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"ORPHEUS: Dear Eurydice, I miss you.

No—that's not enough."

- Eurydice, Sarah Ruhl

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moon snail 🌕

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GMMTV 2024 Part 2: Winners and Losers

Losers

GMMTV as a whole by creating shows for ships instead of ships for shows. They really pulled the KristSingto and (seemingly) EstWilliam shows out of their asses just to give these two pairs something to star in. And even to the shows based on works by others, I feel like they looked for ships first, concept second.

Now, that's not to say none of those series will be good. On the contrary, I am highly anticipating Thame-Po, for example. Just that it's not a good way to get the best content. But it makes money and Thailand is a capitalist economy, so I guess that's expected.

Perfect10 Liners. Yawn.

Winners

The Heart Killers. While I'm not sure exactly what the plot is supposed to be, it does seem intriguing and the chemistry between both pairs is off the charts. I don't think I've seen FirstKhao in a more natural posture, and JoongDunk are actually trying to act a little here. I do hope they minimize the comedy aspect (since this seems like a cross between a thriller and a rom-com), but this is gmmtv and it stars JoongDunk alongside a (in my opinion) much more talented pair of actors. It seems that Jojo Tichakorn is at the helm on this one so I am only cautiously anticipating... Lately, Jojo has a habit of literally changing his stories after they've been shot in order to satisfy viewers. He's not as bad as aof who takes edgy concepts and makes them boring, but he's starting to show creativity-stifling behaviors that I don't appreciate.

Sweet Tooth, Good Dentist. I really hope GMMTV does two things with this script: 1) condense the backstory of how they got together and focus on the vlogger/food review couple aspect, and 2) give their relationship an obstacle that will be difficult to surmount in the present timeline.

I will say, this storyline is not new at all, but it helps a lot that Mark and Ohm's chemistry is unique among the GMMTV lineup, they look INSANE together, and they're both improving as actors with each role.

Thame-Po Heart That Skips A Beat. I honestly thought WilliamEst was just in everyone's imagination because I literally have not seen any content of them. But then...OH BOY BUT THEN...the Thame-Po trailer dropped!

I usually hate to see singers in acting roles because usually either the talent or the passion (or both) is lacking. But William seemed competent in the trailer. It helps that the storyline is just his regular life with a few curveballs thrown in, but it works well enough.

And then Est...oh boy EST. He really shocked me in this trailer. Not only is he portraying a wide range of emotions through his eyes quite well, but he's also doing an excellent job at playing off of William. He is my favorite part of the trailer and makes me wonder what he'd be like next to a more seasoned actor. (Nothing against William, of course).

To address the elephant in the room: I think most people were expecting a traditional seme-uke type of pairing with Est being seme-coded. But I like the fact that they didn't really code the story in this way.

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A BLURRED LOVE

Into One Another III, To PPP,  Berlinde De Bruyckere (2010) / Hysterics of Love, Eric Fischl (1997) / We Are All Flesh, Berlinde De Bruyckere (2009)

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Death is temporary. I’ll love you forever. LISA FRANKENSTEIN (2024) dir. Zelda Williams

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I'm as happy as they are 💜🥹💜

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look im sure someone else is going to write super beautifully about love for love's sake. going to interpret the symbols and colours and themes. i just can't get over how much it hurt.

i'm reading a book called eros the bittersweet by anne carson right now. and it's about exactly what the title says, a look at how romantic love is both bitter and sweet. and god this show is just all of that. the show itself felt like a love story to being alive. that life is bitter and sweet and it's hard to choose and keep choosing but it's the only way.

it's so complicated to see tae myungha be happy and depressed and be dead and be trying to live. it feels too close.

to see him see himself in cha yeowoon and for the watcher to see themselves in tae myungha. it's so easy to root for another person's life. so much harder (when you're depressed) to do the same for your own.

i don't think i'm ever getting over sangwon (and for it to be sangwon!!! the one who's been actively self destructing but since he's arrogant and hostile about it people have written him off) saying "you don't know how to be loved" to myungha.

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dedicated to / inspired by @blmpff

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dedicated to / inspired by @blmpff

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"i have a pig's brain"

(blood ver. under cut !)

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"I really must say goodnight..."🕯️🕯️

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Regency Period AU! Alex and Henry

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this is literally THE lewdest saint sebastian painting i've seen yet (including contemporary paintings) and it's from 1610

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dkdjsjhshsjsbs i kill you as i cannot have you and what you have so now youre dead and youre mine and everything that is yours are also mine ive swallowed you whole youre inside me youre gone i am you now and i made your blood run cold and then your body has gone cold six feet under im clutching at your headstone with the grief of a man who has destroyed his god and the joy of a moth burned in the blazing flame

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LEE SEUNG GYU & LEE JONG HYUK for GLEAM Magazine, June 2023

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NEW KBL

I noticed that only a handfull of people are talking about this show, it's probably because of the lack of promotion which is unfortunate because it looks promising even the poster looks pretty. I can't wait for the angst this show will bring.

Where to watch: iQIYI

Trailer: https://x.com/iQIYI/status/1719580022124744988?s=20

#a breeze of love #kbl

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ลั่นทม orchestra version where?!?!?

Like where is it genuinely asking. It's been plaguing my brain for weeks months even, I'm literally about to go insane without it. I need to hear the full version for my sanity. Is it out somewhere?

#i feel you linger in the air #ifylita #my brain chemistry was altered #it changed my life #season 2 come quicker #bright and nonkul best actors #ifylita cast best actors

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The way we start the episode, with Yoh in the shirt Segasaki bought for him and obviously coming out to show him, eager to be seen in his new gift and only a little nervous... He's so desperate to be loved.

And Segasaki gives him what Yoh so desperately craves... words of affirmation! And Yoh absolutely lights up. He is desperate for love but he needs that love in the most straightforward words possible or he'll overthink every movement, touch and choice and that seems to be something Segasaki still doesn't recognize. He still, and constantly, tries to show love in every other way besides words.

But this was so good. This showed exactly what Yoh is looking for and that Segasaki can give it. Look at his smile! He lights up like fireworks, so bright and brilliant, just from that tiny little compliment. I am losing my mind over them, okay?

And Segasaki steps in with the order, taking control of the situation and their relationship again... but in the process forcing Yoh to break a promise and putting him a position where he, again, is reminded that he agreed to obey him. Which he might enjoy but because he still doesn't totally believe that Segasaki loves him... well, it's a lot harder.

In which Segasaki gives orders that are about love but because he uses orders without words of affection... Yoh misunderstands and is ashamed instead. I absolutely believe that if Yoh felt loved, he would view all of these orders differently. But he doesn't. Because the one love language he recognizes is the one that Segasaki uses the most sparingly and with the least clarity.

Can I also point out that Segasaki is constantly bathed in light this entire scene, bright and unearthly, while Yoh is very grounded and more in the shadows. It's because Segasaki knows that he loves Yoh and that Yoh cares about him return while Yoh is still confused and unsure about their relationship and how he feels, let alone how Segasaki feels.

Welcome back to 'Yoh desperately wants to be loved and owned exactly as Segasaki is doing it but needs verbal and language-forward confirmation that Segasaki simply doesn't think anyone should need'.

The bright and nearly colorless Segasaski looming over Yoh as he tells his Matsudaira he was ordered to stay home and you can feel his own tension here, between wanting the orders but also that doubt he still has about Segasaki and it's just all so good.

Have I mentioned that Yoh is tiny and adorable and confused and desperate because he is and he breaks my heart. Because he is so loved and he could be so, so happy but the communication barrier between himself and Segasaki is a mile wide and a mile high and neither one of them knows how to scale it. It is especially not helped by the nature of their relationship and what Yoh needs from Segasaki.

Yoh knowing that his friend is a huge fan of Segasaki and that Segasaki will turn on the charm with her in a way he so rarely does with him and the fact that he can't trust that charm. The panic. But also the complete lack of reaction to Segasaki pushing him across the hall. That doesn't bother him at all.

She's more sure about their relationship than Yoh is. I love that.

The isolation that Yoh feels isn't changing. He's still unsure about their relationship or where he stands with Segasaki, insecure and afraid and he still feels like he's always on shaky ground, like Segasaki turns on the charm with everyone but him.

This is what she sees. Not what Yoh sees. And that's where the disconnect lies. Because you have to look past just his words to see Segasaki's love but Yoh is afraid of trusting that. He's unsure how to read the way he acts and how to respond and so much of his aloofness is a desperate attempt to protect himself.

Yoh clings to Segasaki desperately while he says this because what he hates is the insecurity and the unsure way he feels and everything about this relationship that leaves him on shaky and unsteady ground all the time, constantly going from one emotional feeling to another without a break inbetween.

Segasaki loves Yoh so much but he enjoys him jealous and childish and he likes the way he is as a brat... the problem is that he isn't giving Yoh the steady base he needs to also be himself and Segasaki is starting to see that. He wants the old things they used to share but can't have them because Yoh is constantly on unsteady ground with him and so cannot give him what he wants except when he's drunk or otherwise in a more extreme state.

This is probably the most interesting moment here. Because it's obvious that Segasaki really loves this side of Yoh, when he's a little jealous and very clingy and very needy and just wants to be with him and be loved and be tamed. But, right now, the only way to get it is for him to be drunk.

But how much of that is Segasaki's choices coming into play? He still hasn't figured out that Yoh's singular love language is words and that he needs this kind of thing spelled out to him or he overthinks and spirals no matter how much orders Segasaki gives him to the contrary. Because Segasaki is definitely the brat-tamer Dom here and Yoh wants that, needs that, but he also needs the words in order to recognize what's going on.

Just because everyone else sees what's going on doesn't mean he does.