#(b/c i made it a thing <3)

[spaciebabie]

hashtag royal guard fit

#this was way 2 hard 2 do #spacie scribbles #reworking what the armour looks like #b/c its been a year since i made the origes and i dont. like them #too blocky #this is still a wip tho i dunno #i might put the crown ensignia back on the front instead of those wavy things #actually yes i will do that #oc stuff #the war organization #two #oc: spinel hino #as you can probably tell its heavily reference lMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #sometimes u needta do a first pass at something b4 u get what u want #this is that scenario #gonna redo the chest piece later im tred and need. sleepyyyy #BRO DRAWING THE HELMET WILL KILL ME #I CSNT DO IOT RIGHT #BBEEN AVOIDING IT FOR LIKE 3 YEARS NOW #GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[pe0ple3ater]

Hello! As per request, here is my full analysis on Cellbit and his turn to cannibalism!

Before you read, here are some things to keep in mind!

This is only my interpretation, you're allowed to disagree. If you do, I'd really be happy if you, respectfully, added to the post! I want to hear your thoughts and analysis. Or you can DM me! Let me say it again, you will respectfully disagree with me. If you're rude, I'll ignore and or block ^^

I am just some guy, I don't have all of the answers. I'm only a casual watcher of Cellbit and only know his lore from what I've read! I may be wrong! However, I have taken a lot of time reading up on him and watching as many videos and clips as I can hehe

This dives into some heavy shit., such as Cellbit's negative feelings about himself, delusions, and unhealthy relationships. You need to be aware while reading this!

It's written a bit like a fic, because I can't help but be dramatic

Enjoy!

An exploration of Cellbit, violence, cannibalism, and love.

The first we know of Cellbit is the Hunger Games event, made canon by his conversations with Bad.

Cellbit was young, a child soldier thrown into these harsh games for the pleasure of faceless watchers because it was either die in the streets or die trying to get some quick cash and possibly win.

The whole situation is fully out of his control; this is the beginning of his spiral.

Keep in mind that he's a child. These conditions are not what he should be dealing with. His mind is forced into a survival mode where he has to do whatever he can to stay alive.

He has to kill people to survive, and then when things get bad, he has to eat people to survive. It's what he has to do. He has Bad, the first person he’s ever looked up to and has wanted to make proud, showing him how to butcher a body and what parts taste the best.

Cellbit has to do this, or he'll die.

It's out of his control.

To deal with the disgust, the fear, the self-loathing, and the trauma. His brain forces him to convince himself to like it. It's easier to enjoy the things that scare you than to be constantly disgusted and afraid by them. He convinces himself he likes it all, the blood, the killing, the cannibalism. It still makes him sick; deep down, a part of him knows he's wrong. He hates these acts and feels disgusted; he manages to drown it out with the screams of the people he has to kill.

When they win, and he looks over to see Bad smiling tiredly at him, ragged and flushed with victory and pride, it solidifies that enjoyment in his head. He won, he did everything he had to, and he feels good right now, and that means that everything he had to do to get here is good as well.

He's a child, remember that.

Next, he's in prison.

Another situation where he has no control other than what he can force himself to have.

The phone becomes a comfort, a lifeline he uses to force the people around him into respecting and fearing him.

People being scared of him feels good, incredible.

No one has ever really been afraid of Cellbit before. If they're scared of him, they can't hurt him. He learns to manipulate people, and he garners the respect and control he’s been grappling for. He becomes some twisted form of friends with Felps, someone who respects and fears and helps him. It's good, he's settled.

He keeps trying to escape because that's just another thing he can control.

Then he meets Pac, and maybe he falls in love, but at this point, he is an amalgamation of trauma and violence. He has never been in love or been loved, not by anything but the hilt of his knife. Pac is like him; he can see it in how he throws himself at situations that scare him. Cell can see the flash of interest in his eyes when they look at each other. Cell wants to have him. He makes Pac afraid of him; he controls him because if Cell can control him, maybe he can keep him. It’s what he’s learned to be true of himself.

They plan to escape, and they try to leave him alone. Cell's control on the situation slips, and he lashes out against the people trying to take it away. He feels nothing when he kills JV other than rage and his blood on his hands.

He needs to restate his control over Pac. He needs Pac to be his forever, in some way. So he eats his leg.

He likes eating people, and he likes Pac. These wires are crossed in his head. All Cell has ever known is violence; every time he's cared about someone, it's always ended in pain. He doesn't know any other way to be. He hurts Pac, and he eats his leg so that Pac will bear that mark forever. He will never exist without the mark of what Cell did to him. He will never escape from Cell’s love, and Cell will always hold that over him. It makes Cell so happy; he thinks he loves Pac, and now Pac will always know how Cell feels about him.

He kills Felps. It hurts. He doesn't want to, but he can't leave any ties to be found; if Felps hates him, it's easier.

They escape, and he gets left behind. He does what he needs to do to survive; finally, his life is his.

He gets "better," goes to therapy, and tries to fix himself. He learns that he is fundamentally wrong and that his brain doesn't work as it should. He understands that he is a monster, and Cell can't look at himself in the mirror for a long time. He stays away from people, mostly.

He goes to Quesadilla Island, and for a while, things are okay.

Pac is there; every time Cellbit looks at Pac, the broken part in him purrs and claws at his throat, and the new parts of himself he's trying to establish shrink away in disgust. He apologizes and makes promises he doesn't know he can keep. Mike glares at him, he’s always been the angry part of Tazercraft. Pac looks at him wearily, leans away when he gets too close. Yet he accepts him without much fight. Cellbit tries not to think about other times he accepted him without a fight.

Cellbit has a fragile control over his life.

He spends many days barely holding himself back from hurting Roier. He loves him, and no matter how many times Cellbit tells himself it's not true, he will always be made of violence. He forcibly files down the parts of himself that he knows hurt people. He tries so hard. He dreams of Roier under him, chest open and heart bared to him. Waking up from those dreams he’s filled with pride and love. He curls around his husband and sobs into his chest, and Roier tries to reassure him that it's okay; he knows Cellbit would never hurt him. Cellbit keeps himself on the brink of exhaustion; if he's too tired to think, he's too tired to hurt people.

He still tries not to look in the mirror.

He kills the Fed workers when the eggs go missing. He hates them. He eats at the raw flesh like he did so long ago because he needed to do this. He can't control where their children are, but he can control these worker's deaths, make a statement that he knows the Feds will see. Cell and Cellbit are not two separate people. They never have been, they are the same, and Cellbit has never felt more himself than when he ripped into those fucking bears. He goes home, cleans up the blood, vomits, and lays awake, wondering what the fuck is wrong with him.

Cellbit hates himself, Roier kisses his cheek and climbs into bed. Cellbit hates himself. He selfishly clings to Roier and lets himself be loved in a way that doesn't hurt. Cellbit hates himself. He squeezes his eyes closed and thinks about ripping into his husband the way he had those innocent workers.

Cellbit hates himself, and Roier mumbles that he loves him.

#peopleeater writes normal thing #cannibalism #cellb!t #p@c #ro!er #b@dboyh@lo #here it is! #Cellb!t and his complicated relationship with control and violence #this isn't meant to be read as “cellb!t is a control freak!” #it's meant to read as “cellb!t has never been in control and when he gets the chance he grapples for it in the only way he knows how” #he's just a little guy actually #i think reducing his character to a crazed killer is an injustice #he Tried to be better #he's just made of broken glass and shaped from shadows idk what you want me to say #I <3 you btw #please send me asks about this #cannibalism doc

[recurring-polynya]

In light of that post I reblogged yesterday where it turns out that 40,000 words is considered a novel?

To be fair, there are so many worse things you could do whilst in the throes of the most well-justified mental break that anyone on any plane of existence has ever had but also--

Girl, what?

#momo hinamori #toshiro hitsugaya #'loaded with outtakes' #real credit for this goes to b3 b/c i never would have noticed this if they hadn't pointed it out in an ao3 comment once #look there is just SO MUCH going on in Color Bleach+ it's like house of fucking leaves #i believe in my heart that this issue never made it to print #both because hitsugaya shut it down as soon he saw the ad for it #--did he even see this??? he was in the living world when this issue came out. #maybe that's WHY they thought they could get away with a Capt Hitsugaya special edition-- #in any case i think hisagi had an aneurysm THAT IS TOO MUCH PAPER WE WILL GO BANKRUPT #but at the same time this manuscript EXISTS #WHO has SEEN it i need to know #hisagi obvs but i doubt he read it cover to cover he was having The Struggles at the time #normally i would say renji but he was in the living world as was matsumoto #kira was also Going Thru It but i can def see him grimly beta-reading this thing #you know i hope hitsugaya WASN'T aware of this thing at all #until like 3 years later when byakuya is like 'so as per your biography--' #and toshiro is like 'as per my W H A T?'

[rohirric-hunter]

Head hurty

#So tired of drinking water #I even have the bottled water that I like and I'm sick of it #What I need is an extremely sus puddle in a rock in the woods with no obvious source and living fish in despite only being 3in deep #Thatd cure me #Unfortunately I dont know where to find such a thing around here #And head hurty too much to go look #I did the math once and you have to take almost two entire large bottles of over the counter ibuprofen before it starts to hurt you #That's for the average adult human it varies per person #And of course some people are quite sensitive to it #I have taken 2 ibuprofen dont read into this #I was just thinking about that because sometimes people judge me for starting with two #But in all the 15 years ive been taking ibuprofen regularly one has literally never made a tangible difference #So about three years ago I started just taking two to start with. Saves time and needless pain #Very occasionally I will go up to 3 but not often #Horse #anyway some people think I'm gonna have liver failure at 26 (I'm 27) but in reality I would have to take almost 2 whole bottles #In under 2 hours too b/c your body metabolizes it fast although the faster you take it the more it builds up #I ran my numbers past a nurse and she said they were reasonable too so there #She did recommend erring on the side of caution with such experiments #But seemed to believe me when I assured her that it was a thought experiment only and I had no intention of taking #*checks notes* 800 ibuprofen in 2 hours #Anyway yeah I know the bottle tells you to not take more than 8 in a 24 hour period #That's so the company can cover their ass in case anyone tries to sue them over dosages #For the record I dont recommend ever taking more than 3 #Find the minimum effective dose and take that #And if its more than 3 probably find a different painkiller. And see a doctor #I might need to take another head still hurty

[youssefguedira]

i think there probably isn't a theme song for diabolik 3 because we probably would have heard about it by now which is kinda weird but also. pivio + aldo de scalzi original???

#i think i read something saying they were doing some original stuff but i don't remember where or if that even actually happened #they did do nelle notte insonni AND in a corner of my heart. both of which are really really good. so #neon has thoughts #i made a post a while ago about the gradual introduction of diabolik's theme in the past timeline and i didn't think it would actually #be relevant but after seeing the blood thing..... wow #in essence a) cool if we never hear diabolik's theme UNTIL he kills king b) cooler if we hear a very pared down versión in the child #timeline to reflect that he's not there yet but he will be and c) kings theme?? as a variation on the diabolik theme?? but that last one is #entirely a me thing #once again daydreaming about diabolik 3 diabolik chi sei. 4 days to go....

[sol-flo]

what annoys me is that i just know neil gaiman thinks he's sooo cute

#the way he loves to jest and jape about a. and c. w/o actually putting in any real work in bc he knows the fanbase will eat it up anyway.... #anyway the love loses ending could have been actually decent if the previous 5 (or 11 tbqh! i remember s1!) built up to it #but the two of them and their relationship never really had any development / arc. m./b. wound up getting a better buildup in 15 minutes #made me realize that they never even really touched one another?? #well anyway. this was like if a whole season was filler. it was fun but not much else. will clock in to s3 bc the premise sounds fun #of course i do it all for free :3 #anyway thats the end from me. nothing else to talk about tbh #now im gonna rewatch dw bc i just really like the tenth doctor and the little references made me miss him #i think the thing with dw is that the first one you watch will forever be your favorite. i imprinted on him #also both martha and donna are just mwahhh #i love rose (and nine) to bits but my heart lies with ten

[re-decorate]

behold, the only semi decent photo i got of myself at my show. plus a pretty pic of the sai during chlorine :P

#i suck at taking photos of myself i wish i didn’t hate the way i look #one day I’ll be decades older and look back on my youth and realize i have no photos of myself #WHATEVER #ramblings #it me #sorry to be so negative it’s late and it’s been a long few days #onto brighter things: holy shit the whole soap/snow thing was soo pretty #maybe kinda dangerous bc it made the floor wet and slippery but i loved it #idk how people closer to the stage dealed with it tho #like when i was at b stage I thought it was a pretty decent amount #but then I went maybe toward the middle third of the pit for the last few songs and the snow was almost unbearable #at least I could breathe since I was masked up #SPEAKING OF WHICH #I would like to note that I was wearing a kn95 the entire time. if I can do it you can too folks we’re not out of the woods with c*vid yet #anyways thats enough rambling for now #goodnight <3

[deus-ex-mona]

stuff’s wildin’, my dudes

#auhxhsjahs i n c o h e r e nt rambling coming right up you’ve been warned o k ie~? #so the other day i finally found out about that [redacted thing (if ykyk)]’s (thankfully outdated) mistranslator masterlist and stuff #and i googled the op of that list to see what others had to say about ‘em #(cuz personally i found the dude’s tone through it all to be. pretty mean actually??) #(like h e l p tling probably isn’t these people’s day jobs; they’re probs just hobby tlers?? ease up my g~~~) #b u t i digress. despite having searched for the op of that post i somehow found a post by another fan tler who seemed to have vanished? #*vanished from that [redacted] tling community i mean. they just stopped uploading years ago. prolly bc their main yt channel was terminated #and they??? despite having not made a single post in almost 10 years??? seem to be alive and well in this current age????? #like yoooooooo i’ve legitimately had the thought that something bad had happened to ‘em for y e a r s but they!!! they’re alive!!!!!!! #they seem to have stopped tling for good but!!!!! they’re alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #so i guess i can say that i went hunting for trash and found treasure instead o o o p— #but on another note. i think gatekeeping tling isn’t cool at all. #like yeah there can be some really fishy tls (including official tls a he m) but being mean about it helps no one at all #and so! that’s why! i keep my big mouth shut whenever i see fishy tls floating about the vast open sea in front of me~~~ #i mean. quite a number of those fishy tls are mine anyway. so. um. i don’t have any room to say anything really ahaha~~~~ #but please!!! feel free to blast my tls if you’d like!! my absolutely terrible daikirai tl is a free for all!!!!! #g o d i should really revise that soon. it’s terribly mistranslated and i cringe and wilt inside. #it is suiyoubi my dudes #well. not anymore but… it is still suiyoubi in my heart <3

[gas-stxtion]

@modestmuses: Silco: “It could have been a lot worse. Give yourself some credit.” (//i should not be feeding the mental illness and yet :/)

Jack’s hands haven’t stopped shaking since the rescue crew finally made it to the gas station.

It’s subtle enough that he doesn’t fully notice it for a while, and when he finally does he shoves them in the pockets of his thin, threadbare jacket to try and hide it. Right now, he’s sitting on the counter at the gas station, having just been looked over by a paramedic. His injuries aren’t bad enough to require another hospital visit, thankfully, so once he was cleared he was given a shock blanket and told to stay put for now. The police are going to have questions, he knows that, but he can’t seem to focus on that right now.

Why won’t his hands stop shaking?

It might be from the fact that he almost died of hypothermia, or the blood loss, or just because once again people fucking died and he was powerless to do anything about it. The fact that he got a shot in on Spencer isn’t even enough to cheer him up.

The shapeshifter’s screams of agony and cries for mercy are still echoing in his mind.

And his hands are still fucking shaking. He clenches his fists in his pockets.

Eventually, Jack becomes aware of a person standing in front of him, and he looks up to see Silco standing there. He can’t quite read the expression on the other man’s face, which should make him uneasy, but right now he’s too relieved to see someone he can trust to care about that. Even if Silco wasn’t there for everything that happened, even if he’s only just arrived in the aftermath, Jack’s just grateful that he’s there at all.

He chooses not to examine that too closely right now.

“Thanks for coming,” he says, hunching in on himself slightly. Part of him feels bad for calling Silco, for interrupting the man’s life with his own bullshit, but he doesn’t voice those thoughts. “I know this isn’t exactly a nice reason to come visit, but... I appreciate it.”

A humorless laugh claws its way out of his throat. “Y’know, you’d think I’d be used to people dying because of me, with how much it happens, but... fuck.”

Silco is quiet for a moment, and then he speaks, reminding Jack that things could’ve been much, much worse. Jack had explained the situation to the best of his ability over the phone, though he’s a little surprised Silco was able to understand him through his tears. He’s stopped crying by now, at least.

“Yeah,” he says a little hoarsely, sitting up. “Yeah, I guess it could’ve been a lot worse.” He, Jerry, Rosa, and O’Brien are all at least mostly okay, and Spencer should at least be incapacitated for a while.

Jack’s hands are still shaking, though, even stuffed into his pockets.

#closer to canon verse: sharp left turn #modestmuses #//decided to set this in the aftermath of the shapeshifter arc b/c boy howdy does jack have a lot of guilt about that #//but i made some changes to how things turned out in the end of that arc <3 #//so jack is a little more In One Piece than he is in the books but still has a new dose of trauma #//and he's very happy silco's here <3 #//also teddy you and i's mental illness feeds into each other at this point #//i'd apologize for the length of this but we both know i'm insane about these two so <3 #you and your friends here are all kinds of messed up {in character}

[transfemlogan]

The conflict in sanders sides is so annoying cuz. I feel like Thomas is really good at writing conflicts between characters & building up 2 that but he has No Idea how 2 RESOLVE. THE CONFLICT.

#best example is virgils reveal of being a dark side #theres a rlly good essay abt it i might b able 2 find it if someone wants it #but the build up & reveal was SO FUCKING GOOD. it was great #but then thomas has 2... deal with it in an *asides* not talking directly 2 virgil *at all* #and it makes me so upset #revy.txt #like i dont know. if i had 2 reveal something abt myself 2 someone that meant Everything 2 me #and the something was what i viewed as a very negative and bad thing. #i would want them 2 talk face 2 face with me abt it. #i wouldnt want them 2 tip toe around the situation and *imply* something. #i feel like the asides ruin everything. #EVEN if thomas ends up having c!thomas & virgil talk its. RUINED. #the asides def should have been made AFTER szn 2 in the break b4 szn 3 #OR made after the entire series is over #as like. small 5-10 minute videos of like 'oh what r the sides & thomas doing now?' #while thomas uses this time 2 branch out & make new serieses.eses

[crowsandbass]

take your time on the fic :D as someone who eagerly awaits the second chapter dont torture yourself through it . and heyyy if it ends up being 5k i know i dont mind 👀

Q^Q /positive

THANK YOU ANON! i am not torturing myself through it, i promise, im just very excited to work on it especially since i was so sick for a few days i actually couldn't work on it, so i had all that energy and motivation pent up. Really really hoping i'll be able to post it tomorrow, though i wont make any promises because apollo might be listening XD

if it ends up being 5k i'm blaming you :P

#genuinely i don't work on fic unless it brings me joy #i only write things i am happy to work on and enjoy the writing process #i do really really love talking about it though and talking about the fic soooo if you ever wanna chat again i welcome you with open arms #and also a very large smile #i went and told my friends about this ask because i was so excited XD #c+b responds #c+b rambles #once again thank you for this ask it has genuinely made my day #okay love you byeeee <3 #writing time for meeeeee ^-^

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

2 & 3 from section 1 for peri and 7 from whichever section has a more interesting #7 for diodore -moss

oooh these are fun ones!

2. Describe their tent set-up (outside and inside) (Peri)

I think Peri's tent is constructed similarly to Gale and Astarion's (boxy, fabric walls, little covered area outside). Deep blue fabric w/ golden astronomical embroidery, mostly the sort of thing you see on star maps. Little golden tassles around the edges of the tarp (?) and the doorframe. He'd have a small, circular, dark wood side table short enough that you can use it sitting on the ground, and a dark blue pillow next to it; there would be some parchment and a bronze miniature astrolabe on the table. The inside would be just. full to the brim with the gaudiest night-sky-themed pillows you've ever seen. No bedroll, no palette, just a nest that would put those cube pits in trampoline parks to shame. There would be two bird perches for his familiar Medani: one taller one next to his tent and one shorter one under the overhang. The shorter one would have a crow-sized bow-tie hanging from it. Rugs on rugs on the outside area ofc. 3. What would their character quest be titled? Why? (Peri)

This is a hard one! His tav ending involves taking over the Waterdeep arm of the Harpers, so I think his arc would have something to do with that. He'd be pretty bitter about being dropped into another near-apocalyptic mess when dealing with the last one a few years prior was supposed to be a one-time thing. Something-something ptsd in a world that doesn't have the words for that yet, something-something 'once a hero always a hero', something-something the weight of responsibility...he's a planeswalker so I think part of it would be whether he decides to stay on Toril long-term and directly help rebuild the Waterdeep Harpers or if he continues to run travel around afterwards, so maybe The Far Traveller/The Far Walker?

Harpson/Fae-son are also potential options. "Fae-son" nods to him being a changeling without it being super obvious (like Astarion's "The Pale Elf"). It would also mimic his backstory reveals from RoT ("oh he's not 'from here' so, like, the Feywild" -> "OH he's not from here"). 7. Describe their arc. How would a player help resolve it? What choices can be made? Can your Tav be turned down a dark path, or pulled to a lighter one? (Diodore)

Buckle up because we're in for a long one here. I've thought about Dora's story arc a lot because she's the first of my tavs that I truly made for the game while having full control over her backstory, etc. (versus Corentin, who had their arc baked into the story as a durge). Dora's a paladin of Corellon (oath of ancients) and her story arc as a companion would have to do with whether or not she should accept capital-r-Redemption, the process by which a drow can be truly "freed" from Lolth and rejoin the ranks of the rest of elven society. It involves all of the Redeemed drow's memories being erased and them being reincarnated as a surface elf. The implication seems to be that without that, regardless of a drow's actions, they'd be thrown back to Lolth when they die? Or at least that their eternal fate is unknown (which is the way I prefer to think of it for. personal reasons). Under normal circumstances, Dora would be a long way from Redemption being presented to her at all (she's not even 200 yet and has only been on the surface for a couple decades), but like with the other gods' Chosen among the companions, near-apocalyptic circumstances tend to speed up those sorts of things.

Of course, you'd have the themes of faith & relationship with deity when they're all unequivocally real and are also mostly all assholes; maintaining or breaking generational cycles; facing the unknown; morality when none of your choices are "good" (and how that interacts with morality vs self preservation); power vs freedom; identity outside of the people who made you; etc. The choice would first be presented to her sometime in late Act I/early Act II, likely the first long rest after the group resurfaces from the Underdark and you've probably gotten some of her backstory already. I have no idea how Larian would have characterized Corellon, but he's considered one of the more benevolent/open-minded deities iirc, which could be interesting to see contrasted with Mystra, Vlaa'kith, and Shar. How much that open-mindedness would extend to a drow, even one who has been a faithful follower even before she escaped to the Surface (and who inherited that faith from her father), is unclear. At the beginning of the game she would be leaning towards accepting Redemption, despite her own misgivings about whether or not she would still be her in that case.

Her final decision (at the ending pier scene) would depend on the relationship she has with the PC and the other companions. Her best ending, imo, would be her not accepting Redemption but continuing to be a force for good. If she has a good relationship with the PC, she would have something to lose. I think seeing the House of Mourning would affect her too. After all, the thing Corellon is offering to her as a way to find peace is the same thing the Sharrans are using as a way to manipulate and control others.

She's viscerally aware of how she was socialized and very actively chooses "good", so pushing her towards a darker path would be incredibly difficult but not impossible. If you side with the goblins she'll leave immediately, and turn on you if she's in your party when you attack the grove. But if you decide to try and control the cult in Act II, depending on your over-all actions before then and how you've interacted with her, you could disillusion her to the point of convincing her to break her oath. That path would entail convincing her that controlling the cult is actually the best idea. I'm sure there would be other times that her oath could break that wouldn't necessarily lock her into an "evil" path, especially with how Oathbreakers are handled in the game. Knocking out Minthara instead of killing her outright and letting Auntie Ethel go in Act I instead of killing her are two things that come to mind.

If she doesn't choose Redemption she would be at the epilogue party, of course. I'm a bit undecided on what would happen if she does choose Redemption. She may not be there at all, w/ Jaheira, Halsin, Minthara, and/or Astarion mentioning running into her in her new, reincarnated state. Or she would be there, confused, and mention how the PC seems familiar in a way she can't quite place. In that case, she would ask them how they know each other and mention something about feeling a twinge of grief looking at everyone, but that she doesn't know why she feels that way. It would be up to the PC how much they tell her (if they tell her anything at all).

#ty for the ask mossy!! #and sorry for the wait lol a couple of these stumped me for a minute #thinking about peri & jaheira as narrative parallels... #b/c i want to be clear here. peri was and is *not* looking for more responsibility re: harpers #he was perfectly happy doing security systems. him not seeking power was an active character choice i made for him b/c he's a wizard #but in the Faerun In My Head (tm) the Waterdeep Harpers also get decimated by the Absolute b/c why would they not? theyd be a major threat #especially b/c their high harper was the catalyst for forming the lord's alliance and. like. you think they're *not* reconvening? #for Weird Cult Two: 2 Cult 2 Furious?? #gortash would take remallia OUT if at all possible #and also I like torturing my characters #and i think the whole 'weight of duty'/hero's curse (once you get drawn into one situation you can't ignore the others/they come to you) #thing is interesting for peri in particular. the man just wants to live a quiet life and he will! for the most part. #just now with thousands of lives in his hands b/c he's helped stop 2 apocalypses and is irrevocably tied to the fate of the Coast now #his conscious wouldn't let him just leave the Harpers or Waterdeep to rot. and that seems to be similar to the situation jaheira's in #generational cycles the cruel march of time history repeats itself etc etc #that's also why i think he would get Weave'd and have an unusually long lifespan. he wanted to rest and the universe said “no <3” #i think about dora's story a lot also because the whole 'you can be redeemed (from something you were born with) #but only by removing integral parts of yourself' thing hits *right* in the religious trauma #you cant tell me there wouldn't be *some* part of a Redeemed Drow's soul that remembers the people from before they were changed #unless they just. get a new soul in which case it literally isn't them anymore. #doras first real & healthy relationships happen in-game #thats part of why she's drawn to astarion. his bullshit is predictable to her and therefore feels safer. #definitely safer than whatever is going on with the others #(also why she trusts karlach so quickly: she's straightforward and blunt & doesn't really hide things? #and was also the only one to warn her against astarion. dora'd literally never had someone like that in her life before so it stuck) #and she'd feel a bit uncomfortable w/ the concept of Redemption at first but who is she to argue with a god? #esp one who seems kinder than many of the others #but as the story progresses she realizes that she *can* trust these people and that they trust her #and she sees how Gale and Shadowheart and Lae'zel are struggling w/ their deities #and not only does she have something to lose now but she's seeing more of how the gods work generally

[ishhbowl]

had an argument with my mom and survived 🎉

#i love it when she starts straight up denying things that happened. “i dont care about your grades i just want you to do your best” OKAYY #sure. whatever. now look at my c+ in spanish again and let me see your expression when you do so. for no reason #me with my 3 missing homeworks (that are 10 PERCENT OF MY GRADE) and b+ in trig (LIKE AN 89) versus my mom who anything less than an a as #unworthy of praise #fuck i hate her sometimes. “youre so hard on yourself” you made me cry

[alteredphoenix]

My kingdom for a long-running fantasy/sci-fi yuri series.

#i mean. there's murcielago but i don't think it's what i'm looking for tbh? #and i don't think i can count the executioner and her way of life either #b/c there are six volumes so far and that's still running #and adachi and shimamura is modern day high school romance w/ some magic realism #but AFAIK it's so minuscule that it doesn't really matter all that much? #and it's only 12 volumes long #idk i'm just yearning for something that isn't Modern Setting and lasts 3-5 volumes #like at this point i may as just well write the damn thing myself #b/c as far as i'm concerned i'm not seeing ANYTHING like it being made rn #and what little fantasy/sci-fi yuri there are out there i can just count on...one hand? #and that's if they aren't fucked with and retconned by THE MAN UPSTAIRS #b/c 'WE HAVE TO THINK ABOUT OUR DEMOGRAPHIC' or some asinine bullshit #yuri

[kedreeva]

Today in measuring your peahen, Bug is casually 2 foot, 3 inches tall (she can stretch a little taller when she REALLY wants a treat). This is just tall enough to see over a tray table and pull things off of nightstands and end cabinets.

Bug is also a little over 3 feet long from tail tip to beak tip. Most of Bug is made up of tail and neck. There is a 6lb dead weight in the middle somewhere that she knows how to directly place onto the ball of one foot while standing on you.

Bug's wingspan is around 3.5 feet, thought I didn't get a measurement. It will be over 4 feet as an adult.

Bug is growing in her spurs. As a Spalding (hybrid) hen, Bug will likely have one inch bone knives conveniently attached to her tarsometatarsus. This is technically fused foot bones, not a leg bone. Curiously, pure Pavo cristatus hens have spurs, and pure Pavo muticus hens have spurs, but many domestic Pavo cristatus and low-percent Spalding hens lack them. This is one of the indications of domestication in the cristatus species. As I prefer the wild type, I prefer my hens spurred, so this is a good sign!

Bug's toes measure a smidge over 5 inches from the tip of her rear-facing to to the tip of her longest front facing toe. Try measuring that on your hand.

Bug's nails measure 1/2-3/4 an inch long, depending on the toe. That's almost as long as one finger section for most people.

When I had snakes, I got asked all the time if I was afraid of them biting me. The answer is no. I have been bitten by a 6 foot long, 20lb boa constrictor, and have no scars to prove it. Meanwhile I have so many scars from peafowl sitting on me, particularly on my forearms, that I have had to reassure people I am not a danger to myself.

I post these photos as a reference, but also as a precaution. This is a BABY peafowl, and a female at that. She is only 6 months old and weighs a little over 6lbs, which means she's about 2/3 of the way grown, and adult hens are typically 3/4 the size of an adult male. These are BIG birds that can do a LOT of damage, even accidentally. When they become aggressive, as in the case of hand-raised males or poorly bred birds, they become a potentially fatal threat to any other fowl you have. Unlike chickens, they are more than capable of (and prone to!) jumping to human face level before they flog (kick with their feet in a way that allows their spurs to hit home), which means they could easily take out an eye or cause other serious facial injury if they get a lucky strike. I have seen more than a few people end up with stitches, and more than a few birds end up euthanized because people think they are gonna be cute cuddly friends.

I know that Bug is a cute bird, but I also want to stress that a) she has an outstanding personality as a result of breeding choices and socialization b) she hasn't hit maturity, and won't do so for another 2+ years, so her personality could change considerably still and c) I have been raising peafowl one way or another for my entire adult life, which has been structured around keeping them. I love my birds, and I would love for more people to keep peafowl as they are great animals, but they are not casual animals. They are large and potentially dangerous farm fowl that take a lot of space, care, and knowledge to keep.

#peafowl #peahens #birds #my pets #bug the peahen #feathers #nothing in particular spurred this if you're wondering #it's just time for a reminder I think #since i often see folks talking about wanting them #when they see pics of mine

[renthony]

In the aftermath of my big post about censorship, multiple people have left comments that boil down to, "it's okay to show heavy topics in fiction as long as they're portrayed as bad."

Let's take a quick look at an excerpt from the full ext of the Hays Code, shall we?

No picture should lower the moral standards of those who see it. This is done: (a) When evil is made to appear attractive, and good is made to appear unattractive. (b) When the sympathy of the audience is thrown on the side of crime, wrong-doing, evil, sin.The same thing is true of a film that would throw sympathy against goodness, honor, innocence, purity, honesty. note: Sympathy with a person who sins, is not the same as sympathy with the sin or crime of which he is guilty. We may feel sorry for the plight of the murderer or even understand the circumstances which led him to his crime; we may not feel sympathy with the wrong which he has done. The presentation of evil is often essential for art, or fiction, or drama. This in itself is not wrong, provided: (a) That evil is not presented alluringly. Even if later on the evil is condemned or punished, it must not be allowed to appear so attractive that the emotions are drawn to desire or approve so strongly that later they forget the condemnation and remember only the apparent joy of the sin. (b) That thruout the presentation, evil and good are never confused and that evil is always recognized clearly as evil. (c) That in the end the audience feels that evil is wrong and good is right

This is the same Hays Code that supported Nazis. This is the same Hays Code that forced Jewish artists out of Hollywood. This is the same Hays Code that targeted artists of color, queer artists, female artists, any artist who deviated from the white American Catholic ideal. And it was explicitly Catholic, which I explained in further depth here.

The idea that art has to have a clear moral, which lines up with the dominant morals of white American Christianity, is foundational to the Hays Code. If you sound like the Hays Code, you need to re-evaluate.

Censorship and moral codes enforced on art are never used for anything other than oppression. The second you try to dictate what is and isn't allowable in art, you side with people who will enforce those rules on marginalized people with no mercy and no hesitation.

Censorship does not create healthy relationships with media, even the censorship you might be tempted to think of as "good censorship."

(And, as usual, being an independent censorship researcher does very little to pay my bills. Kick me a tip on Ko-Fi or pledge to me on Patreon if you want to support my work! <3)

#the hays code #original post