#=otherwise being delirious and getting psychically assaulted and shouting his head off

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[Lio] It’s also. Can I say? Brain? It’s also so fucking rude that every time we are going through it and someone new gets plucked out of the primordial darkness to “handle it” that they are then blasted with the full 1000% raw fucking bad vibes energy and the rest of us just have to witness that (which also hits us with it residually), none of us can do fuckall about it, and then spoilers: that is Too Much for them to handle and we have to not only deal with the same fucking situation still, but also a brand new fucked up guy who had no say in whether or not they fucking Exist On This Planet. Like even babies are like. They have a chance to gradually cope with things. But new bastards in ye olde Crossroads? Get blasted with beam of fucking psychic evisceration the moment you start existing and then you look around and see a handful of chucklefucks who have gone through this same fucking traumatic brain-hazing and it’s like. Ok! Why is literally nothing fixed by this series of events

#liolog #=I want you all to understand that headspace has been full of Screaming. for like. Days. #=Not random fearful screaming I mean like Angry Guy In A Song screaming. that guttural but melodic rage type screaming #=on account of the guy that the Brain decided to try to mop up its emotional mess with is A Fucking Bard #=whose power comes from His Fucking Voice like that’s his Instrument he’s a fucking Whispers bard #=and in his defense I do not believe that he actually has much power over this turn of events I think he’s being just bombarded with #our brain’s introductory fucking excruciating psychic beams #=so he’s just mostly been inside of like a fucking. storm bubble? emotional Hell bubble? being only maybe 25% aware of anything and #=otherwise being delirious and getting psychically assaulted and shouting his head off #=which anyone even a little bit near front can hear very fucking loudly #=he’s become more aware recently from what I can tell but like also. still suffering. at this point it’s like. ok. is this necessary? #=can we not just watch some funny YouTube and then go to bed and go to work tomorrow? #=can we not just dissociate or something? must it be this. must this new guy be tortured by our malfunctioning emotional processes #=for like days straight #=like come ON brain you have to know this won’t work right. #=you are filling a bucket with water and the bucket has holes in it. like you get that right #=anyways. we’re very tired. I feel bad for the new guy. I literally cannot do anything about this. #=except wait for it to either pass or like. idk we dissociate enough that we don’t feel it anymore or something