stardustemotions

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if we meet, please hold me in your arms until my mask of 'im strong' falls off and my eyes burst in tears.

im holding a lot in me, i might break down in tiny little pieces if you will hug me.

please dont hesitate to collect these pieces.

i have been trying to hold it together from so long, i might shatter.

but if i shatter now, im afraid, ill lose myself.

im afraid, these pieces will be lost,

im afraid if people walk over these pieces.

so im trying to keep myself together.

but with you, i know you will join them back, i trust you my love.

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you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness.

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growing up I was always afraid of being found out. not sure what I was hiding. just my whole self I guess

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a wish

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This void feels eternal.

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All this for what ? Just to leave all things behind and leave.

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When you realize maybe it was that deep.

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And I guess I’ll just miss her, even tho she isn’t even really gone, things are just different.

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Brief pause. I'm walking backward into my own myth. I was trying to walk out.

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i hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face. They don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.

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You still crave lemonade, but the taste doesn't satisfy you as much as it used to. You still crave summer, but sometimes you mean summer, five years ago.

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She didn't sob or wail. Her grief was horribly discreet but as persistent and almost as silent as bleeding from an unstitched wound.

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There are times when I do not choose healing. I'm stubborn. I choose self-destruction instead hoping that I will learn what it's like to have wounds again. And I learn and learn and learn again

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I feel so bad about myself what life is up to ? I’m scared