staymaniacvillians

[staymaniacvillians]

Please read this if you‘re struggling

Warnings: Mentions of Self h@rm, cursing (at dumb people)

Here me out okay? Me, myself an I know how you are feeling because I also went trough som tough shit trust me. And let me tell you: I care. I care for you. You might think I lie but I don’t. Afterall I also went trough something.

Live truly can be a bitch, it‘s like a challenge to some people. Those people cut themselves because most of them think they are useless and just a piece of shit. They call themselves weak, pathetic and stupid for crying or having breakdowns. But do you know what I and some others think?

Exactly that, shows that you are strong. „People don‘t cry because they are weak, it is because they have been strong for too long“ - Johnny Depp

„It’s the game of life. Do I win or do I lose? One day they’re gonna shut the game down. I gotta have as much fun and go around the board as many times as I can before it’s my turn to leave. Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside while still alive. Never surrender. Don’t believe everything you hear. Real eyes realize real lies.“ - 2pac

„Do not judge a person you don’t know. Put yourself in their place and run a mile“ - Me

You deserve love.

Why?

Because the world needs your light. Because we need to see your smile. You deserve it. You do. I don't care if you're black, white, straight, bisexual, gay, lesbian, lgbt+ in general, short, tall, fat, skinny, christ, jew, muslim, rich or poor. If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you. Simple as that.

You can argue with me for as long as you want, but I‘m gonna stand my ground. I simply don’t give a fuck, because if anyone told you otherwise, then they lied. Those are all stories some assholes told you. Don’t waste your time with those people. It‘s their loss. Show them what they lost. ❤️

I‘ll tell you as often as you need. Every week,day,hour or minute. I‘ll repeat it as often as you want. I‘ll say it louder each time until the whole universe hears me. I‘ll be your charger until you are full or for your whole live if you let me and will never regret for doing so. You are deserving of love ❤️

So please, for the love of god and both of our sakes,

Learn to love yourself

Please reblog to blow this up so everyone gets the chance to see this. Thank you and have a nice day/night <3

[staymaniacvillians]

• Chuuya nakahara •

↬comforting him after dazai leaves the port mafia

↬fluff

"Dazai has left the port mafia" 

Your heart sank as you heard those words. Did he really leave? Did he really betray the port mafia? You never expected him out of everyone to leave. All sorts of thoughts flooded your mind but you were more worried about Chuuya. He wouldn't take this well. Even though they argued and fought, you knew Chuuya still cared about Dazai to some extent. Dazai was the one who recruited Chuuya into the port mafia in the first place. You rushed out of your office and went to see Chuuya at his place. 

As you stood outside his apartment you contemplated if you should check on him or not. Why were you even worried? It's not like you guys were dating or anything. You and Chuuya were close but not as much as him and Dazai. You hesitated before knocking on his door. No response. You tried again and this time it opened to reveal a very dishevelled-looking chuuya. His hair was all messed up, sticking out in every direction. He looked like he had been drinking. 

"Why are you here?" He asked, sounding rather annoyed but he still let you inside his apartment and walked over to his couch. 

"I was worried..." You say as you follow him. 

There was a half-empty bottle of wine on the table. Chuuya sighs deeply as he sits down on the couch. 

"You don't have to worry about me."  He mumbled and picked up the wine bottle.

"about dazai leaving.." you started but he cut you off

"I don't want to talk about that idiot" he snapped and took a sip from the bottle.

You frowned but decided to ignore it and sat on the couch next to him. 

"I know you're upset.." you say as you fidget with your fingers, feeling somewhat awkward. 

"I don't care about that asshole...he left the port mafia, he left you and me..," he said as he took another sip from his bottle. Your frown deepens as he continues to drink. 

"chuuya stop drinking" you said and grabbed the bottle from him. The ginger glared at you but didn't fight back. 

"you're drunk" you added as you kept the bottle back on the table. 

Chuuya leaned back on the couch and he sighed. You decided to get some water for him so you stood up but he pulled you down. 

"don't leave, just..stay here," Chuuya said and he wrapped an arm around you. Your eyes widened as he pulled you onto his lap. He was drunk. His face was so close to yours. You could feel his warm breath against you. You swallowed thickly.

"chuuya...." You whispered trying to pry his hand off of your waist. But his grip only tightened.

"don't go" he pleaded

"chuuya I was going to get water for-" Before you could say anything he cut you off

"No I don't need anything..just you"  he said and rested his head in the crook of your neck.

Your heart raced as he nuzzled into your skin. You felt your blush spread all over your face but you couldn’t help it. He was being too cuddly. This wasn't like chuuya at all. You chalked it up to him just being drunk because of all the wine he had. 

#chuuya nakahara #bungo stray dogs x reader #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #chuuya x reader #port mafia #bungou stray dogs chuuya #bungou stray dogs dazai #chuuya fluff

[staymaniacvillians]

•°✦Dress✦°•

↬ɴᴀᴋᴀʜᴀʀᴀ ᴄʜᴜᴜʏᴀ // bungo stray dogs

↬𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒔

"Please come with me" you pleaded

You were asking your boyfriend to accompany you to shop for a dress. The port mafia was organizing a function and you urgently needed a dress for the function by tomorrow. Your friend was unavailable so you had no other choice than to ask your boyfriend, chuuya to accompany you. He didn’t seem too thrilled about it but agreed nonetheless and the two of you left your apartment.

.

.

.

"chuuya, do you like this or this?" you asked while showing him two dresses.

One dress was a wine-coloured, sleeveless dress and the other was a short blue bodycon dress. Chuuya looked up at you from his phone. He thought for a moment before responding, "the wine coloured one"

"okay I'll go try it on"

You walked towards the dressing rooms and pulled Chuuya with you even though he was protesting. The shop was pretty much empty since it was morning. There was no one near the changing rooms so you told Chuuya to wait in front of one of the rooms.

After you put the dress on you turned around to look at yourself in the mirror. The dress looked really good against your skin tone and the wine-coloured dress hugged your curves perfectly. You were still nervous because it's been a while since you last wore a dress like this. It was a little revealing for you.

So you decided to ask Chuuya what he thought about this dress. You peeked outside the room, looking for Chuuya. He seemed busy on a call. Probably one of the mafia members called him.

"chuuya please can you see if this dress is okay?" You called out to him.

He mouthed 'one minute' as he was on a call but you pulled him inside the changing room anyway.

"I told you-" he was about to tell you off but paused when he saw you in the dress. His eyes widened and you could almost swear that there was a hint of blush forming on his face. He was mesmerized.

.

.

.

"chuuya sir are you there?" the voice on the other end asked.

"y-yes uh I'll call you back" he said before quickly hanging up the call.

"Is this fine? do I look bad?" you asked him as he wasn't saying anything. He was just staring at you.

Chuuya was speechless. His mouth opened and closed a couple of times, seemingly lost for words. He took a step towards you and grabbed both of your shoulders tightly.

"you look so fucking beautiful" he finally said and you knew that he meant every single word.

You couldn‘t help but smile widely.

Chuuya stared into your eyes for longer than usual before finally letting go of you.

"Isn't it too revealing?" you ask nervously

"not at all..you look so pretty darling," he said softly and placed a kiss on your forehead.

.

.

.

"chuuya I'm ready let's go" you said stepping into the living room.

Chuuya was drinking some wine while waiting for you. He placed the wine on the counter and walked over towards you.

"you look so stunning" he commented while spinning you around, making you blush.

"aww thanks chuuya, you look handsome too," you told him while admiring your boyfriend's outfit.

He was wearing a white button-down shirt, black blazer, his choker and of course his pretty hat with chain. It suited his sharp personality, his whole outfit made him look very confident and sophisticated. He looked absolutely handsome.

.

.

.

After you reached the venue, you and Chuuya went to your respective group of friends for some time. Chuuya was talking to Lippmann (let's just imagine that the flags are alive) and you were talking to Gin. A few minutes into the party you heard a huge crash coming from behind you. It sounded like someone was flung across the room.

You turned around to see some new mafia member on the floor and Chuuya was standing in front of him. Chuuya held his collar and picked him up. He struggled to free himself and was trying to kick Chuuya away.

"Not again.." you sighed and ran forward and tried to calm Chuuya down.

"stop," you told him but he shook off your grip and hit the guy again.

"Chuuya I said stop!" you yelled at him and he threw the guy back down on the group.

Now everyone's attention was on the three of you. Some people whispered things to each other while others were staring intently. You could feel the tension rising.

You pulled Chuuya outside before he could say anything else. You gave Gin and his other friends an apologetic look. Gin just gave you a small nod and the others simply smiled at you reassuringly.

.

.

You walked outside with Chuuya in silence. The night air felt nice on your warm skin. You breathed deeply to clear your mind before turning to Chuuya. You were a little upset at him.

"Chuuya what the hell was that? You have to learn how to control your temper" You raised your voice a little

"Please shut up," he said frustratedly and kicked a stone on the sidewalk.

His anger wasn't directed at you, but at himself for getting so worked up again.

"chuuya-" he began but he cut you off

"Just shut up" he yelled at you angrily.

This was probably the first time that you’ve heard him shout at you like this. Although he was short-tempered, it was rare that he ever got angry at you. However, he soon regretted yelling at you when he saw your face. He realised he messed up. He wanted to apologize but didn't know what exactly to say. You're mad and rightfully so. You weren't wrong in calling him out like that.

"I'm going home," you said coldly after a long silence.

.

.

.

You were going to leave with gin but Chuuya didn't let you. He felt guilty for yelling at you but didn't know what to say. You weren't talking to him at least not for now. The ride back home was extremely silent with you being more silent than usual. After reaching home you walked to the kitchen counter to get a glass of water. Chuuya followed you inside, locking the main door.

Suddenly you felt two pairs of hands around your waist. It was Chuuya's. He turned you around to face him and pushed you against the counter, his body pressing against yours. You were frozen in place. Your heart was beating so fast. He leaned close to your ear to whisper "Sorry"

Your lips parted slightly and your breath hitched in your throat as Chuuya kissed your neck gently. Your head was spinning and your knees felt weak.

"Sorry," he kept repeating again and again while leaving a trail of wet kisses down your neck.

You felt his tongue grazing over your sensitive skin. Your breathing became ragged and you gripped onto his shirt tightly.

"chuuya.." you managed to get out.

He stopped kissing you and moved closer, brushing his nose against yours. His breath mingled with yours and you inhaled sharply in response. You were about to speak again but he silenced you. He pressed his lips firmly against yours and pulled you against him. Your heart started beating faster again, this time it wasn't because of his soft kisses.

His hands went down to your dress as he started pushing it upwards slowly. You could feel his hands sliding underneath the dress and running along your thighs. His hands clenched around your flesh a little tighter. You whimpered quietly at the sudden feeling of his hands on your exposed skin, it sent a shiver through your whole body.

"c-chuuya I'm s-still m-mad at you" you said in between the kisses

"I'm sorry" he pulled away and you stared into his eyes. You could see the regret in his eyes.

"I don’t want you to be upset with me...I promise I will try to control my temper... please...darling I love you so much.." he begged you to forgive him.

"fine.." you smiled and kissed him on the lips.

He lifted you and placed you on the counter. The items on the counter fell onto the ground but you didn't care, you just wanted to feel his warmth on your skin right now. You wrapped your legs around his waist as he pushed your dress up even further.

"you look so pretty princess... but I bet you'll look even prettier with it off" he smirked playfully as he looked at you.

"no, I don't" You felt a blush creep up your cheeks and you buried your head in the crook of his neck. You could feel his chuckle reverberate through his chest.

"hmm..then let me prove it to you," he said and held your chin, making you look at him.

His lips met yours passionately once again. He slowly pulled the straps of your dress down while kissing you. You shivered a bit when the cool air hit your bare skin as you weren't wearing a bra. This type of dress didn't require one. He began trailing kisses down your neck to your chest while saying how much he loved everything about you. You felt so comfortable with him that you forgot everything that happened earlier.

His touch sent waves of pleasure throughout your entire body and you felt yourself melt under him. Your arms had found their way under his shirt, grazing across his abs making him suck in a sharp breath. His hands were resting on your hips as he continued trailing kisses down your chest.

"so pretty" he whispered in your ears while you blushed.

He laid you gently on the counter and kissed you again. Chuuya was lying on top of you and continued to press soft kisses all over your body. His touch was gentle, he seemed to know exactly where to kiss and what to do. Your heart beat rapidly when he kissed your lower abdomen. He continued making his way down your stomach and slowly slid the dress off, letting it drop down to the floor.

He traced his fingers over your thigh lightly. His touches were so soft and loving that your body was shaking from pleasure. Chuuya's hand slowly inched its way up and he started kissing the inside of your thighs. Your whole body was trembling from ecstasy.

"c-chuuya i-i..." you moaned, unable to form any words.

"Shhh..just relax princess" he whispered against your skin.

You closed your eyes as he took the last of the garment. His kisses had grown gentler now and his fingertips grazed your sensitive spot. You couldn't keep your hands still anymore, you were gripping onto the kitchen counter for dear life.

#chuuya nakahara #bungou stray dogs #smut #chuuya x reader #bsd chuuya #chuuya smut #bsd smut #bungo stray dogs x reader #gin bsd #port mafia