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daniel, be nice, simon only LOOKS like he would kill you!

i wanted them to meet, i don't care about time period differences, just pretend daniel went through a rift somehow lmao

#amnesia the dark descent #soma #frictional games #soma game #daniel of mayfair #simon jarrett #fan art #shit post o'clock #sketches

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You know what people don’t talk about often enough? Playing catch up in life after spending your teens or early 20s suicidally depressed. There’s so many more layers than just being able to say “I don’t want to die anymore.”

The difficulty in academia or a career after spending years thinking you wouldn’t be alive long enough for any of it to matter.

The exhaustion that comes from self awareness and self soothing, with the constant voice in your head saying “don’t go backwards.”

How lonely it is to watch the people your age starting families when you’re just barely learning what stable relationships are, and the sudden societal pressure of being “up against a clock” for these kinds of things.

The judgement from others if you change your image or interests this late in the game just because you finally figured out who you really are under the demons.

Be kind to those who are developing and blooming after years of not planning on being here long. We are living a life we absolutely didn’t think we’d have, and it’s hard enough without society reminding us there’s expectations of our age.

We didn’t get to be young; we were too busy fighting battles few know.

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if you've never engaged with a creative art on a regular basis you need to understand that it requires concerted effort to get into "the groove" to make something and every second that it takes to get into that groove causes physical pain, but the only thing worse than doing it is not doing it.

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i am completely convinced that henri has it the worst of all the amnesia protagonists and by that i mean he has no redemption, he has no time to grieve, he has no explanation for what's going on and realistically, he is dead after the ending of the game with not a single soul to explain what happened inside that bunker. an unknown tragedy.

daniel and oswald eventually remember all about finding their orbs and the alien power that brought upon them. the shadow, vitae and the rituals were all explained to daniel and he remmbers them. the visions of the future and what oswald did with that knowledge comes back to him. the two get to remember what happened as they'd already had time to come to terms with it and get their redemption once they've been through the amnesia process and had the time to grieve what they did in the past. they to make a conscious choice in their endings too. oswald puts an end to the machine and his own suffering and it's his choice. daniel gets to take down alexander (with or without agrippa) or can choose to let alex complete his goal; even if it means his own sacrifice, daniel chooses his ending.

tasi and the rest of her crew all have a run in with tihana and the other world directly and by the time she gets to make the choice for her ending, she remembers everything and sees the consequences of her actions. given tasi hasn't actually done anything wrong and whose whole story revolves around being a grieving mother, she gets to slowly remember that as she's transforming and come to a newly informed conclusion where she, once again, chooses her outcome. she either sacrifices herself and/or her baby or she takes a risk despite knowing the consequences but the important part is she chooses it.

and what's so special about the three of them is that their choice has an impact on the world past their short lifespans. (going off the "true" endings) daniel calming the shadow, oswald destroying the machine and stopping the massacre, tasi destroying tihana's reign.

justine.... uh, justine is her own situation. she's just living her best life. she has nothing to do with the other world anyway, she really is just thriving. good for her.

henri though? he is never granted that. we don't know exactly when he went into the bunker or what involvement he had with the roman tunnels, but given we get no comments from either him or augustin about the strange events that happened in there, i don't believe either of them were aware. they're in a warzone, it's not uncommon for men to lose their minds and start seeing/hearing strange things. even hearing stories of the tunnels, it's easy to just believe that everyone i just superstitious. all henri knows is he's fighting a war, one day his best friend nearly died on a patrol and then somehow he miraculously survived and ended up back at the bunker. the man has amnesia caused by severe head trauma, that's a damn hefty thing to deal with already. severe head trauma, being in a coma for at least a week or two, probable concussions, retrograde amnesia hell even the fact he doesn't speak throughout the game might indicate aphasia. henri was not present for the tunnels incident not augustin's transformation so he did not already have the time to process and grieve it all. he finds things out by piecing together other people's journals but may not even have much time to do so as he's constantly under threat during the entire game. worse still, this creature that has no earthly explanation is hunting him and then when he reaches the tunnels for himself he suddenly sees floating rocks and visions so that's a whole other things for him to process. he has no idea what the other world is, what the harvesters are or why the harvesters exist. and once he escapes the bunker, he's not even given 10 seconds to breathe before he's at best captures and at most realistically killed by german soldiers who even if they could communicate with each other, would NEVER believe the insane story henri only had a fraction of information about of what happened down there. his death wouldn't affect anything and after the true ending, nobody would even have known he just stopped an almost immortal horror from massacring entire armies. there is no redemption to be had, there is no grieving, there is no rationalising what happened, it's just pure and constant terror.

#🥲🥲🥲🥲 #poor poor henri #this is really well said #him dying an ultimately 'meaningless' death like this fits well with the games anti war vibe too #at the end of the day he's just another soldier gunned down that no one will know the deeper story of ☹️☹️☹️ #really great stuff op #amnesia the bunker #henri clément

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oh GIRL when multiple plotlines are filmed to suggest that they're unfolding simultaneously and characters are racing against time to accomplish urgent objectives before the clock runs out but then with a twist it's revealed that what you thought was the present is actually the past and the outcome was decided long ago......

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you cannot headcanon your way out of overt thematic structures on which the entire narrative is built

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I think being a shapeshifter would fix me

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god people have always been people. victorian noblewomen stubbed their toes and swore about it. medieval peasants ripped hangnails a little too hard and sucked on it to make it better. cavemen put kids on their shoulders so the kids could get their handprints up on the wall. someone in the 1760s played with their dog and someone in the 1340s dragged themself out of bed at some unholy hour of the morning to soothe a crying baby and someone in the 1550s stuck a flower behind their lovers ear. I'm gonna be sick people have always been people

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simon model is done.........

#soma #simon jarrett #super cool 😲

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art is about spending an embarrassing amount of time trying to get something to look right giving up and then moving on to do it slightly better next time. at some point if you're an exhibitionist you then post it for internet strangers to look at.

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Same shit, different flavors.

#LOL #blue beetle #venom

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there is so much intimacy in creating something together

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Vibes are off

(the vibes are completely normal but I am overstimulated)

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a post-doc was doing a guest seminar at my institute and at the beginning of his presentation he was explaining why he chose birds for his evolutionary analysis - so he said "well first of all, because birds are the best and most interesting animals and it's fun to study them" and a few professors in the room gave him a very serious nod

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Mods are asleep post Keith Haring DJ Dog

#keith haring #😭😭😭

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the frog in my weather app is sunbathing today, i'm gonna cry 😭💚

#personal #strawberryposting

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little thoughts

I really love being a member of a dying fandom. Like you know it but you can't leave because it's kind of a part of your childhood and your whole life. It's like dad's old car. It may not be up to date, it may fall apart right on the road, or it may not start at all, but you can't bear to get rid of it. I'm looking at you, frictional games.

#frictional games #🤧🤧🤧