#[lister voice] smegging ptsd yeah?

[giantkillerjack]

I... have deep-fried... my nervous system. I have overdone it today and thus I have done myself a hurt. I am a small zombie of a man. And also I am not a man. I am very very cute and also braincell supplies are running alarmingly low. I have many unread messages. I have autism. I have 6,000 thoughts on Arnold Judas Rimmer and his Longterm Hetero Roommate-ship with Dave Lister.

I am 7/8ths of the way to completely comatose and what remains of my brain is still like "do not worry my dude i will continue to produce images of the old space men kissing.

"I know it feels like the flu wrapped a lemon around a sledgehammer and then artfully rearranged your skull with it but so long as there is a single ounce of life left in this body then by God there will be gay thoughts about chicken soup machine repair man David Lister."

and what I'm saying is I don't understand how the emergency power reserve system ended up this way but I think it is also keeping me sane in Deep Space

#red dwarf #rimster #original #oof ow my bones #[lister voice] smegging ptsd yeah? #chronic pain #fibromyalgia #or whatever the fuck #i joke but this is actually a vital emergency system #if the tism has something to hold onto it suffuses me with a steady will to live. #i have several things in my life that give me that thankfully but the point remains #the autistic hyperfocus was the worst thing to lose when i was sick and the most precious thing I've ever gotten back #there was a time when i was afraid it wouldn't grow back. but as i healed it started to #grow back that is. different. eventually stronger even. #so at least if i feel like a wet paper towel post hurricane i have these little tethers to joy #what I'm saying is i need to think about evil fishnets Rimmer as a mental health concern. #sir that is my emotional support problematic sci fi show #urgh i am too ouch to sleep to tired to awake someone put me in stasisssss