”
"you knew and you didn’t even warn me?”
“well, i guess that’s broken.”
“i thought it was part of the act.”
“you think u don’t know you’re only here because they sent you?”
“you promised to call me if you didn’t know what to wear.”
“you can keep a secret, can’t you?”
“how could you do this to me?”
“put the gun down, dearest. i have news!”
“i know you don’t have any reason to trust me, but you need to know something.”
“if you’re here to tell me what happened last night, someone beat you to it.”
“people think i’m weird.”
“i think i’m losing myself again.”
“you can’t be here.”
“i wish you’d come to the funeral.”
“do you know what today is?”
“so, you broke my favourite mug… and you’re breaking up with me?”
“i need to get out.”
“it’s like i’m cursed or something.”
“you are remarkably well-behaved tonight, what have you been up to?”
“you gonna eat that?”
“sir, the pony rides are for children only.”
“i don’t want you to worry about that anymore.”
“we’ll never make it in time.”
“you’d be late for your own funeral.”
“you should have seen it coming.”
“oh, good, you’re here! hold this.”
“why can’t you just be happy for me?”
“on a scale of one to ten, how do you feel about nachos right now?”
“is this how you flirt with everyone?”
“how much longer till we’re there?”
“what have you done?”
“it’s time for you to repay that debt you owe me.”
“where did you get that? who gave it to you?”
“what kind of mother has thoughts like that?”
“i know I haven’t been what you needed, but i’m here, and i wanna help.”
“i never want to hear you say that again.”
“you’re all i have.”
“i know it’s not perfect, but i did follow the recipe this time.”
“i was doing so well until you showed up.”
“don’t eat that! i made it ‘specially for our guest.”
“it’s not that i don’t like my life, it’s that i don’t have the energy to enjoy it.”
“how can you stand this place?”
“don’t take this the wrong way, but you don’t exactly blend in.”
“you need to stop.”
“i don’t like that look, what happened?”
“is that seriously your password?”
“what’s your problem?”
“you had no right to use it without asking.”
“oh, wow, you weren’t kidding.”
“i couldn’t trust my own parents to protect me.”
“i’m surprised you haven’t been arrested yet. wait, no, i’m not.”
“why do you want to help me?”
“ten bucks for that piece of crap?”
“we have to hurry, they’re coming!”
“hey, look what came in the mail!”
“do you want to get a drink or something?”
“please tell me you didn’t eat that.”
“the worst part is you didn’t even notice.”
“if i wanted help, i would have asked.”
“wanna tell me what’s going on with your grades?”
“you need to leave.”
“talk to me, okay? i need to know what’s going on.”
“i do blame you.”
“sometimes life deals you a bad hand, but you can still play your cards right and win.”
“you’re no longer useful to me.”
“i’m not good with sarcasm: if you don’t like me, just say it.”
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i realized that i haven’t made a meme out of some of the wild things this man has said, so. here it is now!! there are a few suggestive prompts in there so be aware of that, but aside from those, everything else should just be chaotic <3
“ i don’t believe in grocery stores. ”
“ why would you curse me with this? ”
“ oh, i’m sorry! am i boring you?? ”
“ this is the end of all things, this is hell. ”
“ if i can’t see it, it can’t hurt me. ”
“ i’ll never be among the flowers again… ”
“ this is my punishment for even trying. ”
“ [name], get your ass in here! ”
“ soon, there will be unlimited hair. ”
“ i am a man…. who owns FIVE OVENS! ”
“ when i was a child, i couldn’t afford to do easter eggs. we couldn’t even afford eggs. ”
“ we had a chicken, but then we had to kill it for our own entertainment. ”
“ don’t worry. i won’t break you, unless you deserve to be broken. ”
“ i want a woman that can crush my head between her thighs. ”
“ it’s not a sexual thing! i don’t want anyone to think that! ”
“ it’s about power. it’s not about pleasure, it’s about power! ”
“ people might mistake me for some kind of a masochist, which isn’t true! ”
“ when you come knocking on my door bearing gifts, they better be the best damn gifts i’ve ever gotten in my life. ”
“ they’re a little bigger than your average kid. ”
“ you do you, and i’ll do me, and we don’t do each other. probably. ”
“ goddamn it, my brain is so huge! ”
“ i’m gonna take my thick ass back to bed. ”
“ i’m a giggly bitch by nature. ”
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🐝 * ― 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒. ( all of these are taken from the movie ‘the princess bride’ released in 1987. feel free to adjust to better fit your muses. )
❛ your vote of confidence is overwhelming. ❜
❛ are you trying to trick me ? ❜
❛ what if something happens to you ? ❜
❛ i will never love again. ❜
❛ am i going mad, or did the word ‘think’ escape your lips ? ❜
❛ you are sure nobody’s following us ? ❜
❛ out of curiosity, why do you ask ? ❜
❛ i suppose you think you’re brave, don’t you ? ❜
❛ i do not accept excuses. ❜
❛ did i make it clear that your job is at stake ? ❜
❛ i do not think it means what you think it means. ❜
❛ i don’t mean to be rude, but this is not as easy as it looks. ❜
❛ i’d appreciate it if you wouldn’t distract me. ❜
❛ you are better than i am. ❜
❛ please understand, i hold you in the highest respect. ❜
❛ i just want you to feel you are doing well. ❜
❛ we must all be ready for whatever lies ahead. ❜
❛ could this be a trap ? ❜
❛ if there can be no arrangement, then we are at an impasse. ❜
❛ i could have sworn i saw something. ❜
❛ you only think i guessed wrong. ❜
❛ i was giving you a chance. ❜
❛ you think your dearest love will save you ? ❜
❛ what can i do or you ? ❜
❛ nothing you can say will upset me. ❜
❛ you can die too, for all i care ! ❜
❛ i told you i would always come for you. ❜
❛ why didn’t you wait for me ? ❜
❛ death cannot stop true love. all it can do is delay it for a while. ❜
❛ is everything clear to you ? ❜
❛ you mean you wish to surrender to me ? ❜
❛ don’t make yourself a fool. ❜
❛ we can live there quite happily for some time so whenever you feel like dying, feel free to visit. ❜
❛ i thought you were dead once, and it almost destroyed me. i could not bear it if you died again, not when i could save you. ❜
❛ who says life is fair ? ❜
❛ life isn’t always fair. ❜
❛ i’m telling you, you’re messing up the story ! ❜
❛ i’m sure you’ve discovered my deep and abiding interest in pain. ❜
❛ this is where i am, and this is where i’ll stay. ❜
❛ you don’t look so good. ❜
❛ i just hope it’s enough to buy a miracle, that’s all. ❜
❛ there’s a big diference between mostly dead and all dead. ❜
❛ all your worst nightmares are about to come true. ❜
❛ have you been chasing me your whole life only to fail now ? ❜
❛ i think that’s the worst thing i’ve ever heard. ❜
❛ you’ve got an overdeveloped sense of vengeance. it’s going to get you in trouble someday. ❜
❛ what hideous sin have you committed lately ? ❜
❛ if you didn’t say it, you didn’t do it. ❜
❛ i have been in the revenge business so long, now that it’s over i don’t know what to do with the rest of my life. ❜
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𝙷𝙴𝚁 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝚁𝚃 𝚆𝙴𝙰𝚁𝚂 𝚆𝙸𝚂𝙳𝙾𝙼 𝚂𝙺𝙸𝙽 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚆𝙸𝚃 𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙼𝙴𝙳 𝚂𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙽𝙳𝙾𝚁, 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙴𝙲𝙷𝙾𝙴𝚂 𝙾𝙵 𝙰 𝚆𝙰𝚁 𝙲𝚁𝚈 𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝚃'𝚂 𝙵𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙱𝙴𝚁𝚂 𝚃𝙾𝙶𝙴𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁.
independent / selective / private
NANCY WHEELER from netflix’s stranger things.
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IMPORTANT NOTES ABOUT MY PORTRAYAL, i write nancy as a trans (male to female) lesbian, meaning that she is a trans woman who is attracted to other women and female aligned people. i myself am a trans person, i will not tolerate any disrespect or transphobia. if you are weird about this aspect of my portrayal i will block you. if you are weird about her being a lesbian, i will also block you. also, any questions regarding her body and/or genitals will be blocked and ignored. unless we ship and headcanon and write about it you don’t need to know.
𝚁𝚄𝙻𝙴𝚂
NO GODMODDING this is pretty self explanatory
I AM SELECTIVE AND PRIVATE that means that i will be selective of who i roleplay with, and will only thread with mutuals. this is to keep myself organized and efficient; however, everyone is welcome to send asks !
I SHIP CHEMISTRY and CHEMISTRY ONLY. i love shipping! however, please keep in mind my nancy is a lesbian. do not force ship with me.
TRIGGERS WILL BE TAGGED if you have any specific triggers let me know, i will tag them for you !
THIS BLOG WILL FEATURE A HEAVY TRIGGERING CONTENT since this blog is stranger things based, any trigger warnings on that material may occasionally apply ( triggers will be tagged as tw blood and cw blood ).
MUN IS 18+ however smut is not a priority on this blog, i do not see myself writing smut on this blog often but if done it will only be written with the people i feel comfortable with.
I DON’T CARE ABOUT REBLOG KARMA, but don’t use me as a meme resource !
IF YOUR CHARACTER HAS COMMITTED R*PE AND/OR S*XUAL ABUSE OF ANY NATURE do not follow me this is a big trigger of mine, i will hardblock you.
I WON’T TOLERATE untagged drama and callout posts, please tag them i don’t care about you reblogging or making them i just hate seeing them on my dash so any posts you do, please make sure it’s tagged so my blacklist catches it.
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𝙿𝙸𝙽𝙽𝙴𝙳 𝙿𝙾𝚂𝚃 / *
this is a indepedent / highly selective / private rp blog for NANCY WHEELER from netflix’s STRANGER THINGS. i am extremely headcanon based and canon divergent. several verses available and im really open to discuss more verses to fit your ocs or blogs. READ MY RULES before interacting. this blog includes material that may be triggering but it will all be tagged.
ESTABLISHED JULY 2022
penned by rat / joe i am 21 years old and i use he / they pronouns , i am currently in college studying animation so this is a sporadic activity blog. i’m mostly plotting oriented, i mainly keep to mutuals. discord is available to mutuals only.
𝙸𝙼𝙿𝙾𝚁𝚃𝙰𝙽𝚃 𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙺𝚂 / *
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