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I'd like to invite all crazy Buddie-shippers to the 'get-a-grip' challenge!

But seriously, who tf are YOU to say that bi-Buck doesn't "belong" to anyone who doesn't ship Buddie?? Bi-Buck belongs to EVERYONE no matter your sexuality, gender, race, etc. If you see yourself in him or just like him, HE IS FOR YOU. Bi-Buck doesn't belong to Buddie-shippers just because Oliver hinted at some attraction.

And I think it's so ironic that this person says that Bi-Buck only belongs to Buddie-shippers because there have been "hints" and Oliver's interview. Meanwhile, Bucktommy has kissed on screen, been on two dates (because damn it that coffee meet-up was a date), and Buck invited Tommy to his sister's wedding and Tommy was basically Buck's sexual awakening. And all of this in the span of two episodes!

The only ones denying a part of Buck's identity are Buddie-stans like this one because instead of celebrating this new chapter of Buck's life as something about BUCK as an individual they, once again, reduce it to something that's solely about their ship.

It doesn't matter if Buck ends up with Tommy, Eddie, or hell, even a woman because bi-Buck is for EVERYONE!

#oof #some of these takes are just bad #buck’s bisexuality is about Buck and not Eddie and some people can’t stand that #it makes me incredibly uncomfy #(also similar to my frustration post from a few minutes ago) #bi buck #911 abc #evan buckley

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Absolutely wild to me to see people who claim to have wanted queer Buck for years and were seeing the signs of that, now saying that the bucktommy story line and bi Buck is bad because it comes out of no where…

#like what is the truth? #and is it just because buck’s not with Eddie that makes to come out of no where for you? #it’s really really interesting to see people confusing fanon with canon #evan buckley #bi Buck #911 abc

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So…consequences.

The team went rogue, stole a helicopter, and flew into a hurricane. Possible consequences of this? Written reprimand, unpaid suspension, job loss, death.

And they fully accepted this. Because “Who Cares?”

But then the fire chief decided to gain some kudos of his own and claimed that it was a planned and organized evolution by brave LAFD firefighters. He got his 15 minutes of fame, and the 118 got Bobby and Athena back.

However, it seems the chief didn’t realize the ultimate consequence of presenting their rogue rescue as an LAFD operation: the civilians and politicians involved aren’t going to let them get away with not thanking and rewarding the brave firefighters who flew into danger. Which, I’m assuming, is how we end up here:

I guess “WHO CARES?” makes for a great motto after all.

This is so very 9-1-1. Too funny for words.

🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒🏅🚒

#this is legit what I think too lol #and you know I love that for them #it definitely happens in my heart #whether it happens in canon remains to be seen #911 spoilers #911 abc

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Okay one thing I am sad about is the lack of interviews with Kenny and Jennifer. Like, this wedding is about Madney. It's gonna be huge. Why do we not have lots of interviews and promos like with Oliver and Ryan? I feel like we've even seen more about Lou/Tommy than Madney this season in promos/interviews even though they have such a big storyline

#I have to believe it’s because there’s not much of Maddie and chim outside the main plot that they don’t want to spoil #and it’s why there’s so much Buck and Eddie because ultimately that doesn’t matter #not in the way seeing chim fighting for his life against Jonah #and Maddie arriving in her wedding dress via chopper to grab him and get him to the venue #(that is my own speculation but it’s also what I want) #maddie x chimney #madney #911 abc #maddie buckley #chimney han

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I think the major mistake some are making is thinking of Buck & Eddie as a “slow-burn” that the show has been intentionally building for years, and therefore seeing bucktommy (both its existence and it’s relative popularity as a ship) as a betrayal. But there’s really little evidence of that. When you take a step back and try to view it objectively, try to take things at mostly face value… there’s a reason the larger general audience didn’t catch on. There’s a reason that Bi Buck came as a surprise to so many.

Watch the show with just some average person who doesn’t spend a lot of time online in predominantly fandom based spaces, who hasn’t trained themselves to look for “subtext” and “parallels” in everything. Don’t influence them first. Chances are, they’re not going to see it. And that’s because it was never really intentional. They wrote and acted this knowing some people might read it a certain way, and that’s okay, but it wasn’t the message they were actively trying to send to the average viewer.

It’s not a secret code that only the very smart and attentive will crack. It’s a network procedural that regularly forgets the passage of time and is always scrambling to figure out the story details and swapping out scenes because they’re short on one and not the other. They regularly write backwards from the conclusion because they’re disorganized and not great at time management. It’s actually the perfect set of circumstances to create a large active online fanbase, because of emotional stories and the human nature drive to correct for logical inconsistencies.

Fandom tends to extend credit where not due in some areas, and then exact payment they were never promised in others. It’s a bit like winning the jackpot- it’s a nice idea but you have to know the odds are against you, so pinning all your hopes on the Powerball is probably not a great idea. Someone else winning doesn’t mean anything was taken from you. No one made you buy that ticket or promised you a thing. You can’t be mad at the guy on the news calling out the numbers, or the cashier who sold you a ticket because they said “good luck!” to be nice.

#this is exactly what’s so frustrating and annoying #i literally only just got back into fandom so watched a large chunk as just a GA and there’s nothing there #like absolutely fine if you want to ship whatever you want and have theories and all that—I was there in the trenches with supernatural ☠️ #but there’s a large chunk of people acting like it’s a definite thing is absolutely wild #there’s nothing in the actual canon that really feels like it’s building to this slow burn at all #so even if it does happen they’re going to have to spend so much time building up to it so it feels settled and worthy of the story #and not just thrown in to appease a small group of people #feeling like kicking the hornet’s near a bit lol #911 abc #buddie

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I've seen a lot of people say the reason Eddie keeps coming up in Buck's conversations about/with Tommy is because he's subconsciously in love with Eddie and projecting his feelings onto to Tommy or whatever (which, he's not that stupid, give him a little credit - also you can be attracted to more than one person??) but I really don't think that's the case.

Imagine being Buck, you meet this cool guy and you even manage to bag a tour of his workplace (air operations, cool as fuck), you're getting on great so you ask him out for drinks- he says he'd love to but he's busy. Ouch, strike one, rejection. Then, out of nowhere, your best friend (who's cooler and more important than you, has more in common- from your perspective- with the cool guy) and they've already pre-planned a trip which you hadn't even heard about, strike two. Why wouldn't someone as cool as Tommy want to hang out with Eddie? Then it turns out he's been over to Eddie's house three times (which buck was told by chris, not Eddie) and they're playing basketball together as well now. Strike three and out. You might as well not even ask this super cool guy to spend time with you because why would he want to, not when he's got your also super cool best friend to hang out with instead.

I mean it's well established that Buck has abandonment issues stemming from his home life, we've seen that even though he works on them it's not something that's just going to go away. He also repeatedly puts himself in danger over others so of course he thinks they're worth more than him. Eddie's being brought up as a comparison to Buck, not a comparison to Tommy. We're shown that significantly more than Buck comparing himself to Tommy (he does a bit when Tommy's at his flat and when it's in regards to Christopher, which is funny because I actually think Buck was only really jealous of Tommy when it came to Chris thinking he was cool), but most of the time when Buck brings up Tommy, it's asking about what he's doing and trying to get invited along, if he was actually jealous of Tommy he'd be trying harder to get Eddie to hang out with him before Tommy could ask.

#this exactly #to Buck eddie is way cooler than him so obviously everyone prefers Eddie to Buck #so when he thought he’d get to hang out with Tommy but he found out he was hanging out with Eddie… #that’s basically a sign to Buck that he’s got no chance to spend time with Tommy at all unless he gets an invite through eddie #I so want to see this whole situation from Tommy’s pov because he has no idea the inner turmoil going on with Buck lol #bucktommy #evan buckley #911 abc

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BuckTommyWeekend Day 2: A figure from their past

BuckTommyWeekend Day 2: A figure from their past

Title:  What we have

Fandom:  911 (ABC)

Pairing:  Buck/Tommy

Summary:  Buck had complicated feelings after they run into Abby. Luckily, Tommy is there to comfort him. For the prompt: A figure from their past for @bucktommyweek

Notes: I have a lot of thoughts about Abby and her relationship with Buck (plus just thoughts on her character in general). And this is a part of something much longer I’d written but it was just bits and pieces—the meeting, the aftermath, Tommy talking with Athena or Maddie, this scene—just too much going on and too much to write in a day when my brain was still coming up with the actual idea for this. So this is what I’ve got.  

Tommy hadn’t thought much of this meeting Abby at the time. Apparently she was in town for some meeting or other for one of her stepdaughters and him and Evan had happened to run into her as they were leaving the restaurant they had brunch at.

Evan had gotten a bit quiet but smiled and politely introduced him as “This is Tommy,” before Abby started telling him about her life. It was about three minutes of a quick catch up before Evan and him continued on their way out and honestly, Tommy hadn’t thought it was strange.

But now It’s been over a week since he’d last seen Evan and he was trying not to worry or get caught up in his own head about what this all might mean. He was off today, so maybe Tommy could convince him to meet up for lunch or at least just talk later today.

Thankfully the doorbell rang at that moment, pulling Tommy out of his potential spiral.

He opened the door and there stood Evan, holding two coffees and a bag of food.

“I brought coffee and burritos,” Evan said.

Tommy ushered him in and followed him to the kitchen. “It’s been a minute. But I’m happy to see you.”

“Me too.” Evan set everything on the counter, dropping his duffel on the floor, and then turned to him, basically wrapping himself around Tommy.

“Is everything all right?”” Tommy asked.

“Yes,” Evan said. “I mean, it’s getting there?”

“Would you want to tell me about what you’re thinking about?” Tommy asked, pulling away and gently pushing Evan toward the stool by his counter. “While you eat a little something.”

Evan sat down but made no move toward his food. He sighed. “I told you about Abby. My ex. The one we ran into a couple weeks ago.”

Tommy nodded. “Yeah. I mean, a little.”

“Right, well seeing her sort of threw me off—Not because I’m dating you or freaking out about my bisexuality and stuff,” Evan rushed to reassure him. “It just… I guess it just brought a lot of old feelings, things that trigged some old insecurities. And I wasn’t expecting it. I mean, it’s been years and looking back, it’s not even like we were really together together so I don’t know really what happened.”

“Feelings can be surprising,” Tommy said. “They come back around in the strangest ways sometimes.”

“Yeah,” Evan said. “But I don’t even think about her anymore. I don’t. I’m not like in love with her or want her back or anything--I swear.”

“I didn’t think you did, but thank you for the reassurance,” Tommy said. “Seeing people who used to play a big part in our lives brings up a lot of emotions. And that’s okay.”  

“That’s what Dr. Copeland said too,” Evan said shaking his head. “I called her because it just triggered a lot of feelings, feelings of insecurity that I thought I’d dealt with. But when you come face-to-face with your biggest failure those feelings can come back.”

“You and Abby not working out is not a failure,” Tommy said.

“I know that. Now,” Evan said. “But it’s what happened when I saw her again. It was my first relationship where I did everything right. I followed everyone’s advice, everyone’s ideas, followed Abby’s lead. I did everything I was supposed to. And she left anyway. Which, I don’t have to tell you made me panic and worry about you, about us.”

“Well, I’d argue that we haven’t’ done anything right in the way that other people would have it or do it,” Tommy said, nudging Evan with his shoulder. “But I also can’t’ say that we’ve done nothing right because a look where we are, what we have.”

“That’s what I realized,” Evan admitted. “At least part of it.”

“What’s the other part?” Tommy asked.

“So it’s like this,” Evan said, amping up and already starting to gesture with his hands. “I think I thought so highly of Abby for so long, right? She was this woman who was mature and knew what she wanted and had a whole life and still wanted me; it’s like she made me better or at least want to be a better man. And after she left, I was terrified that she’d taken that part of me with her, the mature Buck, the guy who was dependable and worthy.”

Tommy clenched his jaw because he hated hearing Evan talk about himself in terms of worthiness or usefulness. Granted, it was a bit of the pot calling the kettle black, but Tommy usually operated under a “do as I say, not as I do” policy.

“And seeing her again, seeing her with you just put so much into perspective for me,” Evan said. “I always thought of her as my first real relationship, but seeing her next to you, knowing what we have, how you treat me, it finally dawned on me that we didn’t have a relationship. Or we did, but like not the one I wanted, the one I thought we had.”

Tommy gently moved the coffees out of the way. “And what was that?”

“I thought we had this amazing relationship where we could be ourselves, someone I could share myself with and someone who wanted that too,” Evan said. “But I think I was just a physical presence for her during a hard time in her life. Someone who was there, who helped shoulder some of the weight, and then someone she just left behind because I didn’t matter to her. Not like I wanted to.”

Evan sighed. “And then I just saw her standing next to you and couldn’t help but think about all the things you know about me, the things you like about me, and I realized that she never really knew me at all.”

“It doesn’t sound like she did,” Tommy said gently, carefully. “Because if she had, I doubt she’d have been able to leave.”

“See and that,” Evan said, reaching over to grab Tommy’s hand. “You’d never do that to me. To anyone really. You’d never just take off, knowing you were done with me, without telling me. Yeah, it would crush me to lose you, but you’d still at least tell me. You wouldn’t leave me hanging on, waiting for any words of our future when you had no plans to come back.”

Evan squeezed his hand between both of his. “I just, I love you so much and I feel so lucky to have you in my life that sometimes I panic that I’m not quite good enough for you. And I want to be.”

Tommy reached out, cradling Evan’s cheek in his hand. “You are good enough. You’re more than good enough for me.”

“Even when I’m having a crisis and stupidly keep myself from you for 12 days?” Evan asked.

“Even then,” Tommy assured him, pressing a quick kiss to his forehead.

#i love supportive emotionally mature conversations so that's what we have here #might expand on this more in the future which is likely a thing i'm going to say for each of these since i'm writing them all this weekend #bucktommy #bucktommyweekend #evan buckley #tommy kinard #911 fic #my fic

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BuckTommyWeekend Day 1: Alternate First Meeting

Title:  This seat taken?

Fandom:  911 (ABC)

Pairing:  Buck/Tommy

Summary:  Buck and Tommy meet at a restaurant for the first time. For the prompt: Alternate First Meeting for @bucktommyweek

Notes: There’s so many potential first meetings for these two both within canon and outside of it. I’m behind on writing for this weekend so just went with one that’s a bit quicker, but will probably expand on in the future before posting to AO3. (And/or might do more potential first meetings because there’s so many options and not all of them will lead to them actually being together at that specific moment in time, but it’d be fun…)

Buck sat at the bar, pretending to check his phone while he glanced over at where Josh and his date were sitting. Josh was seemingly having a good time, plus his date was pretty cute, so maybe this would be a win for him. Buck hoped so.

“This seat taken?”

Buck startled and looked over and saw a man—a very attractive man—stood next to him, inclining a hand toward the stool next to him.

Buck shook his head. “N-no. It’s all yours. I mean, if you want it.”

The man smiled and sat down. “Thanks. Just need to wait for my order.”

As he sat down, Buck noticed a logo on the side of this man’s jacket, one that looked incredibly familiar as it was on Buck’s own work clothes.

“Woah. Is that an LAFD jacket? Are you a firefighter?” Buck asked excitedly.

The man smiled. “Yeah. Work at Harbor station now though. Mostly flying planes and helicopters rather than running into any burning buildings.”

“That’s so cool. I’ve always thought being able to fly a plane, like pilot one, would feel like you have super powers,” Buck said. “Does it feel like that?”

“I suppose that’s a good way to look at it,” the man said. “I’m Tommy, by the way.”

“Evan Buckley,” Buck said, reaching out a hand. Tommy shook it, even at the awkward angle since they were sitting so close together. “So when did you learn to fly?”

“A while ago, back when I was in the Army,” Tommy said.

“Have you always been air support for LAFD?” Buck asked.

“No,” Tommy said. “I was on the ground or many years, but just felt like I was missing it. Transferred to Harbor five, six years ago now. I really missed flying so it was a good choice.”

“I bet,” Buck said. “If I could fly, I’d probably never want to be on the ground.”

“Well, I can give you a tour of the place if you’re interested,” Tommy offered kindly. “Show you some of the toys, how things work.”

“That would be awesome,” Buck said. “But I don’t want to trouble you. I mean, you’re just waiting for your food and I’m talking your ear off about work. I-I’m sure the last thing you want to do is talk about your job after just getting off a shift.”

“I wouldn’t offer if I didn’t mean it,” Tommy said. “And I could have always ignored you or told you I didn’t want to talk about work if I wanted.”

“I guess,” Buck said. “I forget sometimes that not everyone likes talking about their job.”

“So then I guess I have to ask, what do you do?”

“Oh, um,” Buck rubbed at the back of his neck. “I’m a firefighter.”

“No kidding,” Tommy said with a laugh. “Which station?”

“The 118,” Buck said proudly.

“Now you’re fucking with me,” Tommy said. “I transferred to Harbor from the 118.”

“That’s crazy! So you do you know Cap? Captain Bobby Nash?” Buck asked.

“Yeah,” Tommy said. “He was just getting settled there when I transferred.”

“What about Hen? You’ve got to know Chimney. I think he’s been there since it was built.”

Tommy smiled and his nose crinkled and Buck had never seen anything more adorable in his entire life. “Howie and I go way back, from before he was called Chimney. And Hen, she’s one of the best firefighters I’ve ever worked with.”

“They’re the best,” Buck said. “It’s so crazy that you know them too!”

Buck glanced over at Josh again. He’d be furious with himself if he got distracted by this god-like man sitting next to him when his friend needed him. Still seemed to be going well.

“I don’t mean to pry, but I do have to ask,” Tommy started, “You’re not stalking those men, are you?”

Buck whipped his head over to look at him. “What?”

“It’s just, I saw you watching them when I first got here. And now you’re looking over again. Just checking things are… all right,” Tommy said.

Buck felt himself blush a bit because he was the world’s worst undercover wingman. “Okay so one of those guys is my friend, Josh. He’s had some rough luck dating and he was feeling a bit nervous, so I offered to come and hang out at the bar while he was on his date. Just in case anything happened, he’d have back up or whatever he needed.”

Tommy blinked. “You’re giving up your night to sit alone at the bar just in case your friend’s date turned out to be an asshole?”

“Yeah. I guess,” Buck said.

Tommy smiled at him, shaking his head fondly. “That’s really sweet of you.”

“I’m just helping out a friend,” Buck said, feeling uncomfortable. “I’d do it for anyone.”  

Before they could talk any more, a waitress came out with Tommy’s food, stealing his attention. Their chat was less than 10 minutes but Buck felt like he could have spent hours talking with Tommy. He tried not to be annoyed that his food came and he was going to leave—the man had probably just gotten off a shift, probably a twelve or thirty-six hour shift, based on it being night. Tommy deserved to grab his food and then head home to eat and crash.

It didn’t mean that it didn’t suck though. But it’s fine. Buck would go back to checking his phone and keeping an eye out for Josh.

Tommy placed a hand on Buck’s shoulder. “Well, it was a delight to bump into you and I enjoyed our conversation. You made the end of a long thirty-six hours speed by as I waited for my food.”

“I’ve been told I do that,” Buck said, completely distracted by the weight of Tommy’s hand on his shoulder.  

Tommy laughed like Buck had told the funniest joke he’d ever heard. He removed his hand and smiled. “And I’m serious about giving you a tour if you want.”

“I’d like that,” Buck said. “Um, should I call the station?”

Tommy smiled again and shook his head. “It’ll be easier if you just let me know directly. I can make sure there’s time and be the one to give you the tour.”

Tommy reached down to grab the pen sitting on top of his receipt and then scribbled his number on a napkin. “Take care, Evan.”

Hearing Evan come out of Tommy’s mouth was surprising, but surprising in a good way—in a way that Buck wasn’t going to think much about right now. “Yeah. Yeah. Uh, you too, Tommy. I’ll—I’ll text you.”

“Sounds good.” Tommy grabbed his bag. “Oh, and good luck with the rest of your date.”

With that, Tommy laughed a little and then walked out, leaving Buck sitting there, carefully holding the napkin and wondering exactly what was happening with fate right now. Maybe his luck was turning around.

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Should I be eating and resting? Yes. Am I? No, so come join me for a dissertation on Tommy Kinard being lonely.

Edit to add a note since I saw a reblog about it: Tommy has no canonical age right now and Lou is 39, 40 later this year, so that is my basis for saying he’s 39.

Now when I say lonely, I don’t mean that he has no one whatsoever. I can picture him going for drinks with his team or having some Muay Thai buddies that he could call up if he really was inclined. Maybe an old army buddy or two.

But there’s something about Tommy that’s just achingly lonely, both when he was at the 118 and now at Harbor.

Tommy had a broken home, or some other kind of unstable childhood. Maybe his parents split, maybe he was mistreated, maybe he was in the system or was passed around family members. Maybe he was isolated as a child because he was a little overweight (I think Lou said something along those lines) and was bullied. I think Tommy didn’t really have any friends until high school, when puberty hit and maybe he started working out and probably joined the football team. I don’t know if anyone remembers what teenage boys are like, but I can imagine they were the same as they are today back in the 90s/early 00’s. Because around this time, Tommy might’ve started to realize that something was very different about him.

Now this isn’t a meta about how I think Tommy dealt with his sexuality (maybe I’ll do one of those later) but I think he never would’ve risked his football friends knowing even if he himself could acknowledge it, which I doubt. So he messed around, got in trouble with these guys, hung out with the bros, and pretended to be interested in girl talk.

Of course, eventually, his buddies all got girlfriends and he was always the odd one out again.

He didn’t do college. The army was his next step. And I feel like this might have been the first time in his life he wasn’t lonely. He’d learned to blend in by this point and he worked with some great people. But as he started making real friends for the first time, he also started losing them as the war tore them away.

Tommy left the army and joined the fire department. There was an aching hole where the camaraderie of the army had filled previously and with no education beyond a high school diploma, Tommy thought the fire department would replicate that. Not the police though. He’d had enough of guns.

(And ohhhh now so many ideas on his thoughts during the sniper)

But he ended up at the 118 and quickly realized that his team had maybe more of a DADT stance than the army. He realized that he had to put on an elaborate act to fool his fellow firefighters, who had more time on their hands and more prejudice they were willing to wield to pick apart his life. Tommy, who maybe had only just started to acknowledge he felt differently about guys with less panic than before, had no choice but to backslide. He acted and acted and crafted a person he wasn’t until the day that maybe he was. Sal was his closest buddy at the 118 and Tommy had no doubt that Sal would be one of the first to make his life hell. Gerrard seemed to look at Tommy as some sort of mentee. Boxed in by two notorious bigots, Tommy had never felt more claustrophobically alone.

Chim was the first one to reach out a hand of friendship, or at least the first one that didn’t come with caution tape, but he was also an “other” and Tommy, who was confused and afraid and had just had his captain call his bluff on his fake girlfriend, lashed out. Then he allowed Chim in and Chim wasn’t interested in being besties but he was a great drinking buddy and movie buddy and Tommy felt safest around him.

Then Hen came and Tommy watched her get the same treatment he was afraid of. Not that he had to worry about the racism, and he was aware of the privilege, but Hen didn’t exactly hide herself and he watched them bully his lesbian coworker. He let himself get pulled into it all and hated himself for it, but was too cowardly to break away from it. He wasn’t sure why Hen had forgiven him, but she became the only other person on shift he felt even a little safe around other than Howie. But then Chimney and Hen became best friends and Tommy fell to the wayside. They still included him, sure, but they were always a pair and there was something there that Tommy didn’t know but longed for. A closeness he’d never felt.

A best friend. A juvenile idea to him, but one he’d never truly had.

Then Gerrard was gone and Sal got transferred and the 118 moved forward under Captain Nash, but Tommy felt left behind, even in what was the most united A shift team yet. Because he was over 30 and was starting to be unable to ignore everything that he’d had to hide under Gerrard, as he no longer had a distraction from it.

He’d been a pilot in the army, so he transferred to Harbor. And Harbor was great. He wasn’t best buds with anyone (he was starting to think that was never in the cards for him) but his team didn’t carry the same baggage that the 118 had.

So Tommy started to come to terms with himself. He started to date for the first time and came out to his team. And he had several boyfriends, but most couldn’t handle the job or his baggage or the desperate need he had to be wanted. His most long term partner cheated and the one he fell hardest for couldn’t deal when Tommy was injured on the job. Even within his own relationships, he felt like he was destined to stand alone.

Tommy was 39 years old and alone, as always, when Chimney walked back into his life, dragging an adorable and also extremely hot blonde and a stoic brunette that radiated ex military in a way only ex military could know. And then Hen was there and they were trying to rescue their captain and his wife and they clearly loved each other fiercely and like family.

And as Tommy listened, flying through the remnants of a cat 5 hurricane, he thought to himself that he should’ve never left. Simply just never found himself if only that meant being part of the family the 118 was now. However, he knew deep down that he still would’ve been alone and on the outside.

And they rescued the survivors and Tommy thought that was it but then Eddie wanted to hang out. And they liked the same things and had similar experiences and Tommy couldn’t help the hope. Because the loneliness had grown stifling and now he could breathe a little. And then Evan, the cute blonde, wanted a tour of the hanger and he thought that maybe he was being hit on.

And then at the end of it all, Tommy was left realizing that he’d wedged himself between two best friends and that was what happened when he allowed himself to hope. So he went to Evan to apologize. He would get Evan and Eddie to talk to each other and then would fade into the background.

But then Evan was sweet and apologetic and told him that he was part of the 118 family simply by helping them. Tommy couldn’t help it. Here he was, at 39, with a little boy still waiting inside of him to be soothed. And Evan was hot and sweet and Tommy couldn’t help himself.

And he really liked Evan. Evan was adorable. But their first date didn’t go as planned and Tommy knew he was already whipped. So he removed himself before someone could get hurt. Evan deserved better and so did he, even if the loneliness was stifling again.

But then Evan texted him and looked at him with sparkling blue eyes over too sweet coffee and wanted him. Him. He wanted Tommy and to have something with Tommy and he wanted him to come to his sister’s wedding with him.

And Tommy looked at him and saw someone who could finally fill the ache he’d felt his whole life. He saw a man who he knew he wanted to take a chance with. All he had to do was jump.

And he did.

And it wasn’t solved, not immediately and never fully. Too many wounds were left gaping for too long to ever heal. But for the first time in his life, at 39, with the 118 surrounding him and Buck as the sunshine at his side, Tommy finally felt at peace.

#i meant to add more to this amazing post but then just got stuck on tommy's thesis for me: lonely but not alone #like he definitely has friends but i just get teh vibe that he's so used to being on his own that he has never even thought to call anyone #truly it's not like buck who always wants someone to notice him and be around #it's just 'this is the way things are and it's fine' because what else can he do? #the angst of this idea of both of them having similar issues but on opposite sides in a way both needing to learn to trust each other #and to rely on the other person to actually be there #tommy kinard #bucktommy #911 abc

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HENREN + kisses ↳ HAPPY LESBIAN VISIBILITY WEEK!

#they invented true love #for real #henren #hen wilson #karen wilson #911 abc

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Prompts - The Clean Edition

Thursday, April 25 - Day One: Alternate first meeting.

Friday, April 26 - Day Two: A figure from their past.

Saturday, April 27- Day Three: "I'll come for you, no matter what, if you need me, I'll be there."

Sunday, April 28 - Day Three: Their favourite firsts.

Prompts - The Dirty Edition

Thursday, April 25 - Day One: "No touching. You'll be patient and wait until I'm done." || Stop and start.

Friday, April 26 - Day Two: Tied up with nowhere to go.

Saturday, April 27 - Day Three: The toy chest.

Sunday, April 28 - Day Three: "Guess what I'm wearing right now."

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Important Information Before Participating

Rules Rating System FAQ Racism and Prejudice Ao3 Collection

#I haven’t really been writing in ages and I want to participate #hopefully I can write something and my headache will officially go away soon lol #bucktommy

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I think we need to collectively thank Chimney for his service because if he hadn’t pulled Tommy’s ass out of that building in, like, 2005 we wouldn’t be here today. Thank you for Bi Buck, King.

#and chimney’s going to be insufferable when he finds out #because he’s 2-2 on setting up queer couples #and he’s not gonna let anyone forget it #good for him #we love a supportive king #chimeny han #911 abc #bucktommy

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I was reading one of your asks and I agree, Tommy has the potential to be a LTR for Buck.

To me what is VERY telling is an interview Tim did a few weeks back (sorry I don’t remember which one! It did the round on Twitter) where basically he was saying why LI weren’t working for Buck and Eddie AND what would make them work.

And the thing is - from what he said, Tommy fits it to a T. He’s connected to the rest of characters (this even more by having him and Eddie become friends so fast), he’s a first responder (hence blends in and makes sense, and can be a part of the story without sticking out like a sore thumb) and he can exist outside his relationship with Buck.

Now - why would Tim define what he wants the LI for Buck and Eddie be, bring someone that perfectly fits the description and then… throw him away? From a oficial standpoint, how does that make sense? To have a character fit, have the fans take a liking to him, and then go : oh never mind, you can get going.

Tommy has the potential to be a LTR. And if he hasn’t been described as so directly before probably was because they were trying to gauge people’s reaction to the storyline. But now that it’s been positive (and adding that the IG account has followed Lou)… I think he may stay longer than what people initially thought

I fully agree, I think they just wanted to leave themselves a little escape hatch in case their Big Gay Gamble turned into a ratings disaster, but they put too much actual effort into setting Tommy up for him to be easily disposable. They didn’t want him to be a flash in the pan but recognized the reality that they might not have a choice if things went badly.

Luckily for all of us, it seems to have gone well!

#honestly seeing Buck in a long term relationship where they have normal issues and first responder issues #would actually be really interesting because it would show us buck growing #especially with Tommy who has been shown to actually like Buck as he is #this is not a relationship Buck needs to change or be different or less himself #we’d get to see Buck settled in a way we’ve never seen #I want it #911 abc #bucktommy #evan buckley #tommy kinard

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911twt needs to be studied, I’ve seen fandom brain rot before, but never have I seen a group so wilfully eager to misrepresent what actors and writers are saying.

How does a sentence that starts with “I don’t quite know [if I want buddie to happen]” get read as “he really said BUDDIE CANON”.

at a certain point some of you are queerbaiting yourselves and each other by spreading this stuff out of context.

The only real difference between what he said in this interview re. buck & eddie is that he’s cautious about implying if a queer man comes out he must automatically be in love with his best friend.

#buddie Twitter stans are wild #though I’ve seen similar takes here so… #maybe I’ll kick the hornets’ nest this weekend to feel alive #911 abc

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Fuck It Friday 💌

Okay, I gotta be honest I feel like there is still something missing for this fic, but it's already at 3k and I have hopes of finding that little spark I'm looking for in the upcoming days.

Anyway, until then, here's Buck working himself into a tizzy.

Buck was trying his level best to not act like a petulant child about this, but with his history, it genuinely felt like a challenge.

“Three weeks?” He pouted as he stuffed the last of his clothes into his duffel bag — he didn’t have a shift until the next morning, but he needed something to do to channel all the nervous energy. In contrast, Tommy just stood by the fridge, his arms crossed across his chest with a patient but resigned expression on his face; still as stone.

“Only three weeks. I’ll be back before you know it.”

But that was just the thing, wasn’t it? Buck didn’t know it. Okay, so he did, logically speaking, understand that three weeks was not enough time to tilt the world off its axis and that for Tommy it was essentially just a one bag trip. Yet he couldn’t help but be reminded of all the times people left — and how not all of them returned.

He held it together pretty well throughout the week, since Tommy first told him about his training in Arizona, but as the days leading up to his departure decreased, so did Buck’s composure. He felt bad about it, truly, but there was no helping it.

Everything between them still felt new and delicate and Buck worried that three weeks might just be what Tommy needed to realize that this wasn’t really what he wanted — and that was a devastating thought of its own, but mixed with the fact that somewhere along the line Buck stopped falling and has fallen for Tommy, it was a downright terrifying prospect.

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#oof #Buck 😭😍 #I need this asap #(but like in your own time 💖) #bucktommy #911 abc

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"WHEN they INEVITABLY break up" oh honey bucktommy is endgame, there is no breaking up, they're the IT couple actually, tim told me that himself

#honestly it’s what I want and what I deserve #they are amazing and there’s so much depth to be had here l #they’d be dumb to throw that away for anything else from a writing perspective especially #I could talk about this for like 100 years if y’all let me lol #bucktommy #911 abc

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I keep seeing stuff about the 118 and Maddie giving Tommy the shovel talk and while that’s great, ya know what I want and have seen none of?

Buck getting shovel talked.

The sad thing is who does Tommy have on his side?

I’m not generally even a shovel talk lover; I tend to find that it gets unfair in fandoms, like both partners don’t equally have the power to hurt each other even unintentionally. But if we’re talking about Buck being defended, I need Tommy to have people on his side.

#Buck will be giving himself a shovel talk because Tommy is the greatest #and buck knows it and knows he’s special #why I crave more bucktommy just because I get the vibe that Tommy is also really lonely? #911 abc #bucktommy #evan buckley #tommy kinard