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So I just came home to my mom, who handed me a drug test, and then shoved my weed and bowl in my face. I didn’t even care, it honestly just pissed me off that she went into my bedroom. She also took back the 90$ for my trip to New York she had just given me.
She said she is idsappnted, and I still don’t care. I’m kind of laughing. This isn’t a big deal. I’ve always been a good kid; never drank or really smoked. I lasted until my senior year without smoking. I am proud of that. I smoked barley 5 times. I don’t even think I smoke right! So I’m not mad or upset. I’m living life, going through stuff, and experiementing, and in ten years at the dinner table, we are gonna joke about this.
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Where are we, now?
I think I love the city more than anything. I mean, especially when it comes to choosing a college. I have so many good options, but it doesn’t seem like they are good enough for me. I’m always wanting more, and it’s starting to occur to me that that is a prominent theme in my life. I can, and do, for the most part, get anything I want. I’m not saying that in a way that makes me come off as spoiled or anything. I work and I work hard. But everything I purchase it’s not basic. For example, Hulu. I can’t have the basic account, I have to have the most expensive account. And the gym I belong to, I pay for the most expensive membership, and don't even use all the exclusive features, But I am accepted into good schools, but I want more. I want USC or NYU, and apart of me tells me I shouldn’t stop, and I should do everything I can do get there, but another part tells me that I should appreciate what I've done in high school, and go to one of these schools. But Is that following my heart? Is that following my dreams? Because that all I talk about and that’s all the advice I give others, but I don’t think I’m following it myself. To go to these “dream” schools, I would have to go to Community College, and that’s not what I want. I want to go somewhere where I can be heavily involved in activities and programs, where I have great friends and somewhere, most importantly, I can be 100% who I am. Because I’m not here-and that is defiantly holding me back. So I mediate, pray, and ask for God to Guide me. I know he does, I know he walks hand in foot with me, because he has been prominent and shown himself in my life before, and I can’t express my gratitude for that. I know that there are no wrong decisions, but whatever I choose has a custom path that I was supposed to take.
But it is scary... and instead of being here, scared, I’m looking over it with a positive view. Because this makes me feel alive. It makes me feel like I have endless possibilities, and that I have a successful future in anything I do.
#God#Help me#College decision#College#Follow your dream#Follow your heart#You have a path#You have a purpose#You have a future
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