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some incoherent thoughts on love, and hye-jin and du-sik

it’s there, isn’t it? or at least something like it, drifting beneath them like an undercurrent, a slipstream.

it’s how du-sik always notices when hye-jin enters or leaves a room. it’s how hye-jin knows he’s about to cry from a look. it’s how they sit at dinner, close, sleeves brushing, but not quite touching. it’s how hye-jin is half-turned to him in every scene, how du-sik is so aware of her anytime she’s near. it’s how she notices he’s hurt, how she notices he’s sick, how she turns to watch him walk away. it’s how he sees mi-seon at the set and then immediately looks around for hye-jin. oh, you’re going for drinks, for lunch? let me join you. never mind that i said i didn’t want to, that was before i knew you would be there.

it’s how their interactions must be casual, otherwise they have to give it weight, give it meaning. i’m going to call you a rhino when you bump into me, because otherwise i’ll have to think about how it felt to have you close. i’m going to bicker and laugh at you while our hands touch, otherwise i’ll have to look at you and i can’t do that. it’s the way the camera doesn’t linger every time they touch but only when it matters, only when they can no longer pretend that it doesn’t. your hands on my face; you leaning in to kiss me; you holding me while i cry, when i’m frightened.

it’s how they linger here, in this halfway place between love and indifference. when i nearly kiss you, i’m going to hit my head and call myself crazy. when i stare at you in the store, i’m going to shake my head and tell myself to get a grip. i’m going to call this anything other than what it is. this is not love; it’s just kindness or attention, and i don’t care that they all mean the same thing. just don’t make me call it love.

it’s how i can’t even fit it all in here, because otherwise i’d be talking about every second they look at each other. because isn’t that what love is? not something bright and blinding, but a constant, steady attention?

but mostly, i think it’s about how du-sik finishes the porridge when it’s hard to eat, how hye-jin finishes the tea when it’s hard to drink. i’m going to complain the entire time but i’m still going to do it, because you gave it to me. because it’s you.

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A COMPROMISE

100 Thousand Reblogs and I will let Dark and Wilford live.

Anything less and they’re dead FOREVER.

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A COMPROMISE

100 Thousand Reblogs and I will let Dark and Wilford live.

Anything less and they’re dead FOREVER.

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For those of you with anxiety

here’s a website that translates the time into hexidecimal colours,

here is a website where you can create your own galaxies

here is a website where you can play flow

here you can interact with organisms in different environments to see how to music changes

here you can play silk which is an interactive generative art designing website.

Here is a website where you can travel along a 3D line into the infinite unkown

here is a website where you can listen to rain with or without music

[pixlymarie]

Quick message for Jack

Jack!! We believe in you as well. We are proud of you. We love you. This relationship between you and your fans isn't a one way street. Every feeling you have regarding us (gratitude, love, appreciation) is one we give you back.

Don't ever worry about disappointing us. Even if you start projects and don't finish them or if you don't start working on them because it's too scary.

We love you. We know you're human. And human beings aren't perfect, you know? You did so much for us. We couldn't be dissapointed about such a small thing.

@therealjacksepticeye

#jacksepticeye #therealjacksepticeye #youtube

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@therealjacksepticeye I just finished your gameplay of far from noise. It moved me so much, I just had to share my thoughts and thought there might be a higher chance of you seeing it when I add a drawn picture haha. I know this isn't great but I am by no means good at art, didn't have much time and wanted to do something simple cause any other thing wouldn't have fitted the game. So I drew Jack going away from the cliff at the time he started YouTube. Realizing he didn't just fail. He isn't uncreative or not smart enough. This when life welcomed him to what would make him happy.

I really loved the video. And that sentence doesn't nearly show how much it meant to me. I've been through a lot this past year. Which sounds stupid of a 15 year old to say but panic attacks, anxiety and depression made me feel like I was at the end of my life. Like I was in this car. I still think that sometimes because things seem to get worse every time I feel a little better.

And videos like this are exactly the thing showing me it does get better. Jack. I wouldn't be where I am now without you. I started crying after this video and after hearing what you said in it. I won't forget any of the things you said. But what moved me the most is you believing in us.

You mean that. You also mean every one of us. Not just in general. No. You mean me. This girl in Germany now knowing it will change. You believe in me getting better. So I will keep on fighting. Thank you for being there Jack. Seriously

Don't forget we're there for you as well

#jacksepticeye #therealjacksepticeye #youtube #far from noise #game #let's play

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Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

The original post only has US helplines. I've added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.

Depression Hotline: [phone]

Suicide Hotline: [phone]

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: [phone]

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected]

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected]

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 [email protected]

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected]

b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected]

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected]

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: [phone]

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7

suicide hotlines;

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

Canada: 1-800-448-3000

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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Posting this on my normal account as well lol

I decided to imagine the egos in their Halloween costumes. Jackieboy man would obviously go as spiderman. He’d probably be too late to the stores so all of thr spider man costumes are sold out and he has to sew blue patched and a spider to his suit haha. Schneep was a bit harder. Then I remembered that we sometimes call doctors “die Götter in Weiß” in Germany. Meaning the gods in white. And I was like.. that’s something Schneep would call himself. So he’d dress up as a doctor basically, tell everyone he’s a god in white and afterwards after he impressed everybody he’d tell ‘em that he is in fact a doctor haha. I did both of them with modelling clay cause that’s a thing I’m at least a bit better at than drawing. I hope @therealjacksepticeye sees this and likes it as much as I do. (At least Jackieboyman, coulda done Schneep a bit better)

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I decided to imagine the egos in their Halloween costumes. Jackieboy man would obviously go as spiderman. He'd probably be too late to the stores so all of thr spider man costumes are sold out and he has to sew blue patched and a spider to his suit haha. Schneep was a bit harder. Then I remembered that we sometimes call doctors "die Götter in Weiß" in Germany. Meaning the gods in white. And I was like.. that's something Schneep would call himself. So he'd dress up as a doctor basically, tell everyone he's a god in white and afterwards after he impressed everybody he'd tell 'em that he is in fact a doctor haha. I did both of them with modelling clay cause that's a thing I'm at least a bit better at than drawing. I hope @therealjacksepticeye sees this and likes it as much as I do. (At least Jackieboyman, coulda done Schneep a bit better)

#inktober #septicart #septicartinktober #jacksepticeye #jackieboy man #doctor schneeplestein #youtube

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Unanswered questions

So.. I'm just gonna put out what I got here. It might be wrong or messy, but I wanna participate as well.

In this chapter we see a lot of things. "Damien" and Celine both going in this different world. Why and how? I assume after we've been through this session with her, both of them stay inside, trying to summon demons as well. It doesn't seem to be the first time this happened, since the gardener said something like this already happened being the only thing that would get him to go back to the house. Before this video appeared I would have said Damien offered to let demons inside of him to protect Celine but now? Damien said Mark took their everything and his body. So is the person having a session with Celine Mark?

Another thing I found interesting is how Mark was on the floor when we got inside this weird world. He looked like Dark did in Mark's previous videos. But how when Dark was just about to be created?

I loved the way the hand twitched from Celine to Damien. This could mean multiple things. Either way it's just that Damien and Celine both mixed in Dark. But it could also mean Damien took over himself. And the anger inside of him, that Mark took his body and so many more things is the thing leading him now.

The colonel took the wife of his best friend. Who is his best friend? What did he do with his wife?

And who killed Markiplier. The final question. It seems like it was the colonel since you could see he was relieved when he saw he got back to life. But how could Mark have stole his body then?

I have so many unanswered questions. If you know the answer to any of these please tell me, so we can discuss this amazing thing together.

#who killed markiplier #markiplier #youtube

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I'm so proud of teamiplier

So, I am in complete shock after #whokilledMarkiplier. I still haven't gotten anything and will have to go through a lot of theories but my god. This was great. I am still so moved by it.

I just wanted to quickly point out how good this actually was. We all are caught up figuring out the story right now but let's take a look at all the things behind it.

The music fitted these videos perfectly, always giving it the right vibe. Making it more emotional, scary, weird, full of tense.

The editing in this was on point. I've rarely seen anything edited that good. The moment when it all went green had me in shock on how beautiful and perfect it was. The effects of blue and red always used perfectly. Never obnoxious or too much.

The acting. Oh my lord don't get me started. It was good throughout the whole series but the last bit... I could feel Dark's look in the mirror all in my body.

Just looking at this makes me feel it again. The eyes. The hurt and hate inside of him (them?) The way the hand twitched from the seer to Damien. The colonel going mad in happiness he didn't kill, thinking he is never going to kill anyone because we came back to life.

The script. I think we all know how incredible and clever it was. It stands for it's own.

The idea. How do you come up with filming the backstory of two ego' s disguised as a detective story. How it slowly went from that to the point of both of them evolving to what they are now.

Teamiplier. You did it again. You amazed all of us and created another thing we can proudly bond over, leaving us here with our emotion. I can't wait for you guys to talk about all of this, going into this mode of you guys where all we see is the passion in your eyes. You should be proud. We all surely are. Thank you

@markiplier @whokilledmarkiplier @crankgameplays

#markiplier #who killed markiplier #youtube

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@markiplier @crankgameplays I'd highly appreciate it if you could retweet this because I really need help. I am going to the you're welcome tour in Febuary in Berlin, at least I hope so. Bought the VIP tickets and all, but I have nobody to go with. And I am highly afraid of traveling by trains and busses etc. I mostly get panic attacks in them so going on my own really wouldn't be a good idea.. My mental health at the moment isn't the best but I'll do everything I can to get over my anxiety problems to be able to see the tour. But I am it would be so much easier if I had someone to go with. So if anyone lives near Leipzig and would travel to Berlin with me, I'd be so grateful. If yes, please dm me. And please retweet, I really need someone to go with, I am really scared I might be too afraid of panic attacks in the bus/train and in the venue on my own. Every retweet could lead to someone near me seeing this.

#markipliergram #Markiplier #you're welcome tour #ethan nestor #crankgameplays #mark fischbach #Youtube #help #leipzig #sachsen #Germany #deutschland #lordminion777 #muyskerm

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PSA: Charity Stream for Joyful Heart Foundation THIS THURSDAY

Hi community! @markiplier’s charity campaign for Joyful Heart Foundation is currently running, but only 7k of 60k has been raised so far, of which 5k donated by Mark himself. Campaign only runs till August 31st, so on that day, since Mark won’t do a stream (which I get why and understand is not out of ill intent, thanks a bunch to him for doing a campaign for this cause), I’m going to do one hoping some people show up and so we can add some more donations to that number. You can donate to the charity here: https://tiltify.com/events/markipliers-august-charity-livestream-joyful-heart-foundation And if you wanna help out more, come to the stream and share it around. Will be Thursday 31 August, 1-7pm EST, on this channel: https://www.youtube.com/AmeliaJane

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Thanks to Robin for the editing

@pixlpit you edited this video so amazingly! Like the transitions whenever one of the characters "felt sick" or the part where it led from Dr. Schneeplestein to Anti. The editing also looked so different! So many new effects, yet it still looked a lot like the previous videos. It was so well done, thank you! @therealjacksepticeye

#pixlpit #youtube #editing #jacksepticeye #antisepticeye #sean william mcloughlin

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Maaaaark Your art was so good Like actually If I could, I would buy like half of the drawings you made in passpartout. God do I wish I could buy some @markiplier

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I literally can't stop laughing at thia