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”I wanted to kill myself a long time ago, was always close to it. I did not do it because I was afraid to explain myself if it didn‘t work.“

— sad-lonely-broken

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Self harm is confusing because…

You don’t want to cut but then you do,

And you want to stop but you can’t.

You wish you had, but you didn’t,

And You say it won’t happen again… but it will

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All of me knows that it would be the best to get hospitalised..

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no one would care.

no one would miss me.

I’m replaceable.

I just want to die.

I want it to be over with already.

I don’t want to wake up in the morning.

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Almost a year and a half later and i still wonder how you are doing and if i randomly pop into your head like you do in mine, i can't forget about you... And i hate us both for it. Just the little memories that pop into my head like how you were obsessed with that certain sweetie, anytime i see them, i still think of you. Almost a year and a half later, I've been in a different relationship, but nothing can compare to you. It really is true, your first love stays with you and you never really forget them. I guess what im trying to say is, Im sorry, for all the bad times and arguments i caused, i would take them back in a heartbeat if it meant spending one last night in your pokey bedroom, with your made to fit single bed🤣. Im sorry. I still care about you... A lot. Anytime anyone at rugby brings you up my heart still skips a beat...It doesn't hurt as much as it used to...but it still stings.

#ALetterToYou #IAmStillSorry #mine #personal #relationships #sad #NotOverIt

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Half//Pvris

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Would have hurt much less

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I just want to be enough for you

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You said leaving me was hard, did you ever think about how hard it was for me?

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“I should be over this by now, but it still hurts.”

- 2yrs later

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Therapist: “Are you experiencing any suicidal thoughts?”

Me:

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my phone’s dying and i’m sort of jealous

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One thing i dont understand is how after being self harm free for over 9 months then out of the blue have such a strong urge to self harm 😭 i don't know how much longer i can do this again 😭

#depressing thoughts #depressive #mine #cutters #why again

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I can’t wait to be dead

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It’s different with you.