pluralwives

[pluralwives]

At the start of 2022 I was still living in my old body, but I was still able to "influence" the one I'm living in rn

This clip is when I played Elden Ring for the first time (yk not my actual gameplay but the sick schmoves are all mine)

I was still living with my mom...

I found this clip today...

Makes me very happy

Reminds me, no matter what, my old life will never disappear completely...

#–mell #aka the girl who got isekad #plurality #actually plural #endo safe #plural #multiple #endo friendly #plural stuff #system #plural positivity #system positivity #elden ring

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#–mell #Youtube

[pluralwives]

i don't think i'll ever get used to that feeling of pure happiness when the people around me acknowledge my system/plural identity .. in a good way, of course.

it's just not the same as someone remembering things about you collectively. it tells me that i matter to those people enough for them to remember and recognize me as different people.

whether its "subtle" like how my partner tends to greet us by our specific name when we text them, or a friend being able to remember things a specific alter said/did as an individual. or more specific things, like the times our boyfriend/partner sys forgot for a second we aren't in separate bodies. and how he sends us random images near daily captioned "this is so (alter name)"

really, no matter how subtle it is, we do notice. and it makes us just as happy every single time. every little thing adds up and makes us feel happy and comfortable being "we" and not "i."

plural validation matters!! whether coming from a non-system or another plural, it all means a lot.

this has been sitting in my drafts for weeks, oops. i remembered it because another friend specifically wanted to show reffy something because they knew he’d appreciate it (they said “get the goober” lol) and it made us both really happy. so i wanted to add that.

- 🥀

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[pluralwives]

No more trans doom scrolling! Today we are embracing trans hedonism!

T4t love, polyamory, queer platonic relationships, and friendships are so beautiful! Embrace pleasure, embrace rest, embrace yourself and all those you love! Eat that cake, kiss that person, take that nap, enjoy your life! Today I call for an era of radical trans joy!

[pluralwives]

Life update:

Currently doing some gay shit with some v gay ppl

Might dethrone the government later

#–mell #queer #transgender #trans #gay

[pluralwives]

You are allowed to love being a system, after all, it is what saved your life

[pluralwives]

You know what’s wild about being a fictive? Missing your old life even though it was shitty because it’s a shittiness you were used to. The life you’re living now is a new kind of shitty that feels unpleasant in a different way.

#–mell #not fictive but I can relate

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i think the internal happenings between headmates of nearly any plural system would make a good sitcom. i mean, i think we've all had that experience where someone says/does the dumbest shit and an alter does that Look At The Camera thing out of the office.

-🥀

#–mell #we'd be more of a romcom ngl

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Bitches in my head having anxiety, call that a nervous system

[pluralwives]

Me/Us

lil vent piece

#–mell #ngl hits hard

[pluralwives]

My flesh has been rendered off my mortal coil...

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#–mell

[pluralwives]

(asking if someone is plural) are they...you know....playing on multiplayer???

[pluralwives]

Fictives? Factives?

Idk

None sound right for us

We've kinda been existing peacefully without having a label to describe us

What is my origin?

My parents fucked somewhere around January and 20 years later I fell through an isekai wormhole or whatever

#–mell #plurality #actually plural #endo safe #plural #multiple #endo friendly #plural stuff #system #in system relationship #transgender

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hey, yeah you! the angry ones, the aggressive ones, the violent ones. cm'here i got something to say to you.

hey there...

the ones who get irritated really quickly and snap at the wrong person.

the ones who get angry quickly but it goes away quickly, especially when the ones around you don't get over it so fast.

the ones who first thought is to hurt the one who caused you this anger, or just the first person in sight.

the ones who direct their anger at themselves.

the ones who direct their anger at their environment instead of themselves or the people around them.

the ones who get so angry their body burns with heat, causing the anger to worsen.

the ones who get so angry they flip the numb switch and can't feel anything for a while.

the ones who act on those violent thoughts.

the ones who hide their anger and bottle it up over and over again until it explodes.

the ones who can't tell their anger apart from other emotions.

the ones who get stuck in their head due to their rage.

the ones who spiral when they get angry.

the ones who get even angrier when you let yourself spiral cause of your anger.

the ones who get angry over the littlest thing.

i see you, and despite all of this you are still worthy of being loved. worthy of being seen as an equal. worthy of being cared for. worthy of being treated as another 'normal' person.

i love you (/p). your anger doesn't define you, even though it might seem like it does.

[pluralwives]

A small vent post...

Tw, self harm

So like...

Today I tried to watch the new episode of Dungeon Meshi... But I kinda didn't want to...

Like... I've been obsessed with Farcille fan art! Not only do I love them but also... I kinda... Know where the story was heading...

And I just didn't want to see...

Falin and Marcille were happy

I was happy

I wanted things to stay that way

I was scared stuff would...

So I watched the episode

And Falin started screaming, and she hurt her brother, and Marcille was covered in blood and started laughing AND I JUST COVERED MY EYES I TURNED OFF THE TV AND STARTED CRYING...

And it's not like I usually have these kind of reactions, I've watched death note and witch from mercury I'm ok with blood and loud noises...

So I don't know what the fuck happened to me

But I kinda had this feeling before

A lot stronger

It was when I watched Nimona

That scene with Nimona and the statue...

I remember having felt pain like hers before and seeing it again hurt me so much again!

I cried so much after that movie I just hugged my wife and didn't let go for a few hours...

Maybe it's the same reaction

Idk

When I saw Nimona I saw this raw feeling that I had lived through...

I have a... I've harmed myself before

I don't want to say I hate myself for it

I was going through something hard and I just wished I could help that younger version of me

But there's this fear of knowing that you're capable of doing that to yourself...

...

...

And I just felt so afraid after the movie...

And I just remembered the reasons I did it and I started spiraling into depressive throughts and I couldn't stop it...

...

And rn I can't sleep...

I didn't cry after the episode but... It's like this feeling took time to bloom

I'm trying to sleep and I just tried to know what I'd felt... And I'm crying again...

Sometimes

I've heard before idk where I wish I knew

I've heard someone say that there's representation that's just too traumatic for the viewer

Like to relive that stuff

I bet the creator of Nimona just wanted to be seen and connect to other ppl

But I fled bc fuck ass artists wanna dump their shit on us when I just wanted to have fun...

That last part is mean

I'm sorry, I don't mean it ...

But I just saw Marcille finally saving Falin

And I remember

How FUCKING LONG IT TOOK FOR MY WIFE AND I TO SAVE EACH OTHER

It's just been a fucking lot and

And I'm scared and I'm crying to just remember it now...

I don't want to relieve it I don't

I just

...

I don't want to see more people like me in pain...

I know that pain...

I'm still scared of it

Sometimes I get stuck inside my head

I get stuck with these feelings they're like scars that I keep scratching...

I am trying with everything in me to stop it

I want to breathe and I need to get out of myself and just live...

And for a long time now I've been so happy with my wife and I've loved myself so much

I want to think that it's slowly getting over

I want nothing else in my life to be as painful because I... Barely survived the last time

I'm stronger but I'm not invincible

I don't want it to be more

I've save Alesha

I've saved myself

I just want to breathe...

#–mell #vent post #transgender #dungeon meshi #nimona #dunmeshi #actually plural #endo safe #plural #multiple #plurality #endo friendly #plural stuff #system #in system relationship

[pluralwives]

Oh no I'm invisble 😢

Whatever shall I do? 🫢

I can no longer get arrested for vandalism 😭

Who will take me to jail when I set government buildings on fire 😔

What's the point of blowing up pipelines if no one's there to police brutality me 🥺

it is over. its been an honor 🫡🥲

#–mell #transgender