rainbowmakesablog

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i never want another person to tell me everything is fine again and yes that’s dramatic but i’m not stable enough for this

#my cat is dying and so am i

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recently my thoughts have been spiraling again, it’s been another 2 years since i posted anything but i’m doing bad. i have friends, but i feel so alone and isolated. i’m doing it to myself, because why would they wanna be near someone so depressed? i don’t want to be honest about it, but i don’t want to be here anymore. i don’t want to feel my emotions as heavily as i do. i don’t want to lash out on those close to me anymore.

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Life is weird.

I rarely go on social media and I’ve very much distanced myself from a lot of my old friends. It’s one of those things I didn’t really notice until recently when I really only talk to a handful of people anymore. And at this point I’m too afraid to ask people how they’re doing? Like such a small thing but I feel like I’ll be hated for it.

If you see this, how are you doing?

#personal

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Hey bitches your favorite hoe is back and better than ever

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Hi it’s been a long time since I’ve posted

I’m alive, I’m doing very well, and I’m questioning my identity?

I don’t really know, I cut all my hair off and it feels like I finally look like myself, but I’m very on the line of questioning myself and everything I’ve know about myself. I don’t know.

#personal

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Hi my mental health is going down the drain but I have a doctors appointment Thursday so hopefully they can refer me to a therapist/psychiatrist 🙃

#personal

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My boyfriend is suddenly violently ill and I feel not great but I’m trying to shove my not great aside to take care of him

I can’t tell him that i plan on sleeping on the couch because I don’t wanna make him feel bad but if I hear him puke I will puke

And on top of that I have to go to work tomorrow unless I catch whatever he has by the morning (our roommate had it Friday so 🤷🏻‍♀️)

#personal

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MY HEAD FUCKING HURTS

Im a cranky ass hoe right now because I’m hungry and my head hurts and my nap sucked and I was supposed to get today and tomorrow off but no I don’t get two days with my boyfriend I get two slightly half days to spend with him after practically not seeing him for four thanks to our schedules being completely off from eachothers.

And today, when I’m off, he opened so now he’s home napping and I don’t even get to spend time with him

#im cranky #personal

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You ever just take a nap so you can feel well rested and happy only to wake up crusty and with your head pounding and no urge to move besides trying not to cry?

#personal

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Guess who’s about to get FUCKED up

My boyfriend’s friend is an instigator and got me a four loko so rip me see you in the next dimension

#personal

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The worst part is that it was yummy and I want more

I had a mimosa at brunch at reminded myslef that I am a lightweight and I get drurnk easily

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I had a mimosa at brunch at reminded myslef that I am a lightweight and I get drurnk easily

#personal #probably not a good idea with a migriane

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Make that three days of my migraine and two of battling my head

#personal

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ma’am???

I had to read that last sentence three times

“the school District was ONLY desegregated in 2017.” Just 2 years ago?!

I’m so sick of this. She better win her lawsuit.

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Day two of a migraine and I just want to hide under blankets and cry

#personal

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Did my makeup for no good reason 💕

Ft. Me looking hello emo

#my face #personal #colored hair #makeup #yet another hair color #me

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I would absofuckinglutely love it if I could sleep through one goddamn night

#personal