#( all she does is guilttrip us and make us feel like shit )

[huntsman-ash]

RWBY V8 Livethought Stream: Episode 1

And as I have done for the last couple of seasons, here is my live thoughts as I watch the episode. Spoilers below, of course, for RWBY Volume 8, Episode 1: Divide.

First shot we get is of Cinder cleaning a floor. Dammit, and I was hoping she was secretly a whore in Mistral. Ehh.

Convinent that the Grimm Whale has LANDING PADS on its side. Quite a few of them actually. Do Grimm launch from them like VTOL attack craft?

Neo and Cinder are flying a new as of yet un-named vehicle. Im going to call this one the Remora cause it kinda looks like one.

Im getting massive Leviathan vibes from this whale. Wont lie. Mixed with a bit of Hive influence from Destiny.

Neos look of confusion and fear is at the same time both amusing and adorable. Also, she has no shirt over her bellybutton, which I find slightly amusing.

Salems throne has some kind of link to somethign else in the Whale, there’s no other reason for it to have that glowing power bank on the back. Also it seems to be made of bone, as is most of the rest of the interior. So...presumably, Salem shaped this entire thing like a bonesinger.

Salem still got the titties out uniform AND I STILL HATE THAT HER VOICE IS JEN TAYLOR!

Salems got Grimm bone arm bracers. Interesting..

LAMP

Neo is literally saving this entire episode for me with her silent adorable sass.

And Tyrian with the ABSOLUTE FIRE. Also hey hes back, guess he got up here somehow.

Note on the throne Room; all the doors we see are connected to Salem’s throne via those glowing lines, which seem to curve and go elsewhere. I think this is the Whale’s nerve center. And it looks like its on the back if the huge bone in the reare near the teeth is its spine.

And Neos like “hey wait I didnt sign up for this”

Correction; its not a door, its a MOUTH. Wall mouth.

ANNNNDD new designs for everyone on the evil team. HAVEL BE BEAR BRO. TOTAL GAY ENERGY. It looks like he tore the sleeves of a nice dress shirt and just BELTED it in place. And Merc looks like a fucking GOPNICK, HA! What the fuck does he have hanging from his right leg though. 

Yeah, knew it. She touches the throne and the whale responds. Its her command seat, literally.

And Salem putting that bitch IN HER PLACE. You do it queen.

And now to the bottom of the hole under Atlas. THIS. THIS IS WHAT I ALWAYS IMAGINED MANTLE TO LOOK LIKE. VINDIFUCINGCATION AFTER FUCKING 6 YEARS!

Old dudes and faunus. Interesting. OLD DUDE FAUNUS WITH LIKE GIANT FUCKING MOLE CLAWS, DAMN.

Fuckin scramble the moment RWBY shows up. Man that was fast, I was hoping Oscar would be lost for a bit longer.

I still cannot believe how THIN the wall defending Atlas is. ITS LIKE TWO FEET THICK AT THE MOST! A METAL BARRIER WITH CONCRETE SUPPORTS! WHAT THE FUCK ATLAS

And Mantle proper slowly decends into what I have always seen it as. Good.

And May takes out a drone with her weapon like a chad. Nice. I guess Atlas doesnt keep track of their drones...wouldnt shock me

Ahhh resistance headquarters inside an old bar. The Huntress’s moving personnel...nice.

Oscars like “no dont touch me” and then “oh wait, titties, oh yeah...” Poor confused farmboi

OH MY GOD. VODKA IS CANON IN RWBY! HOLY SHIT YES!

Huh. Who’s the eyepatch chick with the cute faunus on the wall there. Interesting.

May Marigold; no nonsense. Good

“Largets Grimm Horde ever seen”. Okay, sure. Doesnt seem that big to me honestly.

Interesting. Ammunition cases on Remnant are nearly identical to ours, down to the large rectangular lockingn flap on one end.

Hmm. Casualties, judging by the watch and dropped material. No surprise. The weak get eaten in this world.

Also hey, faunus Futaba

Oh wonderful, no free-launch for the stadium. BECAUSE WHY THE FUCK NOT RIGHT?

Also, Stilltskin on the wall there. Some kind of whiskey

Main Atlesian Military Compound. Prepping myself for a MASSIVE dissapointment...

“Operations room”. Well, I guess it fits, but I would ASSUME its more accurately called a command and control center, or possibly command information center, depending. We’ll see soon enough.

Salems out in open war? Good. Time to break out the fuckin heavies people.

NGL this whole scene feels really oddly hamfisted. Its...strange. Doesnt feel like its flowing naturally.

Noras got a point but like, bruh, its Remnant. No ones got fucking militiares. You sat on your fucking hands for 80 Y EARS AND THIS IS HOW IT SHAKES OUT FOR YOU

And there’s a difference between division emotionally and splitting up to handle two objectives. Ruby, please stop being a civilian for 20 seconds and THINK

Cute, Penny’s gone full maiden depressed. First thoughts; self sacrifice.  Good idea. But make it more brutal, Penny. Make it a frontal assault that will make that bitch BEG for the end she cannot have. You have lasers, you have maiden powers, hit that whore with an alpha strike that will make Nicolas Kerensky wince!

Goooood. Pennys going for Atlas. CUT THEM TO RIBBONS POLENDIA!

Two teams, two days. Two seperate stories and things get messy.

IRONWOOD LITERALLY CALLS PENNY ON THE PHONE ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS.

Remnant is doomed. Lol, jumped a head a little bit buddy? Get out for a little bit mate. See some of the other kingdoms, check how they’re doing.

Atlas has defenses? Sure they do. Something tells me we’re not seeing that...

And guilttrip. Wooooooo not impressed.

Awww Marrow sadboi.

Actually the aces all look sand OH BECAUSE ITS CLOVER. WHY IS HE THERE? ARE THEY-OH DONT YOU FUCKING DARE RT. DONT YOU FUCKING DARE BRING HIM BACK.  FUCK YOU IF YOU DO. HE SERVED HIS FUCKING PURPOSE AND NOW HES DEAD, LEAVE HIM FUCKING BE!

ALSO HES FUCKING DUMB AND USELESS AND WE NEED HARE TO LEAD THE ACES NOW OKAY? We need someone willing to draw blood, not a showboat

Hare’s commentary is mine. Angry snort indeed.

Winters there too, looks like shes still beat to shit. Annnd there’s Ironwoods new arm.

Adorable specialist is adorable. Huh. Wonder if I can use her for something.

Medical brace for Winter...odd. Did she suffer burns or something? A stimm sleeve like in Gears?

Blah blah giant Grimm force blah blah okay yeah whatever

Atlas has hardlight shields. Okay, good. But we know how useful those are against proper attacks...You got anything else? Missiles? AA batteries? SOMETHING?

Seriously its a giant flying army, fill the fucking sky you morons!

Oh look its the two useless members of Atlas’s council.

YEAH! FUCK YEAH! THATS WHAT I WANNA SEE! GET HIS ASS IRONWOOD! FUCK YEAH! NOW SHOOT THE OTHER BITCH TOO! MAKE IT CLEAR THEYVE SERVED THEIR PURPOSE!

That POSTURE. THE CASUALNESS! THE PROPER FIRING STANCE! UGH ITS SO GOOD!

Wish we coulda seen the dude get smashed though. Damn ratings. I wanna know what a bullet does to a person in this universe.

Hare’s face here was the perfect ending to the situation. Confusion, wonder...acceptance. Exactly.

Same with Winter actually.

Huh. Wonder who Salems talking to.

And now for the new opening...

Everythings going to shit, shocker. Nic ecallbacks to other stuff. Oh great does Salem have WINGS now?

This last part reminds me of the trailer for Halo Wars 2

Wonder if the shadow under Crescent Rose at the end means anything.

Annnndddd thats it for this episode! See you all next week!

#rwby #volume 8 #rwby spoilers #rwby v8 #spoilers

[chavspy-blog]

youre nothing but a selfish bully who needs to get over themself. Congrats on driving people away from what they thought was their only safespace. youre a fucking cunt

ALRIGHT I DON’T EVEN CARE RIGHT NOW IT’S NOT LIKE I’M EVER ON THIS FUCKING BLOG ANY MORE ANYWAY.

You aren’t fucking subtle @merelytailors

I fucking went off my rocker about you because you fucking guilttripped everyone in that fucking chat for not paying attention to you while everyone was either asleep or grieving because (not like you care) but that was the one year anniversary of Shilo losing her sister, and this marks the first chirstmas with out her grandma. How fucking dare you. The post below was made minutes after you posted for attention.

Okay so yeah. I fucking lost it. You also made posts for attention when Shilo tried to say she wouldn’t be around much because she was grieving. You said that you’d be taking a semi from Tumblr and then that you wouldn’t be in the group hardly at all during the time...... But then your fucking posted and rped all night and chatted around the fort. I was mad, and I will forever be mad after you fucking CATFISHED like everyone who ever dared block you when you made StatesCowboy. You changed your name and pretended not to fucking know who Aeron was. By the way yes this person is aeron for anyone reading. So now lets get to the big shit. You told my wife ??? That I don’t deserve her??? Hen, just because I don’t like you and yeah, i’m fucking rude to you doesn’t mean I treat anyone else like this. Because I made it clear that I really wasn’t interested in talking to you and when you pressed it, I blocked you. You then preceded to make a new account, under a different name, and follow me on it, okay. Do you fucking need me to draw it out on how fucking shady and awful that is? How about the trust issues it gave me?And lets talk about the times that you were like fake drinking and taking pills and making all those unintelligible posts while texting and messaging other people and acting completely normal.You were trying to guilt trip the people who found out you had the two different blogs and wanted to block you again. You never took any pills, you never drank anything, you fucking attention seeking whore.But just because all you’ve seen is this shitty side of me doesn’t mean this is all that I am. How fucking dare you insinuate that I would treat shilo like this. Not to toot my own fucking horn here, but I didn’t see you coming around when she’s suicidal and needs to be held. I didn’t realize you were the one keeping her together when shitty people like you pop up, become her friend, and then become obsessed with her.

Polyamory DOES NOT work that way, as Shilo runs partners and basically everything by us ( we’re a very open triad. We talk about literally everything and hide nothing ), but she does NOT have feelings for you. Get over yourself.Shilo and I are going on three years of marriage and four years of a relationship. Don’t you dare insult Shilo, our relationship or me because all you’ve seen is one side of me. You don’t fucking know me and I want to keep it that way. I wasn’t about to stop Shilo from being friends with you but now i’m absolutely fucking disgusted. You think you can call her legitimate husband a cunt and lose your shit about me to her and she’d still want to be around you? Or that I’d want you to be anywhere near her? You need to fucking grow up. You need to stop being a child and get your fucking shit together. You aren’t gonna fucking break us up. We’re fucking stronger than anything. We’ve been through deaths, stalkers and so much shit you’d be drowning.

#ooc #drama #drama tw #callout post #callout tw #call out #Tagging the fuck out of #sorry for anyone who has to see it #but merry fucking christmas #Anonymous

[dwindlingashesburnt]

There's a reason your mind jumps to that conclusion

Something it took me years to realise, was that there was a reason my mind completed my mother's vague threats that way

For context, my mother is emotionally abusive. And quite often when she is very angry, she will make very vague threats like "if you do that again I'll make sure you regret it", "oh you won't be doing anything like that again if I have any say in it", or rather more simply "if you even dare to ever (insert thing) then I will-" and abruptly cutting off the sentence.

This is of course, incredibly convenient to her as an abuser, because these vague threats ensure she has at least somewhat plausible liability, whilst her more subtle emotional abuse ensures I automatically think of the worst consequences possible. This creates a sense of fear, control, and opens me up for a whole load of gaslighting, plus a healthy dose of victim blaming too - because of course, she never actually, for example, threatened to kill me, so clearly I'm an awful awful person for ever even thinking such a thing of her

And for a long time, I believed her when she said these accusations came from nowhere. After all, at first I couldn't even figure out where they were coming from - the completed sentences were conscious, but the reasoning that led to that conclusion, not so much. So I was perplexed - I knew she was awful, but surely not THAT awful, right? How could I ever think that?

Here are some examples of the completed sentences that my brain came up with:

"If you even dare to ever _____, then I will kill you"

"-then I will kick you out of the house and leave you to fend for yourself"

"-then I will lock you up and never let you leave the house again"

"-then I will never let you see any of your friends again"

"-then I will hurt you and I will not stop"

At some points, although this didn't slip into a completed threat in my mind, I was extremely alarmed about the possibility of her possibly sexually assaulting me - this one in particular confused and alarmed me beyond words because I had no idea where this fear came from at the time, and so besides the thought itself scaring me, I felt like I was losing control over my own mind, not helped by wild accusations, verbal abuse and gaslighting.

I can tell you where that particular fear came from now though, easily - it's true that my mother never approached me in any sexual way, nor had I even had reason to connect her with sex in any way at this point. But she did regularly make physical contact that I objected to, such as kissing my cheek before I went to school, and refused to accept my trying to say no, instead piling on the emotional abuse and guilttripping ("I'm not POISON you know!" "...I know" "Then why won't you let your own mother kiss you?!") And even physically holding me in place to do it, then hitting my arm or backside as I tried to go out the door. Most notably, one time I was convinced she was a good person making lots of mistakes, and I sat down to try and talk her through how what she was doing was hurting us, and how she could change - I ended up in tears as she smiled the whole time and broke the world record for amount of gaslighting in one conversation, but more significantly for this conversation....She held me to her in what could be called a sideways embrace, if I wasn't crying and objecting that I didn't want to hug her while I was upset with her, begging please no please just leave me be please hear me out please don't touch me don't touch me get your hands off of me please please please, and of course she didn't listen at all even when I started actively struggling to escape. She also has a habit of walking the house naked or half dressed, and gets angry when I object to this or object to the few times she barged into my room while I was getting changed ("God made your body, are you ashamed of it? You shouldnt be ashamed of it, it's beautiful, how dare you, (lots more about God as an excuse, lots more how dare yous, lots more threats, yadayadayada)") So, in essence, did my mother ever threaten to or lead me to believe she may rape or sexually assault me? Absolutely not. Were enough pieces there for my unconscious or subconscious mind to immediately come to that conclusion when she loomed over me, far too close in my space, and yelled a threatening sentence that she never finished? Absolutely. So yeah, once upon a time when she made one of hee vague threats in the middle of a towering fury, my first thought was that she was threatening to assault and or rape me. And no, that thought did not come from nowhere.

And the thing is, this looks rather horrific all typed out, but if I tried to bring up any isolated incident of it? Or just my thought without the explanation behind it? Everyone would think I was insane.

"For a couple of minutes there I was genuinely afraid that she meant she'd rape me if I fucked up again." "Why?" "I don't...I don't know. I can't explain it."

"My mother is frequently indecent in the house, walking around naked or only in underwear or only with a towel around her waist for up to an hour or more at a time." "Well, that's weird, and really kind of sucks." "...You don't get why this is so bad, do you?" "...Well, it isn't? I mean it's weird and gross, but can't you just not look at her, or avoid her?" "She will literally start an argument if I'm noticably trying to avoid looking in her direction when she's topless"

And just shit like that.

Same with all the other threats - did she actually ever threaten to kill me, kick me out, lock me up, never let me see my friends again? In all likelihood, the answer is no. Did she ever act in other ways that would lead me to perhaps unconsciously come to that conclusion, such as a past experience where I thought she'd kick my dad out, or her controlling whether I'm allowed to be friends with someone based on her approval, or act like only God (which at this point is synonymous in my brain with My Mother But She Doesn't Want To Say It Directly) gets to control when I die? Absolu-fucking-lutely

....Actually now that I come to think of it, that's probably a major reason I have issues with religion. My mother constantly uses God as her mouthpiece - for example when she feels she's demanded we respect her even as she's hurting us too many times, she instead cites the Ten Commandments which say to respect your parents. When the news talks of suicides, she follows up statements like "You would never do anything evil like that, would you girls?" In dangerous tones, with statements like "God does not agree with suicide, if you commit suicide you're going to Hell." Which simultaneously makes me link her with God, and conveys the underlying message of "I control your life and you will not die until I say so" - which may I just say, as a constantly terrified and suicidal twelve year old under the same house as my abuser? Got to say, that one conversation effectively killed my will and my mind for a long time - I effectively became a robot acting on autopilot, and did little but either shut down completely or daydream of being killed when I wasn't actively having to do anything, for a long long time

...Bit difficult to symphasise with a God that is not only irreversibly and deeply linked to an abuser in your brain, but also supposedly omnipotent and omniscient among othee things. Because on some level, all my brain really thinks of then is something like "You're asking me if I want to devote my life to my abuser, except even less predictable and with infinite knowledge and power? NO THANK YOU I may be self destructive but not THAT self destructive, let's NOT worship that deity thank you-"