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HEADCANON — TANGEIRNE & TRAUMA :) 

so in an interview, atj mentioned doing takes where tangerine was traumatized by the bolivia job and that got me thinking. aka it’s canon for my tangerine to be, in fact, traumatized by the bolivia job. not sure what that exactly entails yet, but..

further into that whole trauma thing — there’s a moment of intense grief where tears are shed ( granted lemon is by far more personal than bolivia ) when he thought lemon died ( again, i beg, tangerine please check the PULSE ). but then that grief’s transformed into very intense rage almost in an instant ( no thanks to the white death calling ). then guns go ablazing, fists go flying because while lemon’s seen as a smidgen more logical and tangerine’s more up in arms about subduing and then getting answers — i think tangerine has a very, very fine balance with getting things done the way they should be vs. being in tune with his emotions.

and in that moment there’s no fucking time to be sad — not until the job’s done and his revenge’s paid in full.

anyways, even past that in my fudged post canon where tangerine miraculously lives, i think he’d revisit that extremely intense hurt for a very brief moment. give lemon a stronghanded, rib crushing hug and then sweep the talk of emotions half under the rug. so long as lemon’s safe and sound, he can revisit the bit by bit in bite sized pieces. would never go to therapy, though. him and lemon do well enough on their own.

so, all in all. compartmentalization is a tool he utilizes when caught in action, but can slowly air out some of those grievances when the situation’s not all fucked. but only with lemon.  

#⁺˚*･༓☾ tangerine ➟ headcanon ☽༓･*˚⁺ #// laugh cries in 'i dont remember writing this but thank you past me' #* & bullet train spoilers .

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***mega bullet t.rain spoilers below xoxo — PERSONALS DO NOT REBLOG***

but y’all know what breaks me? :)

that moment tangerine has just before prying that bathroom door open. how stunned he is upon immediately seeing the slumped figure of lemon. his brother. how he carefully sits lemon up and holds a hand on his brother’s shoulder, pauses to take things in, sees the mess of blood, and visibly comes to understand what this means. you can see the exact moment it dawns on him. when his eyes start to move around the face. he swallows thickly, works his jaw, blinks against the forming tears, and looks away because it’s all too overwhelming. it’s too much of a hit in the heart, but not enough for him to just leave. no, he takes his necklace off to put it around lemon’s neck. he makes sure it’s arranged right and clasps his hand on his brother’s upper back.  when he gathers the gun, dumps out the empty casings to reload — he can’t fight off the tears or that shuddering breath. even tries to clear his throat to help gather himself, but he can’t fully for another second until he stands and closes the door.

the way tangerine falls silent at the end of the white death’s threat. involuntarily lets his lips wobble and his nose flare because the tears are still there. they’re there and so are a million words to continue and lash out. but no. all he says is ‘my brother’. and, god, how heart wrenching that anguish and numbed resolve is. how downright tangible that pain is by cadence alone. 

and the flashback. goddammit, the flashback. need i say more?

then there’s the fact that lemon knew right away that something fucked happened to tangerine when he woke with the necklace on him. horribly groggy and sore and discombobulated be damned — that realization cuts through everything like a hot knife and it’s stuck right in his chest where the bullets should’ve been. 

and that following scene with the two of them. tangerine also sat up. lemon pulling out the thomas the tank engine sticker sheet. chuckling to himself before saying ‘you.. you’re more like thomas anyway, right?’. puts that thomas sticker in tangerine’s hand, curls his brother’s fingers by holding it close with his own. and that scream...

yeah. yeah, the way they grieve in different ways ( given they were in different circumstances ) is just.. :)

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hi hello, just wanted to highlight the moment when tangerine’s going ballistic on the train window and then shatters it completely with his head.

#⁺˚*･༓☾ tangerine ➟ headcanon ☽༓･*˚⁺ #// love him so so soooo much

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alright, Ro, beloved Tangerine expert, remember the briefings he mentions he sends to Lemon for every job of theirs? those Lemon doesn't read lmao? yeah, headcanon question, how do you think do they actually look like. do you think he sits down at a lil desk and writes them down meticulously? and also, does that imply Tangerine and Lemon don't necessarily hang out before a job and what do you think do they get up to when they're just vibing somewhere?

oh, ho, ho. ok, first of all, you flatter me by calling me the tangerine expert like ( i'll combust in surprise and awe PLEASE ). secondly.... i'm rubbing my hands like a lil' cricket because this is such a wonderful question!

to preface this, i will say that i still haven't read the book yet but i've seen folks talk about it and there's one specific thing that stuck with me. apparently, tangerine's really into novels but that isn't shown in the film.

so in my mind.... i do think that while tangerine definitely utilizes encrypted shit for digital briefings ( more mobile or whatever ), he mainly does it by pen and paper. and, oh yeah, he definitely does all of his research with the finest toothed comb. so lots of notes ( which he's surprisingly organized with ) and plans and everything's all wrapped up with a bow before sending it to lemon..... who then never goes over all his hard work ( smh )

as for them not hanging out before a job — i think it's honestly a toss up. while they're close and like riffing on each other, they have their respective lives and their own schedule. so i think it just really depends on when / what they're doing when they get handed a job ( which, lets be honest — tangerine's probably the main point of initial contact, and if he isn' then lemon probably passes it to him real quick ).

i am a firm believer that they still watch west ham matches together. it's pretty much their family staple and they're both probably super into it. no i'm not crying thinking about that flashback again, you are.

other than that, though.. i'd like to think they do random shit together because there's no way they live far apart. even if they do then they 100% set aside time just to meet up, hang, prepare for their next job, etc.

thinking of holidays and how it's always an affair, because it's usually spent with family ( found or not / close friends ). not sure if either of them can cook, though. maybe they just do take-out every time. but lemon probably always asks if tangerine's stolen the gift(s) he's given because, y'know, can't gloss over how much of a kleptomaniac tangerine is.

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when tangerine says fuck all he puts his whole damn chest in it

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really do think that tangerine is the definition of someone that can be nice but not kind.

#⁺˚*･༓☾ tangerine ➟ headcanon ☽༓･*˚⁺ #// i.e. every time he spoke to a stranger inquiring about the suitcase for the first time #// vs. how he interacts with lemon (still with much love of course but them fighting words 9.999/10 and.. ladybug as a concept

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TANGERINE VERSES .

BIT THE BULLET ( AND I DON'T RECOMMEND IT ) — POST CANON VERSE 01 .

miraculously outlives the catastrophic train wreck ( literally / barely ) and is reunited with lemon. green lit for more twin shenanigans. 

WHO THE FUCK DOESN’T LOVE LEMONS? — POST CANON VERSE 02 .

the fiji bottle’s drained and the prince actually sticks the landing. lemon doesn’t wake after he’s gunned down ***book spoiler start*** ( stealing the book version where he’s shot in the head ).  ***book spoiler end*** tangerine still miraculously outlives the train wreck, takes lemon’s place by man door hook arming ( aka running over ) the prince with a lemon truck. life.. will never be the same after the place, and people alike, are razed. 

A LOON? I'M MORE FUCKING BATTY THAN ANYTHING — SUPERNATURAL VERSE .

dhampir, same story as post canon verse 01 except — tangerine’s always been a dhampir but the heartache and frenzy over him bleeding out / surviving the entire train crash is still very much there. who knows the extent of which his body will reconstruct itself? lemon sure doesn’t. tangerine doesn’t either, that’s for sure — he’s continuously fucking around and finding out.

#⁺˚*･༓☾ tangerine ➟ headcanon ☽༓･*˚⁺ #// tbh this is so /i/ remember HHWOIHGA bc i always forget verses #* & bit the bullet ( and don't recommend it ) — post canon verse 01 . #* & who the fuck doesn't love lemons? — post canon verse 02 . #* & a loon? i'm more fucking batty than anything — supernatural verse .

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like to bring more attention to a little something. while tangerine and lemon are noted for combat proficiency and expert marksmanship — they’re also abhorrently good at manipulating the environment around them. now i say abhorrently so because of the immense lack of care put into what or who they use in the midst of a fight. 

take the retrieval of the white death’s son from the triad for example. tangerine comes barreling into the cutscene running someone over with a car, goes guns ablazing, machetes to stall, uses a fish hook to kill after taking a split second to look over it like ‘yeah, this’ll do’, utilizes a wheelbarrow to transport the very knocked-out son only to flip it so the kid goes tumbling out to trip one of the 3 ‘assholes with swords’. 

anything and anyone so long as the mission gets done and everyone technically gets out alive.

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