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First "real" ultrasound!

It's amazing how much the baby has grown in the past 4 weeks!!! The ultrasound was the best moment of my pregnancy so far.

The baby kept moving and turning, and stretching the legs, the arms... I couldn't stop laughing!! The poor tech had to work extra hard to mesure everything 😂 it was simply amazing. A core memory right there.

Wiggly little baby ❤️

At the end the tech said it was not the easiest baby she's had today, 🤣 well no shit !

I'd never seen a baby move that much during an ultrasound.

For my daughter, she was completely immobile. Not a single move. Until I heard her heart, part of my brain thought that the baby was dead.

But not this time, I can tell you that !!

Amazing.

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2 months ! Baby is still here 💞

I feel enormous for 2 months, but I've actually lost a little weight. Go figure.

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I've felt great all day.

I still have a persistent cough, but I slept through the night for the first time in weeks.

I ate just fine and had a burst of energy.

I cleaned my car, the house, started organizing my garage.

It was great. But now I'm worried.

Do I feel great because there is something wrong with the pregnancy?

I don't fell any pain and I'm not bleeding. But I've been feeling like shit these past 3 weeks. I don't understand what's happening.

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Well, there's only one baby in there !

They are measuring bigger than expected. I was at 8w2d. Baby is measuring 4 days ahead.

Tonic baby, the technician said it looked more like an 9wks baby. Heart is beating strong.

Maybe everything will be alright after all 🤞

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We made it to 1 month, so far so good.

Still pretty nauseous but my midwife prescribed something that is helping a little.

I'm currently at the same weight I was when I gave birth to my daughter 🥴 so yeah, I already look 6 months pregnant. I'm aware.

My first ultrasound will take place on the 30th of January. I will know if everything is alright, and if there is more than one baby in there

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I don't know if it's the hormones, or the fact that I am really tired, but I can't seem to get excited about this pregnancy.

WTH is happening? I've been wanting this baby for soooo long. I've done everything to have this baby.

Why am I not happy ? Why do I have doubts ? Why do I fear I won't love this child as much as my first ?

I hate that I'm feeling like this. I hate that these thoughts are even crossing my mind.

Maybe it's because I don't really believe I'm gonna have a baby. I mean, nobody is that lucky right ? To get pregnant so fast ?

It's like I'm waiting for something to go wrong, because nothing has ever been easy in my life. Why would this time be any different?

I really hope these feelings go away soon.

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I already have started to feel nauseous.

For my first pregnancy, I didn't feel anything, until the miscarriage at 4 weeks. For my second pregnancy, I remember being really scared but not really sick, not until the second month.

And now I'm not even 3 weeks pregnant ( 5 weeks since my last period), and I have a slight nausea. I get the feeling that this is not going to be easy.

It's worth it though 😁😁

I can't believe it.

That was good sperm 👍

I'm so happy. My daughter is over the moon too.

My baby 2.

Now I just have to do everything to keep this pregnancy healthy, and hope for the best outcome.

I cannot believe how lucky I am. 🎊

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I can't believe it.

That was good sperm 👍

I'm so happy. My daughter is over the moon too.

My baby 2.

Now I just have to do everything to keep this pregnancy healthy, and hope for the best outcome.

I cannot believe how lucky I am. 🎊

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2 weeks post insemination, I plan to take a test on Sunday morning, if my period isn't there by then. I was pretty hopeful, since I had some light pain in my uterus that I don't usually have.

But tonight the pain is much more similar to a period pain. Damn it.

Well. Still no blood so maybe I'm just paranoid.

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First insemination is done.

He left right after (thank goodness) and now I'm just laying down with my feet against a wall like in the movie.

It can't hurt right ?? Fingers crossed 🍀

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It went great !!! We will be starting TTC on the 13th oh December!

Now I just need to find a hotel room for one hour. We can't go to his place, and I don't want him at my home. He will not know my full name, neither will he know where I live. Gotta protect my baby.

Just like I did with my daughter. She will be deciding if she wants to meet her donor, not the other way around.

It'll be the same this time around.

Oh my god I could be pregnant in less than a month !!! It would be the best Christmas present!

Random things that happened this morning:

Tonight I'm going to meet the potential donor, let's call him L. I have my eyes on another one, let's call him T, who is also nice, good looking and not too far.

This morning I was stuck in traffic behind a car, an Altea. If I'm ever lucky enough to have a daughter, I've decided long ago that she will be named Althea. I thought that was a sign that L might be the one, even though I was still thinking about T.

When I was TTC for my first daughter, I would often see trucks with the name Oliva on the side, when I had already decided to name my daughter Olivia. I thought that was a sign too.

And this morning, T deleted his profile.

So. L is definitely the one. Let's hope the meeting goes well Tonight ☺️

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[singlemamattc]

Random things that happened this morning:

Tonight I'm going to meet the potential donor, let's call him L. I have my eyes on another one, let's call him T, who is also nice, good looking and not too far.

This morning I was stuck in traffic behind a car, an Altea. If I'm ever lucky enough to have a daughter, I've decided long ago that she will be named Althea. I thought that was a sign that L might be the one, even though I was still thinking about T.

When I was TTC for my first daughter, I would often see trucks with the name Oliva on the side, when I had already decided to name my daughter Olivia. I thought that was a sign too.

And this morning, T deleted his profile.

So. L is definitely the one. Let's hope the meeting goes well Tonight ☺️

#single mom #sperm donor #baby number 2 #hope #trying to conceive #fertility journey #ttc

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I have found a donor !

He's closer to where I live, and He agreed to the no sex part.

He actually looks a little like my daughter's donor, so that's definitely a plus.

I'm still going to wait for the doctors to give an estimate time for me to have access to a donation, because it would still be better this way. Easier to explain to my future kid. But if it takes more than 6 months, I won't be waiting.

I plan on starting to TTC in January. Unless the doctors can guarantee a donation in less than 6 months.

I should have a date in December. In any way, I should be pregnant soon !

I'm so excited 😁😁

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All of my tests came back good, I'm officially healthy enough to have a baby ☺️☺️

That's very good news.

But given the waiting time, I've started looking elsewhere to find a donor.

I've found this good looking guy, not far from where I live, donating for free.

When I met my first child's donor, we agreed that we would not have sex. It was just a donation, and I would do the rest myself. I felt it would be better this way, so we would have no connection. He gave me his sperm, it worked, I have no regrets.

The guy I'm communicating with wants to donate the "natural" way. It's making me uneasy. I don't know why, because that's how babies are supposed to be made, but I feel weird about it. Like, he isn't really doing it for free... He's doing it for sex. He won't even considering doing it another way. Wich I find strange, because he's putting himself in danger of catching an std, and he doesn't know me. How could he know if he'll be attracted to me? Can a guy just have sex with about anyone?

I don't mind having sex with a "stranger". I've done it before, can't remember the names of most guys I slept with. I don't care.

But this is different... It is so worth it though, for the possibility to have my second dream baby. And it would be such a beautiful baby too, with a father this good looking.

Lots of thinking to do...

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Okay. Six month was wayyy too optimistic.

Anyway, the appointment went fine, I got answers to all of my questions.

I have to do 3 more exams before December 6th. Then my medical file will be examined in a commission, and if they approve my request, they'll tell me the waiting time.

For now, it's around 9 to 12 month to get a sperm donation. It's soooo long !!!

Sometimes I just want to go out in a bar and have sex with a stranger. It would be so much easier !

But I want to be responsible about this. I don't want to catch an std, for starters, and I need to be able to look my child in the eyes when I tell them how they were conceived.

So... A year it is.

In twelve hours, i'm going to have my first appointment for my fertility journey. I can't believe how fast these 4 months passed.

I've been reading more about it, and at first I wanted to only do a sperm insemination, but IVF is actually more effective.

But if they tell me I have to do IVF, it also means that I have a fertility issue.

So. Idk. We'll see tomorrow.

I could be pregnant in just 6 month time !!! I'm so excited!

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[singlemamattc]

In twelve hours, i'm going to have my first appointment for my fertility journey. I can't believe how fast these 4 months passed.

I've been reading more about it, and at first I wanted to only do a sperm insemination, but IVF is actually more effective.

But if they tell me I have to do IVF, it also means that I have a fertility issue.

So. Idk. We'll see tomorrow.

I could be pregnant in just 6 month time !!! I'm so excited!

#single mom #sperm donor #baby number 2 #hope #trying to conceive #fertility journey #here we go

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I've finally made an appointment. I took almost a month because they are really busy and the phone kept going straight to voicemail.

My first appointment will be on October 3rd !

It seems so far away, but in one clinic they gave me an appointment in February, so October is not so bad. 2 days after my birthday. It's so exciting!

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