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A LITTLE HC DUMP OF MURDOC CHRISTMAS & HOLIDAY HCs !!

murdoc’s relationship with christmas was ... really not good for a long time, as he most associated the holiday with loneliness & neglect. his christmases at the niccals household were spent surrounded by rowdy, drunken adults who ignored him at best and got downright violent & handsy towards him at worst. from an early age, murdoc learned to hide himself away from the 24th to the 26th, not wanting anything to do with the debauchery.

of course, the older & more jaded murdoc got, the more he saw christmas as an excuse to really go off his shits & do twice as much drinking and screwing and troublemaking as he normally would. it was a coping mechanism to cover up how empty that time of year made him feel. it didn’t work.

he’s canonically worked as a mall santa throughout his twenties as a means of keeping a roof over his head. he often showed up to work completely wasted, oversharing with the kids & making lewd, flirtatious comments towards the parents. you know, typical murdoc inappropriatness. he’s been fired numerous times, but would usually end up getting re-hired when they got really desperate for employees.

he didn’t start warming up to the idea of christmas until around the mid-2000s, when he began to consider his bandmates more of a family than just ... well, bandmates. of course, he’d still have to drink pretty hard to get through the christmas season - as murdoc does to get through most things in life - but he did remember to get them presents. eventually. after a few years of fucking up. you can thank russel and noodle for that.

noodle was the first of the group to start receiving thoughtful presents, followed by russel. over the past twenty years, stu has graduated from awful prank gifts to unorthodox, mildly offensive shit & booze to things that murdoc actually knows he’d like. it’s been a process.

he fucking loves eggnog, crème de menthe & peppermint schnapps. the eggnog is usually mixed with copious amounts of cinnamon, and sometimes nutmeg.

does he really need an excuse to dress up in risque costumes? no. but now he can do it holiday style!

his all-time favourite christmas song has always been madonna’s cover of santa baby. don’t @ him.

murdoc begins celebrating yule when he hits his early 50s, which proves to be a very healing tradition for him. it makes the holiday season a lot easier for him to swallow, and a lot of the people around him have noticed a positive change in his attitude around that time.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#long post /#ask to tag /#child abuse mention /#csa mention /#alcoholism /#i've been writing murdoc for 2 years and i've never talked about his thoughts on christmas till now... i'm a sham

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hisband · 5 years

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murdoc isn’t valid because his favourite pizza toppings are sardines & black olives. :/

#he thinks he has taste... he really thinks he has taste...#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#also HI HELLO I'VE BEEN BUSY #HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOING GOOD

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headcanon: food intolerances & general palette.

i think i’ve talked about this a little bit before, but when it comes to desserts, murdoc will absolutely NOT touch artificial, super sugary shit. ( mostly due to an incident during childhood involving sebastian’s chocolate liqueur; it made little muds really sick. ) he doesn’t like chocolate at all - the only time you’ll catch him maybe snacking on it is if there's tons of peanut butter mixed in, or if it’s 90% dark.

along with peanut butter, he can also enjoy fruit tarts, cinnamon, honey, almonds, pistachios, sherbet, salted caramel, pumpkin & hazelnut. he won’t touch frosting & he can only tolerate whipped cream if it’s very light. murdoc’s lactose intolerant; dairy-heavy desserts don’t sit well with him, or anything with tons of cheese in general. when he says he can’t drink milk over 2%, believe him. he’s not joking.

to add on to the cheese thing !! he can still technically eat it, but he has to be careful. swiss, parmesan, cheddar are all okay because they’re lower in lactose. goat & sheep milk tend to go down easier for murdoc than milk from cows.

when it comes to flavours murdoc likes, he’s a big of those milder sweet things i mentioned ( i.e. certain fruits, like strawberries or raspberries ), salty-sweet ( i.e. salted caramel ), sour-sweet ( i.e. sourpatch kids ) anything savoury or anything really spicy ( i.e. jalapeño poppers ). he’s especially fond of seafood; the only occasion you’ll ever see him tired of it is during the pla.stic beach era or shortly after PB, due to the fact that he ate nearly nothing else.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#fun fact: he and gren are nearly identical in that sense!!!#they have almost the Exact same diet #the only difference i can think of between them is that murdoc will eat pork & gren won't

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hisband · 5 years

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let’s talk about murdoc’s nose for a minute here.

its shape didn’t just change after sustaining repeated injuries during his childhood - the bone and cartilage that divide the nasal cavity itself are straight-up squashed. it isn’t just a defect of his physical appearance - murdoc sincerely cannot breathe very well. on top of that, he’s also very prone to sinus infections, runny noses, nosebleeds, facial pain, headaches ( especially morning headaches ) and loud snoring.

but the most worrying symptom of his deviated symptom is definitely sleep apnea, a serious disorder in which a person repeatedly stops breathing while unconscious. in murdoc’s case, it worsened his ADHD, depression and mood-swings, as well as putting him at risk for heart disease. murdoc didn’t even realize he had something wrong with him until stu - having lived with muds briefly as a flatmate prior to acquiring kong studios - pointed it out to him. following go.rillaz’s rise to fame in 2001, murdoc finally decided to seek out treatment, receiving a CPAP device. he often dislikes using it, finding it incredibly embarrassing and inconvenient, but will occasionally pull it out if his sleep apnea gets bad enough.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#me? writing characters with realistic health issues? more likely than you think

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hot take: the reason why murdoc makes so many jabs in canon about russel’s weight & eating habits is because murdoc is self-conscious about his own weight and diet, and is doing the Murdoc Thing where he projects those issues onto another person to make himself feel better :/

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#ask to tag /#food mention /#weight mention /#obviously i'm not excusing it. it's an absolutely shitty thing for him to do and i hate it #but ... i'm like 90 percent sure that's why #i've always written murdoc as someone who suffers from serious body dysmorphia but he has no fucking excuse to be mean to other people #just because he's unhappy #also idk if this applies for my murdoc & ruben's russel because ... muds actually Respects Him for one.#and also it would only happen one time with ruben's russ. never again. because Russ Would Not Take That.

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very important tidbit!! when murdoc shares information about other musicians, whether they are RL or fictional, his statements are not and SHOULD NOT be taken as the truth. while OCCASIONALLY he will share factual information, more often than not he’s spouting absolute nonsense based on either his own opinions ( or delusions ) or gossip he’s heard through the grapevine.

in other words: please don’t take murdoc’s celebrity stories seriously. 9 times out of 10, he’s full of shit, or grossly twisting information to suit his own warped point of view.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#this applies to a lot of things that come out of his mouth but i feel i should draw special attention to this!

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hisband · 5 years

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we all know that murdoc doesn’t have the best relationship with women, but i’m not sure if a lot of people also consider the fact murdoc really, really isn’t keen on men either, in terms of trust. and you know what? i don’t blame him. his immediate guardian and other familial figures growing up were mostly men, and they treated him like shit. certain traumas that happened to murdoc during his childhood were both enacted and enabled by masculine figures, which led him to believe he Enjoyed being hurt. of course, that couldn’t be further from the truth, and his stream of instant gratifications during adulthood ( i.e. one night stands, sex he paid for, etc ) only damaged his perception of relationships further.

this, of course, confuses murdoc on a romantic & sexual level, because he secretly craves these types of relationships with men, but he doesn’t trust relationships in general, and has learned not to trust men. by combining his fear of relationships with his fear of men, he’s going to associate them negatively with each other once they collide: when he finds a potential romantic partner, a man, that he really likes ( and we all know who that is! ). because murdoc believes that both relationships and men are bad, and because both have hurt him, he believes a relationship with a man specifically is really going to hurt him.

as per usual, murdoc copes with being scared by numbing himself to it, usually with alcohol, and by getting angry & lashing out. but he doesn’t lash out because he likes gren - he lashes out because he’s frustrated with himself for wanting to pursue something that has every reason to petrify him.

his positive emotions are associated with negative ones. most people view fondness of another person as an opening for positivity, but murdoc has learned to associate it with hurt.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#( META. )#wow it's been too long since i've posted a murdoc analysis #gotta do more of these! lots to say about him #child abuse mention /#csa mention /#( DO NOT REBLOG. )

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hisband · 5 years

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ABOUT THE MUSE REPOST, DO NOT REBLOG

GENERAL

Name: murdoc faust niccals. ( born murdoc alphonce niccals. ) Nickname(s): muds, mudsy, uncle murdy, murdy-birdy, birdoc, murdoc pickles, goblin, bastard man. Age: verse dependent. in his main verse with @grcndel, he’s currently 37 years old. as of go.rillaz canon, he is 53. Species: presumed human, but with the way his body is changing, seemingly without explanation, who can say for sure?

PERSONAL

Morality: lawful / neutral / chaotic / good / grey / evil. Sins: lust / greed / gluttony / sloth / pride / envy / wrath. Virtues: chastity / charity / diligence / humility / kindness / patience / justice. Primary goals in life: originally, to achieve power, glory & fame. after succeeding and coming to the realization that he’s still not content with his life, however, murdoc is now trying to get to the root of his problems, confront them & hopefully heal in the long run.

PHYSICAL

Build: slender / scrawny / bony / fit / athletic / curvy / herculean / babyfat / pudgy / obese. Height: 5′6″. Weight: typically ranges from 110 to 137 lbs, depending on his lifestyle and how well he’s taking care of himself. Scars / Birthmarks: self-harm scar on his inner right forearm, concealed by his octopus tattoo. vertical scar on the back of his left leg due to childhood injury. post plastic-beach, there is a noticeable scar on his left shoulder blade ( the result of a gunshot wound ). as of phase 4 / present day, he has a vertical scar on his chest as a result of coronary bypass surgery. Abilities / powers: genius level intellect ( his IQ is around the 150 - 160 mark ), though with his life choices you’d never guess that. an extremely talented mechanic, ( bio ) engineer & musician. has varying levels of knowledge on topics such as anthropology, philosophy, sociology, the occult / demonology & pharmaceuticals / medicine & biology. fairly decent at throwing knives, handling firearms, sailing, fishing, gun-running, breaking & entering, pick-pocketing & gambling. what he lacks in physical prowess, he makes up for in quick thinking, natural improvising & a silver tongue. it should also be noted that murdoc seems to have a special connection with birds, particularly corvids, and bounces back from ailing health a lot quicker than the average human. additionally, he has a nasty set of jaws.

FAVORITES

Favourite food: crab cakes, seafood linguine, teriyaki chicken, to name a few. Favourite drink: captain morgan dark rum, strongbow cider, umbongo cocktail, black vodka, hard whiskey. Favourite colour(s): turquoise, light green, ocean blue, crimson, deep purple, midnight black, smoky grey and - unbeknownst to most people - bubblegum pink. Favourite music genres: classic metal, glam rock, industrial, art rock / progressive rock, dub / reggae, world music & contemporary classical are just a few of his favourite genres. murdoc likes a little bit of everything, and i do mean everything. Favourite book genres: philosophy, horror, true crime, narrative poetry, social science, political fiction, transgressive fiction. Favourite movie genres: hammer horror, old westerns & crime dramas. he has a secret love for romantic dramas, too, but don’t tell anyone! Favourite season: fall. it’s not too warm and not too cold just yet - not to mention everyone’s getting ready for halloween, murdoc’s favourite holiday. Favourite curse word(s): sod, bloody, fuck, shit, prick. Favourite scent: salty ocean air. coconut suntan lotion. cinnamon. pomegranate. black cherry. ozone. cigar smoke. firewood. sweet peas. freshly barbecued meat.

FUN STUFF

Bottom or Top: bottom-leaning switch; sub-inclined versatile. Sings in the shower: when he thinks no one’s listening, yes. Likes bad puns: only when he’s the one making them. otherwise, hell no... though he make a few exceptions.

tagged by: @vmprwtch, some time ago !! thank you joey !!

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#god... murdoc really is a jack of all trades isn't he

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i want everyone to know that murdoc continues to use the ( canonical ) email he made in 2007, [email protected], to this very day. thank you for your time.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#he's lost the password 59594 times but he always manages to get it back

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MURDOC & SYMPTOMS OF ADHD.

ADHD is defined as a chronic condition marked by persistent inattention, hyperactivity, and sometimes impulsivity. ADHD begins in childhood and often goes unrecognized into adulthood. this is especially true in the past, and murdoc, being a child raised in the late 60s and early 70s, definitely got filed into the Unrecognized Neurodivergence category. already looked down upon by his teachers for belonging to a notorious, deeply disliked family, murdoc’s behaviour also earned him labels such as “slacker” and “troublemaker.”

in ri/se of the ogre, it’s mentioned he did things like cutting classes, distracting his classmates with “endless quacking noises” and making “pointless malicious jokes.” while i do think some of that behaviour may have A) been blown out of proportion by his teachers because they didn’t like him and B) was likely the result of his negligent household, i think he also acted out because... well, he couldn’t help himself, didn’t understand he was being disruptive and was never taught how to control those impulses. impulses that he still has, though they manifest in different ways, such as...

becoming easily distracted by low-priority activities or external events that others tend to ignore. anyone who knows murdoc at all knows how difficult it is for him to keep his thoughts in a straight line unless he’s in a professional setting ( and even then, he has a tendency to go off on tangents from time to time ). though he’s excellent at setting goals for himself and taking the necessary steps to achieve them, other things tend to catch his eye along with the way. murdoc is very observant, which is both a blessing & a curse depending on the circumstances.

having so many simultaneous thoughts that it’s difficult to follow just one. see above. murdoc has a lot going on in his head at once, and because of that, he struggles to articulate himself when he’s speaking unless he’s had time to plan out his responses ( being a celebrity, he was likely coached how to do this properly ). this may give off the impression that he’s a bit of a ditz, which couldn’t be the furthest thing from the truth. talking out loud can just... be hard for him.

difficulty paying attention or focusing, such as when reading or listening to others. yes, he can be incredibly watchful... if the situation is of the utmost importance or if he feels like he has something to gain. but when he’s trying to focus on something he really doesn’t care about or that won’t benefit him in some way, you’ve lost him.

frequently daydreaming or “zoning out” without realizing it, even in the middle of a conversation. linked to the point above. also ties into point #2 in regards to murdoc thinking about too much at once.

struggling to complete tasks, even ones that seem simple. like i said before, murdoc often has a hard time motivating himself to do things he has minimal interest in. believe it or not, he isn’t trying to be a lazy asshole; his brain chemicals just don’t work the way they’re supposed to. the brain uses electrical impulses to carry messages from one neuron to the next - messages that help us notice things, pay attention and take action. in the brain of someone with adhd, the brain doesn’t always release Enough of those chemicals. when something interesting or exciting comes along for someone with ADHD, however, then our brains releases a larger amount, which helps us get started and stay glued to the task ( which is why murdoc is such an efficient musician / songwriter a decent chunk of the time ). people with ADHD don’t have voluntarily control of the release - we can’t tell ourselves to get started on a task and make it happen unless we’re really into it, or if we fear something bad will happen if we don’t deal with things right on the spot.

a tendency to overlook details, leading to errors or incomplete work. murdoc doesn’t Always exhibit this symptom because he’s such a perfectionist - at least when it comes to subjects he feels genuine passion for, like music and live performances - but when it comes to things he’s less sure about or can’t really bring himself to get invested in, he gets... sloppy.

poor listening skills; for example, having a hard time remembering conversations and following directions. pretty self-explanatory. his drug & alcohol abuse ( both past and present ) really don’t help with his lapses in memory. he’s a lot better at navigating around new locations than he is remembering something someone said to him earlier that day, however. all the travelling he does has helped him get better at figuring out where he needs to go and not panicking when he gets lost.

quickly getting bored and seeking out new, stimulating experiences. another self-explanatory one. this symptom occasionally overlaps with the risk-taking of murdoc’s BPD ( which i plan to discuss in more depth in future posts ). because of the overlap of his BPD & his ADHD, murdoc experiences a special form of inattention as part of dissociative states when he feels emotionally stressed, particularly in response to feelings of rejection, failure, and loneliness. his inattentive ADHD symptoms are particularly prominent in situations that lack external stimulation ( i.e. during boring, routine, or familiar tasks ). it should be noted that those with BPD have a tendency to resort to self-harm in order to alleviate tension; those with ADHD are more likely to regulate emotional symptoms through things like extreme sports, novelty seeking, sexual activity, and aggression. as someone who suffers from both disorders, murdoc’s got a lot on his plate.

poor organizational skills (home, office, desk, or car is extremely messy and cluttered). it depends on the situation and circumstances. when it comes to matters that are important to gor*llaz, murdoc watches over them like a hawk and ensures that everything is in the correct place & order... most of the time, so long as he’s somewhat sober. when it comes to his personal belongings, though? absolute disaster in the earlier phases. his organizational skills don’t start getting better until around phase 4, in which he copes with the loss of control over his life by becoming extremely anal about how everything around him is presented.

tendency to procrastinate. unless the goal in question is extremely time-sensitive & important, yeah - and even Then murdoc will still sometimes leave shit to the last minute. he frequently forgets the thing he means to do before he starts doing something else. when he’s so distracted by outside stimuli, as well as internal thoughts, it can be hard for him to even make it to the starting line. and once he finally does get started, he may become sidetracked by something else more interesting... and so his original task gets delayed even further. do you see where i’m going with this?

trouble starting and finishing projects. thanks to his ADHD-fuelled boredom, murdoc tends to have a lot going on for himself at once. the problem is, he sometimes has trouble finishing his side projects because new ones pop up and replace them. this is why it’s important for murdoc to have a a Primary Project or Goal to worry about - because without one, he’d be aimless.

time blindness. ties in with issues such as chronic lateness & forgetting appointments / deadlines. murdoc, like most people with ADHD, has a distorted sense of time. waiting in line can feel like hours and what feels like fifteen minutes of fun activity can really be forty-five. if murdoc forgets the purpose of his task, he’ll be uninspired to finish it. those with ADHD have two times: “now and not now.” for example, if a work project is due next week, we figure we’ll have plenty of time to do it - and the next thing we know it’s monday. that sort of thing. this distortion of time leads us to believing we have more time to complete tasks than what we actually do.

constantly losing or misplacing things (keys, wallet, phone, documents, bills). this is why murdoc needs to watch closely where he sets things down. if he’s not paying enough attention, his brain won’t lay down a memory of the event - it’ll feel like it never happened. this can make him a real pain in the ass to live with at times, because more often than not the object he lost will be in plain sight and he’ll be tearing the place apart trying to find it.

but murdoc’s most prominent ADHD symptom of all would be his impulsivity. said impulsivity makes it difficult for him to inhibit his behaviours, comments, and responses. he tends to act without thinking, or react without considering the consequences. he has a habit of interrupting others, blurting out the first thing that pops into his head ( no matter how tasteless or inappropriate ), and rushing through tasks without reading the figurative or literal instruction manual. murdoc’s lack of impulse control makes staying patient extremely difficult for him. for better or for worse - usually the latter - he tends to jump into risky situations that cause him more harm than good in the end. this poor self-control has led to addictive tendencies, as well as difficulty behaving in socially appropriate ways. said difficulties include:

being easily flustered and stressed out.

irritability or short, often explosive, temper.

low self-esteem and sense of insecurity or underachievement.

trouble staying motivated.

hypersensitivity to criticism.

talking excessively, usually about a million things at once.

trouble sitting still. constant fidgeting.

there’s a million other things i Could say about murdoc as a character with ADHD and would Like to say but. i think this covered all of the bases. more later, yes.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#( META. )#long post /#am i projecting a bit? perhaps but what can u do

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does your muse snore? sleeptalk? sleepwalk?

meme: character headcanons! || status: no longer accepting.

given that poor murdoc can barely breathe through his nose as is, yes, his snoring is pretty fucking bad. it gets so bad that when he and his bandmates are on a tour bus together ( or living in an otherwise enclosed space ), the other three will sometimes need to wear noise-cancelling earplugs just to get a decent night’s rest.

murdoc will mumble in his sleep every now and then; sometimes in regards to what he’s dreaming, but more often than not it’s a bunch of incoherent nonsense. sleepwalking is a much rarer occurrence for him, but it has happened before - usually when he’s under the influence of heavy drugs.

#lagoonlurker #⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#drug mention /#murdoc also suffers from night terrors that have caused him to wake up screaming on more than one occasion #but that's a hc for another time

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ENNEAGRAM. LINK. GO HERE AFTER COMPLETING.

TYPE 3 - THE ACHIEVER.

threes are self-assured, attractive, and charming. ambitious, competent, and energetic, they can also be status-conscious and highly driven for advancement. they are diplomatic and poised, but can also be overly concerned with their image and what others think of them. they typically have problems with workaholism and competitiveness.

At Their Best: self-accepting, authentic, everything they seem to be — role models who inspire others.

Basic Fear: of being worthless.

Basic Desire: to feel valuable and worthwhile.

Key Motivations: want to be affirmed, to distinguish themselves from others, to have attention, to be admired, and to impress others.

achievers are the "stars" of human nature, and people often look up to them because of their graciousness and personal accomplishments. healthy threes know how good it feels to develop themselves and contribute their abilities to the world, and also enjoy motivating others to greater personal achievements than others thought they were capable of. they are usually well regarded and popular among their peers, the type of person who is frequently voted “class president" or “homecoming queen” because people feel they want to be associated with this kind of person who acts as a stand-in for them. healthy threes embody the best in a culture, and others are able to see their hopes and dreams mirrored in them.

threes are often successful and well liked because, of all the types, they most believe in themselves and in developing their talents and capacities. threes act as living “role models” and paragons because of their extraordinary embodiment of socially valued qualities. healthy threes know that they are worth the effort it takes to be “the best that they can be.” their success at doing so inspires others to invest in their own self-development.

to this end, threes learn to perform in ways that will garner them praise and positive attention. they may feel socially awkward or self-conscious, but they deeply wish to connect with people who understand them and their feelings. threes also learned how to cultivate and develop whatever about them is attractive or potentially impressive.

everyone needs attention, encouragement, and the affirmation of their value in order to thrive, and threes are the type which most exemplifies this universal human need. threes want success not so much for the things that success will buy, or for the power and feeling of independence that it will bring. they want success because they are afraid of disappearing into a chasm of emptiness and worthlessness: without the increased attention and feeling of accomplishment which success usually brings, threes fear that they are nobody and have no value.

the problem is that, in the headlong rush to achieve whatever they believe will make them more valuable, threes can become so alienated from themselves that they no longer know what they truly want, or what their real feelings or interests are. in this state, they are easy prey to self–deception, deceit, and falseness of all kinds. thus, the deeper problem is that their search for a way to be of value increasingly takes them further away from their own essential self with its core of real value. from their earliest years, as threes become dependent on receiving attention from others and in pursuing the values that others reward, they gradually lose touch with themselves. step by step, their own inner core, their “heart’s desire,” is left behind until they no longer recognize it.

thus, while they are the primary type in the feeling centre, threes, interestingly, are not known as “feeling” people; rather, they are people of action and achievement. it is as if they “put their feelings in a box” so that they can get ahead with what they want to achieve. threes have come to believe that emotions get in the way of their performance, so they substitute thinking and practical action for feelings.

threes report that when they realize to what extent they have adapted their lives to the expectations of others, the question arises, “well, then, what do i want?” they often simply did not know; it was not a question that had ever come up before. thus, the fundamental dilemma of threes is that they have not been allowed to be who they really are and to manifest their own authentic qualities. at a young age, they got the message that they were not allowed to have feelings and be themselves: they must, in effect, be someone else to be accepted. to some degree, all of the personality types have been sent the same message, but because of their particular background and makeup, threes not only heard it, they began to live by it. the attention they received by performing in a certain way was their oxygen, and they needed it to breathe. unfortunately, it came at a high price.

#⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#okay so FUCK THIS ANALYSIS FOR GETTING HIM LIKE THAT???#THIS IS UPSETTINGLY SPOT ON

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something that gives your muse hope.

meme: character headcanons! || status: selectively accepting.

oh, man, this is a tough question for murdoc. a very complex question.

when asked for his world-views & opinions on life, murdoc was once prone to giving simplistic, cynical, sarcastic answers because it was easier for him. he was ( and still is, sometimes ) afraid to have hope for the world because he’s terribly afraid it will disappoint him - and while i don’t agree with that mindset, i can at least understand it, given the sheer extent of horrible bullshit murdoc has seen ( and committed himself ) over the last five decades.

you'd think he doesn't have much of a reason to see the good in people, because of that, but fame has exposed him to a lot of positive things, too. yes, he has seen hollywood’s disgusting underbelly, and it didn’t surprise him - he’d expected as much from the elite. but what he didn’t expect was the sheer level of generosity from his fanbase; the love & support that’s been consistently shown to him over the years, in spite of everything. murdoc’s celebrity status has allowed him to meet some incredibly smart, compassionate individuals - young people who’ll be here long after he’s gone. no matter how much he’ll sometimes huff & complain about the “sensitivity” of this generation, he’s secretly very proud of us for everything we’ve brought awareness to, and encourages us to speak up for what we believe in. he’s bracing himself for the worst in terms of the state of the world, but he’s hoping for the best.

it’s people in power that he hates, more than anything. he knows damn well most evil in the world can be traced back to them.

#heylincorporated #⇩ ▬ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ / ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ( headcanon. )#younger murdoc was definitely more of a pessimist. he's more of a realist now.#who errs on the side of optimism because it's basically the only thing keeping him going these days #that and his family!

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