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reminder that NPD and ASPD aren't "bad person disorder" and you shouldn't be dicks to random people because you think you're somehow superior for not being traumatized as a kid in a way that developed that way

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Autistic spaces are getting so much more hostile towards people with low empathy, and it sucks

There was a subreddit I really liked, people were chill, and then there was a sudden influx of people making posts like ‘Autistic people have empathy! Saying we don’t makes us seem like monsters! Thats not a symptom!’ And people making posts explaining that no, actually, some of us do have low empathy got attacked and told they were wrong or ableist? And it sucks, because its just so hard to find a place to exist where you can be seen as not evil? I don’t know, it just hurts a lot to be told that

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A lot of people push going low contact/no contact with family who aren’t great for your mental health. And I just want you to know that if you aren’t ready for that, it’s okay. You still don’t deserve to be struggling. 

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am I your sexiest psychiatric patient be honest

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Honestly you can weed out 90% of the worst self identified leftists if you just ask them their opinions on indigenous sovereignty, sex work, trans women, and anti-imperialism.

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!!!

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the double image, anne sexton from the complete poems written c. 1960

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the idea of fame is like the greatest tragedy, the human soul was never meant to be consumed & the old stories warned us about what demons eat. anyways

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relistened to parade day and can confirm this line still hits

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just csa/cocsa things 🙃

having your therapist let you know you were, in fact, abused

being afraid to tell other people about that abuse in case they judge you (even though you know intellectually you were a child and it was not your fault)

feeling like an attention seeker whenever you hear about trauma “worse” than yours

constantly being simultaneously afraid of middle aged men and starving for their attention and validation

messaging random men for “body rates” in middle and high school (sometimes elementary school)

dreading turning 18

your friends telling you years later that your hyper sexuality disturbed them but they didn’t want to make you sad

suicidal and no clue why

suicidal with extensive reasons why

feeling absolutely unlovable and feeling like you’ve been ruined before you even got to have a real life

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why did she have to suffer alone?

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The 20 year old child in me pleads “Protect me, please. Make me feel safe. I just want to be worthy of empathy, kindness and protection.”

The 11 year old adult in me explains “We can only depend on ourselves for protection & safety. Others are not to be trusted. The way to survive in this world is to be self-reliant.”

We have not found a compromise yet.