#<- I am coping 👍👍👍

[riverbeatsaber]

Hello all! Here's a Stormlight Archive observation I'd like to share. Shallan's coping mechanisms are not:

❌ Veil

❌ Radiant

Veil, Radiant, and headmates in general are actually people! How would you feel if someone called you a coping mechanism or an unhealthy coping mechanism, or implied or outright said that you were not real? Yes, Veil and Radiant are characters, but there are also systems who exist in real life and can hear how you talk about them.*

To be fair, I know that for the first two books, Brandon Sanderson himself was not writing Radiant and Veil as their own people, and there is an argument to be made that he never fully pivoted away from that, but I believe/hope that we as a fandom can do better than him.

In addition, what Shallan's coping mechanisms are, from my observation:

Drawing, to distract herself from things that are stressing her out.

Being a scholar, especially in the earlier books.

Dissociation, which, interestingly, in the flashback chapters seems to be fully blanking out for a while, and in current time is written more as active repression (maybe so that Shallan can just decide not to repress her memories and achieve Character Development more easily? Not sure.)

This is kinda a sneak peak of a giant character analysis of Shallan that I've been doing for a while. I got stuck writing down quotes in Oathbringer, but I've been picking it up again recently. I hope to be posting more thoughts from that in the future:]

*I am the host of one of those systems who see y'all posting. just to make it clear

#stormlight archive #the stormlight archive #shallan #shallan davar #veil #veil stormlight archive #radiant #radiant stormlight archive #stormlight archive meta #shallanalysis #my posts #cosmere #brandon sanderson #Raven #Whew. i think that's all the tags #also a note: alcohol consumption is not one of Shallan's coping mechanisms- it's Veil's. #they're different characters. as previously mentioned #also I really hope that this sounds informative rather than guilt-trippy. #I did have a couple people review it though and they said it was good. so I am posting this 👍

[ryonello]

valorant catgirls on the brain again .... fade this time :3

#fade #valorant #hazal eyletmez #sorry for no art for a while ! i have been um . going thru it #this month has been the worst for a long time i am having a lot of SHit Happen ALL AT ONCE but i keep trucking #🥺👍 #my car kaboomed . and i need to buy a new one . and everything costs so much #+other financial shit happening BUT ITS FINE BC I HAVE A BUNCH OF CONS NEXT MONTH #i am goign to be exhausted but i am going to be okay . staying strong staying positive crying a lot but thats fine it is like that sometimes #hope life is treating yall better than me rn <3 #sorry for spontaneous vent in tags on unrelated art oops #anyway ! :D #i will be at adelaide ozcc next weekend / melbozcc the following weekend / sydnova the weekend after that ! #ALSO super lookign forward to smash and avcon in july !!!! will have new merch for them if they arrive in time :] #but yes . back to binging totk to cope :] maybe new link art when i have free time again i love him so fuckign much its insane #mwah #my art

[chernabogs]

VIL... HELLO????

#SHAFTLANDS EVENT SHAFTLANDS EVENT YESSSSSSSS #GIVE ME ERIC VENUE PLEASE I AM BEGGING U TWST #vil schoenheit #CURRRNTLY INCOHERENT CURRENTLY INACCESSIBLE IN MY BRAIN #idt u understand if i saw someone like this walk in my vicinity i'd be so intimidated and awed #could not cope 👍

[kumamooko]

More wedding Cole!! Now with the veil!

#busy with school so now I am coping with Cole 👍 #so yeah!! yeahhh #ninjago #ninjago fanart #cole hence #kuma works

[tomfrogisblue]

everytime I open my phone to do my little qsmp social media enjoying, I am hit in the face with three (3) new weird pieces of bullshit

#like what the fuck has this year even been #we only three months in and two creators have been outright removed and the QSMP is practically on pause rn due to shattered management #nevermind the other assorted creator fuckery #WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNN THE UNION ONLY CONTACTED HIM VIA CALLOUT POST ON TWITTER #I just like minecraft and the funny little gay rolepay cubitos - why must I also go through The Horrors on a weekly basis #admingate #qsmp #four of my fav admins are gone. so far. and i am coping via joining my fellow ghosties to bully bad in hollow knight 👍

[thewickerking]

prev post is kind of nothing. I don't really care i just need to post and talk or do something anything at all or I will implode. And erm. I was gonna draw but I can't find a single fucking pencil in my room and it's pissing me off

#tbh with you all. im having a really bad time rn. but i am utilizing outlets and coping. but its really bad. but im okay 👍 #.ares

[totopopopo]

I stayed up until 2:30am tonight for absolutely no other reason than to just have some time for myself but now I’m like deliriously tired and still burnt out and annoyed. Also I just finished watching joker (2019) for the first time 👹 i see it as a metaphor you see …………. Sucks up my cigarette directly into my trachea and dies

#I’m so tired what the fuck am I even saying. #anyways interesting movie and hashtag relatable in the first part like yeah me too. #I am payed not a lot of money to have a bunch of very mean teenage boys abuse me all day with their mean words #but unlike the joker I just cope by going home and eating tacos 👍

[thecrimeofmans-laughter]

sprinkle some bread crumbs out for him :(

(i know in the book he is described as tall and angular, but my brain is stupid and imagined him with a generally rounder face. so here is that)

#unnamed friend.jpg #i read That Scene a few hours ago and am still really really sad so this is how i cope :(((( #also i say ''sketch'' but my quick sketches always become 3 hour long affairs where i can't draw characters consistently the same 👍 awesome #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #sejanus plinth

[detentiontrack]

I have only eaten yogurt, boxed mac and cheese, and microwave meals the last 3 days

#I have not eaten any vegetables #but I did put frozen fruit on my dinner yogurt #so maybe I won’t die of nutritional deficiencies #I’m coping really well with this breakup. I am still a functional adult 👍

[pawnguild]

wake up to like posts at a rate Unbecoming of someone with the world's worst headache 🥴

#mars.txt #sorry. mass-liking is my coping mechanism (and i am filling my queue 👍) #if there was a time for that “dead man laying on the ground” emoji it would be now

[lemonteeths]

i am now 20 years old

#[pukes] #the passage of time .... good god #i cant cope w it #the good thing is i am drowning in work so i wont have much time to dwell on it 😀👍 #lemontxt #FOR THE RECORD: this isnt about me getting older as much as it is about me wasting time #i dont care about getting older. the alternative is dying

[petrodragonicapocalypse]

thank you leo intrasport for the YOU DIED. love this band the g[GUNSHOT]

#post gig i am feeling nornmal and coping fine👍 #has anyone here heard of this amborse guy. hes weird #the murlocs #ambrose kenny smith #my posts #flashing images #flashing gif

[pepprs]

girls who slam themselves in the 3x meta psychic prison. mutuals my mother straight up does not love or see or understand me and never did. when the pain is unending 😍

​ok yeah. i wasn’t going to write about it bc it’s deeply embarrsssing on multiple levels but like. i watched the childhood video tapes. except i couldn’t get the one from the first 2 months of my sister’s and my life(s) to work so i watched one from when we were 4 and our brother was less than a year old. and mutuals… in SO many of the clips she’s filming him and only him trying to get him to bounce and shit snd i ask for her to turn the camera on me so she can see me dancing or i can show her the picture i drew for her or ask her a question or share a thought and like… yes i was an annoying feisty bossy attention seeking 4 year old with a horrible bowl cut. but i was 4. and i just wanted my mom to listen to me and look at me. and she was dismissive to me in the videos like not outright cruel but exasperated with me for constantly trying to stick my head into the shot and asking for her attention. and when she would say “not now tess” or “tess you’re blocking him” etc etc i apologized for it and that part was sad too. idk. all of it was sad. i knew watching this shit that i was probably gonna stir stuff up which would be dangerous esp bc i don’t have therapy until the end of the month and i did stir things up just in watching the documented footage of it. i wish it was safe to post some of it on here bc it’s genuinely… like i feel like i don’t get to say it was sad bc i was being annoying and attention seeking but it’s sad.

on top of that.. i couldn’t get the vcr to play shit on my laptop bc i didn’t have the right equipment for it so i had to play it on the tv. and my whole family eventually caught on to me watching it and have watched clips of it with me now. and that’s just so complicated. bc they’re all adding their commentary about it too and im letting them and inviting them bc i don’t know how to set boundaries. and my mom… god. my mom is DOUBLING DOWN on exactly the same stuff she said in the video when we were FOUR YEARS OLD. saying that my sister and i got to be filmed so much when we were babies and now it’s our brother’s turn. and i get that. i really do. i know i got attention when i was a baby and i can’t deny that. i know it wouldn’t have been fair or healthy or whatever to neglect him in favor of me / us. but also… i was FOUR!!!!! i was too little to understand what the politics of attention meant. and it just kind of fucking sucks that she’s holding that against me NOW too (as she said multiple times today / tonight) like saying scornfully that i was always so jealous of him and she doesn’t understand why i needed attention so badly since i never had undivided attention in the first place as a twin. like… i was a little kid. what did you expect me to do just like magically not need attention anymore and understand that the baby gets all the attention and go busy myself somewhere. idk. i feel entitled / selfish for saying it WHICH IS THE WHOLE PROBLEM like that video tape literally documents whatever mental issues i have now emerging… like me learning that i wasn’t important anymore and that when i sought attention i was just getting in the way and being annoying. lol

AND…. on top of all of this… sitting down with my mom and siblings and showing the videos and laughing over it and inviting their laughter even though it hurts to watch and it hurts to laugh at it and to hear them laughing… my mom’s focus in WATCHING these videos 20 years later is almost ENTIRELY on my brother!!!!!!! STILL!!!!! like the whole reason i had the clips i had was to… idk. trace the genesis of my mental illness and she wasn’t even paying attention to that she was just cooing over my brother. and when i told her why i was watching these / attempted to point out the patterns she got exasperated with me for overanalyzing everyrhing and navel gazing etc etc to an unhealthy degree. i fucking give up lol

it feels stupid selfish etc etc to be spiraling abt this and i usually don’t make long multi paragraph posts but like. god. this was a mistake. i never should’ve done this. it happened with the whole coming out day snapchat story thing too among other episodes. every time i dig up a thing from the past that she did that hurt me and try to explain it in retrospect she never changes her tune or comforts me or expresses any understanding or anything. she just doubles down on what she said / did before that hurt me so bad and it hurts me all over again. it could’ve been so much worse and the experience of adjusting to having a new sibling is universal and not a big deal in the slightest but it was a big deal for me. i so clearly took it hard and needed attention from my fucking mom!!! and that wound is still raw and now ive ripped it wide open again. scared little girl moment

#purrs #delete later #like. i think the worst part is just… there is no one coming to save me. i am never ever ever going to get the comfort i needed back. it can #only come from a parent and both of my parents are emotionally unavailable and think im being ridiculous. and now i am an adult and im #supposed to be able to comfort myself or not even need comfort at all but i just need a hug. i can’t comfort myself out of this. no one i #know now or will ever know in the future can comfort me out of this. it has to come from a parent and mine don’t understand. so im just #in the psychic prison. like what a spectacular failure that just was. tfw you are denied catharsis from one of the most consistent painful #threads of your life and you have to cope with that but you have 1.5 hrs of podcasts to listen to and a 3 page paper to write and #work tomorrow and no therapy until late september 😻👍

[slime-crafters]

Every time I feel smart, I go into a totk shrine and every time I feel dumb, I go into a totk shrine

#tears of the kingdom #loz totk #video games #gaming #i'm grinding out shrines rn bruh #next tag is minor spoilers #i love how you can just nope out of the yiga boss fight like. oops sorry i forgor about this super important quest sozz #but like. good luck with coping about the fact i am the Chosen One ig... 👍 #but like. i love and hate how they drop you into shrines with NO explanation #and i thought botw was bad at that 😭 #i'm not complaining because so far they aren't horrifically egregious #but they really do just let you do whatever #i feel like if i were a game dev making a game this huge i'd love seeing how fans use the game to get weird results #like how i make Super Long Sticks that are Too Fucking Long to be Reasonable #or just... people being creative about how they solve puzzles. like that shit is FASCINATING

[moe-broey]

Boots :)

Another Started As A Test Subject and now they're literally the only thing I ever fucking wear. Idk how well it shows in the pics but they are badly cracked and have been worn into the ground but like. Shoe comfy :(

Also the wings are a new addition! The inner ones slap against each other. Doesn't really bother me personally though so I'm keeping them as is 😅 Oh, and the laces are paracord!

#funnily enough these are also something i got at the beginning of my transition thinking 'oh yeah this is masc. surely.' #final tangent but this is why insane fucking terfs/transphobes who are like #'noooo don't transition what about our butches what about our tomboy gfs :((((' #i was literally never either of those things. #they are all so stupid 🥲 (for. a lot of very obvious reasons LMFAOO but specifically for that as well.) #but yeah i literally used fashion and artsy self expression as a way to cope LMFAOOO #and as a way to draw attention away from myself. despite. drawing SO much attention to myself. #seems counter intuitive and i won't argue w you there LMAOO it was to sort of just. be like. #look at my cute outfit :) don't. don't even think about the guy underneath them. #AND it was ALSO the only way i could somehow feel some semblance of self. cause i did truly love what i'd wear #and then i'd wonder why i'd break down crying at the thought of what i am without those clothes. #just? a girl? the idea gutted me and made me want to tear my skin off with my nails and teeth #but like. i'm sure this has zero implications about me. who i am. ect. and has nothing to do w trans thoughts i had in middle school. #time to pick a perfect outfit and get a good grade in Girl™ 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊 #nowadays i just wake up put on a band tee and i'm just some guy. forever and always. it's so fucking cool #literally does not matter if it's a pants day or a shorts and tights day i'm just some guy. it's so fucking awesome 😎👍 #for real even though i do still struggle w dysphoria some days worse than others i am so at peace. #i just wish everyone saw me the way i do. i literally cannot comprehend how anyone looks at me and goes #'ah....... a woman.' like. dude. for real? what are you seeing that i don't. #like bro!!! way not cool!!!! lame ass motherfucker!!!! #<- GSJSGSJ WAIT WHEN DID I USE THIS TAG BEFORE LMFAOO?? IT'S. SO FITTING HERE HAHAHAHA #anyways i was gonna say idk if i saw a motherfucker who's clearly striving for some androgyny #and a sick ass mullet no matter what immediately registers in my mind that i may have to correct later #i'm just. going to assume. they are some type of queer. and i am avoiding pronouns/gendered language #til they tell me 'oh yeah i'm :) and my pronouns are :)' and i'd adjust accordingly. #like idk that's so normal to me. what's not clicking for literally everyone else. #UGH ANYWAY i've been ranting and infodumping way too long i wanna get ready for bed now LMFAO #also if at any point you've looked at these pics and thought 'damn bitch you live like this' #yes. i know. i'm aware. i do live like this LMFAO 🫡😔 #my projects

[toastsnaffler]

coming to terms with having adhd is like wow so my brain has been broken all my fucking life and always will be. and when I felt like everything was unfair + more difficult for me than everyone else thats because it is actually. and it will always be like this forever. hope that helps 👍

#and also all my concerns abt being high risk for substance abuse + self harm + suicide are now statistically proven 👍 #not to mention risks of debt/houselessness + the whole spectrum of attachment/relationship issues etcetera #the likelihood of me having adhd is inescapable theres too much evidence for it. but I cant even think abt it without having a breakdown #my execution function hasn't been functioning for weeks and I'm so fucking tired I just want to be able to do shit. please #also so sick of ppl being like oh adhd is so fun it means youre more creative + energetic haha 🤪 whenever I try to talk abt it #like actually not to be a downer but its ruining my fucking life. its not some 'superpower' or coveted quirk. kindly shut the fuck up #maybe it would just be a fun different type of brain if society was structured differently. but its not! so it will always be a hindrance #I think I need to try and find a therapist to see who specialises in or has experience w adhd bc I am rly not coping right now lmfao #just so I can wrap my head around this. and figure out how to get my shit together and function as a member of society #anyway. sorry. #.vent #oddly this is very specific to adhd. when i think abt the fact i likely have autism im like hell yeah that rules B^)