sadhungrycoffeegal

[sadhungrycoffeegal]

honestly i am quite literally eating a fair amount everyday. i talked with my therapist last week about it and we’re checking in again tomorrow.

i get weird about eating over my calories even when it’s a “healthy” option like fruit or veg and that is a struggle

like if i’m eating rice cakes and eat more than i planned it feels like it’s the end of the world

i am losing weight still and it seems to be a good change esp bc i go to the gym more often than not and my job is pretty active anyway so i’m burning a good amount of calories to combat what i’m eating

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the way i actually want to un*aliv* lately l o l

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broke into the 160’s and that is a number i haven’t seen in a looooong time. my jeans are starting to get so baggy and people are commenting that i look like i lost weight.

it’s working.

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tag urself <3 part 2

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it’s so fuckijg annoying bc i don’t want to have an eating disorder like i truly don’t but it fucking works for me when i eat significantly less than i’m supposed to. like fuck.

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171.6 today! my last weight in i was 174.3 so yay me

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Sorry if I spam-like your shit. It just mean ily

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a reminder to u all 🥐🤍

[sadhungrycoffeegal]

i have so many (tw) ed related thoughts but i live in such a weird mix of healthy/unhealthy tendencies

i still am obsessed with scrolling through the scary parts of tumblr but pls nobody look to me for advice or copy what i do. i’m trying to find a balance of eating healthy/working out without over doing either one like i have in the past

sw: 190

cw: 169.8 (updating daily)

i would like to lose at least 40lbs but undetermined goal weight

please block instead of reporting. ty.

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got back to the gym today. so excited actually. literally just did the treadmill for 30 minutes but just getting there get so good. my anxiety has just been fucking crazy lately so it was hard to get in there

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having seen and tried a plethora of so called "pr*ana tips" since i was twelve, i really want younger people new to this community to understand that this will not stop if you keep things up. you can't supplement, hydrate, caffeniate, or medicate your way out of this forever. you can find temporary relief in electrolyte waters, energy drinks, and low calorie soups to make you feel full, but it's just that. temporary. fatigue, pain, exhaustion, irritability, nausea, constipation, and many more issues, some life threatening, are brought on by restriction. the only way to reduce these symptoms in the long run is to eat when you are hungry and stop when you are full.

"recover or die" doesn't just apply to underweight people btw. this is dangerous and painful, and it will never be worth it, no matter how much the ed voice tries to tell you it is.

you deserve better than whoever or whatever made you feel like you don't deserve to eat. recover for you, recover so you can enjoy a meal with your family. recover so you can get ice cream with friends without having a breakdown. recover so you can walk around a mall and pay attention to the shops you want to look at instead of how many calories you've burned.

if someone had said all this to me five years ago, i wouldn't be where i am now. it's hell, and i beg you to get out while you still can. if anyone doesn't take you seriously, fuck them. fight back, don't let them shut you down because you are worthy of recovery.

be safe. i know it's hard, but i know you have it in you. 🖤

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hi.

lunch: split a sandwich with my coworker today for lunch, had 4oz of pasta salad

snack: 2 rice cakes with jalapeño hummus

dinner: probs gonna pick the chicken out of a caesar salad and half a Gatorade zero maybe another rice cake with hummus

burned almost 700 calories probably closer to 800 by the end of the day.

not mad.

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y’all i eat too much but i’m just SO BORED i wake up at 6:30am every day and i’m by myself until like 5pm like what the fuck else am i supposed to do besides eat my silly little snacks and smoke my silly little weed and try not to want to be dead lol

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i’m so annoyed my other account got termed and i don’t even post anything bad…… literally fuck off

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me pretending my eatinf disorder doesnt exist to make me less depressed 😊🤯😼😹🧠😜

then i have a meltdown after getting bloated from drinking water ☠️☠️☠️💀💀💀🪦🪦

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ok hi my other account got termed so i’m back to this one. sad ab that ugh