#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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Hey, so I'm kinda starting to put a lot more focus into personal projects (currently writing the script for my next video) and as much as I was hoping to avoid this, I'm going to have to place this blog on hiatus until I start to get muse again, even if 'hiatus' is just tumblrspeak for 'So long, losers.'

I'm not going to definitively say I'm going away, or that I'll come back, but a lot of my inspiration for writing has gone elsewhere and I'd much rather pursue that than risk burning myself out.

I can be reached at my twitter @/WebbedSpiders (slight nsfw warning, account is minors dni) where I'm a lot more candid, mostly tweet at other creators, post my own stuff, and complain; or my Discord, for close mutuals.

also, a bit of an addendum below the cut- it's under a cut specifically bc it waxes negative but I feel like it's important to say because it is cutting into my ability to write here.

fair warning, I'm going to be very blunt and kind of serious with my words here. this also isn't an invitation to discussion, I am plainly stating my thoughts and I will not be swayed.

disclaimer: this is not directed at anyone. please, for the love of the gods, do not take any of this as 'oh did I do something?' you didn't. This is more about how the roleplay community as a whole operates, and no single person can be blamed for any of this.

There's always an air of pressure about Tumblr communities. In the time where I've just been here talking to people, interacting, not really causing problems as far as I know, I've still managed to get softblocked by people just because of association or because I don't mention something at all.

And while it's well within the right of these people to do this- these systems exist so you can curate a safe corner for yourself- it has still created a lot of stress for me and it has lead to me overly moderating and overanalyzing a lot of my own posts, and worrying about what exactly I'd done to push these people away. To be brutally honest, that's not fun and is not conducive to a creative platform. Logging on to realize that threads you were very much looking forward to have effectively been dropped forever is disheartening.

and I think the argument of "well you should think about why you got (soft)blocked" in regards to if I'd done anything wrong is bullshit, because in every case that someone has broken mutuals with me after there's been an amount of IC interaction, there's been no discussion. There's been no clarity. Which means that there's no direct path to improvement or closure unless I go around asking other people why I was blocked, softblocked, whatever, and I'm simply not going to do that because that feels like a breach of privacy. At the very least, it comes off as an indication that the other person simply does not want to interact with you and does not want to even talk to you.

Should note, this doesn't really bother me if it happens with people I haven't really spoken to. This is more of a 'I thought we established we were cool' thing. I know I'm also guilty of this in some cases, but at the same time- I do regret doing it. I hate that it's just accepted as a product of the systems this community has set up, and I feel like everyone- no matter how severe their actions- deserves to at least know what everyone at least thinks or knows they did.

I'm also not stupid, I know that this is just the community that Tumblr has curated over the years and I understand that this is just how it operates, but I'm starting to realize that maybe this space just isn't for me. Creating for myself without the necessity of leaning on others for continuous threads has really broadened my horizons and made me feel like I can do a lot more. I still love Whisper. I still love writing. but if I'm going to continue with this blog down the line when I have muse again, I'm going to be very selective and it's going to be very sparingly. I've found a passion I care about- something that I can actually put all of my creative skills towards that can reach an audience- and I'd much rather focus on that.

If you read all this, thank you, but also. I'm sorry? This probably reads as aggressive and upset- but I've been holding on to a lot of these complaints for upwards of years from how long I've been on this platform, floating between roleplay communities, but I can't hold it in anymore. I hate to say it, but in the time I've spent away from Tumblr, I've just felt better.

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #tw negative

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happy Real munday this time, obligatory pic under the cut (mostly bc i got more belts for one of my main looks and I still really really like it)

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #irl pic under cut #tw scopophobia #just in case; i'm not looking into the camera but yknow #yes I sound like a bag of loose change when I do Any amount of moving don't you worry #tbd #? maybe #i typically go back after a while and prune out old OOC posts to make backlogging easier

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Tagged by: @multigrounds Tagging: I'm horrendous at picking people for stuff like this, so much like my family bloodline, the chain ends here

favourite colour(s): Dark blues! Cerulean, navy, etc

favourite flavour(s): i'm a fan of bitter and sour flavors, I don't have much of a sweet tooth really

favourite genre(s):  For games, I love horror and fps

favourite music: CRACKS MY KNUCKLES. I have so many favorites that it's hard to pick just ONE but- for the moment, it's gonna have to go to BMTH's That's The Sprit album. The whole thing.

favourite movie(s): the corpse bride is up there, dunno if i really have a Favorite favorite though

favourite series: it's a tossup between Metroid and Homestuck, unfortunately

last song: Doomed by Bring Me The Horizon

last series: it only has one ep rn but Trigun Stampede!!!!

last movie: my adhd doesn't like movies so i very rarely watch them lmao

currently reading: I recently yoinked Junji Ito's Remina!

currently watching: my xp bar in ffxiv go up. end me

currently working on: my next yt video and leveling my crafters and gatherers in ffxiv replies are taking a bit of a backseat atm

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗝𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗶𝘁 - 𝗦𝗼𝗹𝗱𝗶𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗹 ▬ DASH MEME #was kinda shocked to get tagged in this #i kinda. keep away from ppl- i'm just here-

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finally read issue 56

hough

#that was #my gods #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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new bg art for whisper's theme (finally)

#spiders art #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #i'm slowly getting used to this new editor #i still don't like it. but i'm getting used to it

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shitpost featuring @herogardn​ ‘s whisper <3

#spiders art #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗔𝗖𝗥𝗢𝗕𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗖 𝗙𝗨𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗣𝗜𝗥𝗢𝗨𝗘𝗧𝗧𝗘 ▬ CRACK #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗦𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗱𝗴𝗲𝗵𝗼𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗱 -⋄⊱ HEROGARDN

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Just to be clear, I WILL be sending asks out to people on the 25th of whisper passing out gifts, and that IS a threat.

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #but atm i need to sleep. i was up all night bc brain bad #also back to whisper always thinking of others and NEVER herself #she just never considers that she doesn't really get much for xmas and never thinks about it

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blackrom??

don't make me explain alternian romance i fucking beg of you

#GOOGLE!! USE GOOGLE #PLEASE... LET ME REST #oops all Vriska - HS (Derogatory) #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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the itch to at least write down what a satbk au would be like is getting stronger

#you guys rlly have your stuff Set Up #meanwhile i'm like. i have all of my writing in a single au- #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗪𝗲'𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝘆 ! ▬ DASH COMM #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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quick question what's the consensus on this fanmade map

#part of me wants to take this into account when I do my writings and stuff but idk if it's like.... a commonly accepted thing #or if ppl Don't like it #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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so how about that playable amy

#friend sent me the roadmap #holy shit #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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Jade's about page has been brought back up to date with all of the missing events from her canon! (I've also added the playlist bit to the bottom)

Which... officially means that until major IDW story events happen for Whisper, Jade's canon is... done. I don't have anything else planned, at all. And i'm... pretty okay with that. Overall, the additions she has over IDW canon makes her feel complete.

To all of my mutuals- every single one that I've interacted with- thank you. Every bit of interaction you've had with my Whisper has lead to this point, and I'm excited for what the future may bring for her, and I hope we can all see it happen together.

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #seriously thank all of you so much for supporting my dumb dramatic interpretation of this gal #it means a lot to me #and now i have No Choice but to work on phantom and tangle. don't i... #ough #but also i'm happy all the major stuff is DONE bc maintaining both a google doc AND tumblr theme at the same time? #that's a lot.

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    I’m off to lay down, but you know what? New objective.

    Make Whisper smile.

    Not a momentary smile, not a grin, not something fleeting-

    Try to make her happy. She deserves it.

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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    Starter call!!

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗠𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗱 - 𝗟𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 . ▬ STARTER CALL #any mutuals that I already have a thread with are free to like for another! #I don't mind having multiple threads #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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calmly hugging a pillow as more and more of Phantom's playlist is starting to also apply to Whisper:

#i'm. concerned. #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC

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As a bit of a final post to cap off 2022 on this blog, you all get the rare mushy Spiders under the cut. Savor it.

2022 was one of the roughest years of my life. I've been spending most of the time going in and out of jobs- hell, i've spent half the year unemployed, and am struggling to even find a job now- and that doesn't even really include all of the mental issues that have started cropping up over time. It's... scary. It's demoralizing. I often feel like I'm decomposing and one day I won't recognize myself. Without going into detail, I've hit some new lows this year.

When I made the choice to come back to this blog, it was shortly after I finished Sonic Frontiers. It rekindled my interest in Sonic, so I went and caught up on the comics, logged into Whisper's account, and just... expected nothing. I've tried to come back a few times in the past, but every time I was basically posting in a ghost town.

I was very, very happy to find that there are people here. New, old, returning, whoever- it was comforting. I feel like I've had a corner to really escape all the bad parts of my life. Writing, developing Whisper, doing something creative again aside from doing NSFW coms just for money- doing something I wanted to and having people actually follow me FOR that. This is the most developed my Whisper has ever been- and you all made that possible.

You've all been so, so very kind. And even if the RPC died tomorrow, I'd be happy. Just to have been able to make some more good memories here, so long after I'd resigned to not being able to write on Tumblr again. I've drifted to and from RPCs, and aside from Homestuck- I'm happy to say I've spent the most time here, in the Sonic RPC. In the face of all the bullshit and bad times I've had here, I can't help getting excited over idea plots and what developments Whisper is going to have next, and I'd love to actually be able to write them out this time. Maybe I will.

Here's hoping 2023 picks up and improves- for everyone. Take care of yourselves.

#🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #i know i can be kinda closed off when it comes to ooc contact but really. #you've all been great #tbd