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Everytime I see pictures of England it’s always so beautiful. Makes me envy the people who get to wake up every day and see that every day.

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I finally did it. I lost feelings for him completely. We don’t even make eye contact anymore because I stopped looking at him. Sometimes I still catch him looking at me but I don’t care anymore.

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I used to have a crush on this guy and it angers me now to see him friends with another girl. I have to keep telling myself bad things about him in order to get over him. I wish it was that easy man. I rarely ever have a crush on someone and the one time I do he finds out and says he’s “not looking for a relationship”. Makes me sick how he lied to make me feel better. I understand you didn’t want me to feel bad but don’t say that and then say your talking to this other girl. Im glad I’m moving on but I see this guy every day and we’re always making eye contact. It’a mostly my fault. Ima just forget he exists. In my mind that’s the only way I’m going to get over him.

#mini rant #venting

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I can’t wait to be able to drive. I’ll drive far away and never come back here again.

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Random Vent:

sometimes I have these realization moments that really shows me how lonely I truly am. My own family treats me like a charity case and the other half only cares about me behind the scenes . They’re too embarrassed to show some form of compassion in front of others so they act as if they don’t care. Maybe they don’t care and I just want to believe they do because I care. I care a lot about my family members and to know that they don’t feel the same way because they’re too embarrassed to care is heartbreaking.

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school sucks but I’d rather be there than at home. they treat you like trash and justify it by calling it tough love and life preparation. punching your children and screaming at them is not “life preparation” it’s just straight up abuse.

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I always listen to this song in the morning or when I’m reading.

#SoundCloud

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Sometimes I wish I could just be alone. No friends or anyone. I could go anywhere and not get caught because I won’t have an entourage behind me. I could listen to my music and not be put into awkward situations. It’d just make life so much easier.

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I wish it would snow where I live. I can only remember one time it snowed and it was horrible. since my city isn’t used to snow we weren’t prepared at all. I was trapped inside for a week I think. it wasn’t that bad until my phone died and I couldn’t charge it. I did get to play in the snow which was pretty fun but other than that I was bored out of my mind the entire snow in.

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this school is like a prison. every day is so repetitive here.